Obstacles Bhakti - Kunjeshwari Home

1 Holy name
2 Holy place
3 Mellows, sentiment
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Jay Sri Goursundar
Vivek das – O exalted soul, since many days a question is troubling me. If
you take mercy on me and solve the problem, I shall consider myself truly
blessed.
Gour kripâ – Please tell me in details. I shall try my level best to solve the
problem.
Vivek das - As a householder I had heard Harikathâ and the glory of
Harinâm from pure devotees. I had understood that the only way to make
this human life worthwhile is to obtain Sri Krishna-bhakti. And the easiest
means to gain this Krishna-bhakti is to chant Harinâm.
“khaite shuite jotha totha nâm loy,
desh kâl niyam nai sarba siddhi hoy.”
(C.C.)
Meaning – “We should chant Harinâm 1 while eating and sleeping, anywhere
and everywhere. We may chant anywhere, at any time and reach the
supreme goal.”
It is with this expectation that I came to Sri Vrindavan dhâm 2 . Ever since I
have reached Vrindavan, I have been chanting continuously and am trying
my level best to perform all the parts of bhakti. Yet I admit with regret that I
have not made the slightest progress on the road of bhakti. Not only have I
lost this eagerness but also the earlier enthusiasm for chanting has
disappeared. I do not feel happy any more about chanting Harinâm. Although
I am still chanting, I am not relishing it. It is somewhat mechanical. In the
beginning whenever I saw the trees and creepers of Sri dhâm Vrindavan, I
used to enter some sort of bhâv 3 , but now when I see them, I am not only
unhappy , but I also find all objects in Sri dhâm as material. Earlier I had
heard great glory of Sri Harinâm, such as –
“ek krishname kore sarba pâp khoy,
naba bidha bhakti purna nam hoite hoy.
anusanga phale kore samsarer loy,