T HE C ENACLE / A PRIL - The ElectroLounge
T HE C ENACLE / A PRIL - The ElectroLounge
T HE C ENACLE / A PRIL - The ElectroLounge
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23<br />
Raymond Soulard, Jr.<br />
Secret Joy Amongst <strong>The</strong>se Times:<br />
<strong>The</strong> History of Scriptor Press,<br />
1995 to the Present<br />
“Think for yourself<br />
& question authority”<br />
—Dr. Timothy Leary<br />
Chapter Seven<br />
continued from<br />
<strong>The</strong> Cenacle/ 50 / December 2003<br />
Perhaps I’ve died many deaths in this lifetime; I’ve heard reincarnation on<br />
occasion defined this way. Perhaps the psychedelic sacrament effects this<br />
cataclysm when necessary. Perhaps the energies within & without collaborate to<br />
bring about the smashing end & raw renewal a soul upon its own cannot cause.<br />
Perhaps there is no perhaps in any of this.<br />
I rode high & crazed psychedelic torrents into the new century, atwist in<br />
my small tent among the many thousands comprising the Big Cypress music<br />
festival the rockband Phish had thrown, 100,000 of us gathered to groove into<br />
the new millennium.<br />
Money in my hand signified nothing; the words in my notebook meant<br />
nothing; I didn’t know where I was & barely who I was. What if I went insane?<br />
What if this acid trip, some 20 hits, likely much more, was the one that<br />
“permafried” me?<br />
I heard a war going on outside my tent’s shell, screams & explosions;<br />
slow it took for me to realize they were fireworks & joyous whoops. I’d been<br />
cowering for hours alone, gone to no-places, past cruel images of my youth’s<br />
sufferings flung through my mind’s vision to mock & hurt me again. Feelings of<br />
embarrassment, anger, sadness. Broken brothers, poor meals & scarce, endless<br />
traps rolling me ever back to sloughs of hopeless . . .<br />
Tick tock . . . Tick tock . . . Tick tock . . .eventually the cheers told me<br />
something good was happening, really, out there, yes, the music. What had<br />
Drumbumm, my traveling companion said, those years of hours ago? “Follow<br />
the music. It will always bring you home.” Could it?<br />
OK. I staggered out into the night, toward the concert field. Phish! Yes!<br />
Oh gosh! Phish! <strong>The</strong> chuckling rhythms, the spritely melodies, follow, follow it,<br />
I’m coming, coming home, here I am, me & my insistent notebook. All night to<br />
dance & talk to this needful soul & that laughing one. <strong>The</strong> songs, endless stream<br />
<strong>The</strong> Cenacle / 51-52 / Winter 2004