Issue 3 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 3 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 3 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
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CLEOPATRA MATHIS<br />
Journey in the Snow Season<br />
l.<br />
They are trying to make you safe<br />
in the white bed, in the white room.<br />
Heart, you think, webbed pattern<br />
<strong>of</strong> crosses, how the flesh performs<br />
its good rituals. But nothing stops this blood<br />
from flowing: again it passes<br />
the s<strong>of</strong>t packets <strong>of</strong> tissue. Painless<br />
you begin to say, though the gripped circle<br />
<strong>of</strong> your waist is wrung <strong>and</strong> wrung.<br />
2.<br />
You have been looking at your h<strong>and</strong>s.<br />
They have become guests, removed <strong>and</strong> private.<br />
You can't explain your life.<br />
You only think <strong>of</strong> the ducks fluttering in the park<br />
late at night, across from your own room,<br />
the scream <strong>of</strong> the peacocks. You remember<br />
one night the reindeer in their pen charged<br />
<strong>and</strong> shook their antlers against the ice<br />
as if it were spring. Taking lettuce, you found<br />
two wild rabbits by the road. They let you feed them<br />
<strong>and</strong> afterward, put their noses to your h<strong>and</strong>.<br />
Over <strong>and</strong> over, you've watched the animals<br />
live out their lives. The earth takes in water<br />
or blood, indifferent to whatever falls.<br />
In the spring the grass comes back thick <strong>and</strong> green.<br />
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3.<br />
You have loved your body for the wrong reasons.<br />
How capable it is, <strong>and</strong> vain: it loves to walk<br />
<strong>and</strong> lie down. Imagine the tiny roads<br />
drawing into the heart; a house<br />
visible through thin ribbed trees,<br />
those intricate lines covered, as if by sleep.<br />
When the snow begins, you are resting in that net<br />
<strong>of</strong> branches. By now the deer will be perfectly still,<br />
their noses lifted in the first snow.<br />
You can see the white moon<br />
over the clean white l<strong>and</strong>. A veil <strong>of</strong> snow slides<br />
from a branch; the particles <strong>of</strong> light fly out<br />
<strong>and</strong> disappear. When the snow has left that simple<br />
quiet,<br />
sometimes a yearling will raise its stumpy antlers<br />
<strong>and</strong> begin to dance, stirring the others<br />
to rise <strong>and</strong> race across the pond. Furious,<br />
they shake their heads, leaping at one another.<br />
In the morning blood glistens on the ice.<br />
Again this fall <strong>of</strong> cell <strong>and</strong> nerve<br />
says nothing will last;<br />
the young bones change <strong>and</strong> lie down.<br />
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