May-June 2011 - The Journey
May-June 2011 - The Journey
May-June 2011 - The Journey
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A year later<br />
Costa Rica was majestic but just an escape. One day I<br />
stood on the beach, early in the morning, long before anyone<br />
woke up and began sobbing uncontrollably. I realized that the<br />
whole time I had been on these beaches with hot Costa Rican<br />
men was just a rich way to take me out of waking up.<br />
One day an internal voice spoke, and it said something<br />
like: “Dude, you have some serious work to do. Go home.”<br />
So I went home. And not just home to the town that I lived in<br />
before. No, I am talking home like the source of all the problems<br />
in the first place. I moved back in with my parents.<br />
And in renunciation I start to feel full<br />
of forgiveness. I forgive my mom, my<br />
dad, my sister. I forgive boyfriends<br />
No. 1, 2 and 3 for not living up to my<br />
expectations. I forgive myself. I start<br />
to feel strong.<br />
And here is where the real search begins. This is where I<br />
learn to be patient. This is where I learn that people are different<br />
and that it’s OK. This is where I learn from other people’s<br />
mistakes and habits and patterns. This is where I learn what<br />
I don’t want to be. I learn how to be better. How to mind my<br />
business. How to respect.<br />
I learn to see all the things beyond what my basic lens<br />
“You can feel the energy<br />
of the land; it moves<br />
you. <strong>The</strong>re’s no place<br />
like it!”<br />
– Festival Participant<br />
T h e Jo u r n e y<br />
BRUSHWOOD SUMMERFEST<br />
“Celebrate the Creative Spirit”<br />
July 18-24<br />
perceives. I learn to stay open. This is where I learn to love<br />
unconditionally. I learn that every time a conflict comes up,<br />
it’s just so I can learn to love regardless – relentlessly, wholeheartedly.<br />
I see we all have our luggage (or for some of us cargo<br />
trucks) full of stuff that we carry with us. Things we don’t<br />
want. Things we don’t need but yet we still hold on like it’s<br />
our ticket home. This is where I learn to let go. And in letting<br />
go this is where I find freedom. And in finding freedom this is<br />
where I find a true home.<br />
Three years later<br />
I begin to watch humility come to me just by giving up<br />
on my own thought of what everything should look like. And<br />
in renunciation I start to feel full of forgiveness. I forgive my<br />
mom, my dad, my sister. I forgive boyfriends No. 1, 2 and 3<br />
for not living up to my expectations. I forgive myself. I start<br />
to feel strong.<br />
My container feels primal. I do a lot of yoga. I breathe<br />
deep. I get bigger than any small, puny problem. I tattoo “Love<br />
Thyself” on my wrist as a reminder to never forget where I’ve<br />
come from. And I continue to search, to open and to commit<br />
every single day of my life.<br />
<strong>The</strong> second we give up the search is the exact moment<br />
that life lives us rather than us living life. So we keep our eyes,<br />
arms and hearts open, in tune and attuned with the search for<br />
something that we already had in us all along: peace.<br />
No regrets; just the knowing that if I had to trash my boyfriend’s<br />
room when I was 24 just to find a little bit of peace,<br />
then so be it. I wouldn’t take any of it back. It’s all part of the<br />
journey.<br />
sanctuary for the open mind<br />
Come Enjoy 2 Weeks Of Festivals During July <strong>2011</strong>!<br />
Promoting creativity and spiritual growth in a community setting<br />
SIRIUS RISING<br />
“Home Is Where the Spirit Is”<br />
July 11-17<br />
Longest event of its kind in the USA<br />
Presenters/Performers: Janet Farrar, Gavin Bone,<br />
Diana Paxson, Waterband, <strong>The</strong> Mickey’s,<br />
Peter Janson, Telling Point, Kellianna, Kenny Klein,<br />
Dragon Ritual Drummers & Many More<br />
Over 100 Workshops: Mind-Body-Soul, Art,<br />
Drumming, Dancing, Sacred Fires, Kids' Programs<br />
Enjoy: Labyrinth, Hot Showers, Hiking Trails,<br />
Pool & Hot Tub.<br />
Prices: $130 Each Week (7 days/6 nights)<br />
$50 Weekend Only (Fri – Sun)<br />
Go to www.Brushwood.com or call 716-761-6750 for campground information and more details.<br />
Ma y • Ju n e <strong>2011</strong> Pa g e 15<br />
LLC