SandScript 2021
Art & Literature Magazine
Art & Literature Magazine
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REPUDIATION<br />
Mauricia Manuel<br />
How do I present myself to the world, to my family?<br />
Show who I am when I’ve barely had enough time to figure it out.<br />
I’ve been up against the ropes, bound by sealed lips for too long,<br />
shushed and dismissed when my views are too different.<br />
I become a know-it-all when showing passion for facts, “too eager to show off.”<br />
But keeping quiet implies “I’m too good to fit in.”<br />
Sometimes I hold my tongue,<br />
but my temper tends to slip passed gritted teeth.<br />
I’ll kick and curse only to still go unheard,<br />
labeled less of a lady by the ears my venom reached.<br />
Always encouraged by pinched finger tips sliding across lips<br />
silencing my opinions, my plea to be me.<br />
I can smile politely and wait my turn to speak, maybe go unnoticed<br />
or I can be the child my mother forged from observation.<br />
Loud and demanding of attention,<br />
hated by all, but standing with strength.<br />
Cutting others with the sharpness of her tongue,<br />
rolling eyes and snapping fingers until she feels she’s won.<br />
Believing such a hard shell is always necessary loses your courtesy,<br />
the softness gone from your face and mind, becoming an obtuse persona.<br />
I’m only wanting to speak how I feel, say what I want, to be who I am,<br />
without being accused of being my mother’s daughter.<br />
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