A Twilight fanfiction novel - SheeWolf85

him. She felt like her limbs had turned to pudding. Panting, she kissed his chest and closed her
eyes.
Jacob wished they could stay in that position all night. The condom was uncomfortable, though; he
had to get up. He pulled out and rolled over to get out from under her. He kissed her lips softly and
got up. He tossed the condom and laid back down beside her, still breathing heavily. She snuggled
up to him and kissed his chest.
“I love you, Jake,” she said softly.
He kissed her head. “I love you too, baby.” He wanted to ask her to stay the night. Stay forever. As
much as he wanted it, he knew he couldn’t yet. Not when she still believed he was a normal human.
He sucked in a huge breath and let it out slowly. A part of him couldn’t believe he’d made love to her
before she knew the truth. She’d given him—the human—permission, but would she still have made
love with him if she knew what he really was? It would kill him if she regretted it.
Renesmee noticed him tense up. She propped herself up on her elbow and smiled down at him.
“Are you okay?” she asked.
He nodded. “Yeah.”
She furrowed her brow. “What’s wrong, Jake?”
He sighed. “It’s nothing, Ness.”
She shook her head. “You’re lying to me. Please tell me.” She bent to kiss him. “You don’t regret it,
do you?” Her tone was teasing, but he didn’t smile. After a moment, he met her eyes. Her smile
faded. “Do you?”
He finally shook his head. “No, baby; I don’t. I’m worried that you will.”
She leaned over him. “I thought about it a lot this past week. I decided a few days ago that I wanted
to make love. You were so perfect, Jake. Thank you for being patient with me.”
He tightened his arms around her. “I wouldn’t be anything different.”
“I know. I don’t regret it.”
Not yet, he thought. A part of him wanted to say it now. He rolled to his side to face her and kissed
her lips softly. She smiled and touched his face. As he stared into her eyes, he realized how
precarious his situation was. It wasn’t even a question anymore; he knew she would leave him when
she discovered the truth.
“I need to tell you something, Ness,” he said seriously.
She nodded. “Okay.”
The right thing to do would be to tell her. The decent, respectable thing. He just couldn’t. He was
selfish and needed more time with her. He hugged her tightly and took a deep breath to smell her
hair. “I love you so much, Ness,” he whispered. “I love you, and I need you.” She hugged him back
for a moment before she moved back to see his eyes again. “I need you to know something. No
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