Equations: Dialectic Form (2021)
This 2021 edition of Equations, by Adam Fieled, features the dialectic form introduced in the second print edition of Equations in 2018, and three new pieces added in 2021.
This 2021 edition of Equations, by Adam Fieled, features the dialectic form introduced in the second print edition of Equations in 2018, and three new pieces added in 2021.
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Of human bondage: Trish keeps me down at the heels. It always involves
someone else: I get picked up and dropped as others present themselves,
disappear. When I fade into the wilderness, it is with an incomplete sense
of self. Trish has lopped off a part of me and fastened it to her chest. For
eight months, my spirit life is a limbo; I go up and down with Trish’s
tides. By mid-summer, I have claimed her, using the diabolical as a
resource. Yet I still take her with the fierceness born of thwarted passion.
At the moment I release myself, her head snaps to the side, there is a
sharp intake of breath, and her blue eyes pop open and bulge. My body
wants to go into her as far as possible, to get myself back. I learn the pure
deliciousness of angry sex. The house she lives in has no central air; we
sweat through the long nights. Trish’s room looks out on a small
courtyard, with a central concrete patch and grass around. When we’re
stoned, I see Blakean striations in these little grass-plots; the smallness,
tenderness, greenness. Me and Trish are often stoned; we escape our jobs,
our uncertain futures (are we to be geniuses or nonentities), our sense of a
moribund United States (collapsed towers still fresh in our minds), even
the brittle hopes that hurt more often than not. The seeds we plant in
those little grass-plots spill over onto the concrete.
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