Equations: Dialectic Form (2021)
This 2021 edition of Equations, by Adam Fieled, features the dialectic form introduced in the second print edition of Equations in 2018, and three new pieces added in 2021.
This 2021 edition of Equations, by Adam Fieled, features the dialectic form introduced in the second print edition of Equations in 2018, and three new pieces added in 2021.
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When I take Lisa to bars, there’s still an edge of innocence. We often feel
like intruders; we haven’t learned the rules and folkways. But Trixie Belle
is the one who puts the zap on my head about bars, and the lives that play
themselves out there. When I meet her years later, she hasn’t changed
much. Her posture, the image it creates, is still hard. This time, however, I
have graduated out of bars. I can no longer stand the posturing, the
moves, the head-games. Trixie Belle refuses, as before, to be touched
much. I can run my hands all over her body but her clothes stay on. The
situation disintegrates because this time I won’t buy her drinks. If she
wants a six-pack for breakfast, she has to pay for it herself; if she’s going
to enter my apartment, she’s not to do any damage. To the extent that
anyone, male or female, can tame Trixie Belle, I have tamed her. In six
years, I have learned certain things. I know that, whatever outward
circumstances determine one’s life, having a mind of some cleanliness
matters most. There are clean bums and dirty Presidents; clean janitors
and dirty CEOs. Whatever I say to Trixie Belle, it’s put through such a
damaged filter that nothing gets in, nothing is retained; so what is she
doing here? My weakness dictates that if a beautiful woman wants some
kind of succor, I will give it to her; that I am a servant to all forms of
female beauty. I have my own cleanliness issues and this is one of them.
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