Journal 2012 Journal 2012 - Kriya Yoga Institute

were administering some medicine to you. You looked at me and closedyour eyes. We were giving you a gentle massage on the body.Early in the next morning, maybe for 15 or 20 minutes, I slept in thecorner of the room on the floor while others looked after you. Dr.Barkett came to check on you and emphasized the decline in yourhealth. I got up and touched your feet and found that your feet werecold up to the knee. I told Katharine Ma you would leave today. Itelephoned Miami ashram to inform everybody that anything couldhappen at any time. I told them to tell the local disciples and everybodyfrom the ashram that they could come and see you. Again the lower partof your body became a little warmer. I knew clearly that you wereleaving, but still playing with us. Durga Ma, Elizabeth Ma, oursecretary, Karen Ma, and many disciples from Miami and northernFlorida came to the hospital. Along with others, Dr. Chandrasekharafrom Winterhaven also came to see you.In the morning you played a trick on us. Again, your feet became warm.The hope of recovery was there. Nonetheless, you looked at me andspoke your last words. You said, “Peace, bliss, love, joy, divinity.”Uttering these words, you took my right hand. I was leaning on you;then you took my right hand and placed it on your lower belly, gentlyindicating to massage. While I was massaging you, people were comingand going. Slowly you were more peaceful, opening your eyes, lookingat us. During this period in the hospital, it was so beautiful in one way.Sometimes, you would open your eyes and look at me and the others.Your smile was so meaningful and so loving. I have never seen such abeautiful smile on anybody´s face, anywhere, even on your face. It wasa divine heavenly smile.The Swamis came to the hospital. Shuddhanandaji started chanting theBhagavad Gita. I think he chanted it continuously three times. I toldothers to meditate and chant the Mahamritunjaya mantra, andShuddhanandaji´s voice choked. I told him to have strength. We weresending information to India and other ashrams from the hospital.Gurudev, your breath was slow and irregular, and all of us were veryattentive. We started chanting the Gayatri mantra and looking at you.That evening, you were breathing in a very special way. One inhalation,a pause of some seconds, then another exhalation and another inhalation21