The Soft Issue (v.15)
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Volume 15 <strong>The</strong> <strong>Soft</strong> <strong>Issue</strong> Fall 2017
photography<br />
Jennifer Carrillo<br />
Saul G. Hodgers<br />
Keynan Johnson<br />
words<br />
Anaiah Lupton<br />
Emerson Price<br />
Diego Medina<br />
Keynan Johnson<br />
good eats<br />
Andie Fuller<br />
editors<br />
Darnell Thomas<br />
Mariah Romero<br />
illustration & design<br />
Lydia Abernathy<br />
Diego Medina<br />
Mariah Romero<br />
cover photography by Jennifer Carrillo | cover design by Mariah Romero
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hello<br />
Here at 1905 Magazine we believe that there is power in softness. Fall is the time<br />
where change is very present and it is happening right in front of our eyes. This<br />
season we want our readers to explore their soft side instead of spending so much of<br />
our time trying to keep up this facade and resisting anything that exudes emotions.<br />
For this issue we want to inspire our readers to be comfortable with being soft spoken,<br />
soft mannered and get in touch with those vulnerable sides that we hide from<br />
the world. Enjoy!<br />
Darnell & Mariah<br />
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CURIO<br />
Jennifer Carrillo | Curio x 1905<br />
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EDITOR’S WISHLIST (PAPER DOLLS)<br />
Lydia Abernathy<br />
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STYLE PROFILE<br />
Jeremy Salazar<br />
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SOFTNESS<br />
Anaiah Lupton
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CUTE & PASTE<br />
Saul G. Hodgers<br />
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UNTITLED<br />
Keynan Johnson<br />
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INSTAGRAM MY HEART<br />
Emerson Price<br />
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TURKISH LATTE<br />
Andie Fuller<br />
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NO SE MUERE<br />
Diego Medina<br />
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photography by Jennifer Carrillo | clothing by Curio | directed by 1905 Magazine | model,<br />
Mackenzie Sawyer<br />
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photographer, Hayley Rheagan | art direction, Darnell Thomas | model, Diego Medina<br />
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illustration by Lydia Abernathy<br />
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illustration by Lydia Abernathy
photography by Jennifer Carrillo | clothing design by Jeremy Salazar | models: Jeremy Salazar, Breana<br />
Gonzales & Sofia Resnik<br />
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MEET JEREMY SALAZAR<br />
WHAT’S YOUR BACKGROUND?<br />
I was born 1994 in the South Valley of Albuquerque, NM and was<br />
brought up into gang and drug culture. Later in my teenage years I got<br />
introduced to skateboarding and that opened me up to a different life<br />
style. I never had any experience in fashion but always recognized the<br />
unique styles skateboarders and gang members had. That pushed me to<br />
create my own look before I knew what a designer or artist was.<br />
WHAT DO YOU DO?<br />
I am a fashion art wear designer, photographer, film maker<br />
and skateboarder<br />
HOW DOES NEW MEXICAN CULTURE INFLUENCE YOUR<br />
WORK/STYLE?<br />
I would say it’s the magic in the desert that forces me to look inward. I<br />
feel like that energy creates the culture here naturally. <strong>The</strong>re are not many<br />
places to look for influence rather than nature itself, it’s beautiful out here.<br />
WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO BE A DESIGNER?<br />
Skateboarding culture inspired me to be a designer. It started off with my<br />
clothes ripping up from skating and not being able to afford clothes so I<br />
taught myself how to sew them back together. Plus skateboarding is filled<br />
with such diverse styles.<br />
WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE DESIGNERS RIGHT NOW?<br />
Matty Bovan, Yoyo Nasty, Dapper Dan and Jeremy Scott.<br />
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IF YOU COULD DELETE ONE TREND FROM THIS<br />
PLANET, WHAT WOULD IT BE?<br />
It’s this trend in skateboarding, people have been tying there sweaters<br />
from one shoulder diagonally to their hip, it’s like a crooked cape. And I<br />
just don’t get it?<br />
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR OF THE MOMENT?<br />
It must be orange because I’ve been incorporating orange foods into my<br />
diet lately and now wearing them. It’s something in the air, Trick or Treat!<br />
THREE WORDS TO DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONAL STYLE?<br />
Future, festival, punk.<br />
DO YOU LISTEN TO MUSIC WHILE YOU WORK? WHAT’S<br />
ON YOUR PLAYLIST RIGHT NOW?<br />
Yes I do! I enjoy working in silence as well. My playlist right now consists<br />
of these jams. A$ap Ferg-Nandos, TwoLips-Yellow Gold, Khalisol-What’s<br />
<strong>The</strong> Move.<br />
DO YOU CONSIDER CURRENT TRENDS WHILE DESIGNING?<br />
I think unconsciously I do because I’m always studying fashion. But I try<br />
to either transform the trend or do the complete opposite of it.<br />
WHAT’S NEXT?<br />
I want to do more travelling around the U.S and outside the country to<br />
meet up with other models and creators to continue building a community<br />
and inspire one another. It’s our time.<br />
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soft<br />
ness<br />
by Anaiah Lupton<br />
Have you ever been told to use your “indoor voice”? Have you ever been told to use<br />
your “lady voice”, or perhaps been hushed when you were too passionate and ruffled?<br />
What about the other side of this, have you ever been told to “let your voice be<br />
heard” or to make plain by using a booming tone? We are taught to behave relative<br />
to the environment we are in, but what can do you do if your behavior does not line<br />
up with your environment? What if the environment you are in induces a different<br />
reaction than what is socially acceptable? I have witnessed this exchange second<br />
hand from my friend who often finds herself in situations that calls for an energetic<br />
and lively response. She, however is often quiet and calm, like a steady lighthouse<br />
in an oceanic ferocity. At times, her quiet nature is is questioned for not rebelling<br />
against stereotypes and social constructs around quiet femininity, or stoicism is mistaken<br />
for weakness. To address this dynamic we first must look at the way in which<br />
these actions or reactions are socially constructed. <strong>The</strong> social constructs around<br />
speech variation are associated with gender, race, and age. We are taught to confine<br />
to these social constructs, situations vary, environments change, and the complexity<br />
of human nature often rebels against what is socially acceptable. It is these moments<br />
of rebellion which intrigue me. However, rebellion too varies and people combat<br />
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Cute & Paste: photography by Saul G. Hodgers | creative direction by Adrie<br />
Lagarda model: Alejandra de la Torre | make up & Hair: Fernanda Valenzuela<br />
nails by Ilse Mendez<br />
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their societal pressures in unique and mysterious ways. One example which I often<br />
refer to is my friend Aisha. Aisha is incredibly artistic, opinionated, cynical, and<br />
spontaneous. Her name translates to something like “alive and well” or “lively”.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se qualities along with the meaning of her name would warrant the image of a<br />
loud, or outspoken individual. However, Aisha is incredibly soft spoken. Her energy<br />
level is low and docile. She has soft physical features, dresses down, and spends a lot<br />
of time to herself. This contrast intrigues me because I realized that I often associate<br />
a soft spoken nature with a soft reaction to their environment. When I told this<br />
to Aisha she coined the infamous phrase “Don’t mistake the meek for the weak”.<br />
Aisha’s rebellious beliefs and art are expressed in a gentle way because she wants<br />
to change the environment around her rather than let the environment change her.<br />
Rather than speaking up, speaking loudly, or booming she seeks validation on her<br />
own terms. “If people want to listen, they will”. I pushed the issue a bit further and<br />
asked her about her experience as a woman and how her soft spoken nature may<br />
have fed into stereotypes around speaking in a “ladylike” voice. She sat in silence<br />
for a moment. I felt the room grow quiet, the silence build, and the softness of her<br />
essence began to bloom. “I don’t think there is anything wrong with being ladylike,<br />
or being quiet. Those are not the qualities that need to be changed to be treated<br />
equally. Instead we must change the associations we have around those qualities. I<br />
wanted to be treated equally for who I am rather than go against my nature to meet<br />
a standard or fit a mold to be treated equally.” We sat in the quiet for a bit longer,<br />
and then longer, and longer. This is how most of our conversations go. It’s funny<br />
because I have heard these interactions described as love, that you know you have<br />
found love when you can be in the presence of another, in silence and not feel that<br />
tinge of awkwardness or tension. If we know love can be found in silence what else<br />
can can be found, or what other strengths and rebellions are hidden in the softest,<br />
quietest places.<br />
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Untitled<br />
Your skin bathed in a hue amaryless<br />
rival to the moon’s eye on Mozambique,<br />
sings the glory of the Nile<br />
cherishes the precious<br />
cotton<br />
copper<br />
cocoa.<br />
ever enchanted Youniverse<br />
sing back to earth mother, first mother<br />
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poem & art by Keynan Johnson
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INSTAGRAM MY HEART<br />
by Emerson Price<br />
I’m tired of people calling me soft for calling my<br />
mom mommy as if they’ve never had a nickname<br />
for someone they love; like they’ve never<br />
had a girlfriend that sleeps with a stuffed animal<br />
at night; or like they haven’t cried them-self to<br />
sleep before. (If you haven’t you should try it)<br />
<strong>Soft</strong> haters are as tough as my one hundred and<br />
fifty dollar memory foam mattress. <strong>The</strong>y are as<br />
durable as the plastic ruler they measure us with.<br />
Big Brother is more like baby brother wearing<br />
older brothers t-shirt begging mommy and daddy<br />
for attention while we’re stuck holding his<br />
hand and wiping his butt. Maybe we can just<br />
gingerly pat him on the head and just reassure<br />
him in a soft comforting voice that “everything<br />
is going to be okay little buddy” while we take<br />
command of this crashing vehicle.<br />
What’s so hard about being soft, huh? Is it that<br />
you’re afraid of being walked over? Is it because<br />
you take yourself too seriously? You’re afraid of<br />
being rare? If Being <strong>Soft</strong> was a band would you<br />
buy tickets? Would you want to hear their words<br />
dance across the lobes of your ears like whispers<br />
from your favorite actor or writer. Chances are<br />
you’ve already been to a concert or listened to<br />
a song by an artist who is soft and you didn’t<br />
even revel in the moment. Shame. Maybe even<br />
just before sitting down to read this you caught<br />
a glance of someone across the room and for a<br />
moment you thought “did that really just happen?”<br />
Not because you were horny or flirting<br />
but because their eyes were soft and for a second<br />
you remembered you only human.<br />
Can we please stop pretending like being hard<br />
is cute because its starting to get really exhausting.<br />
So many people have died in their “hard<br />
ass” wake that at this point watching the TV<br />
pundits play “hardball” is starting to feel like<br />
flat out murder. This isn’t a video game, okay?<br />
You can’t just re spawn.<br />
to just be and they’ve made it hard for black<br />
and brown, gay and trans youth, and women<br />
and men to live. As they continue to be soft on<br />
people who think how they think we are finding<br />
out they Nazis have a found a home here in<br />
America. It’s like a sick joke. Neo-Nazis have<br />
felt at home in America. And this whole time<br />
we on the other side have been treated like the<br />
paranoid spouse; waking up late at night asking<br />
“what’s that noise!?” and being reassured<br />
that “It’s nothing just go back to sleep”. Pass. I<br />
heard something, didn’t you?<br />
<strong>The</strong>se past few years that I’ve come into my<br />
adulthood I’ve heard a lot of things and I’ve<br />
learned a lot of things. I learned that those<br />
people who called me soft when I was younger<br />
were soft too. For the longest time I tried to<br />
prove how tough I was by acting like my words<br />
didn’t matter. Someone once asked why do you<br />
choose to be so mean all the time. To which I responded<br />
“I don’t know” and I tried to explain.<br />
It’s like I don’t know any other way to handle<br />
someone when they make me upset other than<br />
being mean. <strong>The</strong>re’s something literally inside<br />
of me saying don’t be nice! Maybe I think it’s<br />
funny or maybe I just lack a certain level of<br />
empathy. I want to be soft but my actions have<br />
proved time and time that to the ones I care for<br />
the most; I’m an hardboiled egg. You can crack<br />
my shell and make me cry but that yolk is going<br />
to be really nasty. No matter how much cocoa<br />
butter I apply for some reasons hands are still<br />
dry and cracked. Maybe it’s just a part of my<br />
DNA, because for me it is really tough to be soft<br />
sometimes. You guys are the real MVP.<br />
So that being said I would like to enter a pact,<br />
a science experiment if you will. Help me make<br />
the world a better place by starting with being<br />
soft on one another. I hear it’s easy as making<br />
the choice right now. Should we do it?<br />
A lot of us have been to hell and back trying<br />
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What’s so hard<br />
about being soft, huh?<br />
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Turkish Latte<br />
recipe by Andie Fuller | photographer, Andie Fuller<br />
It’s that time of year. <strong>The</strong> air is brisk in the morning and we’re saying<br />
goodbye to daylight sooner every evening.<strong>The</strong> Autumn colors are<br />
starting to show, and our need to slow down is evident.<br />
It’s the perfect time to incorporate more thoughtful things in our<br />
lives, like this Turkish Latte. <strong>The</strong> extra time it takes to make in the<br />
morning will surely set your feet in the right direction all day. It’s<br />
great hot or cold, whole milk or almond - all the spices and warm<br />
honey will just light up your life, I promise.<br />
All the love,<br />
Andie<br />
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Ingredients & Instructions<br />
What you need<br />
2 Tablespoons honey<br />
½ teaspoon ground cardamom<br />
¼ teaspoon cinnamon<br />
¼ teaspoon nutmeg<br />
Dash of clove<br />
¼ cup milk of choice (whole, half and half, almond etc..)<br />
1 cup freshly brewed coffee<br />
What you do<br />
Put honey and spices in glass large enough to also hold brewed coffee<br />
Brew coffee, (I like doing a pour over).<br />
When coffee is ready pour over honey/spice mixture, stir to combine<br />
Add coffee/honey/spice mixture to milk of choice, if serving cold be<br />
sure to add your ice!<br />
Stir, sip and enjoy all the warm and fuzzy feelings from this 100% drink<br />
Fill almost all the way with ginger beer, add remaining ice cubes<br />
Give it a good stir and ENJOY!<br />
<strong>The</strong>re’s something comforting about spices in the colder months, they<br />
warm up our spirits. I hope you try this one out and that it warms up<br />
your day, wherever and whatever you’re doing.<br />
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no se muere<br />
poem & art by Diego Medina<br />
while the kernels are soaking<br />
i think about the huitlacoche<br />
that could have been.<br />
i think about all the primer<br />
grey cars I’ve ever seen.<br />
the crushed shells all together<br />
speeding through a yellow<br />
light in the middle of summer<br />
or pulling out of a circle k with the windows down<br />
chirping over the curb like a cricket<br />
or getting shielded by pigweed by the side of a trailer<br />
next to the crickets.<br />
all year i wait for posole<br />
like light waits for shadows.<br />
i wait for it to cool down<br />
enough to want to warm my body up<br />
with something i have to wait for<br />
to cool down<br />
i wait for the ash to break<br />
down the skin<br />
of the kernels<br />
to prime them like pearls<br />
And smooth them out like a fresh<br />
slab of concrete.<br />
patience through the senility of water<br />
as it repeats the same story to you<br />
over and over<br />
like thunder<br />
each time a different rumble.<br />
the edges of memories get rounded off<br />
like a rock in a riverbed<br />
becoming as smooth as a greyhound<br />
slicing through air as it runs.<br />
all things soften overtime.<br />
a rock in the riverbed<br />
Becomes as smooth<br />
as a greyhound<br />
slicing through air<br />
as it runs.<br />
the way the edges of memories get<br />
rounded<br />
off,<br />
the senility of water making scars out of stones.<br />
scars are always the softest parts<br />
of the skin.<br />
like leathering clay<br />
that no longer sticks to your fingers.<br />
the transgressions of nature being pardoned by other nature.<br />
nixtamal.<br />
it cuts out the wild toungues<br />
until all words are healed.<br />
and with voiceless years<br />
a scab on land that was always indian<br />
is ready to fall off.<br />
the husk is opening to the light<br />
that kisses every new love<br />
with the courtesy of never<br />
sharing what it’s been through.<br />
it’s the light that has to bring its own shadows<br />
and i think shadows are just sleeping<br />
light<br />
sometimes caught sleepless.<br />
this is where huitlacoche<br />
comes from.<br />
it paper maches itself<br />
within the husk<br />
at the edge of light and dark<br />
and softens both<br />
enough to hold back<br />
tension.<br />
enough to hold back.<br />
the friction of any border can only soften over time.<br />
night never fallls without a fight.<br />
i check on the kernels and<br />
then start placing<br />
picked squash blossoms<br />
into little bags to save for tomorrow.<br />
out the window i hear crickets<br />
and i notice the light change<br />
in the sky.<br />
the sun peels itself<br />
out of the sky<br />
like a scab.<br />
a primer grey civic glides down<br />
the road<br />
and i look at it<br />
only to see that<br />
the passenger door is held<br />
together with bailing wire.<br />
rasquache.<br />
the civic turns into a trailer park<br />
creeps around a corner<br />
out of sight as the whole<br />
barrio<br />
smelling like posole<br />
gets<br />
curled into the<br />
arm of a squash blossom.
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