Issue 3 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 3 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 3 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
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silhouette on the historical balcony. Around her, lying<br />
in bed at night, clean & cool & comfortable, while her<br />
poor invalid old mother was slowly dying <strong>of</strong> malnutrition<br />
in a lopsided bed in a run-down boarding house.<br />
She had felt them begrudge her the quart <strong>of</strong> milk<br />
they'd see her buy at the grocer's, the blond stem <strong>of</strong><br />
Cuban bread. Their eyes boring holes into her back,<br />
until she'd turned the corner, into her street. Their<br />
pointed mouths hissing what a disgraceful daughter she<br />
was.<br />
Was it her fear that had planted the thought <strong>of</strong><br />
persecution into these people's heads?<br />
Where it had been translated into: Retribution—<br />
Justice—before it crystallized into action, when she accepted<br />
the shovel. Which had given the signal for the<br />
chase.<br />
Not a real chase. A slow-motion chase. More like a<br />
procession. Which might easily have turned into a real<br />
chase, however, had she turned around & started to<br />
run. Instead <strong>of</strong> continuing to walk slowly backwards<br />
back back back groping for the curbs with her heels<br />
before stepping up or down to make sure she<br />
wouldn't stumble. & fall, God forbid, which might have<br />
been the signal for them to fall upon her, & maybe<br />
trample her to death.<br />
Slowly slowly she had backed away from the<br />
steadily advancing procession <strong>of</strong> eyes. Eyes that looked<br />
black with accusation. Into which she had bored her<br />
eyes staring back at them, hoping to keep them at the<br />
same distance, with her eyes. —Her heart hammering<br />
in her ears. It was still hammering in her ears, with the<br />
methodical sound <strong>of</strong> nails being driven into wood.—<br />
While they drove her back back back through<br />
endless sun-parched streets with loose stones between<br />
parched patches <strong>of</strong> weeds back—back—back<br />
toward the door <strong>of</strong> her little house.<br />
Into which she was able to slip, thank God, because<br />
she had left her door unlocked when she left for the<br />
cemetery.<br />
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They all left their doors unlocked, in this small<br />
southern town. Which was inhabited by honest lawabiding<br />
citizens. With a keen sense <strong>of</strong> justice.<br />
Into whose steadily advancing faces she had quickly<br />
shut her door. & locked it. As soundlessly as she<br />
could, for fear <strong>of</strong> <strong>of</strong>fending their honesty with the click<br />
<strong>of</strong> her latch.<br />
It couldn't be later than 1/4 to 6. Her mother's funeral<br />
had been set for 4:30. It had started late, but the<br />
sermon had been brief. & she lived only two short<br />
blocks from the cemetery. The interminable backward<br />
walk had lasted at most 5 minutes. They would go<br />
home now, she hoped. & leave her alone.<br />
She hadn't expected to see so many people that<br />
so many people knew her mother, who hadn't left her<br />
bed in almost three years. She had expected to be alone<br />
at the grave, with the old wino. & perhaps the social<br />
worker.<br />
Perhaps she ought to pack a suitcase & go to Egypt<br />
after all. For a month or so, to give these people time to<br />
come to their senses. After they found out the truth.<br />
Which the social worker might feel compelled to tell<br />
them, when she was told what they had done to her<br />
after the funeral. Were still planning to do to her,<br />
perhaps.<br />
If the social worker knew the truth. If she hadn't<br />
been one <strong>of</strong> the black pairs <strong>of</strong> accusing eyes in the procession,<br />
if the social worker had gone to the funeral.<br />
Of course the social worker had gone to the funeral.<br />
The social worker had more <strong>of</strong> a right than anybody to<br />
go to the funeral. After taking care <strong>of</strong> the poor old<br />
woman for close to three years. Twice a week.<br />
It was the social worker who had peeled the poor<br />
old body from the filthy sheets. Nothing but skin &<br />
bones. Who had given the poor old body a good last<br />
bath. Spraying it with a nice-smelling lotion, before she<br />
put a decent clean gown around it. & cut the grey felt<br />
hair to pageboy length. & put a touch <strong>of</strong> rouge on the<br />
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