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Notes on Running
Anna Montgomery
I. Surroundings. Her surroundings are important to her not because
of the inherently anti-egoistic directionality of “getting outside of
herself,” but instead because they are a part of the emergent now
that she arises as and through.
II. The now + the now, ideology of. As itself, the now is the only
thing that I will always have. As an ideology, it is one of many I can
potentially have. As ideologies, each is within the now. As all of
these, the now is everything I will always have.
III. Kafka + Emergence. The internal ruse of the will to knowledge
is that one day the I will know. But the anatomy of the will to knowledge
is that understanding, finding, knowing are never finished. It is
not “a project” that is never finished. The unfinishedness itself is the
fundamental fact of the project’s existence. This is not a reflection
on the beauty of not finishing. It is also not a relaxing realization that
nothing is ever finished. Section III identifies a seductive drive, a motion.
It is the how of aspirational being’s flimsy race forward. Being’s
knowledge of itself exists within the almost known: the unceasing
movement, pursuit, and desire toward, of, and for.
IV. Bergson + Kafka. The unrealizability of knowing (e.g., the experience
of always almost knowing, the unending closing in on of
understanding) is an example of the multiplicity of the temporality
of lived experience. The one moment always necessarily consists
of at least two: the now—which presents itself as a singular tic—is
itself the movement between the unknowing and the will to know,
the flow from tic to toc. Time as never not moving—not a series of
stillnesses, but a perpetuality of movements.
V. Form (bodily relations) + content (the will). Form—itself shaped
by the will—tends to overpower will. After some time (two weeks) of
not running regularly, I am running today. And today running helps
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