Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
Volume 1, Issue 3 & 4 - Diverse Voices Quarterly
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Want some lotion? she asked. If I’d said yes, she’d have known I wanted to<br />
touch her or at least something her hands had held. If I’d said no, she wouldn’t have<br />
noticed.<br />
It was just lotion, thick, purple, fruity hand lotion, but I said no.<br />
She put it away and I told her I had sensitive skin, that I used to be a paperwhite<br />
blonde, so blonde that in black-and-white photographs, my hair and face were<br />
white with two black spots for eyes and a grouper’s gape for a mouth.<br />
What color is your hair now? she asked. As if she couldn’t see and she was<br />
looking, staring at my hair, trying to strip off the years and see the baby white.<br />
Gray, I answered. I shook it at her.<br />
How often do you color it? she asked. Her tone was even, neutral. She held up<br />
her end of the conversation, but she was bored. I’d known her long enough to know.<br />
I color it when I want, when I remember. I didn’t say I wouldn’t let my hands<br />
touch those toxic chemicals. I pay some drug addict who found God in a beauty salon<br />
to do my hair. She has the touch. When she washes my hair, I hear angels sing.<br />
Linda Jean tilted her head back and held her water bottle two inches above her<br />
lips. She shot a steady stream of water down her throat, and I watched her swallow<br />
like a long-necked heron. The boat rocked; I spread my legs to dry my wet thighs in<br />
the sun.<br />
Linda Jean jabbed my waist with her finger. Good dive, she said. I grabbed the<br />
water bottle. Hey, I said. I’m thirsty. The boat shook as another diver climbed on<br />
board, and the water dribbled down my neck and between my breasts. Linda Jean’s<br />
long smooth finger circled the hollow in my throat. She leaned over and blew on the<br />
water dripping down my chest, and because it was freshwater against salted skin, she<br />
painted secret signs on my body.<br />
Are you a lesbian? Linda Jean asked me this with all the seriousness of a<br />
woman passing out religious tracts.<br />
She might as well have asked Have You Found God?<br />
No, I said. I think there is no word for what I am.<br />
Linda Jean let out a whoop and from the wheel the dive master looked at us. He<br />
honked the boat horn.<br />
Linda Jean bared her lovely feet, her booties and fins thrown to the side.<br />
Without her wetsuit she was small and thin and the color of amaretto. I waited for the<br />
dive master to pull up anchor. The open sea relieved me; for miles I saw waves<br />
strengthening as they crossed the space between the horizon and our boat.<br />
Linda Jean rested on the bench with her head in my lap. Turning away from the<br />
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