miracle of SANGHAADear Brothers, Sisters, and Friends,miracle took place at the One Buddha Is Not Enough retreat <strong>in</strong>Estes Park, Colorado. Each person at the retreat experienced thathe or she was surrounded by Thich Nhat Hanhs (Thays) and thathe or she was <strong>in</strong>deed also Thay. In fact, there were over one thousandThays practic<strong>in</strong>g deeply and joy<strong>full</strong>y together. <strong>The</strong> retreatcame to be affectionately known as “One Thay Is Not Enough.”It all started when Thay was unable to attend the retreat. Hewas diagnosed with a severe lung <strong>in</strong>fection while conduct<strong>in</strong>g aretreat at Stonehill College <strong>in</strong> Massachusetts, and he was admittedto Massachusetts General Hospital for a two-week course ofIV antibiotics. Seven monastic brothers and sisters stayed with10 W<strong>in</strong>ter/Spr<strong>in</strong>g 2010<strong>The</strong> Miracleof Sanghaphoto by David NelsonThay; the rest of us, over sixty people, went to the YMCA of theRockies to prepare for the retreat as it had been planned. It wasthe largest retreat that the monastics would conduct without Thay’sphysical presence.Even though the retreats on this teach<strong>in</strong>g tour were advertisedas led by both Thich Nhat Hanh and the Plum Village Sangha,all of the retreatants expected to be with Thay. <strong>The</strong> monasticbrothers and sisters had several meet<strong>in</strong>gs to discuss the best wayto support our teacher and our retreatants. <strong>The</strong> practices of deeplisten<strong>in</strong>g and lov<strong>in</strong>g speech were followed more earnestly than ever.Unified by the urgency of the situation and by our love for Thayand for our lay brothers and sisters, we experienced a profoundsolidarity. Every person stepped up to take on responsibilities,even those who might have hesitated <strong>in</strong> other circumstances. Werealized that the success of the retreat depended on each one ofus contribut<strong>in</strong>g our best.On the night of orientation, all of the monks and nuns arrivedearly. Without plann<strong>in</strong>g it, when we got on the stage, westood closely together as one unit. Those of us who were presentwill always remember that moment. <strong>The</strong> Sangha was <strong>in</strong>vited tolisten to three sounds of the bell and touch a spacious and calmplace with<strong>in</strong>, so that Thay’s love letter could be received. As it wasreported later, many people became immediately alarmed: “Loveletter! What?” “Where is Thay? Is he O.K.?” “Where is ThichNhat Hanh? Why is he not on stage?”Brother Phap Khoi read Thay’s letter slowly and clearly.“Boston, August 21, 2009.... My dear friends, I am writ<strong>in</strong>g to youfrom the Massachusetts General Hospital <strong>in</strong> Boston. I know theSangha has manifested today <strong>in</strong> Estes Park. I miss the Retreat.I miss the beautiful sett<strong>in</strong>g of the Retreat. Especially I miss theSangha, I miss you....”Tears were stream<strong>in</strong>g down faces. One retreatant later sharedthat she felt a strong urge to scream at that moment, but everyonewas so still, she did not dare to. People said that they felt overwhelmedby disappo<strong>in</strong>tment, worry, and grief; but as Noble Silencestarted immediately after the orientation, no one gave voice tothese feel<strong>in</strong>gs. Instead, there was an opportunity to listen to one’sunpleasant and pa<strong>in</strong>ful feel<strong>in</strong>gs and to embrace them. Leav<strong>in</strong>gthe meditation hall that first even<strong>in</strong>g, everyone walked ever soquietly and attentively.Many of us had to ask ourselves: did we come to a retreat tosee Thay <strong>in</strong> the same way we would go to a concert to see a rockstar? If the rock star did not show up, we would be entitled to a<strong>full</strong> refund. <strong>The</strong>n, should we also demand a <strong>full</strong> refund and leavethe retreat, s<strong>in</strong>ce Thay was not there?Thay’s absence forced everyone to re-evaluate their <strong>in</strong>tentionfor the retreat. Thay could not be looked to as the ma<strong>in</strong> focus,nor could he be relied on for energy and <strong>in</strong>spiration. Dur<strong>in</strong>gthe next five days, the retreatants came to a decision to <strong>in</strong>vestwholeheartedly <strong>in</strong> the practice. <strong>The</strong> monastic and long-term laypractitioners became Thay <strong>in</strong> the way they walked so stably, <strong>in</strong> theway they spoke so compassionately, and <strong>in</strong> the way they thoughtso grate<strong>full</strong>y—for Thay, for each other, and for the shared pathof practice.<strong>The</strong>re were over four hundred first-time retreatants, and they,too, practiced deeply. From the early morn<strong>in</strong>g first activity to thelate even<strong>in</strong>g last activity, all were <strong>full</strong>y present. Thay was not atthe retreat. Yet, Thay was everywhere. All of us experienced Thay’spresence, <strong>in</strong> ourselves and <strong>in</strong> one another. This powerful energyof our collective practice enabled everyone to look <strong>in</strong>to their ownpast experiences with love, loss, expectation, and disappo<strong>in</strong>tment.By stay<strong>in</strong>g together as a Sangha, we broke through habitual patternsof avoid<strong>in</strong>g and runn<strong>in</strong>g away from pa<strong>in</strong>. Transformation andheal<strong>in</strong>g took place <strong>in</strong> every person, monastic and lay, long-termpractitioner and beg<strong>in</strong>ner.We experienced directly the immense value and strengthof the Sangha. We realized that Thay and the teach<strong>in</strong>gs will becont<strong>in</strong>ued well <strong>in</strong>to the future because we are a Sangha. Whereverwe are, as long as we come together as a community of practice,we can generate this powerful energy of peace and heal<strong>in</strong>g. <strong>The</strong>
miracle of SANGHAII was so excited to be <strong>in</strong> the presence of Thay for the first time. Iknew that it would be a unique and lov<strong>in</strong>g experience. I made abeaded pouch that I was hop<strong>in</strong>g to place <strong>in</strong> Thay’s hands as a gift,<strong>in</strong> gratitude for all that he had taught me over the years and foropen<strong>in</strong>g his heart to all of us.Like all of us who heard the news, I was saddened and concernedwhen I heard that Thay was <strong>in</strong> the hospital. However, fairlyquickly, I looked at it as an opportunity to “be <strong>in</strong> the moment,” asThay has taught us all to be. It was also a good lesson <strong>in</strong> not be<strong>in</strong>gattached to expectations. I decided that I would give the beadedpouch to one of the monks or nuns to give to Thay. I made a vowto myself that first night that I was go<strong>in</strong>g to “be <strong>in</strong> the moment”every moment dur<strong>in</strong>g the retreat and experience it all for what itwas, however it unfolded.It was my first retreat, and I had no idea what to expect.What an amaz<strong>in</strong>g, wonderful, peaceful and lov<strong>in</strong>g journey I hadthe pleasure of experienc<strong>in</strong>g! This retreat far surpassed anyth<strong>in</strong>gI could have begun to imag<strong>in</strong>e. It was six of the best days of mylife, with the exception of the day I met my soulmate and bestfriend, who also happens be my husband.Throughout the retreat, I cont<strong>in</strong>ued to be amazed at how quiet900 people could be. When we were all do<strong>in</strong>g sitt<strong>in</strong>g meditationtogether, you could hear a p<strong>in</strong> drop. I found myself frequentlygaz<strong>in</strong>g at the altar and the beautiful words, “One Buddha Is NotEnough.” All of us were there to help expand that statement.We all know how challeng<strong>in</strong>g it is to apply the teach<strong>in</strong>gs to ourdaily life, but I am beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g to <strong>in</strong>corporate them <strong>in</strong>to my work andpersonal life. One example was a difficult meet<strong>in</strong>g that I had theother day. I work with children with special needs, and this meet<strong>in</strong>gwas with parents, their attorney, and the school district team. Iwas feel<strong>in</strong>g stressed about it <strong>in</strong> the days prior to the meet<strong>in</strong>g. Thatmorn<strong>in</strong>g, I did a sitt<strong>in</strong>g meditation and a walk<strong>in</strong>g meditation. Ipracticed m<strong>in</strong>dful walk<strong>in</strong>g as I approached the build<strong>in</strong>g where themeet<strong>in</strong>g was to be held, and watched my breath.<strong>The</strong> meet<strong>in</strong>g started out with some friction, but then it transformed.<strong>The</strong> facilitator had a very calm demeanor. I focused onwatch<strong>in</strong>g my breath go <strong>in</strong> and out. When it was my turn to talk, Irealized that I was talk<strong>in</strong>g slower than I normally do and was muchmore thoughtful before speak<strong>in</strong>g than I ever have been before. <strong>The</strong>magic of the Sangha, Thay’s teach<strong>in</strong>gs, and my daily practice allwere contribut<strong>in</strong>g factors. I felt very good after leav<strong>in</strong>g the meet<strong>in</strong>g,and it has given me renewed hopethat I will be able to apply the teach<strong>in</strong>gsto my every wak<strong>in</strong>g moment...ifI just remember to be m<strong>in</strong>dful...andwatch my breath.Every Wak<strong>in</strong>gMomentBy Mariann TaigmanMariann Taigman is an occupationaltherapist who works with childrenwith special needs. She has beenfollow<strong>in</strong>g the Buddhist path for thepast twenty years.photo by Bonnie Wiesnerthe M<strong>in</strong>dfulness <strong>Bell</strong> 11