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City. I heard she moved West, became a lesbian, almost one night had gotten on a train to
meet me in Boston, didn’t. Beauty is sexual. What does that mean, Hass, Pound? The whole
fucking world some nights is beautiful, is it sexual? Is the secret name of God carnality? Or
carnality, God? I like the latter right now. The secret name of carnality is God. Death is
want’s cease, not body’s. The fixtion Samantha ghosts in is long from my pen now, yet reck
a line from heart’s insistent tug that all is sacred, all sings the single song: listen: it tells all
toward which I was hurtling toward from then to now & hereon:
Be not furious & alone, love is coming, it has to, for until the unhappiness mounts unceasingly, the
juices are wasted, good intentions breed nothing, love is coming, I’m pursuing this faith myself, it’s
been bad, may get worse but she’s approaching me, can’t help it, can’t help it, I’ll wait, good, good,
as I close my eyes I can see Her. She’s nearing, questioning, wondering but she’s eager & hurrying,
one vessel two vessels three vessels, maybe more, we see each other best in silence & blankness, maybe
more, but a start, maybe more, she’s still hurrying, we see each other best when life is good but
makes no sense, here she is at my door best to let her in, my arms open & ready, becoming more
still, more & more, I won’t move, I have faith, here you come, true love, here you are.
With relief conclude discussion of this issue by noting Judih Haggai’s poems, in
particular “Middle of the Night,” its wisdom is know nothing, nodding, writing it down:
sweet sleep regrets to inform
can not possibly attend this night
perhaps some other time,
as wakefulness sweeps up dream fragments
and shuffling feet prepare the hot tea.
In June I updated the No Borders Bookstore Burning Man Books page on
ElectroLounge. Another friend, one from Ireland, hosts the Burning Man Books, Cenacle, &
RaiBooks files. The key point here is that Scriptor Press is continually expanding its reach
beyond local geography & the limits of print budget.
The ElectroLounge added another Scriptor Press project to its list when in July I began
uploading “Within’s Within” archived shows to a server hosted by my friend Alfie Ilkins in
the U.K. I created a radio page at the ElectroLounge which contained the next broadcast’s
description along with links to download the archived shows. I’ve now got a regular practice
of recording or “ripping” the “stream” or broadcast of the show, then editing the raw
recording into a single MP3 file for download. It takes audio editing skills similar but the not
the same as text editing skills.
In late 2005 I’d joined a Seattle group called the Zine Archive & Publishing Project.
Located in the multi-arts center Richard Hugo House, ZAPP’s library contains thousands of
zines & underground & countercultural publications. ZAPP is a lively place, kind of a school
club atmosphere, hosts all sorts of “do it yourself” activities for people wanting to learn how
to make zines & crafts. In July, ZAPP sponsored its second annual “DIY Academy” which
comprised many kinds of classes; Kassi & I ran a desktop publishing class. We introduced a
small group to using Word, Acrobat Pro, Photoshop, & InDesign to making professionallooking
zines. It was a fun class. I’d like to do more teaching work. A brief experience can
open one’s eyes to a new path, or an old one not yet followed.
July and August Kassi & I spent in preparation for bringing Scriptor Press projects
to the Portland Zine Symposium & then Burning Man 2006. This was the second year we’d
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