Raymond Soulard, Jr. New Songs (for Kassandra) - The ...
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51<br />
“Yes. <strong>The</strong>re’s no pressure. No per<strong>for</strong>mance to be judged. No money expected. No<br />
critics.”<br />
“You’re not man enough to face a few boo-birds?”<br />
“I’m not interested in boo-birds or yayy-birds even.”<br />
“What then?”<br />
“I don’t know.”<br />
“How can you not know? Notebooks & more & you don’t know why?”<br />
“No. Grey. I don’t.”<br />
He quiets.<br />
Rebecca hooks my attention again, smile, love, Art. Yes! Yes.<br />
“Something more” I mumble to her neck, in her hair.<br />
“Yes” she breathes.<br />
“I don’t know what—not now—maybe I did—maybe I will again” my kisses more<br />
lavish, Rebecca enjoys, is silent—<br />
“Do I have to know?” Untwined we stare each other.<br />
“No,” she says. “I don’t think so.”<br />
“What then, Grey? What do you want? What should I do?”<br />
“Stop expecting the trees to talk back. Stop believing they care.”<br />
“I like believing that they care. I like talking to them.”<br />
“Better than people?”<br />
“Sometimes.”<br />
“Because they don’t talk back? Don’t doubt you, confuse you, make you feel low?”<br />
“Sort of.”<br />
“I just play drums. I don’t have your answers.”<br />
“I know.”<br />
He glares at me. “Work it in then! It might help sometimes.”<br />
Grey & I glare at each other: “I can’t do what anyone wants, Grey. Can’t, won’t.”<br />
He sips from his pitcher of Guinness—Mr. Bob indulging him this privilege<br />
tonight—<br />
“What about the red-haired wench?”<br />
“Merry Muse?”<br />
He sips hard.<br />
“She’s never told me what to do. Just urged & irritated me on.”<br />
“& wifey there?”<br />
“Rebecca. Not wifey!” she yelps.<br />
“I know, kid. Sorry.”<br />
“Say it, then.”<br />
“What?”<br />
“Say my name.”<br />
He sips. “Rebecca.” He sips harder. “Dorothy.” He finishes foamily. “Americus.”<br />
Grins goofy.<br />
“<strong>Soulard</strong>.”<br />
“Eh?”<br />
“I’m married.”<br />
<strong>The</strong> Cenacle | 59 | October 2006