Equity Magazine August 2017 Issue
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So with To The Bone, you had personal experience of<br />
anorexia, right? When you were approached about it<br />
were you immediately like ’yes, I want to draw on it’ or<br />
was there a wariness and you weren’t sure whether you<br />
wanted to make that part of your life something to put<br />
on the screen?<br />
So I was sent the script by my team who didn’t know my<br />
association with it [anorexia] at all - they just thought it was an<br />
amazing opportunity for an actor. I’d ironically just written a<br />
chapter in my book about my experience with eating disorder a<br />
week before, so I was already reliving it by reading journals<br />
from that time period. It was like the world in a kismet situation<br />
saying ’this is something that maybe you need to expand upon,<br />
something you can may bring to more people - start a larger<br />
conversation.’ Before I read the script I was hesitant to step<br />
back into those shoes when I’d gone so far away from them but<br />
I also figured it’s about telling a larger story, so I gave it a shot<br />
and when I did it hit me in the gut - the writing was so spot on;<br />
I could really relate to some of the experiences in it. It was witty<br />
and had this dark humour that I think only someone who’d<br />
gone through it could write. It was semi-autobiographical for<br />
Marti [Noxon, the writer-director] so that made total sense,<br />
and when I finished it I called up right away and was like ’I have<br />
to meet with somebody about this.’ I met with Marti who had<br />
no idea about my connection with it whatsoever; we started<br />
talking, had a little bit of a lovefest and I explained to her my<br />
association with it and what I could relate to. And that was it<br />
really, I went home and expressed to my team my hopes of her<br />
liking me and she expressed her hopes of me liking her and it<br />
was kind of like a marriage from there.<br />
A film like that needs the humour doesn’t it, otherwise it<br />
can get a bit morbid.<br />
Yeah, it’s already a dark subject matter so you want to make<br />
sure you have lightness in there. Also, there’s a real truth to<br />
dark humour being used as a deflection from issues, especially<br />
with this kind of topic, you don’t want to address the elephant<br />
in the room, you just want to deflect, deflect, deflect. I<br />
personally used dark humour or in general in that way and so<br />
did Marti. My character, Ellen, is very sarcastic and fun and<br />
witty - she’s a bright young women who got a lot of darkness<br />
in there.<br />
And the scenes where you looked very emaciated, I’m<br />
guessing some it was body doubles, some of it was VFX?<br />
So some of it was me, some was a young woman who was in<br />
recovery, and they kind of molded the two of us together.<br />
The shot at the end is obviously not me that’s CGI, but it’s a<br />
dream sequence so you can kind of allow that.<br />
You obviously had to stay really thin for the role as well,<br />
was it weird having to go back to the kind of behaviour<br />
you’d put behind you, in terms of really worrying about<br />
what you eat?<br />
It was, but what was weird about it was someone else telling<br />
me what I could and couldn’t eat. It wasn’t about the<br />
satisfaction of me controlling it, it was actually being held<br />
accountable by a professional. And I started to go like, 'well<br />
maybe I want to eat that,’ and I had to remind myself it’s for a<br />
greater purpose. So, I wanted to eat, whereas before it would<br />
have been me telling myself I didn’t. It was interesting being<br />
held accountable throughout the process; I had a lot of<br />
people supporting me to help me through it. But also, I feel<br />
proud of the fact that, because of the regimen and<br />
supplements I was on as well as constantly eating throughout<br />
the day, I never forgot my lines, I was never late and never<br />
skipped out on work or was ever overly tired, and I had a<br />
great time shooting. I think a lot of what propelled me<br />
forward was that I was so passionate about the story and<br />
determined to get through it, make it to the end and have that<br />
feeling of pride. I knew the greater purpose of the story was<br />
much bigger than myself and that there was potential for<br />
change after this movie or at least a conversation starting<br />
about the subject matter, so I didn’t want to mess it up.<br />
Obviously, it was a little bit of pressure, but sometimes<br />
pressure can be good.<br />
So what is the healthy way they recommend actors to get<br />
down to a small size for roles?<br />
There really isn’t a recommended way. I know other actors<br />
who would literally eat a piece of fruit a day and smoke a lot<br />
and drink a lot of coffee, and that was totally not the vibe I<br />
wanted - I don’t even smoke - so I don’t condone that and, I<br />
reminded myself they’d hired me as an actor, not for the<br />
potential of what my body could look like. And so, it was just<br />
about limiting certain food groups, having smaller portions,<br />
lots of water and just the basics really. But always having<br />
supplements with every meal as well to make sure your body<br />
is functioning properly.<br />
I know one obviously draws on one’s own life with every<br />
role to an extent, but did this movie feel different<br />
because it was something so close to you, did it feel<br />
easier to tap into the emotion when you were in the<br />
scene?<br />
It definitely was a dissimilar type of experience for me and,<br />
watching it back, I can spot the moments where I’m actually<br />
having revelations of my own in the movie as myself, because<br />
the way Marti wrote the script is so accurate and there are<br />
things I’d never been open to talking about or ever really<br />
spoken to a professional about. The therapists in the house<br />
talking about why people stay in disorder or what we like<br />
about it, for instance, was so spot-on and creepily similar to<br />
my mindset at the time that I was just in awe that someone<br />
understood me, and that’s what Ellen’s going through in that<br />
moment, you know, someone’s caught me out’.<br />
I really was so present in this movie that I allowed myself to<br />
have those moments of clarity and they just happened to be<br />
captured on film. Like the scene in the bathroom where my<br />
step mom makes me step on the scales, take my clothes off<br />
and she takes pictures of me and asks me if I think they’re<br />
beautiful, I didn’t know that Kerry Preston, the actress,<br />
was actually going to use the iPhone and take a photo - I<br />
thought she’d turn it around and there’d be a blank screen -<br />
but she took a photo of me and it shook me in that moment<br />
because I was faced with something that I just hadn’t seen in<br />
myself. When you’re in disorder you don’t see yourself the<br />
way that everyone else does really, it’s distorted, so that was a<br />
real moment that shook me as Ellen but also as Lily. To<br />
the Bone provided me a lot of those ’aha’ moments.<br />
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