SandScript 2021
Art & Literature Magazine
Art & Literature Magazine
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I am raped by white culture<br />
and grow up thinking<br />
that I am La Malinche<br />
not the mother<br />
who helped birth our people<br />
but the traitor<br />
who thinks her own culture<br />
not worthy<br />
of being studied<br />
made to feel like it is my own fault<br />
I take French lessons because Spanish<br />
reminds me of summers<br />
in Nogales<br />
and how small I felt<br />
inside my father’s big house<br />
on top of a hill<br />
with a thousand stairs to reach it<br />
from up there I am reminded<br />
that I belong to<br />
the other side<br />
of the border<br />
I am white (passing)<br />
until I exist<br />
in white spaces<br />
then<br />
I am other<br />
beaner<br />
brown<br />
ese<br />
I am called wetback<br />
because so many who look like me<br />
float across a river<br />
searching for the dreams<br />
that white men sold them<br />
for pesos by the hour<br />
and while their backs are wet<br />
with water<br />
that brings life<br />
the men here have hands<br />
that are soaked<br />
in blood<br />
blood of the past<br />
blood of the present<br />
blood of the future<br />
the same border that is only<br />
200 years old<br />
and cuts deep into the histories<br />
of ancestors that I don’t know of<br />
because it is like an open wound<br />
festering and bleeding<br />
over soils that are not even tended<br />
by the hands that claimed it<br />
as their own<br />
For my ancestors<br />
this is the promised land<br />
Aztlán<br />
but all we are given are<br />
broken promises<br />
from conquistadors<br />
that say we are<br />
illegal<br />
alien<br />
on land that they claim<br />
to have discovered<br />
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