Issue 2 | 2023
God Can Change Your Future
God Can Change Your Future
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GOD CAN<br />
CHANGE<br />
YOUR<br />
FUTURE<br />
H<br />
THE STORY OF<br />
MIKE JENKINS<br />
ow you feelin’, Mike?”<br />
Grandma asked me this question every time<br />
we were alone in her car. My behavior had grown<br />
increasingly dark, and she was convinced it was<br />
only a matter of time before I hurt myself or maybe<br />
someone else.<br />
“It ain’t good to keep all those emotions bottled<br />
up inside you,” she’d warn.<br />
But even if I’d wanted to answer her, I couldn’t. I<br />
didn’t feel anything. I wasn’t always that way. As a<br />
kid, I’d had lots of emotions…but few felt good. So<br />
I stuffed them deep inside and kept going.<br />
My mom was 15 when she gave birth to me.<br />
She was young, single, poor, and severely addicted<br />
to crack cocaine. Our home was chaotic, and<br />
I didn’t have a safe space to express how I felt.<br />
Mom wasn’t emotionally, mentally, or physically<br />
able to hear me, much less help me sort through<br />
my pain.<br />
If I told anyone else how I felt, I’d have to reveal<br />
the root of the problem, and that would break an<br />
unwritten code between Mom and me. Whatever<br />
happened in our house, stayed in our house.<br />
16 <strong>Issue</strong> 02 / <strong>2023</strong><br />
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