Why I am not a ‘health professional’ Anthony Stadlen
Why I am not a 'health professional' Anthony Stadlen
Why I am not a 'health professional' Anthony Stadlen
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Jenny Janes kindly asks about the ‘nature and aim’ of my work. I shall try to go a<br />
small way towards answering by presenting some fragments from accounts of a few of<br />
the people who have come to me for psychotherapy over the past thirty-five years. I <strong>am</strong><br />
deeply grateful to these clients for their lucid descriptions.<br />
Client 1<br />
The problems that caused me most trouble, that caused me to be angry, that<br />
caused me somatic pain, that stopped me having trusting relationships, that made<br />
me doubt my judgement and that caused me to feel helpless were <strong>not</strong> problems that<br />
could be objectively described using the present tense. My problems did <strong>not</strong> belong<br />
in the s<strong>am</strong>e category as lack of money, ill health, homelessness and unemployment.<br />
Therapy did <strong>not</strong> help me to cope with problems that continued to exist. I found<br />
during therapy that my problems were part of the way that I described my reality.<br />
The magic of therapy, and I mean magic, is that as I talked through the problems,<br />
as I dared to describe them they dissolved. I followed the shadows to their source<br />
only to discover that as I got nearer the source had disappeared. When I turned<br />
around the shadow was no more.<br />
Client 2<br />
I found gaining an ethical understanding of the situation most helpful. It was a<br />
great battle to come out of a world where I would succumb to feeling guilty to one<br />
where I could stand on my own two feet and defend what was right and best for me.<br />
For this to come from my own spirit, with my own senses, has been a very difficult<br />
struggle. It has been a constant process of throwing problems onto a screen and<br />
trying to untangle what to me were complex problems. It has been an enormously<br />
creative and energising process but one I could never have done without a therapist<br />
whose attention was always concerned with the ethical values operating in<br />
interpersonal situations. I do believe good psychotherapy raises the voice of<br />
conscience, making it harder – but far from impossible – to lie to oneself. The<br />
experience constantly forces one to continue addressing problems one would rather<br />
avoid, until one regains a sense of spirit and wholeness that is robust in this world.<br />
It does ask that one live up to the best of oneself. Providing this fr<strong>am</strong>ework for<br />
discussion of the world has been something for which I <strong>am</strong> enormously grateful. It<br />
is this, which has given me creativity, confidence and independence as well as total<br />
fascination with the importance of truth and ethical values in our lives.<br />
Client 3<br />
The only experience I can liken this particular therapy to is when I, as a shortsighted<br />
child, was first given a pair of glasses to wear – suddenly the world sprang<br />
into fine detail, with colours and shapes taking on a new meaning. I can remember<br />
then that I spent days just gazing around at myself and at the world around me, in<br />
wonder that I had previously missed all that. And that’s really what I’m left with<br />
from the experience, and hope will remain with me for a long time yet – the<br />
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