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haptic<br />
A Zine of<br />
Distituent Works
entangled prosthetics, sensory heaps,<br />
heat/noise, subjective orders of affect and<br />
abject, immunofictions of sovereignty,<br />
nodes in metabolic circuits, voids poised at<br />
the threshold of substance, reverberating<br />
ekphrasis, unbutchered meat, relational<br />
tissues, supervenient sandpiles, unfinished<br />
sculptures, heterogenized surfaces, ethical<br />
evocations, vectors of sinuous desire, the<br />
middleground, reconstituted organs of<br />
ongoing exaptation, stinkpits, ecologies of<br />
otherness, products of care labor, exertions<br />
from nowhere, costume factories, failed<br />
transcendence, habitats of ritual and<br />
enunciation, autocatalytic bundles, control<br />
architectures, cosmetic idol-fetishes,<br />
microfluidic assays, decaying afterbirth,<br />
form-giving absence, archaeologies of<br />
social position, recalibrated morphogen<br />
gradients, films playing in empty<br />
Cartesian theatres, frustration-excitation<br />
futures, plugs and extensions, discursive
:bodies<br />
November 2015<br />
Editorial Collective<br />
Nathan Eisenberg<br />
Anna Montgomery<br />
Sam Smith<br />
Design<br />
Sam Smith<br />
Special Thanks<br />
Sam Law<br />
Stephanie Maurer<br />
Anastacia Tolbert<br />
Contact<br />
editors@hapticzine.org<br />
Hapticzine.org<br />
Haptic Press 2015
Contents<br />
01<br />
Genevieve Goffman<br />
Who’s Afraid of Richard Prince?:<br />
Towards Ugliness<br />
12<br />
Ruthie Natanzon<br />
It Was a Pleasure Having<br />
You in My Car<br />
19<br />
Sara Yinling<br />
Shelter<br />
21<br />
Colin Rosemont<br />
Maroon
27<br />
Anna Montgomery<br />
Notes on Running<br />
29<br />
Grace Covill-Grennan<br />
Historicity<br />
31<br />
Nathan Eisenberg<br />
Border Porn<br />
41<br />
Anastacia Tolbert<br />
Selected Poems + Q&A
Who’s Afraid of Richard Prince?: Towards Ugliness<br />
Genevieve Goffman<br />
Who’s Afraid<br />
of Richard<br />
Prince?<br />
Not me. I have nothing to be afraid<br />
of. I am not skinny enough, cool<br />
enough or successful enough. Plus<br />
I’m pretty sure that, at 24, I’m past<br />
my peak creep prime, at least from<br />
the perspective of 65-year-old<br />
Prince, who seems to run more in<br />
Terry Richardson’s line of thought.<br />
Why fear a body snatcher if you<br />
don’t have body worth snatching?<br />
That’s really all Prince is guilty of.<br />
And it’s not even an original crime.<br />
If you are not familiar with<br />
Richard Prince, he is an American<br />
appropriation artist who became<br />
well known in the 1980s for his<br />
project Cowboys, in which he rephotographs<br />
Marlboro Man advisements<br />
stripped of their branding.<br />
In this work, he was said to<br />
be questioning everything, from<br />
American masculinity to “what is<br />
real.” This work was followed by<br />
a collection called Girlfriends, in<br />
which he rephotographs pictures<br />
taken of bikers’ girlfriends sprawled<br />
out on bikes. So, other than a brief<br />
stint in 1985, when he turned his<br />
attention to painting mildly sexist<br />
jokes on canvas, Richard Prince<br />
has always been a body snatcher.<br />
Most recently, Richard Prince<br />
has caught a lot of flak, not for<br />
body snatching, but for “stealing”<br />
the photographs of Instagram users,<br />
printing them out and selling<br />
them for ridiculously high prices as<br />
part of a series of shows called New<br />
Portraits. The series consists of 37<br />
prints, and first opened for private<br />
viewing at the Gagosian Gallery<br />
in New York City in October of<br />
2014. Each print is a 65-by-48-<br />
inch screenshot that Prince took<br />
of someone else’s Instagram photo,<br />
always including an often mocking<br />
and nonsensical comment made<br />
by Prince himself. The photos are<br />
mostly of young, conventionally<br />
attractive women, many of them<br />
highly sexual, many of them selfies.<br />
Almost all of them are of highly<br />
successful Instagram users or celebrities,<br />
though some of them are<br />
celebrity fan accounts.<br />
Much of the critique of Prince<br />
so far has concerned his stealing<br />
photographs and making money<br />
off other people's work (although<br />
many have rightfully accused him<br />
of being a big old creep and making<br />
boring art). But it's not necessarily<br />
the photograph that Prince is<br />
profiting from. Instagram is made<br />
of photographs, but what powers<br />
it is bodies and aesthetics. Pho-
tographer Donald Graham wrote<br />
a cease and desist letter to Prince<br />
and the Gagosian, asking them to<br />
stop showing or attempting to sell<br />
his photograph, Rastafarian Smoking<br />
a Joint, Jamaica. However, there<br />
are several layers of Internet gray<br />
area between Prince and the photograph.<br />
Prince found Graham’s<br />
photograph of a Jamaican man<br />
smoking a joint on the Instagram<br />
account @rastajay92, which had<br />
reposted the photograph from the<br />
Instagram account of Australian<br />
use and reuse, it becomes hard to<br />
pinpoint who is culpable for what.<br />
Maybe those who uploaded the<br />
photograph should have credited<br />
it, maybe Richard Prince should<br />
have alerted the artist to its use.<br />
But there is another layer of<br />
appropriation. The man in the<br />
photo has no idea his picture was<br />
hanging in a New York gallery. A<br />
picture of a man of color was taken<br />
by a photographer, his aesthetics<br />
matched to one user and then<br />
another user, and that picture is<br />
Photographs: Robert McKeever<br />
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/matthew-israel/your-instagrams-are-richa_b_5908264.html<br />
Jamaican model @indagoochild,<br />
who presumably liked Graham’s<br />
photograph enough to upload it<br />
to Instagram. Like the majority of<br />
Instagram photos, it was uploaded<br />
without credit. Unlike the majority<br />
of Instagram photos, it is now<br />
potentially being sold for thousands<br />
of dollars. In this chain of<br />
now suddenly worth thousands<br />
of dollars. This may be victimless<br />
crime. It may not be. Donald Graham<br />
is by no means an underdog<br />
starving artist. He can clearly afford<br />
a lawyer to pen his cease and<br />
desist letter. He is internationally<br />
well respected and his works hang<br />
in major art galleries and private<br />
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collections. Perhaps the credit and<br />
the $90,000 should go to the man<br />
whose appearance and lifestyle,<br />
while completely marginalized,<br />
are aesthetically considered a hot<br />
commodity.<br />
Interestingly, Graham is not<br />
the first white male artist to come<br />
into conflict with Prince over the<br />
use of the black male Jamaican<br />
body. Prince recently won a fiveyear-long<br />
legal battle with Patrick<br />
Carou over his use of Carou’s<br />
photography in his self-described<br />
“meaningless” collection of work<br />
Canal Zone. In Canal Zone, Prince<br />
cut out and defaced pictures from<br />
Carou’s book Yes, Rasta, an anthropological<br />
photo essay on Rastafarian<br />
culture in Jamaica. While many<br />
who sided with Carou pointed out<br />
that these photos were taken after<br />
extensive community<br />
engagement and research<br />
in order to gain<br />
the trust of people in<br />
the culture, it’s hard to<br />
not view the squabble<br />
as two white men arguing<br />
over the use of<br />
a black man’s body.<br />
This is not to defend<br />
Prince, whose treatment<br />
of the photographs could<br />
easily be read as racist (for example,<br />
when he enlarged the subjects’<br />
mouths and erased their eyes). At<br />
the time, he wrote,<br />
I don’t want to talk about where<br />
the Rastas came from. Like most<br />
images I work with, they weren’t<br />
mine. I didn’t know anything about<br />
Rastas. I didn’t know anything<br />
about their culture or how they<br />
lived. I had plenty of time to find<br />
out. What I went with was the attraction.<br />
I liked their dreads. The<br />
way they were dressed […] gym<br />
shorts and flip-flops. Their look<br />
and lifestyle gave off a vibe of<br />
freedom. Maybe I’m wrong about<br />
the freedom but I don’t give a shit<br />
about being wrong.<br />
But one of Carou’s biggest complaints<br />
was not Prince’s disrespect,<br />
but the fact that he lost his show at<br />
a Paris gallery due to Prince.<br />
For me the majority of Prince’s<br />
New Portraits were repugnant only<br />
in that they were symptomatic of<br />
one the art world's greatest crimes:<br />
body snatching. I think the term<br />
“re-voyeurize” is important to understanding<br />
how Prince snatches<br />
bodies. When a photo is placed<br />
on Instagram, it is intentional<br />
and meant to be viewed by anyone.<br />
There is nothing voyeuristic<br />
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about a sexual Instagram photo<br />
posted by a consenting party. OG<br />
sad girl artist and Instagram super<br />
star Audrey Wollen told I-D,<br />
What Prince is doing is colonising<br />
and profiting off a territory of<br />
the internet that was created by<br />
a community of young girls, who,<br />
needless to say, do not have the<br />
cultural space Prince has. Selecting<br />
specific bodies from a sea of images,<br />
amputating them from their<br />
context, and then naming himself<br />
the owner of those bodies.<br />
Prince takes what was a consensual<br />
picture of a body and places the<br />
body in a non-consensual context.<br />
Part of the appeal of the project,<br />
part of its “sexiness,” is that he<br />
throws into question the agency<br />
of those whose pictures he uses.<br />
Now, instead of a woman posting<br />
a sexy picture of herself online, you<br />
are spying on her body in a context<br />
she never consented to. He<br />
re-voyeurizes the bodies of young<br />
women, who, in posting pictures<br />
of themselves online, are seeking<br />
to profit off their own bodies and<br />
working to reclaim the theme of<br />
the young nude female as something<br />
owned and controlled by<br />
young the nude female herself. By<br />
using their photos he forces them<br />
back into the role of passive model.<br />
He renders them innocent again.<br />
Ripping away the agency of choice<br />
and credit, he sends them reeling<br />
back in the realm of spied-upon<br />
and preyed-upon. The issue is not<br />
whether Prince used photographs<br />
he did not take, the issue is that<br />
Prince is laying claim to the visual<br />
capital of the bodies of those who,<br />
through designing, curating and<br />
consenting to publication, have<br />
acted to reclaim what is rightfully<br />
theirs, namely their bodies.<br />
Of course, not all the Instagram<br />
users included in New<br />
Portraits are offended. Karley<br />
Sciortino, a writer for Vogue and<br />
the woman behind Slutever.com,<br />
told Business Insider that she was<br />
“honored” to be in Prince’s show,<br />
because he was a “successful artist.”<br />
However, Karley Scortino is<br />
already a well-known writer and<br />
critic. Many of the younger and<br />
less well-known participants were<br />
not as enthused by their inclusion,<br />
especially those who were trying<br />
to own and profit from their own<br />
bodies. For example, Sean Fader, a<br />
young recent MFA graduate had<br />
a picture from his performance<br />
art project Wishing Pelt seized by<br />
Prince. Fader’s project consisted of<br />
letting people take selfies of themselves<br />
rubbing his chest hair. They<br />
were told to make a wish while<br />
they were doing so, and that if they<br />
posted the picture to social media<br />
the wish would come true. Sean<br />
expressed his frustration to Hyperallergic,<br />
saying,<br />
There’s obviously that part of me<br />
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that’s mad because I’m a poor<br />
starving artist with six-figure student<br />
loan debt, and you’re just a giant<br />
that runs through Instagram pillaging,<br />
taking things into your own<br />
museum, and calling them yours.<br />
Then there is the snappy response<br />
of Selena Mooney, founder of<br />
SuicideGirls, a model-run, highly<br />
lucrative pin-up community.<br />
Upon hearing<br />
that her photo was<br />
being sold for $90,000<br />
dollars, Mooney started<br />
selling it online for<br />
just $90. However,<br />
Mooney is in a unique<br />
position to play this<br />
game. Ann Collins, a<br />
self-described “working<br />
student in school”<br />
who is “extremely<br />
broke,” was also outspoken<br />
in her frustration<br />
at Prince’s exploitation<br />
of her body.<br />
“I could have used that<br />
money for school,” she<br />
told the website Artnet.<br />
Artnet was quick<br />
to point out that Anna did not actually<br />
take her own picture. However,<br />
Collins’ issue was the not the<br />
use of the photograph itself, it was<br />
the use of her body. Collins explained<br />
to Star Entertainment that<br />
she wanted to “send a message to<br />
the art world to stop commodifying<br />
women’s bodies for the sake<br />
of art.” Collins was not interested<br />
in the use of her photograph, she<br />
was upset about the use of her<br />
own body, now in the public eye<br />
without consent or credit – a situation<br />
which, as a poor and young<br />
woman, she could do little to<br />
change.<br />
It is not a coincidence that a<br />
struggling performance artist (like<br />
Fader), members of a ballet troop<br />
(like Collins), models and makeup<br />
artists are upset with Richard<br />
Prince. Unlike Sciortino, they use<br />
their bodies to survive. The structure<br />
and material fabric of which<br />
their body is built is precious to<br />
them. Models, dancers, sex work-<br />
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ers and artists pour their energy<br />
into shaping their bodies, so they<br />
may profit off of the shapes they<br />
create and survive off of those<br />
profits. Many change their bodies<br />
for cultural capital as well. While<br />
we all should fight for the licensing<br />
right to our bodies, for some this<br />
is the bare means of their survival.<br />
Male artists who capitalize off the<br />
bodies of women and white photographers<br />
who capitalize off the<br />
skins of brown and black subjects<br />
are hardly a novelty. Yet, except<br />
in specific circumstances, these<br />
bodies are seldom credited. Prince<br />
ripped away the credit that many<br />
on Instagram are finally receiving<br />
for their bodies. When one posts<br />
a picture of oneself online, one<br />
is laying claim to the product of<br />
all the labor it took to make and<br />
present one's body. The models of<br />
SuicideGirls put an extraordinary<br />
amount of work into their bodies.<br />
They work out, they get tattoos,<br />
they spend time on makeup,<br />
clothes and piercings. They strive<br />
to be financially rewarded for this<br />
labor, and that financial reward is<br />
a societal affirmation of the credit<br />
they deserve.<br />
When visual artists make use<br />
of models, they seldom credit the<br />
work the model does to maintain<br />
her body. I think they should<br />
start. When a photographer travels<br />
through America, to rural areas<br />
or poor black neighborhoods, or<br />
abroad, to seek out distinctive cultures<br />
or lived experiences, I think<br />
he should give partial credit to<br />
every person he photographs and,<br />
probably, some of his royalties.<br />
After all, the body produced by<br />
the agency of the model is partially<br />
responsible for its own pictorial<br />
iteration. Think how this would<br />
radically shift the demographics<br />
and economics of representation<br />
in major art institutions. The muse<br />
– a model used continuously over<br />
time – is supposed to be a creation<br />
of nature that captures the<br />
artist’s heart and mind; she is as<br />
much responsible for her power to<br />
dazzle as a child is for the clothes<br />
that their parents buy them. But in<br />
today’s society we are never innocent<br />
of our bodies. The natural is<br />
fetishized, but only as framed by<br />
a narrative fiction. “Natural beauty”<br />
is a patriarchal fallacy that tells<br />
us that being beautiful is essential<br />
and, at the same time, that to<br />
strive to be beautiful is shameful.<br />
Plastic surgery, incredibly common<br />
among a diverse section of the<br />
world’s population, is still widely<br />
condemned. The reasons given<br />
for this – that it can be dangerous,<br />
that it sometimes doesn’t make you<br />
look better, that it is often obvious<br />
to the beholder – ring hollow. The<br />
real problem is that while we want<br />
people to adhere to monetarily<br />
profitable beauty standards that<br />
uphold the superstructures of patri-<br />
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archy and the male ego, we do not<br />
actually want them to have control<br />
and ownership of their bodies. If a<br />
woman looks as if she spends time<br />
working out, she has a man’s body;<br />
if a guy spends too much time on<br />
his appearance he is effeminate.<br />
We approve of people who “pass”<br />
in the gender they identify with, as<br />
we can see with the media reaction<br />
to Caitlyn Jenner, but, in general,<br />
we shame other members of the<br />
Kardashian/Jenner family for the<br />
aesthetic plastic surgery they pursue.<br />
I think that anyone who gets<br />
plastic surgery should be considered<br />
a designer. After all, they are<br />
striving to create an ideal thing of<br />
beauty, just like an artist.<br />
I read an article by Karley Sciortino<br />
a while ago called, “Why do<br />
we like having sex with artists?”<br />
(The title really should have been,<br />
“Why do straight women want to<br />
have sex with successful, attractive<br />
male artists?”) Sciortino writes<br />
about the time she participated<br />
in Prince’s Frieze Art project: she<br />
wore a bikini top and short shorts,<br />
and waxed his fancy car. She enjoyed<br />
it and also resented it when a<br />
woman tried to hand her a sweater—waxing<br />
a car will make you<br />
hot—and I can understand why.<br />
It sounds like hard work, but the<br />
attention could be validating. Sciortino<br />
went on to explain that she<br />
wanted to be a muse, a dream she<br />
seems to have achieved. There is<br />
nothing unfeminist about wanting<br />
be a muse. What is unfeminist is<br />
the idea of a non-consensual muse.<br />
The muse who is striving to use her<br />
body to inspire herself, the muse<br />
who is seeking to profit off her<br />
own body, only to have it snatched<br />
from her and placed in a non-consensual<br />
context, the credit for all<br />
her bodily labor taken by someone<br />
else.<br />
As an artist, I want credit for<br />
any time my body is used. If a guy<br />
jacks off to my picture on Instagram,<br />
I want a check in the mail.<br />
But being realistic, I know that<br />
many muses are non-consensual,<br />
and will never receive credit. So<br />
what do we do if we don’t want<br />
others to profit off our bodies? My<br />
only advice is to make your body<br />
as unprofitable as possible. If you<br />
are in a place where this feels safe<br />
and comfortable, don’t give a fuck<br />
about “passing.” Don’t work out.<br />
Get fat or maybe don’t – that can<br />
backfire. Don’t brush your hair.<br />
Don’t even think about make-up.<br />
Get really nasty, obvious plastic<br />
surgery. Dress up like an animal all<br />
the time. In other words, get ugly. I<br />
mean really ugly, don’t get “riot girl”<br />
chic, don’t get alt, don’t get edgy,<br />
get unattractive. It’s tricky, because<br />
ugly is in the eye of the beholder,<br />
but I have faith in us. And maybe,<br />
if you get just ugly enough, no one<br />
will want to snatch your body for<br />
their art.<br />
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am<br />
an<br />
outcropping.<br />
Body Compositions I-IV<br />
Virgil B/G Taylor<br />
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p u l l a t t h e f o l d s o f
although<br />
way<br />
the<br />
sound<br />
away<br />
from<br />
me<br />
saw
p u l l e d<br />
t h r o u g h<br />
t h e s p a c e<br />
b e t w e e n<br />
a n d t h e n<br />
p u l l e d<br />
o v e r t h e<br />
s p a c e<br />
b e t w e e n<br />
a n d t h e n<br />
t w i s t e d<br />
i n & o v e r<br />
t h e p a c e<br />
b e t w e e n .
It Was a Pleasure Having You in my Car<br />
Ruthie Natanzon<br />
UNBECOMING:<br />
“The Young-Girl only<br />
exists as a Young-Girl<br />
within the system of<br />
general equivalency<br />
and its massive circulatory<br />
movement. She<br />
is never possessed for<br />
the same reason that<br />
she is desired. The<br />
very moment one acquires<br />
her, she is taken<br />
out of circulation,<br />
the mirage fades, she<br />
sheds her magic aura<br />
and her nimbus of<br />
transcendence. She’s<br />
stupid and she reeks.”<br />
Tiqqun, Preliminary Materials for a Theory of the Young-Girl<br />
We live vicariously through her “self discovery” and her<br />
fucking.<br />
We hear her on her birthday eating pancakes at a diner in<br />
New Mexico,<br />
she says “I’m having a great time!” She has a mullet<br />
now, she’s a stag.<br />
Her mother tells her its okay to be confused about her<br />
sexuality, “but please don’t wear Old Spice.” She aspires<br />
to be this frozen boy.<br />
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LABOR & OCCUPATION:<br />
I imagine you inside her tiny body,<br />
Both of you tidy and smelling like,<br />
Fourth of July.<br />
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I found Horacio Olivera’s Kibbutz. Everyone was<br />
gleaming in the field, everyone was home, but the<br />
gift of revelation was wasted because I forgot. I was<br />
expelled: this is the feeling of being culled from the<br />
site of a promise that depends upon erasure. This is<br />
your cousin calling you on the phone in terror because<br />
of the boy on the other side of the yellow gate.<br />
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VULNERABILITY:<br />
Encountering masculinity and<br />
relinquishing control: my mother<br />
taught me to never get in the<br />
car but I got into the car seventeen<br />
times. Moving along at<br />
another agent’s speed, this is<br />
the height of my potential as<br />
disposable, but it’s mutual. We<br />
asked a man with a Croatian<br />
license plate in the gas station<br />
near the Balaton for a ride.<br />
He drove us to Zagreb, it took<br />
three hours. He told us about<br />
the breakup of Yugoslavia while<br />
we drove by green mountains<br />
and white houses with terracotta<br />
roofs. I didn’t want to know<br />
about him or his IT job in Budapest.<br />
I didn’t want him to ask<br />
any questions. When we got<br />
out of the car I was frantic for<br />
momentum.<br />
A diary entry of the object who desires above all else to inhabit the<br />
unattainable status of perfection (that is, an object who controls of<br />
the conditions of her objectification):<br />
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I always act (act) like I can’t hurt men because<br />
men don’t care, especially not men, because<br />
masculinity has never offered me evidence<br />
of hurt. Of course, I know that this is not<br />
true, but where is the model? I think hurt<br />
looks like your friend’s dad inviting you for<br />
ice cream at 7:00 in the evening and its already<br />
cold out. You all stand there with your<br />
hands in your pockets in some public garden<br />
on the East River. You remember the dream<br />
you had when you were seventeen that he<br />
was coming on to you. It’s only upsetting because<br />
it’s a little real. My reply to these rigid<br />
representations is another apology.<br />
In Rijeka we realized we couldn’t get across the border into Italy so<br />
we looked for a place to sleep. There was a bar at the top of the<br />
hill, no one there spoke English other than a man in his late forties<br />
who said he was from L.A. He was in Croatia with the Navy, he said<br />
his favorite city was Dubrovnik. He was sitting in front of a fig tree,<br />
smoking and pretending to read the newspaper. I didn’t notice<br />
him when we sat down but when I came out of the bathroom they<br />
were already talking. He tried to dissuade us from hitchhiking and<br />
offered us money, which we didn’t accept. That night we slept next<br />
to the pier, near a smaller bar, in a playground between a ping<br />
pong table and a tree with keys and pocket knives between our fingers.<br />
It rained hard. In the morning, the American national anthem<br />
was playing from one of the ships.<br />
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OBFUSCATION:<br />
“The Hebrew language has eight synonyms for beauty, each emphasizing<br />
a different facet of that elusive and seductive quality.<br />
Grace (chen) is the aesthetic of symmetry whether in movement,<br />
form, or proportion. It is a state of balance and harmony between<br />
elements which implies a higher, hidden point of synthesis. The lure<br />
and enchantment of grace is its ability to suggest unity within a state<br />
of multiplicity through the balanced arrangement of parts.”<br />
A Kabbalistic Approach to Spiritual Growth: Part 29<br />
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I don’t remember when they turned off the lights, I<br />
don’t know what they are talking about at the table.<br />
You, sitting next to me, gave me two sets of pesos<br />
for my twenty-second birthday. You pulled them out<br />
of your shirt pocket and said, “It’s a chess set, but<br />
only the kings and queens.”<br />
This is our ritual. We play games<br />
with coins until it’s so late that we<br />
can’t see the stratagem we have<br />
laid out. We attempt to organize<br />
ourselves and our losses but instead<br />
we end up sitting in the<br />
dark.<br />
This is faith in duality. The akatastasia of communication,<br />
the blind chance at an interstice of understanding,<br />
the impossibility of stasis, is a grace.<br />
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Shelter<br />
Sara Yinling<br />
They ask me how I can claim to be an ally of survivors if I have not<br />
known abuse.<br />
We are barricaded in the basement of the youth shelter where I<br />
work,<br />
me, and these two teen clients,<br />
tough kids—street weathered, defiant<br />
and sometimes I am the enemy, and sometimes a tool, and occasionally<br />
a friend.<br />
In the house above us, we hear smashing of dishes<br />
I have not called the cops<br />
They say restraint angers the soul weary of restraint<br />
So instead I have called a relative, an abuser of another form,<br />
“can you pick up your son, please?”<br />
When they ask how I can be an ally of survivors<br />
What I hear is:<br />
Have I nursed bruises from threats followed through? Have I<br />
stood up for myself and been incarcerated because of it, my<br />
body handcuffed and put in a cell, have I kept a vest of ice in<br />
the freezer, have I hid pain for so long that when it bubbles up<br />
it blacks out and rages and sends those trying to help me hiding<br />
into basements, has the state sent me back to my abuser<br />
time and time again saying “it’s not so bad—”<br />
These stories are true. They are not mine and so I am afforded the<br />
opportunity to hold them within my head but they do not belong<br />
to my body.<br />
But I have known fear for my physical being.<br />
And when this raging teen threatened me with teeth, blood,<br />
knives, fists and guns,<br />
the other ones—street weathered, defiant—stood in front of my<br />
body and said,<br />
“I’ve got your back.”<br />
They do not discriminate; a threat is a threat and my fear is so<br />
familiar that in the face of his anger they are either solidarity or<br />
betrayal, there is no middle ground.<br />
And then back to the hierarchy.<br />
He is picked up.<br />
I tell his father, to whom I have already filed numerous counts of<br />
physical abuse,<br />
“your son has an anger issue; it is not your son who is not welcome<br />
here, but his anger.”<br />
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“your son tells the most wonderful stories.”<br />
And walking home I feel my heart within my body,<br />
I notice that my wrists are so thin as to snap<br />
And for the next few days I think they might, that someone might<br />
hurt me,<br />
Until those days pass and it’s back to my own life: secure, unafraid<br />
for my life.<br />
I go back to watching the teenagers through my thin castle of security,<br />
while their bodies sharpen their arrows.<br />
Power Sun Meditation #1: There Is No Body Here<br />
Imani Jackson<br />
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Maroon<br />
Colin Rosemont<br />
I lay in bed,<br />
one hundred and<br />
some odd numbered fever baking me<br />
from the inside out.<br />
They knew about this storm for<br />
weeks or longer I’m sure, kept quiet<br />
about it, and then decided to give<br />
the entire city a week to prepare for<br />
the coming onslaught. So as I lay<br />
there—vacillating between fits of<br />
feverish rage and the icy isolation<br />
that comes with being sick and<br />
alone—I felt a distant ease about<br />
hunkering down for a week or<br />
more. My cupboards now housed<br />
a week’s worth of dried food and<br />
water. My brick apartment building<br />
appeared menacing in its wear,<br />
looking as though it had withstood<br />
countless other storms, and I felt<br />
confident in its hands.<br />
The morning came without<br />
a word. My apartment windows<br />
with their sun-burnt glass let in no<br />
light. The grey hues that filled the<br />
sky before first light never dissipated,<br />
but became the backdrop to<br />
the entire day before the slow dial<br />
turned from grey to black. I tend to<br />
speak of The Storm as a particular<br />
event or moment in time, despite<br />
its having lasted some six days.<br />
But this seems much more accurate<br />
than referring to a chronology<br />
of time: Day 1—8:20 am… Day<br />
3—4:30 pm… The power went<br />
out and I have long since lost my<br />
heirloom watch that might have<br />
held a steady tick throughout the<br />
week. So instead it feels more like<br />
a rounded event over the course<br />
of several days, encompassing the<br />
early fatigue of my sickness, its<br />
precipitous rise to a feverish nightmare,<br />
and its slow abatement with<br />
that of the storm.<br />
As I began, I lie in bed, struck<br />
through by that ominous fever<br />
that portends of something much<br />
worse. Sometimes, in the past I recall,<br />
I’ve been in feverish fits and<br />
felt the tension of life bend and<br />
the dark coolness of death appear<br />
as a real avenue that would surely<br />
be better than the seemingly eternal<br />
hellfire of my burning sickness.<br />
It is no wonder that in times past<br />
those who were struck with fever<br />
could be likened to having been<br />
pierced by the devil’s tongue, on<br />
their way to their infernal fates.<br />
I feel, enfolded in the covers of<br />
my bed, old and weary. My body<br />
bears the mark of many lifetimes<br />
before me—my parents, grandparents,<br />
great grandparents—living in<br />
completely different worlds of the<br />
aspiring rush to the West and the<br />
depressed East of the big city, but<br />
always getting by. I reflect upon<br />
my still young flesh and count the<br />
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moments; I imagine myself in the<br />
terribly strange state of old age,<br />
and reflect upon the brevity of it<br />
all, and I make myself through this<br />
image: part nostalgia, part surrealist<br />
requiem. Shivering and shaking<br />
in my bed, I try against all intuition<br />
to enjoy my discomfort, because I<br />
might just not have the same kind<br />
of feeling again. And as I lie in the<br />
sweat drenched sheets, I begin to<br />
see the color blue. In between fits<br />
of expelling anything and everything<br />
from my body’s depths, I lie<br />
back, thankful for the brief respite<br />
and thinking, for the briefest moment,<br />
that someone is sitting there<br />
stroking my hand. The color blue<br />
fades to a soft black. My bed is a<br />
boat lodging and dislodging itself<br />
all the time. Its movement carries<br />
me along and I shift back and<br />
forth trying to regain my balance.<br />
Sustained, specters of my<br />
lonely lost friends—and watching<br />
eyes of the brilliant stories, theories,<br />
and thoughts—my books sit<br />
on their shelves, collecting days.<br />
Over the years I’ve read many of<br />
these books. I remember them as<br />
important interlocutors to different<br />
stages of me: from Harry to<br />
Holden to the Hobbitses. Looking<br />
across my cave of a room, I<br />
feel the walls curling around me.<br />
Swaddled and cocooned in the<br />
layers of my bed, I read the titles<br />
of the books. The fondness with<br />
which I remember the characters<br />
makes me question their status as<br />
my real friends. They’re vulnerable<br />
from the start, yet I forget them so<br />
easily. Despite their fleeting concreteness,<br />
or in part due to it, life<br />
takes on the mythos of an endless<br />
play—of characters flying in and<br />
out through the cusp of that interfluvial<br />
dream(life). And when I feel<br />
overwhelmed by the immensity of<br />
all of these fictional worlds, drowning<br />
the moment in near canonical<br />
fashion, I fog my gaze and see the<br />
books as objects. These objects are<br />
alive and I smile as I scan the old<br />
Hebrew books my grandmother<br />
gave me some years ago when I<br />
visited her desert home, situated<br />
right beside the King James Bible<br />
that I stole from a hotel room.<br />
When did you last water your<br />
plants? Did you forget to water<br />
them? They only need to be watered<br />
once a week and they’re<br />
probably going into some hibernating<br />
shock with wind and rain<br />
sounds pounding their neighboring<br />
windows. So I think it’s ok…<br />
You like to keep plants hanging<br />
around your room. Pieces of wood<br />
and bark you’ve hung on the walls<br />
have moss growing on them, and<br />
the air feels thicker. It’s a kind of<br />
tasty. The moss, and the orchids and<br />
bromeliads, they drink the air and<br />
are astounding. Plants are growing<br />
on other plants and they frame<br />
water droplets all of the time. The<br />
plants are painting you and mak-<br />
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ing you over. Series of gangly plant<br />
arms reach out in concert, the<br />
green sounds a constant soft drone<br />
and the flowers stand as beautiful<br />
colored sentries, singing melodies<br />
and watching all the while. They<br />
hang from the ceiling in ornate<br />
mobiles, spinning and growing out<br />
of their glass containers. There is so<br />
much moisture in the air that they<br />
are just growing and growing until<br />
there is a scream and they stop.<br />
They shrink and wait. With a deep<br />
breath of fresh air you take in the<br />
hanging plants and growing moss<br />
and the body relaxes a beat, comforted<br />
in their presence, displaced<br />
so far from their laboratory homes,<br />
and yet so beautiful against the<br />
brick cave walls.<br />
I dream a plant kingdom. All is<br />
lost and my body is hot.<br />
I think I mentioned my affectionate<br />
relationship with the walls<br />
of my apartment. They yield the<br />
sensitivity of skin fused with the<br />
dependency of bone. I fall into<br />
prayer, reverent. Without these<br />
walls I don’t know where I’d be<br />
right now. Sick—out in the storm.<br />
These walls bleed a history of injustice,<br />
built by people who perhaps<br />
never enjoyed their comforts.<br />
Each brick stacked on another<br />
creates the private enclaves that<br />
perpetuate the private enclaves of<br />
my body—as some individual task<br />
force machine—urging me to fear<br />
my neighbor until things are tamed<br />
and difference is erased. Each day<br />
the culture of terror resumes. The<br />
private outpost houses the wary<br />
sentinels, diagnosing the violence<br />
and wretched existence carried<br />
out beyond their walls. Under the<br />
weight of such a damning vision,<br />
the prophesy is fulfilled: people<br />
making themselves through the<br />
worst image of their enemy. The<br />
fear breeds the feared. I spend so<br />
much time in my private room. I<br />
crave the mess hall. As I lie tracing<br />
the history of this building<br />
and its people, I imagine the story<br />
of the storm. It is nascent now,<br />
but it will come again and again,<br />
with increasingly erratic ferocity. I<br />
wonder whether or not this history<br />
of the building can stand up to<br />
the fantastical storms of the future.<br />
But for now, I stay in bed, lights<br />
flickering on my bedside table with<br />
each ebb of power. The wind and<br />
rain blow against the window and<br />
the sounds leave a tremble…<br />
I am made up of things. I<br />
don’t mean the tired stardust adage<br />
or the even older Epicurean<br />
model—although I do think my<br />
body is swerving all of the time.<br />
My body is part of this room…<br />
and the sickness that surely arises<br />
from some malignancy within me<br />
forms new ties to its environment,<br />
to this room. Bodies work, day by<br />
day, in the drudge of physical labor<br />
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or in ever growing sedative labor.<br />
The athleticism of the seat, the<br />
micro-motions of the sitter. The<br />
agility of the writer sitting for indefatigable<br />
hours, the fortitude of<br />
the office worker’s 50+ hour week.<br />
What eats me? Lying in this bed all<br />
week long, suspended in a blinding<br />
monotony but not outside of the<br />
spiritual ecstasy. Every moment I<br />
escape boredom—the desire for<br />
desires—I conquer something<br />
pressing in from all angles around<br />
me, and I am a spirit, even if I am<br />
sick, stuck in my room, in a storm.<br />
Now, sleep feels cathartic. It’s<br />
an active form of expression. Then,<br />
my phone starts buzzing, disrupting<br />
my body’s breathing rhythms.<br />
I am annoyed and I experience fits<br />
of falling and catching myself in<br />
and out of sleep dimensions. A not<br />
so gentle compulsion pulls me into<br />
the grasp of messages and media.<br />
My phone is an over-sexed machine.<br />
Its seductive round edges fit<br />
together with my own curves and<br />
it flirts endlessly with my desiring<br />
social body. Without a thought I<br />
am scrolling through Facebook,<br />
lost in a fevered fugue state, spit<br />
out the other side some countless<br />
dozens of minutes later, violated by<br />
my own lack of conscious consent.<br />
The power has surged one<br />
too many times and gone out. I<br />
like to think that the power is<br />
out throughout the city. I have a<br />
headlamp and a few extra AAA<br />
batteries lying about. I’m listening<br />
to the sounds outside. The<br />
rain whips against the window in<br />
syncopated rhythms and the wind<br />
unfurls a bass that shakes me to my<br />
core. There is no escape from these<br />
sounds and I sink into the serenity<br />
of the storm’s embrace.<br />
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Concealer<br />
Genevieve Goffman
Notes on Running<br />
Anna Montgomery<br />
I. Surroundings. Her surroundings are important to her not because<br />
of the inherently anti-egoistic directionality of “getting outside of<br />
herself,” but instead because they are a part of the emergent now<br />
that she arises as and through.<br />
II. The now + the now, ideology of. As itself, the now is the only<br />
thing that I will always have. As an ideology, it is one of many I can<br />
potentially have. As ideologies, each is within the now. As all of<br />
these, the now is everything I will always have.<br />
III. Kafka + Emergence. The internal ruse of the will to knowledge<br />
is that one day the I will know. But the anatomy of the will to knowledge<br />
is that understanding, finding, knowing are never finished. It is<br />
not “a project” that is never finished. The unfinishedness itself is the<br />
fundamental fact of the project’s existence. This is not a reflection<br />
on the beauty of not finishing. It is also not a relaxing realization that<br />
nothing is ever finished. Section III identifies a seductive drive, a motion.<br />
It is the how of aspirational being’s flimsy race forward. Being’s<br />
knowledge of itself exists within the almost known: the unceasing<br />
movement, pursuit, and desire toward, of, and for.<br />
IV. Bergson + Kafka. The unrealizability of knowing (e.g., the experience<br />
of always almost knowing, the unending closing in on of<br />
understanding) is an example of the multiplicity of the temporality<br />
of lived experience. The one moment always necessarily consists<br />
of at least two: the now—which presents itself as a singular tic—is<br />
itself the movement between the unknowing and the will to know,<br />
the flow from tic to toc. Time as never not moving—not a series of<br />
stillnesses, but a perpetuality of movements.<br />
V. Form (bodily relations) + content (the will). Form—itself shaped<br />
by the will—tends to overpower will. After some time (two weeks) of<br />
not running regularly, I am running today. And today running helps<br />
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me think beautiful things and feel joy. And this is why I am running.<br />
But two weeks ago (after running regularly for the three weeks prior<br />
to that) the thoughts that filled my runs were: how many times will I<br />
run this week?; am I hurting my ankles?; do my shorts show my ass?<br />
The form took over the content. The repetitious thought-patterns<br />
whose source lay in my bodily experience of running emerged and<br />
surmounted.<br />
VI. Shock + content. Through the shock of inserting myself into new<br />
forms, I sometimes lose the tired form, replacing it with a new will.<br />
Running a new route. A step back.<br />
VII.a. The individual. Individuality as a rhythm + repetition. The individual<br />
as an occurrence over time. This occurrence who feels, thinks,<br />
and acts with specificity is not an essence, a static bearer of diachronic<br />
responsibility, an intentional recipient. The I as an ever-shifting<br />
form, a happenstance. The I as a collection of capacities, structures,<br />
and patterns. I as a rhythm of capacities, structures, and patterns.<br />
VII.b. Relationships I am interested in and not interested in. I don’t<br />
want intimacy to be code for a space to express (reproduce) my<br />
insecurities.<br />
VIII. Donald Ewen. Ewen says I should prioritize “having fun.” Of<br />
course I should also always be moving toward the now’s kernel of<br />
growing qua the emergent self-structure that I arise as and through.<br />
But it could be good to balance this unceasing directionality with a<br />
movement toward now’s kernel of joy.<br />
IX. Production and Relation. The will to knowledge does not have<br />
an end. Instead, its resulting ends are its real effects and affects. For<br />
example, the experience of going on this run right now, and creating<br />
games of truths (see parts I-VIII) is (affect) and produces (effect).<br />
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Historicity<br />
Grace Covill-Grennan<br />
behind my yard, behind my ears<br />
the forest is a looming gray wall<br />
crows circling something within<br />
cold branches clipping my elbows<br />
what can I tell about what I saw<br />
in the woods this afternoon?<br />
the purity and unmanageable weight<br />
of thing that remains<br />
in a rotting stump I found<br />
a fingernail partially embedded<br />
nearby, a molar beside a stained stone<br />
my tongue, traversing its<br />
white picket fence tastes<br />
loam and long forgetting<br />
recognition<br />
this site might as well be historical<br />
I can assume I should feel<br />
uncanny<br />
aware to the radical continuity<br />
of place, trees<br />
moss, stones<br />
bone<br />
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Visual Stimulation is a Substitute for Thought<br />
(#1)<br />
Grace McMicken
Border Porn<br />
Nathan Eisenberg<br />
CW: Rape, Sexual Assault,<br />
Graphic Sex, Border Violence<br />
“For the images to become a source of true information, they would have to<br />
be different from the war. They have become today as virtual as the war itself,<br />
and for this reason their specific violence adds to the specific violence of the<br />
war. In addition, due to their omnipresence, due to the prevailing rule of<br />
the world of making everything visible, the images, our present-day images,<br />
have become substantially pornographic.”<br />
Jean Baudrillard, “War Porn”<br />
“Watch these guys hunting the illegal female immigrants and giving them a<br />
lesson on why the law should be obeyed. Cruising in their SUV, agents catch<br />
these college girls in the field and fuck them really hard. Getting fucked by<br />
border patrol agent is one thing, but these girls don't know that this doesn't<br />
really mean they get to pass the border afterwards. The harsh school of<br />
reality!”<br />
Border Patrol Porn promotional material<br />
The border is already pornographic.<br />
Border Patrol porn only literalizes There is an implicit and unspoken<br />
this fact.<br />
promise that he will let her go if<br />
Each video unfolds according she services him. The sex itself runs<br />
to a basic formula. A (white, male) through the usual script of straight<br />
uniformed border enforcement porn (blowjob, several sex positions,<br />
him ejaculating somewhere<br />
agent is on patrol somewhere out<br />
in the desert of the US-Mexico on her exterior) and is entirely<br />
oriented towards his pleasure.<br />
border or the exurban landscape<br />
of an American city. He encounters<br />
someone (a Latina woman, he is still detaining her and offi-<br />
Afterward, he informs her that<br />
alone or in a group) who he suspects<br />
is in the country “illegally” deported.<br />
cially arrests her, presumably to be<br />
and detains her. He brings her to An apparatus of control, the<br />
a secluded spot where he touches border depends on what anthropologist<br />
Nicholas de Genova refers<br />
her under the pretense of searching<br />
for weapons or contraband. He to as the “Border Spectacle.” 1 As<br />
then coerces her into having sex Guy Debord noted, the spectacle<br />
with him, with varying degrees of is no mere collection of images,<br />
performed capitulation on her part. be they porn videos or deportation<br />
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quotas, but a “social relation among<br />
people, mediated by images.” 2 The<br />
Border Spectacle does not represent,<br />
but in fact constitutes territorial<br />
sovereignty and its relation to<br />
populations moving across it. More<br />
to the point, it is an assemblage of<br />
images, practices and technologies<br />
that produces and is produced by<br />
the bordered space of the nation<br />
and the exceptional status of the<br />
migrant.<br />
Spectacular regimes of power—e.g.,<br />
capitalism, nationalism—are<br />
necessarily dramaturgical<br />
productions: they stage events according<br />
to an ideological mis-enscène<br />
and induce forms of spectatorship<br />
in a process of making-(in)<br />
visible. In this way, certain lived<br />
experiences are erased from discourse,<br />
while others are rendered<br />
public monstrosities, thus enforcing<br />
the hegemonic narrative.<br />
Though certainly deployed by state<br />
institutions, the border crisis narrative<br />
gains momentum of its own,<br />
percolating throughout discourse,<br />
substantiating the nation and its<br />
borders from diffuse and multiple<br />
sources. Border porn registers the<br />
operative, fantastical elements of<br />
the Border Spectacle, conducting<br />
bodies in a manner intended<br />
to simulate the “harsh school of<br />
reality.” These productions have<br />
substantive impact. They are indistinguishable<br />
from the practice of<br />
bordering—not separate and prior,<br />
but simultaneous and coterminous.<br />
In the context of porn, these<br />
fantastical elements are mobilized<br />
to enter viewing subjects into what<br />
queer theorist Paul Preciado terms<br />
“excitation-frustration cycles,” 3 a<br />
process of reorienting the “somatic<br />
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mechanism” for the management<br />
of pleasure and affect. Crucially,<br />
excitation-frustration cycles perform<br />
actual work, integrating<br />
bodily events into a global media<br />
circuit. In such terms, porn generates<br />
an embodied social relation:<br />
the viewers, the actors, the producers,<br />
the cops, the migrants all<br />
become entwined in the spectacle.<br />
Porn films are “embodied images,”<br />
to use porn scholar Linda Williams’<br />
term, incorporating themselves<br />
into the body and staging<br />
an “encounter with an eroticized<br />
technological apparatus” 4 beyond<br />
the body, effectively mediating social<br />
relations among people.<br />
Preciado identifies porn as a<br />
paradigmatic media form, the limit<br />
case of the body affected by the<br />
techniques that collectively constitute<br />
the Border Spectacle, which,<br />
we cannot forget, is fundamentally<br />
a refocusing maneuver, a matter of<br />
making-(in)visible. Porn is instructive<br />
because, in Williams’ terms, it<br />
somewhat inverts the normative<br />
optics of obscenity (that which is<br />
off-scene) by bringing into “the<br />
public arena the very organs, acts,<br />
bodies and pleasures” that are usually<br />
obscured, thereby operating<br />
as an optics of “on/scenity.” This<br />
characterization assumes a prior<br />
reality, stable but hidden, which is<br />
revealed through pornography in<br />
a manner that Williams typically<br />
understands as liberating. Against<br />
this reading, de Genova offers that<br />
while obscenity is constituted by<br />
acts of concealment, it is through<br />
image. Border porn exists, however,<br />
on a spectrum of genres and<br />
“gestures of selective exposure”<br />
that an event’s obscene nature is<br />
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normalized and enforced ahead of<br />
its unveiling. For de Genova, the<br />
obscene is already out in the open,<br />
despite being publicly disavowed.<br />
This is paramount to the<br />
Border Spectacle’s capacity to<br />
reify the legitimacy of border enforcement.<br />
Its primary operation<br />
is to make the contingent process<br />
of political calculation that<br />
forms the very premise of migrant<br />
‘illegality’ disappear entirely<br />
from view. De Genova writes<br />
In place of the social and political<br />
relation of migrants to the<br />
state…the spectacle of border<br />
enforcement yields up the thinglike<br />
fetish of migrant ‘illegality’ as<br />
a self-evident ‘fact’, generated by<br />
its own supposed act of violation.<br />
The Spectacle strategically elides<br />
the terms under which migrating<br />
people are incorporated into the<br />
workings of the neoliberal state.<br />
This elision requires a double maneuver,<br />
in which the “scene of exclusion”<br />
is continually asserted over<br />
the “obscene of inclusion.”<br />
The ‘scene of exclusion’ is, in<br />
de Genova’s terms, where border<br />
enforcement “performatively activates<br />
the reification of migrant<br />
‘illegality’ in an emphatic and<br />
grandiose gesture of exclusion.”<br />
It features iconic and particularly<br />
fetishized figures of ‘illegal immigration,’<br />
through which “the<br />
purported naturalness and putative<br />
necessity of exclusion may be<br />
demonstrated and verified, validated<br />
and legitimated, redundantly.”<br />
The scene of exclusion justifies<br />
itself. The dissemination of such<br />
scenes insists that migrants do not<br />
belong where they are, should not<br />
go where they are going and that<br />
their removal is inevitable. The<br />
scenes depend on the development<br />
and cooptation of certain stereotypes<br />
and tropes, which are used to<br />
criminalize migration and enforce<br />
white supremacy.<br />
These caricatures are hyperreal,<br />
emerging not from any enduring<br />
qualities of actual migrating<br />
people but from the securitarian<br />
management of fear. The Border<br />
Spectacle participates in and draws<br />
legitimacy from hygienic nationalism,<br />
which imagines foreign<br />
contagions perpetually invading<br />
the state from its margins. In de<br />
Genova’s words, the border is figured<br />
as a “space of encounter, interaction<br />
and exchange,” materializing<br />
a “constitutive indeterminacy<br />
at the liminal edge of the state and<br />
law.” The sense of boundary loss<br />
and its resulting anxiety becomes<br />
sublimated into what postcolonial<br />
theorist Anne McClintock, talking<br />
about Victorian-era imperialism,<br />
calls a ‘porno-tropic’: an imagined<br />
space in which “knowledge of the<br />
unknown world [is] mapped as a<br />
metaphysics of gender violence”<br />
where “the world is feminized and<br />
spatially spread for male explora-<br />
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tion, then reassembled and deployed<br />
in the interests of massive<br />
imperial power.” 5 Women appear<br />
wherever boundary markers of empire<br />
give way, often as a sexual force<br />
to be violently subdued. The colonial<br />
genealogy of porno-tropics<br />
translates into contemporary hygienic<br />
nationalism, configuring<br />
the (gendered and racialized) caricatures<br />
of the Border Spectacle,<br />
such as the ritualized scenes of<br />
submission in border porn. This<br />
acute source of anxiety engenders a<br />
state of protracted national crisis in<br />
which scenes of exclusion proliferate<br />
and are made as conspicuous<br />
as possible, in order to render the<br />
spectral presence of invading otherness<br />
palpable.<br />
Such scenes must show that<br />
law is being violated, that there is<br />
an existential threat to the national<br />
body, and that enforcement is effective<br />
and decisive in maintaining<br />
peace and order by reversing this<br />
transgression. Scenes of exclusion<br />
are sites where the official, public<br />
doctrine of exclusionary citizenship<br />
is continually clarified. They<br />
are always punitive. Their distinctive<br />
feature is the denial of migrant<br />
agency. Towards this end, deportation<br />
is the most potent weapon.<br />
It is important to recall that these<br />
scenes are not merejust representations,<br />
but also stagings in which<br />
actual people, who have been systematically<br />
vilified, are routinely<br />
apprehended and expelled from<br />
the country. What is visible is not<br />
necessarily the expulsion itself (as<br />
this typically occurs in an archipelago<br />
of nondescript gulags), but the<br />
migrant’s condition of deportability:<br />
from stigmatizing narratives<br />
to anti-immigration legislation,<br />
migrants are visualized as simultaneously<br />
threatening and vulnerable.<br />
This visibility multiplies and<br />
extends the individual devastation<br />
of deportation to become a general<br />
specter that plagues undocumented<br />
people as a class.<br />
From the perspective of an<br />
undocumented migrant, the circulation<br />
of scenes of exclusion—in<br />
which detection, detention and deportation<br />
are always possible—enforces<br />
a state of ambient terror and<br />
police impunity, exacting a disciplinary<br />
psychological effect. Migrant<br />
deportability is a tactic that<br />
fits into an overall strategy of imposed<br />
mass disposability and precarity<br />
that confronts the working<br />
class and people of color at almost<br />
every junction. The “deportation<br />
regime,” as de Genova terms it, operating<br />
as a tool of labor discipline,<br />
is the basis of the unseen terms of<br />
migrants’ actual incorporation into<br />
the state as labor for capital: the<br />
“obscene of inclusion.” The scene<br />
of exclusion is a repeated, public<br />
denial of the existing “banality of<br />
a continuous importation of ‘unauthorized’<br />
migrant labor,” ensuring<br />
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that “inclusion is itself, precisely,<br />
a form of subjugation.” Juridically<br />
abjected, flung from the body of<br />
the nation, able to take up residence<br />
in the space of the state only<br />
when reduced to a kind of bare<br />
life, “the ‘illegality’ of ‘undesirable’<br />
migrants, then, supplies the crucial<br />
feature of their distinctive, if disavowed,<br />
desirability.”<br />
Though the scene and the obscene<br />
are inseparable, the Border<br />
erotic payoff of the genre, however,<br />
stems from its particular move<br />
towards on/scenity: in the “plot”<br />
of each film—insofar as her position<br />
of precarity is leveraged to<br />
extract sexual labor from her—the<br />
obscene circumstance of inclusion<br />
as exploitation remains. In this<br />
rare instance, the entire obscene<br />
power dynamic is made explicit;<br />
but rather than unravel the Border<br />
Spectacle, this “selective exposure”<br />
Spectacle constantly refocuses attention,<br />
naturalizing the former<br />
and obscuring the latter. This doubled<br />
optic regime permeates the<br />
entire discourse, patterning the<br />
way that border porn constructs<br />
erotic tension. Each video presents<br />
a veritable scene of exclusion, beginning<br />
and ending with the migrant<br />
women’s putative “illegality,”<br />
deploying the usual signifiers in<br />
an exaggerated mis-en-scène. The<br />
reinforces it.<br />
As de Genova notes, “the Border<br />
Spectacle enhances the efficiency<br />
of its own power precisely<br />
through this sort of obscene intimacy,<br />
whereby the ‘dirty secret’ of<br />
migrant ‘illegality’...may be occasionally<br />
revealed but must be generally<br />
guarded through sanctimonious<br />
acts of [...] dissimulation.”<br />
By presenting the subjugation of<br />
migrant labor (and its structur-<br />
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al relationship to their condition<br />
of deportability) as a patriarchal<br />
erotic fantasy, border porn refracts<br />
the state’s desire for migrant bodies<br />
through the lens of sexualized<br />
domination. Media is never neutral;<br />
it necessarily frames events<br />
in a manner that demands to be<br />
viewed and perceived a certain way.<br />
Though the obscene of inclusion<br />
is placed potentially in view, the<br />
visual techniques that porn deploys<br />
construct a certain gaze within the<br />
viewing subject, here a heteropatriarchal<br />
perspective. As embodied<br />
images that have particular capacity<br />
to reach, so to speak, into the<br />
physiology of the viewer through<br />
the induction of excitation-frustration<br />
cycles, porn is powerfully<br />
interpellative, doing the work of<br />
gazing for the viewer and positioning<br />
them in a given relation with<br />
the subjects onscreen. Border porn,<br />
despite momentarily revealing<br />
the structure of coercion behind<br />
the images, ultimately dissimulates<br />
this coercion by identifying<br />
the viewer with the state. The migrants’<br />
“desirability” is avowed, but<br />
any threads of solidarity between<br />
viewer and subject that might unsettle<br />
the conditions of desire are<br />
obscured by the scopophilic fixation<br />
on sexual subjection. The deportation<br />
regime is in plain sight,<br />
but only as a cipher.<br />
An analysis of how the videos<br />
make use of actors’ bodies will<br />
aid in deciphering the entangled<br />
and encoded discourses that they<br />
index. Border porn first seeks to<br />
establish a recognizable scene of<br />
exclusion. The border agents are<br />
invariably dressed in green fatigues<br />
and bulletproof vests. They are<br />
carrying sidearms, emphasizing<br />
both the ostensible danger they<br />
face and their mastery over the<br />
situation at hand. In nearly every<br />
video, the agents wear dark aviator<br />
sunglasses, which they never<br />
remove for any reason. By hiding<br />
their eyes and facial expressions,<br />
these sunglasses impose a one-way<br />
exchange of information, transposing<br />
the panoptic gaze of the state<br />
apparatus onto the actors’ bodies,<br />
which, along with the tactical uniforms<br />
and equipment, establishes<br />
them as an appendage of state<br />
power.<br />
The migrant women are typically<br />
found just walking down a<br />
dusty desert road or encamped behind<br />
a bush. Their motives for migrating<br />
are rarely referenced. They<br />
are imaged as ahistorical ambulating<br />
bodies, spontaneously sprouting<br />
from the landscape itself and<br />
disembedded from any prior conditions<br />
that might prefigure their<br />
decision to migrate. Their being is<br />
further truncated by the frequent<br />
use of the sole term “border-hopper”<br />
to name them in the video titles.<br />
As soon as the women are ap-<br />
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prehended, their bodies are handled.<br />
They are pressed up against<br />
walls, trees, trucks or down to the<br />
ground. Their hands are always<br />
within the the orbit of the agent's’<br />
grasp, whether placed behind their<br />
back or raised in the air. They are<br />
instructed where to look, when to<br />
stand and where to move. In other<br />
words, as soon as they are seen,<br />
these women are in the sphere of<br />
a carceral bodily order. One agent<br />
says to another, “You got her?” He<br />
nods. “Alright, contain her.” This<br />
strategy of containment is only<br />
ramped up from this point forward.<br />
In scenes of exclusion, the fetishization<br />
of identifiable transgressions<br />
serves to retroactively<br />
justify the heavy enforcement and<br />
the stigmatization of migration.<br />
Thus, the women are usually not<br />
merely traveling but have some<br />
tokenized contraband, a joint, for<br />
example, hidden somewhere in<br />
their clothes. This is discovered<br />
at some point in “the search,” the<br />
point at which the manipulation<br />
of the women’s bodies crosses over<br />
into overt sexual assault. Under the<br />
guise of routine police procedure,<br />
the agent subjects the woman to<br />
aggressive fondling. The agent’s<br />
stoic expression is unbroken here:<br />
the impunity he knows he has is<br />
immanent to the certainty with<br />
which he touches her body.<br />
The videos tend to make a<br />
show of the women consenting to<br />
this, giving the impression that a<br />
deliberate, if unspoken, transaction<br />
is taking place: if the women perform<br />
for their captors, they will be<br />
released. In spite of these gestures,<br />
what is being portrayed is rape.<br />
The conflation of rape with willing<br />
sex has a long history in the<br />
iconography of porno-tropics. As<br />
McClintock describes, the erotics<br />
of imperial conquest was often<br />
also an “erotics of ravishment,”<br />
presenting the colonial hinterland<br />
simultaneously as an unassuming<br />
virgin to be taken by force and a<br />
seductress, full of sexual excess, to<br />
be contained and “civilized.” As<br />
the geography of colonialism has<br />
metastasized into the nation-state<br />
form, borders remain as liminal<br />
spaces where conquest and manifest<br />
destiny have been recoded as<br />
defense and crisis. In border porn,<br />
just as in Victorian porno-tropics,<br />
“women [serve] as mediating<br />
and threshold figures by means<br />
of which men [orient] themselves<br />
in space, as agents of power.” As<br />
such, instances of boundary loss<br />
are ameliorated through an “excess<br />
of boundary order and fantasies of<br />
unlimited power” exacted onto the<br />
bodies of women. The autonomy<br />
exhibited by the women’s migration<br />
is intolerable and the breach<br />
is recovered through the reassertion<br />
of gender hierarchy: women<br />
as object, men as subject. As an<br />
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agent said in one video, “You cross<br />
my fucking border? You take my<br />
fucking dick.”<br />
This citation of the “erotics<br />
of ravishment,” taking place in a<br />
different historical moment and<br />
porno-tropic space, can be referred<br />
to as an “erotics of disposability.”<br />
It depends on the absolute removal<br />
of agency from the women<br />
migrating and the reinstatement<br />
of total control into the hands of<br />
the law, rendering them sexually<br />
subordinate and physically pliable<br />
to the will of the agents. Scenes<br />
of exclusion often operate with<br />
the erotics of disposability as an<br />
emotive force, casting migration<br />
as a menace to national (masculinized)<br />
potency whose only solution<br />
is a muscular, overbearing reaction.<br />
This porno-tropic lineage is mobilized<br />
in border porn to stimulate<br />
excitation-frustration cycles<br />
almost to an excess that threatens<br />
to destabilize the optic order of<br />
the Border Spectacle. The ritualized<br />
rape of migrant women as a<br />
mechanism of reconstructing the<br />
dominance of law and the state<br />
looks too much like the obscene<br />
inclusion of migrant life as abject<br />
labor-power.<br />
The leverage point of both, of<br />
course, is the imposition of deportability.<br />
The climax of border<br />
porn videos, almost simultaneous<br />
with the agent’s ejaculation, is the<br />
women’s deportation. In one video,<br />
the agent finishes off onto the actress’<br />
body inside the back of the<br />
police van, promptly hops out and<br />
shuts the gate behind him before<br />
she even sits up. He gets on the<br />
radio to his partner: “I’m done<br />
here. Let’s take her in.” These are<br />
moments where the deportation<br />
regime is briefly visible. Such moments,<br />
however, are mainly seen, as<br />
a structural feature of border porn,<br />
from the vantage point of the oppressor.<br />
The colonial gaze inherent<br />
in porno-tropics dissimulates the<br />
obscene.<br />
Border porn is a site where<br />
the relationship between scene<br />
and obscene comes close to the<br />
surface, where the “disavowed<br />
desirability” of migrants is harnessed<br />
to build erotic tension in<br />
a manner that disavows it further.<br />
The videos are nodes in a diffuse<br />
and contradictory array of spectacular<br />
productions, all contributing<br />
material to the biopolitical<br />
management of different ethnic<br />
populations, primarily for purposes<br />
of capital accumulation. Just as<br />
the border is pornographic, border<br />
porn is a part of the border. It’s<br />
specific violence adds to the specific<br />
violence of the border itself.<br />
1. Nicholas de Genova, “Spectacles of migrant<br />
‘illegality’: the scene of exclusion, the obscene of<br />
inclusion 2. Guy Debord, Society of the Spectacle<br />
3. Paul Preciado, Testo Junkie: Sex, Drugs<br />
and Biopolitics in the Pharmacopornographic<br />
Era 4. Linda Williams, Porn Studies: Proliferating<br />
Pornographies On/Scene 5. Anne McClintock,<br />
Imperial Leather: Race, Gender and Sexuality in<br />
the Colonial Contest<br />
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Visual Stimulation is a Substitute for Thought<br />
(#2)<br />
Grace McMicken
Selected Poems<br />
Anastacia Tolbert<br />
The Monsters Guide To Love<br />
a +ghoul is a monster or spirit associated with graveyards and<br />
consuming human flesh.<br />
dearest ghoul<br />
if you hunger enough to eat her flesh let your lips pucker<br />
themselves into her heart if you cannot reach. her. heart. decide<br />
to dextrose her eyes as they are connected to the thing<br />
she calls seeing you. if while you consume her you feel her<br />
bones canary-ed inside your throat release her. but only after<br />
she sings. if while you consume her you feel the bones inside<br />
your stomach push her together/take more of her in.<br />
side with yourself only. nostalgia: desire her spirit & for this—<br />
you need not consume all of her flesh. but you remember<br />
w a n t how it drags itself down the hallways of<br />
your jaws<br />
how it simmers there a cauldron within a cauldron begging<br />
you to add more add more<br />
until the rolling bubbles come.<br />
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Folding<br />
when we did our laundry<br />
we made sure we washed the whites first<br />
no time for brown hanging round our necks<br />
no time for stained sheets to jar our glassy eyes<br />
& we realize it takes 4 hands to make a thing small<br />
but only one to make a big mess.<br />
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Sing(ing)<br />
you used to serenade<br />
the thing like god<br />
like overcast<br />
like santa clause<br />
before you knew the truth<br />
diminished chords<br />
& you find yourself still<br />
humming but you know<br />
the thing is not able<br />
to hear your song<br />
arpeggiating<br />
you know you are singing<br />
to dilapidated windows<br />
& ingrown affairs<br />
that soon your voice will grow weary(t,l,)<br />
too _()_____for the thing not to care to hear you<br />
& you wonder is that happening now<br />
are you a singing ghost hovering without a cause<br />
are you haunting a thing which is not alive<br />
passing tone<br />
& if that’s the case the thing can see<br />
you better than any living thing<br />
& if that’s the case the thing just doesn’t want—<br />
to be sung to anymore. _ _ _ _.<br />
ninth chord<br />
serenade god overcast the truth<br />
still know able song singing<br />
windows—affairs grow weary<br />
you now a cause not alive<br />
see living thing doesn’t want—anymore<br />
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I Knew Terrible Things<br />
i knew about the terrible things the women with magnolia trees<br />
mushrooming out of their backs is not what we were oh-lord about.<br />
it wasn’t dread sunny side up which made our yolks runny. &<br />
you may say who cares about a yolk & a tree. sunny. terrible: awful,<br />
appalling, horrific, atrocious it was the terrible things we saw<br />
growing in those magnolia trees from their backs the way the<br />
flower did not bloom the way the petals hunchbacked<br />
& hushed no name we surveyed those women who committed<br />
horrible against (you) & the women replied no (one) their<br />
sappy voices sunny the ants reminding them that they are not birth<br />
but burial not a three day resurrection terrible: awful, appalling,<br />
horrific, atrocious but transitioned terrible things make<br />
a list equaling more than the some of their parts but we don’t do<br />
any (thing) we just keep up & down up & down. wondering. wandering<br />
which of those women will split herself open which of those<br />
women i knew with the terrible things would fester herself a nest in<br />
her own back which was her own tree which was her own producing<br />
no(thing) & i knew about the terrible things still i told<br />
her terrible: awful, appalling, horrific, atrocious what a wonderful<br />
thing she is to climb what a wonderful source of shade & she didn’t<br />
mind throwing it because i knew the terrible things because i saw<br />
the dark side of her g(low) because once upon a time we were<br />
more nolia than mag & only a woman with a tree growing out of<br />
her back could shake a leaf at that—oh lord a tree. sunny. terrible:<br />
awful, appalling, horrific, atrocious<br />
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Q&A<br />
Anastacia Tolbert<br />
Haptic: You teach a workshop<br />
that focuses on how the body<br />
and the memories embedded<br />
in it tell stories. What sorts of<br />
stories do they tell? Why is it<br />
critical that we listen?<br />
Anastacia Tolbert: I believe<br />
our bodies hold stories from<br />
our past and present. They<br />
attempt to protect us from<br />
stories we don’t have all the<br />
pieces to—stories that are too<br />
hard to reconstruct and stories<br />
where we aren’t the main<br />
character. I think it’s important<br />
to unearth those memories so<br />
that we can better understand<br />
who we are in the present and<br />
empower ourselves to BE IN<br />
our bodies more in the present.<br />
Another of your workshops<br />
involved the act of screaming<br />
as part of a self care ritual for<br />
women. Why do you focus on<br />
self cafe?<br />
Self care is something that is<br />
often frowned upon as it relates<br />
to women… specifically<br />
women of color. Some of us<br />
have been taught that to love<br />
or take care of ourselves is selfish<br />
and unnecessary. I believe<br />
self care should not be viewed<br />
as a bonus—something you do<br />
when you are older and all the<br />
children are gone… I believe<br />
self care should be a built in ritual/rite/spiritual<br />
practice taught<br />
to us while we are still children.<br />
Screaming is an exercise of<br />
healing I usually begin all my<br />
workshops with to empower<br />
the participants by choosing to<br />
scream and use their own voices<br />
without the negative preconceived<br />
notions that go along<br />
with screaming or making noise.<br />
In many cases, screaming is associated<br />
with danger or distrust<br />
or unwelcomed or unexpected<br />
body touching. As children we<br />
are told to “stop screaming.”<br />
Boys are often told, “stop<br />
screaming like a girl.” Screaming<br />
in my workshops gives participants<br />
a freedom that they<br />
may not have experienced yet<br />
and a practice they can continue.<br />
In the poem “What to Tell My<br />
Sons After Trayvon Martin, After<br />
Michael Brown, After Medgar<br />
Evers, After, After, After, After<br />
and Before,” you focus on the<br />
devaluation of black lives and<br />
the impossible, contradictory<br />
expectations that are placed<br />
upon black bodies. As a mother<br />
of two sons, how does the<br />
political urgency of these issues<br />
influence your work?<br />
As an artist and mother I use<br />
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art/writing as a vehicle and<br />
conduit for my activism. For<br />
me (a mother of 21 years/a<br />
mother of African American<br />
men) the “urgency” is 24/7<br />
and ongoing… For some, the<br />
“urgency” is new or something<br />
they are just waking up<br />
to as it hits CNN.<br />
How can the production of<br />
creative work (written, visual,<br />
or performative) play a role in<br />
resisting or subverting oppressive<br />
discourses regarding black<br />
bodies? Ideally, what kind of<br />
relationship would you like to<br />
see between art and activism?<br />
I am not sure art or performance<br />
can stop oppression<br />
or depression or suppression,<br />
but I know for sure that talking<br />
about the systemic oppression<br />
of all people of color through<br />
my work is imperative. It tends<br />
to be the soundtrack of much<br />
of my work. As a queer woman<br />
of color there are a plethora of<br />
topics I unearth for the sake of<br />
social justice excavation and<br />
I hope that much of my work<br />
is detox for the racism, sexism,<br />
classism—all the ism hang<br />
overs people endure. I feel<br />
very fortunate that art/writing<br />
has become my protest walk<br />
and I am grateful for my ancestors<br />
who used art and writing<br />
before me as a means of protest/detest/unrest.<br />
One of your current projects is<br />
a solo performance, 9 Ounces.<br />
How did this project come<br />
about? How does it connect to<br />
or extend your prior work?<br />
The characters in 9 Ounces<br />
have been around for a long<br />
time in various ways. Alice has<br />
a been a character who has<br />
written her story for the last<br />
three to five years. Saraphina<br />
is a combination of women I<br />
knew growing up and women<br />
I admire as an adult. Luna is a<br />
more personal character who<br />
is both a combination of girls<br />
I know and I spirit I have encountered<br />
since 2012. I woke<br />
up one day and all the characters<br />
said they needed more<br />
than just paper to tell their individual<br />
stories. As the writer<br />
and vessel for their creativity<br />
and marginalized voices… I<br />
said YES.<br />
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Visual Stimulation is a Substitute for Thought<br />
(#3)<br />
Grace McMicken
mannequins, a cortex of accumulated<br />
slamming a door in a long hallway,<br />
accidental conatus, congealed petroleum,<br />
speech-acts, syndicated antennae, stigmergic<br />
scaffolds, mucoidal aliens, sensemaking<br />
compositions, fibers of being, prismatic<br />
masks, networks of limbs, interstices to<br />
machinic capital, circadian syncopations,<br />
deferred articulation, trauma archives,<br />
performative ciphers, ambient panoptic<br />
curated garbage, named entropy, mutant<br />
logistics hubs, redlined subalterity, points<br />
of dissensus, inscrutable difference, folded<br />
exteriority, queer manifestos, refracted<br />
qualia, flexed fragments, hedonic interfaces<br />
impressions, immature soil, fleeting<br />
jouissance, illegible chatter, wind<br />
hypo-thalamic integration, dissipative<br />
systems, sexual plasticity, metastable<br />
apparatuses, dramaturgical<br />
subjection, patent-pending protocols,<br />
bricolage, profane irruptions, vesicle