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<strong>The</strong> <strong>Spark</strong> | Ignite/Connect/Achieve<br />
At <strong>The</strong> Bridge<br />
Depression is real and like all other illnesses, should not be<br />
kept under wraps but treated.<br />
- By Chisom Martin Ojukwu<br />
110km/h. That’s was the speed I was on that night, on Eko<br />
Bridge. Time was somewhere between 23:30 HRS and<br />
midnight, and I was going from Victoria Island to Surulere –<br />
a daily ritual. You know what else was a ritual? <strong>The</strong> lateness of the<br />
hour, the tiredness in my bones slowly seeping into my eyelids,<br />
and the heaviness in my heart. I was fatigued, in body and soul. I<br />
worked so hard, every day, at a job I didn’t like. I knew the things I<br />
wanted to do – to write, to speak, to act, to sing, to dance … to be<br />
free. But I couldn’t do those because they weren’t as financially<br />
secure as the 9 to 5. <strong>The</strong>y were not ‘stable’.<br />
Sound familiar?<br />
Somewhere on that stretch, between the CMS by-pass and the<br />
Apongbon tar valley, the twinkling of an oil vessel moored on<br />
the water caught my eye. It was lit up from bow to stern, top<br />
to bottom. <strong>The</strong> water all around it was serene; a calm liquid<br />
darkness that blended strangely with the ship’s lights. <strong>The</strong> whole<br />
picture was warm and beautiful, seductive, different from how I<br />
felt on the inside.<br />
That was when it happened. When the thought crossed my mind:<br />
“what if I drive over?”<br />
Suddenly the railings didn’t seem like much of a barrier, the<br />
vastness of the water drew closer and if I reached out, I might<br />
have touched it. I could almost feel the splashes on my face, cool<br />
and soothing. What if…?<br />
<strong>The</strong>n I snapped out of it. It was a fleeting thought, gone just as<br />
fast as it came. But it had happened.<br />
Sound familiar?<br />
Maybe it wasn’t a bridge and an alluring expanse of water. For<br />
you, it might have been a glittering knife, a bottle of swirling<br />
otapiapia, or the floor from a balcony 8 floors up. According to<br />
the US News & World Report, there are 9.3 million young people,<br />
like you and I, who have been depressed and entertained suicidal<br />
thoughts in the past year. In a research that spanned across<br />
all age groups, one common denominator was found in all<br />
affected people – stress. While I agree that this is nowhere near<br />
exhaustive, it’s good enough to pass, so we can focus, in this<br />
article, on what to do when you find yourself at such a bridge.<br />
What do you do when you’re depressed and having suicidal<br />
thoughts?<br />
First of all … go down low. No seriously, go down low … duck out<br />
of the way of all the stereotypes about depression. Depression is<br />
a curse? Duck. Suicide, even the most fleeting contemplation of<br />
it, is not an African thing? Duck. Strong (wo)men don’t choose to<br />
be depressed? Duck! Let them all fly above your head and land in<br />
the nearest pile of biodegradables. Because they’re balderdash,<br />
that’s why.<br />
“It is a common and serious mood disorder that alters how<br />
individuals think, feel, and behave. <strong>The</strong> symptoms can include<br />
feelings of hopelessness, rejection, poor concentration, lack<br />
of energy, sleep problems, and sometimes suicidal thoughts.<br />
Depression is not a choice; it is an illness.”<br />
– Psychology Today (2017).<br />
And last time I checked, it was perfectly normal to be ill.<br />
Second thing you could do, having accepted that those thoughts<br />
are merely symptoms of an illness, is do something. Of course,<br />
first choice for me would be to seek professional help. That is,<br />
speak to a psychologist, schedule counselling appointments,<br />
and attend them. Unfortunately many of us would balk at this<br />
option. Because ‘psychia’ is for mad people, and God forbid we<br />
be spotted there; the damage it would do to our reputation!<br />
*shudder*<br />
So there are other options, and they range from the mild – e.g.<br />
go out in the sun, call up friends, do something fun, join an online<br />
support group, attend master classes, pray – to the extreme – e.g.<br />
quit that job you hate, leave that abusive spouse. My personal<br />
favorite however, is making someone else happy. <strong>The</strong>re are<br />
tons of researched data explaining how acts of kindness release<br />
hormones that alleviate depression but perhaps the most<br />
convincing proof is not on any of those sites or study papers. It’s<br />
in your heart. <strong>The</strong> warm rush you feel when you do something<br />
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