The Last Lecture
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<strong>The</strong> <strong>Last</strong> <strong>Lecture</strong><br />
Jai has gotten to know people locally who are also caregivers of<br />
spouses with terminal illnesses, and she finds it helpful to talk to them.<br />
If she needs to complain about me, or to vent about the pressure she’s<br />
under, these conversations have been a good outlet for her.<br />
At the same time, she tries to focus on our happiest times. When I<br />
was courting her, I sent her flowers once a week. I hung stuffed animals<br />
in her office. I went overboard, and—when I wasn’t scaring her off—she<br />
enjoyed it! Lately, she says, she’d been pulling up her memories of Randy<br />
the Romantic, and that makes her smile and helps her get through her<br />
down moments.<br />
Jai, by the way, has lived out a good number of her childhood<br />
dreams. She wanted to own a horse. (That never happened, but she has<br />
done a lot of riding.) She wanted to go to France. (That happened; she<br />
lived in France one summer in college.) And most of all, she dreamed as<br />
a girl of having children of her own someday.<br />
I wish I had more time to help her realize other dreams. But the<br />
kids are a spectacular dream fulfilled, and there’s great solace in that<br />
for both of us.<br />
When Jai and I talk about the lessons she has learned from our<br />
journey, she talks about how we’ve found strength in standing<br />
together, shoulder to shoulder. She says she’s grateful that we can<br />
talk, heart to heart. And then she tells me about how my clothes are<br />
all over the room and it’s very annoying, but she’s giving me a pass,<br />
all things considered. I know: Before she starts scribbling in her<br />
journal, I owe it to her to straighten up my mess. I’ll try harder. It’s<br />
one of my New Year’s resolutions.<br />
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