Vol. VI No. 1 - Modernist Magazines Project
Vol. VI No. 1 - Modernist Magazines Project
Vol. VI No. 1 - Modernist Magazines Project
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A MOSAIC<br />
Well, I stood on the terrace and looked at the sea. Very soon, I heard<br />
steps behind me$ they stopped, and I glanced carelessly over my<br />
shoulder. We were quite alone, and I knew that, as usual, he was<br />
staring at me. I waited a moment, nothing happened, then I held out<br />
my hand. I felt him seize it and kiss it, then, before I could say anything,<br />
he dashed back into the hotel. I'm afraid I laughed, but the<br />
whole thing was so absurd. I waited a few minutes longer, but, as he did<br />
not reappear, I went back and joined my friends. He was nowhere to<br />
be seen.<br />
I wonder who frightens him the most5 I or his wife? We are so<br />
ridiculously cautious. What is the sense of dangling round his wife<br />
like a beaten dog and then, in a burst of desperate energy and courage,<br />
kissing my hand and flying back into the hotel, before he has seen<br />
what effect it had on me? I must, obviously, have invited him to do<br />
so for some reason. What does he expect me to do next? Say good<br />
morning, when I meet him in the hall? I shan't. All the same, I am<br />
glad now that there is something tangible between us, something that<br />
she doesn't know, and wouldn't like if she did. But the question is,<br />
how much does she know. She must be blind if she hasn't seen the way<br />
he looks at me and yet—Oh, I don't care—poor littlre man—but, my<br />
God, what a fool.<br />
Tuesday.<br />
Van de Voorde is alone ; his wife is either ill or away. His latest<br />
idea is to wait in the hall until I get in the lift, then race upstairs, meet<br />
me on my landing and stand and look at me until I get to my room.<br />
Last night, I caught him walking up and down outside my door; he<br />
gave me a long look as I came out, but never said a word. Is he dumb?<br />
I have decided to come down, to-night, for the ball the hotel is<br />
giving for the Mi-Careme. I talked about it to the head-waiter and<br />
asked him at what time it began. I spoke rather loudly, on purpose,<br />
and I think he heard. I shall be masked. Will he know me? I wonder<br />
how it will end.<br />
2 a.m.<br />
Has it ended? I don't know. But I will try and write down what<br />
happened.<br />
When I went to my room, to-night, to dress, I found a bunch of<br />
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