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VULNERABILITY:<br />
Encountering masculinity and<br />
relinquishing control: my mother<br />
taught me to never get in the<br />
car but I got into the car seventeen<br />
times. Moving along at<br />
another agent’s speed, this is<br />
the height of my potential as<br />
disposable, but it’s mutual. We<br />
asked a man with a Croatian<br />
license plate in the gas station<br />
near the Balaton for a ride.<br />
He drove us to Zagreb, it took<br />
three hours. He told us about<br />
the breakup of Yugoslavia while<br />
we drove by green mountains<br />
and white houses with terracotta<br />
roofs. I didn’t want to know<br />
about him or his IT job in Budapest.<br />
I didn’t want him to ask<br />
any questions. When we got<br />
out of the car I was frantic for<br />
momentum.<br />
A diary entry of the object who desires above all else to inhabit the<br />
unattainable status of perfection (that is, an object who controls of<br />
the conditions of her objectification):<br />
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