We Will Not Go Quietly - Centre Against Sexual Assault
We Will Not Go Quietly - Centre Against Sexual Assault
We Will Not Go Quietly - Centre Against Sexual Assault
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ANNE-MARIE C.<br />
A HEALING JOURNEY<br />
What words can encapsulate who<br />
I am, who I have become given<br />
the circumstances...? I came on<br />
Earth once more. I so wanted to.<br />
Deep inside, I found a source of<br />
contentment, of being OK. All I need<br />
is to walk that way again, and again,<br />
and again...<br />
For Anne-Marie’s full story see:<br />
http://notgoquietly.tumblr.com<br />
11<br />
When we let life unfold its deep crevices,<br />
when we dare to sit through these,<br />
then life naturally takes us back out.<br />
–<br />
If you had asked the little girl I was to describe her idea of a heroine, the<br />
image she’d have painted would have been of a woman, a ‘real’ one, strong<br />
and feminine, elegant, someone who had battled to overcome something big,<br />
able to say things that mattered to her, able to stand behind these, someone<br />
one could approach and conide in, a woman who had travelled and seen the<br />
world - a genuine heroine!<br />
Recently, in the dark of the enwrapping night, I realised that I, the adult<br />
woman, had become that heroine.<br />
How did I, as a child, come to distinguish and free myself from the prison<br />
walls I was entrapped in? Who to trust when the very people who are<br />
supposed to give you love keep on hurting you day in, day out? Which<br />
direction do you turn when even your own body is feeling ever so heavy, tight,<br />
clogged, in pain? Can you trust in the messages it is giving you at all? If so,<br />
what words are there to say what aches so much?<br />
So many questions. I suppose what led me all the way has been the very<br />
body I felt so tightly conined in. It’s a paradox, isn’t it. And yet... when the<br />
body you’re in aches so much for no physical reason, when every day is a<br />
struggle to live, when your parents are the ones inlicting so much aching, if<br />
even in your bones you don’t feel safe, then there’s got to be something that<br />
leads the way: the pain! That feeling of heightened tenderness where the<br />
wounds are irst inscribed in the lesh, a kind of open bleeding.