Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
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The girl places a new glass of beer before the son, and I reach down and grab<br />
her delicate small wrist and ask, “Do you want to see where cinnamon is made?”<br />
“Ja vel,” she smiles widely, “ja vel.”<br />
“Ja vel,” I scream to my father who stands gobsmacked at the open door of the<br />
café below, rising into the air like Errol Flynn, hoisting my rescued woman in tow,<br />
“means, yes, a fucking lot.”<br />
The door to my Studio City condo slams behind me, and I am greeted by my cat,<br />
Bertram. Sitting on the couch and listening to him purr as I scratch his ear, I<br />
remember the other reality of that Saturday afternoon, one of many afternoons in<br />
Amsterdam that blurred into night. My father charmed the girl behind the bar and<br />
anyone else within eyesight to show me how he is better at everything than I would<br />
ever be. We took a cab to the Hotel Pulitzer, drank some more, then took a cab to<br />
another bar in the red-light district filled with drunken Scots and Jorty oil rig workers<br />
who liked to fight—the one where the deflowering party took place. I just shut up and<br />
kept splitting because that is my way to handle this situation. Luckily I don’t drink<br />
anymore, but I still shut up because I don’t know how to do anything else when I am<br />
with someone with whom I want to matter to. I really do wish I had come with a set of<br />
instructions: To exorcise ghosts, do A, then B. To find the one you love and have her<br />
find you, look for A, say B, then do.<br />
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