Storyline Fall 2020
A quarterly magazine published by First Alliance Church (Calgary, Alberta) in this issue we highlight FAC people telling their stories.
A quarterly magazine published by First Alliance Church (Calgary, Alberta) in this issue we highlight FAC people telling their stories.
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While maybe not as much as in<br />
decades past, there still seems<br />
to be an expected order of steps<br />
in life – graduate, find a job, get<br />
married, have kids. For Carter and<br />
me, we were ticking off the boxes;<br />
we got married in 2007 after our<br />
post-secondary education, found<br />
employment, and were enjoying<br />
life as a young couple. Since we<br />
were married young (I was 21), we<br />
wanted to wait a few years before<br />
having kids so we could settle into<br />
married life together first. About 5<br />
or so years in we felt ready for the<br />
next step: start a family.<br />
Well, months passed … and months turned<br />
into years … and we found ourselves<br />
wondering if we could even have kids.<br />
What do you do when what you’re<br />
anticipating will happen … simply doesn’t<br />
come to pass? Can you relate? With COVID-19,<br />
I’m sure a lot of people can relate; you had<br />
plans for something to happen this year only<br />
to have it put on hold – perhaps indefinitely.<br />
For us, there was a lot of tentative but honest<br />
pillow talk. How badly did we want to have<br />
children? Should we get tested for infertility?<br />
Should we explore fertility treatments or<br />
adoption? There was a lot we had to sort out,<br />
not only individually but as a couple.<br />
I remember several years ago Heather<br />
Wile was praying for me during a one-onone<br />
meeting with her in her office, and<br />
she asked God to grant Carter and me the<br />
deepest desire of our hearts. I remember<br />
tears streaming down my face because at<br />
that point I just didn’t even know what the<br />
deepest desire of my heart was anymore.<br />
Did I really want to be a mom? What if I didn’t?<br />
What if I did, but didn’t want to adopt or<br />
pursue fertility options? There was a lot of<br />
angst in my heart. And while Carter and<br />
I were always open and transparent with<br />
each other, we didn’t really talk about it with<br />
others. Sure, our small group knew, and our<br />
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