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the business, then, or buy a car for his son and daughter, take<br />
a trip, all possibilities. But that would end and he would sink<br />
back to his distant, disapproving self, still with the ability<br />
to shave arteries.<br />
No.<br />
He would not profit from long-term murder. He would not<br />
have blood money. Carl squeezed his eyes shut and groped for his<br />
soul, lost somewhere in the hard shell. It evaded his grasp.<br />
He almost sent the check to the Red Cross, where she had<br />
volunteered for most of those thirty-seven years, but stayed the<br />
pen. It would be dismissal, a single act throwing her and her<br />
shredded artery away. Insufficient. <strong>The</strong> artery needed repair.<br />
He sent it to the equity loan and paid the remaining<br />
$3472.16 a week later with the two invoices that came in from<br />
the Court House job. That was a good start. <strong>The</strong> equity loan had<br />
worried her. She would say to him, "Carl, is there any way we<br />
can send them a little extra?" Debt frightened her. She'd spent<br />
her childhood thrown out of one perfectly good house after<br />
another because of her Dad's gambling. Carl's Master<br />
Certificates for Interior Remodeling, Plumbing, and Electricity<br />
ensured she would never, ever be thrown out of another house in<br />
her life, especially because he was a sober, unimaginative man<br />
for whom gambling, or theater or dancing, were frivolities. She<br />
loved that, though. <strong>The</strong> safety.<br />
But safety is a relative term, and a high price to pay for<br />
things lost, and she never really felt safe, actually, because<br />
he didn't have her concerns. His Dad was a tile setter, too, and<br />
Carl grew up convinced debt was an instrument of business, a<br />
base for doing more. "<strong>The</strong>re's a new KD wet saw out," he<br />
announced and $3000 went against the house. "That new Dodge<br />
truck has more torque and can tow a bigger trailer," and there<br />
was $38,000, just after the equity had been paid down to about<br />
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