Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
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PALE KREYÓL?<br />
<strong>Diverse</strong> <strong>Voices</strong> <strong>Quarterly</strong>, Vol. 1, <strong>Issue</strong> 3 & 4 69<br />
by<br />
Anna Steegmann<br />
When I was ten, I dreamt of leaving Germany to become an assistant to Albert<br />
Schweitzer. Nuns and priests who worked in Tanzania visited our church every year.<br />
They brought the promise of adventure in faraway lands. They showed us slides of the<br />
bush and savanna, swamps and riverine forests, along with the orphanages, schools,<br />
chapels, and dispensaries they had built. We were to collect money and to pray for the<br />
souls of African people. Overcome by Fernweh 1 , I pictured myself living in a hut at the<br />
foot of the Serengeti. Dressed in a prim light-blue uniform, a large crucifix dangling<br />
from my neck, I’d be tending to poor orphans.<br />
I am no longer a Catholic, and I never made it to sub-saharan Africa. Working in<br />
Flatbush, a Caribbean neighborhood in Brooklyn, with Haitian children was about as<br />
close as I was to get to my childhood dream. It was 1988—the height of the crack<br />
epidemic. Flatbush was full of danger and menace. Gang members and drug dealers<br />
ruled the street. Children were either in school or locked up at home for their own<br />
safety. Holy Innocents School was like a besieged fortress. Neither teachers nor<br />
students dared to venture out for lunch to the nearby Roti stand.<br />
On my second day at Holy Innocents School, I was startled by loud knocking on<br />
my office door. Before I had a chance to get up, a middle-aged portly woman pushed a<br />
skinny boy into my office. “I’m Ms. Roberts, the fourth grade teacher. Are you the new<br />
counselor?” she said. “I got someone to watch my class, so I could bring Gladimir<br />
down to you. I’ve had it with him. This child is going to give me a heart attack.”<br />
“What’s wrong?” I asked.<br />
“Gladimir does everything he can to annoy me. He argues. He swears. He<br />
knocks over the chairs in the classroom. When he doesn’t get his way, he throws<br />
books at the other children. Every little thing sets him off.”<br />
Gladimir, a handsome boy with a coffee-colored complexion, was small for his<br />
age. His school uniform was messy; the blue short-sleeve shirt hung outside his<br />
pants, and his plaid tie was splattered with peanut butter. His eyes were enormous<br />
and solemn. When I looked at him, Gladimir stared at the floor. “Keep him for the rest<br />
of the day. I don’t want him back in my class room,” Ms. Roberts said and rushed out<br />
of the room.<br />
1 There is no word in the English language for Fernweh. The opposite of Heimweh (homesickness) it is<br />
the longing for the faraway, the desire for new experiences. It is often translated with another German<br />
word: wanderlust.