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Obstacles in Bhakti
chitta akorshiya kore krishna-premoday.”
(C.C.)
Meaning – “One Krishna-nâm can destroy all the sins. The nine activities of
bhakti become perfect only when we chant Harinâm. His prime function is to
attract the heart and arouse Krishna-prem, to destroy material desires is
only His secondary effect.”
In spite of chanting lakhs and lakhs of times, I can see no result; rather
something opposite is happening. Earlier I had contempt for some material
things and now the very same objects are attracting me. I feel I am losing all
faith in Holy name! Please show mercy on me and help me out of this
problem.
Gour kripa – Why are you so confused? Chaitanya Charitamrita is very clear
on this matter –
“sei krishnanâm jadi loy bohu bar,
tobe jodi nohe prem nohe ashrudhar.
tobe jani tahate aparâdh prachur,
krishnanâm beej tahe na hoy ankur.”
Meaning – “Even if we chant the immensely powerful Krishna-nâm countless
times, and yet we do not gain prem nor do we shed tears then we should
know that we have committed massive aparâdh 1 . Hence the chanting of
Krishna-nâm is not resulting in prem.”
Vivek das – I accept what you say – but earlier I did get pleasure out of
chanting and I was very eager and enthusiastic. Then why has it decreased
now? When we continue to chant Holy Name, our interest and enthusiasm
ought to increase, is it not? Yet why is it decreasing?
Gour kripa - See, aparâdh is of two types –
1. The aparâdhs that we have collected over many earlier lifetimes.
2. The aparâdhs we have committed in the present life.
Our anurâg 2 for Krishna is proportional to the aparâdhs in our past lives. If
we have less aparâdhs in the past lives, we will have more Krishna-anurâg. If
such a person does not commit any further offence then he will progress very
fast in Sri Krishna-bhajan. Instead of this if the opposite happens, that is, in
spite of following all the paths of bhakti if our interest and enthusiasm go
down we must accept that we are committing some offence somewhere.
Vivek das - This is making me very scared indeed! Please tell me more
about this thing called ‘offence’ and please explain in detail about how it
blocks the path of bhakti. I will be truly grateful to you.
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