SandScript 2021

RIPPED AND SCATTERED
Mark Anthony Ferguson
When your soulmate leaves you,
it’s like leaving the dentist after having your wisdom teeth removed.
You wake up feeling nothing and no senses seem to work properly.
You feel nothing for quite a while until the pain hits you like a wall.
And when it hits, you find the pain is merciless.
You take old memories like meds to try to soothe yourself,
only to find out that meds don’t work on pain like this.
When your soulmate leaves you,
It’s like leaving the dentist after having your wisdom teeth removed,
A part of you has been ripped out.
When your soulmate leaves you,
It’s like you lose all your leaves, like the trees in autumn after a long, fruitful summer.
Each moment of investment flutters to the ground.
They are raked up, played with, then disposed of.
When winter hits, you try to hide in your new clothes; frozen, stripped, colorless.
Your skeleton feels like a pile of ridiculous sticks in snow,
With the potential to become a snowman, but no such thing is made.
When your soulmate leaves you,
It’s like you lose all your leaves like the trees in autumn after a long, fruitful summer.
Little bits of you lie scattered on the ground.
When your soulmate leaves you,
You feel numb and empty.
Your memories haunt you, perhaps forever.
The worst is when your soulmate tells you they love you while en route to another person’s heart.
You gave all your love like an addict who spent all they have on coke.
You feel lower than the dirt, no, like you’re frozen in outer space,
When your soulmate marries someone else.
When your soulmate leaves you,
You wish the best for whoever they are with.
A part of you is ripped out and scattered on the ground.
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