The Positivity Issue (v.13)

It’s moments like that where everything comes
into focus that the solution can be simple. I don’t
think I have to say that I didn’t commit suicide
that night.
I walked into class the next day. The professor
was in the front of the room eyeing everyone that
walked in.
“Do you have your assignment?” She said. I think I
was one of two people who didn’t. There was a girl
in the class named Sara who had always done her
homework on time, she had an in with the teacher.
“How come you didn’t prepare for the final Austin?”
I shrugged it off thinking about where I had
been in the past fourteen hours. There was nothing
to say.
“Did you know you can buy Marquita a box of
chocolates, and she’ll pass you?” My jaw was on
the floor.
There’s a point in pure chaos when everything
stops and the air is calm. It’s called the eye of
the storm. That’s where I operate; in full throttle
crashing into all the other atoms around me, vibrating
at the perfect frequency to become a solid.
I find peace in knowing myself, because the truth
sets me free. My favorite line in a song this year,
and probably forever is:
“I know you think it’s fake, maybe fake’s what I like”
“
qualities either, but
this is what I need
in my life right now.
You can either get on board or you can get out of
my life.” I love that! That line is about acceptance.
I accept that I am still that fifteen year old who is
that twenty-three year old who will be a thirty- five
year old in chaos trying to graduate high school
with a smile and positive thinking. The truth is;
it’s impossible. I had to get a lot of things rolling
before I was able to walk the stage with my friends
that day.
What I learned from all those experiences is that
life is unpredictable; it literally makes no sense. Yes
there is structure and rigor but only in an attempt
to put a method to the madness. Don’t stress. Life is
like a workshop. Everyday I wake up, I have to work
to clear the fog and tackle the days obstacles. It’s not
easy, and sometimes I feel my past selves wanting
to take charge. But, honestly, I would describe that
more as me letting go. We have to take control.
Long story short what ever it is you’re doing, you’re
doing just fine. If you are alive, you are winning,
and if you are deceased you’ll be back soon. Love
the people around you and be positive. I promise
it will all work out, or your money back.
“Life should be made as simple as possible, but not
much simpler” -Albert Einstein
I find peace in knowing
myself, because the
truth sets me free.”
-New Person, Same Old Mistakes Currents 2015
As cliche as that band is the line is special to me. In
a hyperbolic way it says “Maybe you don’t believe
that jumping over shrubs makes me feel closer to
God, and maybe I’m not so sure of its spiritual
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