Tigerlilly - Lobsang Rampa

CHAPTER THREE
It was interesting the way in which I and my future husband
finally met, although it seemed there had been several attempts
by the ‘powers that be’ to bring this about. In the end we were
introduced by a man, a man known to both of us, who said he
had a strong conviction, a hunch, that he was meant to be the
means of bringing us together. It just goes to show we should
follow our hunches, or at least not discard them without due
thought; and no one should count himself too insignificant to
be a tool in the scheme of things. At one time I used to have a
most depreciating attitude regarding my own abilities, having
a tendency to listen to others—believing they knew the
answers much better than I, and I suffered thereby. These
days I realize I must stand or fall by my own beliefs and
actions; thus I have gained a large measure of self-confidence.
So the first time Carl and I came together was on a Satur-
day, in September, and there was a mutual feeling that we
had been together before. It was as though each of us had
returned from a journey and were about to continue life where
we had left off after having been away on our respective mis-
sions. On that first day and in the days which followed I would
find myself starting to say something . . . perhaps making a
comment, or asking a question . . . and then I would halt to
say, ‘But I have said that before,’ or ‘I have asked that ques-
tion before.’
Where and when had we known each other? Since those
days I believe I have become more enlightened on the subject
and I have often wished I had possessed a little more of the
knowledge and understanding which has been permitted me in
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