Expand Magazine - Volume 6 Issue 2
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eXPAND | BE MORE /16<br />
living<br />
LUMIN<br />
By Dr. Meghan Nelson<br />
& Dr. Ryan Allen<br />
“For a time I rest in the grace of the<br />
world, and am free.<br />
”<br />
– Wendell Berry<br />
Copper Bay Solitude.<br />
Snow Day in Alaska<br />
B<br />
efore Meghan and I had kids, we had Alaska.<br />
It was magical, a kind of time before time, as<br />
it’s now hard to remember or even imagine<br />
our lives before our children. And being in<br />
the full throes of parenthood with a 13 yearold,<br />
an 11 year-old, and a 9-year-old to keep up with, we<br />
don’t spend a lot of time looking back on days before we<br />
had them. On most days, I’m just happy if I remember to<br />
brush my teeth.<br />
But here we are at the beginning of the year, home for days,<br />
now watching the snow blow and fall in the midst of a high<br />
wind, sub-zero blizzard. Just a couple days in, it’s reminiscent<br />
of the pandemic—schools and businesses closed, sports<br />
shut down, life outside shifted inside. It’s a kind of cross<br />
between begrudged ecstasy and bored delight.<br />
One can only shovel so much.<br />
But somewhere out there in that snowfield Earth, my vision<br />
narrows as my eyelashes and eyebrows freeze. My breath<br />
blows wild in the wind. I follow it down a snowy white path in<br />
my mind and come to a winterland paradise. I see it all, what<br />
was as it was, but here and now all present—a life within Life,<br />
a self within Self, staring starry-eyed at the Northern Lights<br />
outside the Schwabenhof. I’m dodging moose in the streets<br />
of Anchorage at the Fur Rendezvous, grooving with Michael<br />
Franti and Spearhead, dancing with dogs at the Iditarod<br />
in Wasilla, hammering the halibut (and Basil Hayden) with<br />
Spike and Zach in the Prince William Sound, fishing king’s on<br />
the Deshka, so many memories, so much fun.<br />
These moments are a gift from the past reborn in the present.<br />
Valentine’s Day in Palmer, Alaska<br />
We walk on foot after foot of thick slippery-slick Matanuska<br />
River frozen ice.<br />
Last night, word of a moose mounting and stomping a man<br />
walking out of a Fred Meyer grocery store in Anchorage. Today,<br />
rumor of a moose jumping off a cliff and landing on the Seward<br />
Highway. “Look Daddy, moose are falling from the sky,” a small<br />
boy is reported saying.<br />
Lazy Mountain, thirty-five hundred feet tall, Matanuska Peak,<br />
five grand, loom above, pictures fixed on a gray sky wall. At<br />
our feet, bubbles trapped in ice, ribs and ripples in underwater<br />
frozen ice waves, circular crystal fractal prisms where ice<br />
fishermen once drilled holes and dropped their lines.<br />
Individuals who weather the entire Alaska winter are called<br />
sourdoughs. A posted warning in painted bold green:<br />
“TRESPASSERS WILL BE SHOT!”<br />
Off the ice, on the boot-packed powder dust we see moose<br />
tracks and nibbled buds, trimmed hedges, hundreds of<br />
thousands of black birch and spruce trees, and a single tiny<br />
saucer-shaped bird nest planted and situated firm in the fork<br />
of some birch branches.<br />
We walk, tucked away ourselves, settled and nestled between<br />
two distant glaciers—the Knik, pronounce the “K,” and the<br />
Matanuska, blowing ten thousand year clean and cold, crisp<br />
and old air in our direction.<br />
Our fingers, our eyes locked, hand in hand, palm to palm, flesh<br />
to flesh, warm body to warm body, vision to vision.<br />
On the side of the road, two moose nibbling on birch buds.