Pure Inspiration
Recollections of the great German monk Ven. Ñāṇavimala.
Recollections of the great German monk Ven. Ñāṇavimala.
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helped to fine tune some lapses in my sīla (precepts). ‘You have a<br />
tendency to exaggerate things a bit, so be careful how you report<br />
things to people. Speak gently and mindfully.’<br />
After practicing for some time, I was starting to experience a feeling<br />
of disintegration of the body and its components. This was strange and<br />
unexpected. I wondered whether everything was liable to break up and<br />
whether nothing at all endured. When I went to see him with these<br />
experiences he asked, Do you still think there is something permanent?<br />
Nothing is permanent, not even true love, and he shook his head. I<br />
knew there was no point in asking further questions; it was clear that<br />
he knew what was passing through my mind.<br />
At one point, I felt that I should go somewhere to practice meditation,<br />
and even wrote to Parappaduwa monastery but received a reply which<br />
informed me that they were not accepting any new people. It was then<br />
that I came across Dhammakuta, a retreat centre outside Kandy where<br />
the Goenka system of meditation was taught and practiced. I was<br />
confident that I could practice more intensively on a retreat than at<br />
home as I had been doing. My two sisters had already participated in<br />
many different types of meditation retreats, and they had more<br />
knowledge and experience than me.<br />
Before that, I had also briefly considered ordaining as a nun. It was a<br />
fleeting thought, really, but to my surprise Bhante picked up on it. I<br />
had started to wear white and was about to cut off my hair. When I<br />
went to the temple one day, Bhante asked me why I was wearing white.<br />
The question was loaded. I was guarded about answering this question<br />
as the family were unaware of all this, and I was accompanied on that<br />
occasion by a male cousin who would have been shocked! So I sort of