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me think beautiful things and feel joy. And this is why I am running.<br />
But two weeks ago (after running regularly for the three weeks prior<br />
to that) the thoughts that filled my runs were: how many times will I<br />
run this week?; am I hurting my ankles?; do my shorts show my ass?<br />
The form took over the content. The repetitious thought-patterns<br />
whose source lay in my bodily experience of running emerged and<br />
surmounted.<br />
VI. Shock + content. Through the shock of inserting myself into new<br />
forms, I sometimes lose the tired form, replacing it with a new will.<br />
Running a new route. A step back.<br />
VII.a. The individual. Individuality as a rhythm + repetition. The individual<br />
as an occurrence over time. This occurrence who feels, thinks,<br />
and acts with specificity is not an essence, a static bearer of diachronic<br />
responsibility, an intentional recipient. The I as an ever-shifting<br />
form, a happenstance. The I as a collection of capacities, structures,<br />
and patterns. I as a rhythm of capacities, structures, and patterns.<br />
VII.b. Relationships I am interested in and not interested in. I don’t<br />
want intimacy to be code for a space to express (reproduce) my<br />
insecurities.<br />
VIII. Donald Ewen. Ewen says I should prioritize “having fun.” Of<br />
course I should also always be moving toward the now’s kernel of<br />
growing qua the emergent self-structure that I arise as and through.<br />
But it could be good to balance this unceasing directionality with a<br />
movement toward now’s kernel of joy.<br />
IX. Production and Relation. The will to knowledge does not have<br />
an end. Instead, its resulting ends are its real effects and affects. For<br />
example, the experience of going on this run right now, and creating<br />
games of truths (see parts I-VIII) is (affect) and produces (effect).<br />
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