T HE C ENACLE / A PRIL - The ElectroLounge
T HE C ENACLE / A PRIL - The ElectroLounge
T HE C ENACLE / A PRIL - The ElectroLounge
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layout of tents and RVs at BC, complete even with a colorful map<br />
given out upon arrival, as well as the aforementioned tolerance of our<br />
hosts, led to the festival-wide sale/trade/barter of many kinds of<br />
things. Handmade wares including jewelry and clothing, all sorts of<br />
food, and a lovely array of entheogenic products.<br />
So I set up a blanket along a main walkway, and laid out the<br />
same titles I’d brought to Burning Man many months before and<br />
thousands of miles away. What I had to reckon with was that unlike<br />
in Black Rock City, where everyone shared what they had and gave<br />
their art away freely, the long-haired denizens of Phish tour are very<br />
much commerce-minded. So I devised a scheme involving a little sign<br />
which read “Books for a dollar. Free if you read aloud from one.”<br />
This scheme seemed to work. Some people chose to transact<br />
cash for books, but others cleared their throats and read out proudly.<br />
I remember this experience and my first time at Burning Man as<br />
very powerful times of learning about how many more possible<br />
manners of exchange existed than I’d known previously.<br />
<strong>The</strong>re was one show on Saturday night, then another Sunday<br />
afternoon, but the big event was the all-night show that began at<br />
midnight on January 1, 2000. Despite dire warnings, the power grid<br />
of the Western World did not go out. Phish came on stage and rocked<br />
for more than six hours with little of a break. At the afternoon show<br />
I broke my psychedelic fast of several weeks and swallowed about<br />
seven hits of something good. Later on, there was even more, but<br />
already by show’s end I was not in anything resembling a<br />
conventionally functioning state. Black helicopters over the open-air<br />
venue, likely TV news crews, were to my rapidly ascending mind<br />
iniquitous government forces out to herd us all into cages. I made the<br />
mistake of asking someone else what was going on, and when he said<br />
he didn’t know this only confirmed my worst fears. I wondered if I<br />
had really just been at a rock show, if Phish really existed. When I<br />
ran into one of my traveling mates, I grabbed his shoulders tightly.<br />
“Are you real?” I asked him. “Yes!” he smiled. “Am I?” I asked, more<br />
desperately.<br />
In the remaining hours before the midnight show I was writhing<br />
in my tent in the deeps of this very powerful acid journey. Many,<br />
many hits of pure West Coast liquid. I lost sense of what money was,<br />
what written language meant, what time signified, nearly all things<br />
save my name and where my tent was located in what now seemed<br />
like an incoherent maze of people and camping digs. I went deep into<br />
demons, and well beyond demons. I went to the Void, where no thing<br />
is. I was no thing in the Void. It seemed inevitable that I would go<br />
there. I feared ending up insane, among people lovely but who I<br />
barely knew, hundreds of miles from Boston and what I called home<br />
there.<br />
One of my traveling partners had said to me, on his way to get<br />
a close seat for the midnight show: “Follow the music. It will always<br />
bring you home.” I remember around midnight hearing the ticktocking<br />
of some big clock; I did not know it was midnight, but slowly<br />
<strong>The</strong> Cenacle / 50 / December 2003