Vol. VI No. 1 - Modernist Magazines Project
Vol. VI No. 1 - Modernist Magazines Project
Vol. VI No. 1 - Modernist Magazines Project
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WHERE I DID BEGIN<br />
laughter and grabbing on to their breeches in case of accidents . . .<br />
and there she be. ... sitting at her open door as she sometimes did<br />
of a summer evening ... oh my girl, my girl ... it were only a bit<br />
of foolishness. You bain't going to wreck our lives for the sake of a mad<br />
prank? Don't 'ee do it, for God's love dont 'ee do it. . . ." Ritchie<br />
knelt and held Williker's hands, for the laughter had become a sobbing<br />
that shook the emaciated body and yet lacked the relief of tears. After<br />
the paroxysm had passed he dozed.<br />
"Is she still alive?" I asked.<br />
"Miss Cruttenden?" Oh yes. She lives in London."<br />
"And she never forgave him?"<br />
"<strong>No</strong>, never. And his life was ruined, and hers too, in a manner of<br />
speaking. She went on with the schooling until her rheumatics got<br />
too bad. She just withered and^got old, and liked gossip and such like<br />
little things."<br />
"May be," I suggested, "she would have liked to make friends<br />
again, but didn't know how to set about it. Often it's difficult to say<br />
the right word just at the moment that it should be said."<br />
"Yes. It so soon be too late."<br />
Ritchie got up to put her things on. "I must be getting down home<br />
now. Do you mind being left?"<br />
I assured her that I did not, which I think was true, but as I held<br />
the lamp so that she could see the uneven path to the little white gate<br />
I rather wished that she was not going. I had never actually met death<br />
before—not so closely. I made up the fire and turned down the lamp.<br />
Williker was breathing heavily. Sitting down again I fell to contemplating<br />
the stalwart beams that spanned the room, as I had done before<br />
in many an idle moment. Somehow to-night those familiar beams took<br />
on a new significance. They had supported the bed in which Williker's<br />
mother had laboured in his birth and here he was lying beneath them<br />
breathing his last. Those beams were in position when Shakespeare<br />
went home to die at Stratford; they were there when Holbein drew<br />
the Dance of Death. If ever any place was fraught with atmosphere<br />
that could reveal a ghost this old timber building was one, and as the<br />
still night crept on to the wheezing accompaniment of my grandfather<br />
clock I felt that something must surely happen—that I should see<br />
something. What I expected I cannot say. What I desired I do not<br />
know, unless it was some kind of spiritual compensation for Williker's<br />
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