We Will Not Go Quietly - Centre Against Sexual Assault
We Will Not Go Quietly - Centre Against Sexual Assault
We Will Not Go Quietly - Centre Against Sexual Assault
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CHE KOALA<br />
DUTY OF CARE<br />
Che Koala is a blogger at ‘Wobbly<br />
teetering blogging’ where she blogs<br />
about the good, the bad and the ugly<br />
of autoimmune conditions, physical<br />
disability and - what is all too often<br />
- their invisible impact on social<br />
interactions and expectations.<br />
http://multiplesclerosisprincess.<br />
blogspot.com<br />
21<br />
From where we sat waiting we could hear the leukaemia kids crying once<br />
they were taken behind the doctor’s door. The stark heads of the ones still<br />
on the waiting chairs had an eerie neatness, were orderly and aged. Their<br />
stoic waiting somehow made their later crying more piercing.<br />
‘Come on that’s us,’ my mother would call and we would walk to the other<br />
end of the corridor. <strong>We</strong> would cross a threshold without me crying. It was a<br />
mystery what was beyond their door making them cry.<br />
I was eleven. He would sit at his desk to start with. He was immensely tall<br />
and immensely old. This visit, upon my mother seating herself, he announced<br />
from over his glasses, that, according to his learned diagnosis, I was entering<br />
puberty. I became an apparition. ‘Oh she’s embarrassed.’ I willed myself to<br />
loat out the window. ‘<strong>We</strong>ll let’s have a look,’ he commanded. He stood up,<br />
came around from his side of the enormous desk then paused. I felt him<br />
watch me climb up onto the examining table. His long, learned face leaned<br />
from a long, long way away. My mother sat in front of us. Her chair faced the<br />
desk and the window light. Just like all the other visits. As usual, he paused to<br />
pull the hospital curtain semi way around the table screening the end of the<br />
examination from the light coming through the window. Making a dim corner.<br />
Did he realise?<br />
As he did every visit, he pulled my top up and leaned over with his<br />
stethoscope. He pressed my lesh. I had a history of being ticklish.<br />
The cold lat of his stethoscope pressed against my chest. His breathing<br />
came without excuse into my ears as he checked whether my heart was<br />
working. His ingers ostensibly prodded my stomach checking whether there<br />
was anything below the surface.