Raymond Soulard, Jr. New Songs (for Kassandra) - The ...
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We remain vaguely located awhile longer—there is a rosiness to where we are—rosy<br />
pinkness perhaps—swirls vaporous & damp about us—Rebecca in my arms & my true love<br />
is whom I feel—they are similar yes but more so—to love one is to love the other—leaves<br />
of one tree?—berries? flowers? shadows? sunlight?<br />
to hold her hand is to hold hers as well—<br />
I do not know what this means—<br />
Beyond charts & scriptures with the muse/wife who companions & haunts me in every<br />
world I travel, a girl, a goddess, an artist, daughter of a man I more discovered than<br />
contrived over 20 years ago<br />
She is light, she is music, she is stone<br />
Her blood parents lost <strong>for</strong>ever it seems<br />
She bears her beloved father’s adoration<br />
& agreed ago to be my wife—<br />
She looks at me curious & smirking, always more confident of me than I am of late—<br />
“Let it happen. Be here now. Be Here Now. Be Here NOW.”<br />
I climb within her heart & settle in with my pen & notebook & into the book called Why? I<br />
write: “<strong>The</strong>re can be no lasting bliss in this mortal life til nearly everything ever known, ever<br />
felt, ever lived, ever chased, ever bitten, ever touched, ever, ever, is gone, til one’s cell is the<br />
air, one’s scripture the bees, til one brushes with sun’s light moon’s light candle’s light, til<br />
one’s body reserves just a little golden moisture, til memory is nonsense, dreams bunk, play<br />
obvious, polity fool, all truth & future apparent in a lick, a fallen leaf, a snapping breeze—”<br />
I stop.<br />
She’s gone. Did I hear her say “goodbye”? I don’t know.<br />
She’s gone, rumbling within me. “Let it be. Await.”<br />
& gone. Silence. Let it be. Await.<br />
I disappear too but not very long.<br />
Let it be. Await. What is immutable phalanx, ka-tet, twined now always, sugar &<br />
water, my pen moves with difficulty, slowly, but indeed it moves, await, let it be, make Art<br />
<strong>for</strong> world to come, speak directly & know that these words do go:<br />
I love you, my wife & muse & <strong>for</strong>ever<br />
love, toward you ever I careen,<br />
<strong>for</strong> you my pen staggers on, with you<br />
my heart ever resides, I love<br />
you, muse, wife, glory, goddess, tonight<br />
I near you, as ever, & we ever<br />
create our own world, our coming world.<br />
<strong>The</strong> Cenacle | 59 | October 2006