Tigerlilly - Lobsang Rampa

gram, and then suddenly it is tuned to another station. No
doubt I was hypersensitive, as I understand I still am but to a
lesser degree, but I vividly remember one day when I could
have screeched my head off while Carl was busy with one of
these sessions; I was so wanting, and needing, a moment of
peace that I took off to the village store on the pretence of
needing some supplies, and the walk calmed my nerves, so
afterwards everything was fine.
This might be an opportune moment to confess that I
understand I have not been an easy person to live with and I
would like to put this on record myself. No doubt, in the days
to come, when much will be written about Carl and about T.
Lobsang Rampa, probably some of it true, and some perhaps
the figment of the same writer's too vivid imagination, it is
possible ‘the woman in the story’, that woman being myself
may warrant a word or two. It is partly for this reason that I
thought it might be a good idea to write down an assessment of
Mama San Ra'ab, by Mama San herself.
It is true that I am as contented as it is possible to be on this
earth, but that does not mean to say that I am an easy person
to live with. Within myself I am utterly contented but ex-
traneous influences tend to ‘put me off’. When life passes by
on an even keel then I function best, and the set-up of our
present household is such that we are not able to have visitors
at all, chiefly due to sickness, but this arrangement is ex-
tremely satisfactory to me, even though it makes for resent-
ment on the part of some people, who appear to be lacking in
understanding. I would like to pay tribute to one person in
particular who is an exception in this respect, and this is Mrs.
Gertrud Heals, one of my friends. Mrs. Heals is involved in
the ‘book business’ including an art gallery, and picture-
framing responsibilities, as well as book-keeping for the busi-
ness. She performs many little acts which are beyond her line
of duty and, at times, it is necessary to come to our apartment
on one mission or another, but she never attempts to take
advantage of the situation, and never stays too long. Although
she is a great admirer of Dr. Rampa she never requests a
meeting with him—and this I appreciate.
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