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<strong>светлина</strong><br />
the AAS LITERARY REVIEW<br />
2011-2012<br />
<strong>Anglo</strong>-<strong>American</strong> <strong>School</strong> <strong>of</strong> S<strong>of</strong>ia, S<strong>of</strong>ia, Bulgaria<br />
2012
a note from the editor<br />
Dear Reader,<br />
Welcome to the first edition <strong>of</strong> LUX <strong>светлина</strong>. Welcome to the<br />
first step <strong>of</strong> this excursion through the creative minds <strong>of</strong> the Middle and<br />
High <strong>School</strong> AAS students (grades 6-12). This book contains a variety<br />
<strong>of</strong> stories, poems, photographs and much more that will take you on a<br />
venture. An international journey full <strong>of</strong> discoveries, <strong>of</strong> other cultures,<br />
<strong>of</strong> other languages, but mostly <strong>of</strong> other people. This book will, hopefully<br />
light your path along the way and make you travel to foreign places.<br />
LUX <strong>светлина</strong> (svetlina) are the Latin and Bulgarian words<br />
for light. Chosen for different reasons, the title is now a reflection <strong>of</strong><br />
this book, a reflection <strong>of</strong> its purpose, and a reflection <strong>of</strong> our hopes. <strong>The</strong><br />
theme that emerged is the seen and the unseen... the elements <strong>of</strong> nature<br />
and the elements <strong>of</strong> our psyche. LUX <strong>светлина</strong> is here to guide anyone<br />
who so desires down a road <strong>of</strong> creativity, but it is also to tell a story. <strong>The</strong><br />
story <strong>of</strong> a group <strong>of</strong> students who had no experience at the beginning <strong>of</strong><br />
this year and became wonderful editors. However, no story can live unless<br />
someone is there to listen and for that you are very important.<br />
This could not have taken shape without the abundant help<br />
from the perfect team <strong>of</strong> editors that surrounded me. Each and every<br />
one <strong>of</strong> them brought something unique to the group and allowed<br />
for more diverse ideas to come along. <strong>The</strong>ir abilities as editors<br />
and as artists were invaluable and can be sensed throughout the<br />
pages that follow. <strong>The</strong>ir creative lights, always present, led the way.<br />
Also, a word has to be spared for the artists. <strong>The</strong>y were<br />
the ones who made LUX a possibility. <strong>The</strong> number <strong>of</strong> wonderful<br />
submissions we had was overwhelming. Thank you for unveiling<br />
your creations, your prized possessions. By doing this<br />
you have allowed others to see a little bit more <strong>of</strong> you, and have<br />
helped contribute to the beautiful expedition LUX has become.<br />
Now that the journey is coming to an end, I will cherish the memories<br />
that LUX has brought me. And that is why I say a final thank you.<br />
Always,<br />
i<br />
Laure Moscheni<br />
Editor in Chief
Volume I<br />
2011-2012<br />
Poetry:<br />
Briar Mills, HS - Troubled Thoughts in a Motionless Mind - 1<br />
Alexander Kamberov, HS - <strong>The</strong> Frozen Lake - 2<br />
Hanna Halmari, HS - Nature’s Mischief - 4<br />
Seung Chul Lim, HS - Memory - 12<br />
Jamie Le Roux, HS - Monster - 13<br />
Claire Freij, HS - Snowdrops - 19<br />
Alina Krumova, HS - Fading Away - 20<br />
Boyana Doneva, MS - Rain - 21<br />
Preslav Bogdanov, HS - Spring - 22<br />
Hannah Godding, HS - 23<br />
Mai Maamoun, HS - A Day Can Change A Whole Year - 24<br />
Maria Roncero, MS - Dream <strong>of</strong> Flight - 26<br />
Matyas Cserfalvi, HS - Never Give Up - 28<br />
Inca Cunningham-Reid, MS - <strong>The</strong> Flu - 29<br />
Ventsy Yosifov, MS - Rain - 32<br />
Umay Amarez, HS - Love - 33<br />
Kartika Le Roux, MS - Painless - 34<br />
Anwar Douad, MS - Clock - 35<br />
Christina Liveretou, MS - Life - Not People - 36<br />
Kadi Kukk, MS - Rejected - Hüljatud - 37<br />
Claudia Natola, MS - Being Young - 40<br />
Kartika Le Roux, MS - Chainsaw - 42<br />
Roderick Pieplenbosch, MS - <strong>The</strong> Bear Spirit - 45<br />
Lara Gueorgiueva, MS - A Sad Memory... - 48<br />
Hanna Halmari, HS - Sade Ja Paiste - 50<br />
Elise Sutherland, MS - <strong>The</strong> Rosewood Cutter - 52<br />
Lukas Panayotopoulos, MS - Before New York - 53<br />
Ivan Dimitrov, HS- Naivete and Defeat - 54<br />
Juliette Berg, MS - Buttercup Sun - 56<br />
Hamad Al Noaimi, HS - Dirt Road - 59<br />
Christopher Swann, HS - <strong>The</strong> Silent Hunter - 60<br />
Vlado Panov, HS - Protest Poem - 62<br />
Barbora Slosarikova, HS - Story <strong>of</strong> Life - 63<br />
Martin Koupenov, MS - <strong>The</strong> Incas - 64<br />
Meggan Conley, MS - Vanishing Spots - 65<br />
Chris Kkissia, MS - Top <strong>of</strong> the World - 67<br />
Poetry:<br />
Kristian Radev, MS - Fate - 74<br />
Nathan Godding, MS - Things My Cat Does - 76<br />
Olivia van Aalst, MS - Beyond Science - 78<br />
Hannah Berg, HS - Untitled - 85<br />
Kendra Reiter, HS - Waiting - 86<br />
Nathan Myers, HS - Worry - 87<br />
Umay Amarez, HS - Hate - 100<br />
Barbora Slosarikova, HS - Passion - 103<br />
Anna Neydenova, MS - War - 105<br />
Rosalyn Rudy, HS - Best Friend - 106<br />
Elena Evgenieva, HS - Escape - 107<br />
Martin Slosarik, HS - Life in Time - 110<br />
Cameron Pindur, MS - Oh Snow - 113<br />
Radi Skipp, HS - I Know, and I’ll Try! - 114<br />
A. J. Myers, HS - Drought - 116<br />
Jamie Le Roux, HS - A Smile Before Death - 118<br />
Zoltan Cserfalvi, HS - Beginning <strong>of</strong> the End - 120<br />
Peter Neyra, HS - Longing - 121<br />
Laure Moscheni, HS - Les Vagues - 122<br />
Anna Neydenova, MS - Earthquakes - 130<br />
Annette van Aalst, HS - Masquerade - 132<br />
Drama:<br />
Briar Mills, HS - Mono-logue - 90<br />
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Prose:<br />
Marie van Aalst, HS - <strong>The</strong> Beginning - 6<br />
Alexander Kamberov, HS - Sands - 14<br />
Hannah Godding, HS - White Room - 16<br />
Magdalena Zhelyazkova, HS - An Unexpected Encounter - 30<br />
A. J. Myers, HS - <strong>The</strong> Shot Heard ‘Round the World - 38<br />
Marie van Aalst, HS - I Believe in a Smile - 46<br />
Nathan Myers, HS - Homecourt Advantage - 68<br />
<strong>The</strong>odore Tenev, HS - Analysis <strong>of</strong> “Sixteen Plus Sixteen” by Nedyalko<br />
Yordavov - 79<br />
Hannah Godding, HS - Epilogue - Lord <strong>of</strong> the Flies - 88<br />
Radi Skipp, HS - <strong>The</strong> Colonel - 94<br />
Hannah Berg, HS - Snowy Day - 124<br />
Illustrations:<br />
Marie van Aalst, HS - NYC - Front Cover<br />
Desislava Alexandrova, HS - End - 3<br />
Christina Liveretou, MS - Bulgarian Landscape - 5<br />
Leona Re, HS - Palmarum - 11<br />
Samuil Sarandev, MS - Smoke - 15<br />
Kadi Kukk, MS - Hills - 18<br />
Desislava Alexandrova, HS - Seagull - 27<br />
Desislava Alexandrova, HS - Paris - 41<br />
Claudia Natola, MS - Bansko - 43<br />
Desislava Alexandrova, HS - Walking on Water - 44<br />
Alina Krumova, HS - Sketch <strong>of</strong> a Tree - 49<br />
Desislava Alexandrova, HS - Innocence - 55<br />
Samuil Sarandev, MS - Vintage - 58<br />
Mitchell Carswell, MS - Borealis - 61<br />
Vlado Panov, HS - Eyes - 66<br />
Steven Slavchev, HS - Self-Portrait - 73<br />
Hannah Berg, HS - Violin - 75<br />
Léa Subrenat, HS - Wind - 84<br />
Vlado Panov, HS - Calvariam - 99<br />
Léa Subrenat, HS - Strength - 101<br />
Mai Maamoun, HS - After Degas - 102<br />
Ali Bingol, MS - <strong>The</strong> Soldier - 104<br />
Dina Kancheva, HS - Marilyn Monroe - 109<br />
Elena Evgenieva, HS - Winter - 112<br />
Kartika Le Roux, MS - Church - 119<br />
Alexandrina Mateeva, HS - Deep in Thought - 123<br />
Samuil Sarandev, MS - Binka Vazova’s Self-portrait - 131<br />
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Troubled Thoughts in a<br />
Motionless Mind<br />
Briar Mills<br />
Poetry<br />
“For once, then, something.”<br />
-Robert Frost<br />
Could I wake in a different place<br />
-in a different life<br />
-in a different world<br />
to feel what I haven’t felt,<br />
to touch what I haven’t touched,<br />
to love what I haven’t loved,<br />
see existence in a different light<br />
stray from the natural order <strong>of</strong> night<br />
want that tears me apart<br />
Yetconstricting<br />
my very heart<br />
the growing, increasing, thriving feeling <strong>of</strong> disdain<br />
for my reserved, mute, silent campaign<br />
to wish you were a crystal leaving the eye<br />
to escape and be no more when you met the ground<br />
to vanish into thin air, leaving oblivion behind.<br />
I woke in the same place<br />
-in the same life<br />
-in the same world<br />
For once, then, nothing.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Frozen Lake<br />
Alexander Kamberov<br />
Poetry<br />
Dark, impertubable, obscure,<br />
A frozen lake with no single crack atop,<br />
With no single window or door for you to look through,<br />
It glares at you and blinds your eyes and sense.<br />
It’s fragile with its thin ice cover,<br />
Yet it never cracks.<br />
<strong>The</strong> pressure <strong>of</strong> the mounting snow,<br />
<strong>The</strong> beauty <strong>of</strong> its thick white cover,<br />
<strong>The</strong> complexity <strong>of</strong> a hidden soul.<br />
It shouts,<br />
But this thin translucent armor never lets the voice through.<br />
<strong>The</strong> stifled shout attracts and dies unheard.<br />
Or shall I tell them<br />
What you told me<br />
Revealing the key to an eternal human quest,<br />
A quest most vague and futile.<br />
Yet you are not so steady,<br />
And I can see the cracks now on your surface.<br />
<strong>The</strong> snow’s away,<br />
And so is your enigma.<br />
You blind no more,<br />
Yet they still can’t see in you.<br />
Your waters shout the key to a quest most different,<br />
Yet no one dares submerge in your voice.<br />
End<br />
Desislava Alexandrova<br />
Photograph<br />
What are you trying to say, most dear lake<br />
All that everyone wants to know<br />
Your voice is smothered,<br />
But can I hear<br />
A message no one ever got.<br />
Or shall I ignore you,<br />
And pretend not to know,<br />
Easing <strong>of</strong>f into a puerile indifference<br />
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Nature’s Mischief<br />
Hanna Halmari<br />
Poetry<br />
Bulgarian Landscape<br />
Christina Liveretou<br />
Drawing<br />
Sweeping across her stage,<br />
She strips the trees down bare,<br />
A flurry <strong>of</strong> golden colors,<br />
Floating, flying everywhere.<br />
Re-painting with gold hues,<br />
She’s an act we can’t refuse,<br />
Her performance is remarkable,<br />
But her lines we never choose.<br />
Ushering in the cold,<br />
Not daring to put him on hold,<br />
<strong>The</strong> unwelcome guest is let in,<br />
His story starts to unfold.<br />
Holding all the power,<br />
What she wants she devours,<br />
Good things <strong>of</strong> day begin to droop and drowse,<br />
As night becomes the dominant hour.<br />
After Vessilev Zalhariev’s landscape <strong>of</strong> a typical Bulgarian village,<br />
mid 20th century woodcut.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Beginning<br />
Marie van Aalst<br />
Short Story<br />
As my “Seguir Adelante” playlist finished, I looked up and restrained a<br />
deep sigh. I still had at least four, if not five more hours <strong>of</strong> hiking left. And as<br />
much as I loved my encouraging playlist, even my favorite songs became repetitive.<br />
I quickly hiked up to the nearest rock and sat on it to rest. Once more I<br />
looked up, for just one second, and the sun blinded me. “Really” I asked myself<br />
while laughing. “After all you’ve done to get here, you even think <strong>of</strong> hiking<br />
down” I closed my eyes, leaned back into the morning sun, and thought <strong>of</strong> my<br />
friend who had raved about this thing she called a bucket list.<br />
“So, you know, I mean basically, like, yeah.” Mercedés said. She is one<br />
<strong>of</strong> the most beautiful girls I know. She had thick natural red hair; her eyes were<br />
dark green with a hint <strong>of</strong> blue near the center. Her smile would light up anyone’s<br />
day, but the moment she opened her mouth to speak, nothing intelligent<br />
came out. She talked for ages, always going on about her current obsessions,<br />
which at that moment was a bucket list. I had known Mercedés since we were<br />
little; both she and I went to the same English private school in Alicante. Since<br />
both <strong>of</strong> us were the only Spanish students in the whole middle and high school,<br />
we bonded. After many years <strong>of</strong> struggling, I had become an expert at translating<br />
her stories to common English for our friends. She was aware <strong>of</strong> her ongoing<br />
stories, but all she said about it was “Love me for me, and I mean, like, if you<br />
don’t then don’t listen.”<br />
“So basically, according to you everyone should, like, make a list before<br />
God kicks their bucket” Great, now even I sound like her. Instead <strong>of</strong> giving me<br />
a straightforward answer she smiled and went on about what would be on her<br />
list. My thoughts trailed <strong>of</strong>f thinking about what I would put on my bucket list.<br />
I thought about the mountain right outside Alicante; how its shadow towered<br />
over our city when the sun would rise; how its height appears discouraging, yet<br />
the mountain seemed to hide a secret. I opened my eyes and took out my<br />
phone. My background was a picture <strong>of</strong> Mercedés, my parents and me the day<br />
before I left on my trip. Mercedés was the only one smiling. <strong>The</strong> chilly wind<br />
reminded me to continue hiking before it got too cold although the weather<br />
forecast said the sun would be shining all weekend. I untied my jacket from my<br />
waist, dropped my bulky bag on the floor, and put it on. I stretched my back to<br />
relieve it from the heavy load I’d been carrying. “You will freeze up on the mountain!<br />
When you return don’t tell me that I didn’t warn you!” My mother’s voice<br />
haunted me as I reached some big boulders that would be really tough to hike<br />
up.<br />
“Alexander, what is this stupid piece <strong>of</strong> paper <strong>The</strong>re is c<strong>of</strong>fee spilled on<br />
it and it’s all wrinkled. Here, take this filthy thing back.” My mom tossed it on the<br />
c<strong>of</strong>fee table.<br />
“Please, Madre, it is not stupid. It is a list <strong>of</strong> things I want to do.”<br />
“So I don’t care.”<br />
“Mamá, this means a lot to me. I want to complete this list before, well,<br />
before God kicks my bucket.”<br />
“Kicks your bucket” Both she and my father looked at me in disbelief,<br />
and started laughing. Not at what I said, but at me. I had never gotten support<br />
from my parents. I thought back to when I was four and all my friends knew<br />
how to ride a bike. I asked my dad to show me, but he was too busy working. I<br />
had to teach myself and when I succeeded; neither wanted to come and watch<br />
me. I grabbed my piece <strong>of</strong> paper and opened it.<br />
“I want to…” My father cut me <strong>of</strong>f, “Listen, you should know that whatever<br />
you do, do it in your free time. Don’t try to include us, we have our own<br />
problems, and you don’t have to add another one to it.”<br />
“Look at yourself, you could be in so many girls’ dreams. Nineteen is<br />
young; you are tall, your dark curls appeal mysterious to girls; and let’s not forget<br />
that you have the same gorgeous green eyes like me,” my mother added,<br />
“You are a bit too skinny though. You should go to the gym and work out instead<br />
<strong>of</strong> making lists about things you want to do. Find a girl like Mercedés.”<br />
I heard my father whisper “Like he can get a girl like her.”<br />
“And settle down before you get too old.” My mother finished. I stood up<br />
and walked out, I didn’t even want to reply, nor did I try to. All I could think <strong>of</strong><br />
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was trying to get my parents to come and watch me ride my bike. I drove past<br />
the large window that stretched from one side <strong>of</strong> my house to the other revealing<br />
the kitchen, where my mom stayed all day, and my dad’s <strong>of</strong>fice, where he hid.<br />
Problems. Most people had them every so <strong>of</strong>ten and they weren’t afraid<br />
to change something in order to get rid <strong>of</strong> those problems. My parents’ main<br />
problem was that they couldn’t let go <strong>of</strong> the past. When I was sixteen, my dad<br />
got promoted and was <strong>of</strong>fered a job in Madrid. My mother begged him not to<br />
leave Alicante because that’s where their roots lay. Never had we left the city,<br />
not even gone to the outskirts <strong>of</strong> Alicante. We had the chance to discover a new<br />
world, widen our horizon, but my mother persuaded my father. He never got<br />
over the opportunity he allowed to slip away. My father blamed my mother, my<br />
mother blamed me. Eventually, both teamed up against me, blamed all “their<br />
problems” on me and as soon as I turned eighteen, they kicked me out, saying<br />
that they had to spend one-hundred and ten dollars an hour to see their therapist<br />
and that if they’d have to continue going, the bill would be sent to me.<br />
I sat down after hiking up the first boulder. It was two meters tall, and<br />
I had at least thirty more boulders to go. I turned my back towards the top and<br />
looked down. <strong>The</strong> shadow <strong>of</strong> the mountain towered over me and discouraged<br />
me to continue. I estimated the amount <strong>of</strong> vertical meters I had hiked up. I fell<br />
down on my knees when I realized that I had spent more than two hours hiking<br />
up just 400 vertical meters.<br />
For two whole days, after my parents told me they had no interest in<br />
what I did, I locked myself in my apartment. <strong>The</strong> only person who I allowed to<br />
enter was my roommate Jeffrey. He could relate to what I was going through<br />
since his parents kicked him out when he was only seventeen. Jeffrey was the<br />
brother I never had; he and I were similar in so many ways. We both had moments<br />
where we preferred silence, we both obsessed over Assassin’s Creed, we<br />
both agreed that Coke Zero was the best and that girls can ruin anyone’s day, but<br />
they are the best at making someone’s week. Jeffrey knew everything about me,<br />
so he knew the perfect cure to my talking-is-prohibited policy. He came home<br />
with Mercedés on the third day. Right before Jeffrey sneaked out, we locked<br />
eyes, and I gave him the evil eye.<br />
“Alexander Are you okay” This was the first time I’d ever heard her<br />
be so straightforward, and in my surprise I smiled at her. When our eyes met,<br />
Mercedés did it; she made my day better, just by smiling at me.<br />
“Thank you.” I whispered.<br />
“Follow your dreams Alexander. I mean, you don’t need your parents<br />
support. All you need is willpower and mental strength to continue going. Like,<br />
don’t give up. Don’t become one <strong>of</strong> those people who quit on everything they<br />
believe in.”<br />
I turned around and looked at what appeared to be a pile <strong>of</strong> colossal<br />
rocks I had to hike up. “Piece <strong>of</strong> cake,” I grinned. I would go to the top for<br />
Mercedés and for me. After I finally passed the boulders, there was only one<br />
small path which got me thinking; since the path seemed bewildered, when was<br />
the last time someone left Alicante to come here I continued walking for two<br />
hours. I only had a fifteen minute lunch break where I finished a drinking container<br />
<strong>of</strong> gazpacho. I was determined to get past the tree line before four in the<br />
afternoon.<br />
Once I looked up and saw that I only had about thirty more minutes to go, I increased<br />
my pace, crossing the dry sand <strong>of</strong> the mountain quicker. I laughed when<br />
I imagined myself walking so fast to the peak that a cloud <strong>of</strong> sand followed me.<br />
I whistled to myself while I walked the last 100 meters. It seemed that<br />
the trees on the mountain had evolved from light green, short pines to darker<br />
pines that seemed to challenge each other about who was taller and fight each<br />
other for a strand <strong>of</strong> sunlight, but near the timber line, they got so short. As my<br />
eyes followed the changing colour scheme <strong>of</strong> the mountain, my gaze reached the<br />
sand beneath my feet and noticed the sand looked as red as Mercedés’ hair. I<br />
smiled and looked up to my right where I could see my hometown. All I saw was<br />
a concrete jungle with a dark, foggy cloud hanging above the city. <strong>The</strong> city was<br />
surrounded by sand; all the nature that once surrounded Alicante, had been<br />
cut down to build a ton <strong>of</strong> apartment blocks, and factories. I shook my head in<br />
disapproval; from up here the city where I had lived all my life didn’t look like a<br />
home.<br />
I had let go <strong>of</strong> my past, rid my mind <strong>of</strong> everything that troubled me. So<br />
I turned my back towards the city and let my jaw drop. <strong>The</strong> view was breathtaking.<br />
Right in front <strong>of</strong> me lay the infinite Mediterranean Sea; so big that it<br />
stretched across the horizon. <strong>The</strong> sky was so clear, and such a light shade <strong>of</strong><br />
blue that it seemed to be an unreal painting. <strong>The</strong> sun was so big and bright, I<br />
had to smile at it. I spread out my arms to embrace it all and let this gorgeous<br />
view sink in.<br />
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Palmarum<br />
Leona Re<br />
Birds flew over my head, headed to the sea from the city. I wish<br />
I could fly as well, so that I could be free like them, just leave everything<br />
behind and go wherever I want to. I followed the birds’ path with<br />
my eyes and noticed a tiny harbor.<br />
Photograph<br />
I yearned to look back one last time, but I restrained myself.<br />
I had gotten this far, I had followed my dream <strong>of</strong> coming here and I<br />
wasn’t going to ruin it. I had gotten out while my parents remained<br />
ignorant. I was going to finish everything on my bucket list; I was going<br />
to prove to my parents that I could do this no matter how much<br />
“trouble” I caused. I looked at the picture on my phone and smiled at<br />
Mercedés. My future was limitless. I held my phone over my head,<br />
capturing the everlasting sea and my raised face, then I texted her the<br />
picture with the words, “Thank you.”<br />
This was only the beginning.<br />
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Memory<br />
Seung Chul Lim<br />
Poetry<br />
Monster<br />
Jamie Le Roux<br />
Poetry<br />
Sitting on the bench reminiscing,<br />
I look around stupefied as if something is missing<br />
Everything has changed; I cannot see any remnants <strong>of</strong> past shadows<br />
cast here<br />
My childhood playground , the root <strong>of</strong> my inspiration<br />
Is now lost in the urban jungle.<br />
I dreamed <strong>of</strong> becoming a warrior when I was young<br />
<strong>The</strong> playground was the prairie , the forest was the battlefield<br />
Every day was a war with the illusions<br />
Standing proud with dignity and prestige<br />
I felt invigorated , prepared to defeat any foe.<br />
But when did I get so lethargic<br />
I have become so small in this world<br />
Surrounded by the concrete giants standing , trapping me like a<br />
maze<br />
<strong>The</strong> tree house which was my house <strong>of</strong> freedom<br />
Torn down , left in debris.<br />
Sometimes the desire to go back is so strong<br />
Where I could lose reality for fantasy<br />
To return back to the golden hours<br />
Before oblivion wipes out those days.<br />
“<strong>The</strong> woods are lovely, dark and deep”<br />
– Robert Frost<br />
It lies in darkness and exists on its own,<br />
Little have seen it, and little has it shown.<br />
It attacks when you’re isolated, helpless and alone,<br />
When you’re far from the place that you like to call home.<br />
When your eyes are closed shut but your ears stay awake,<br />
<strong>The</strong> monster creeps upon you like a slithering snake.<br />
You snap open an eye in fear <strong>of</strong> a threat,<br />
But there’s nothing, just you, lying covered in sweat.<br />
In daytime it runs just to plague you at night,<br />
That’s why you keep friends to stave <strong>of</strong>f its bite,<br />
For the mind is the home <strong>of</strong> this monster within,<br />
And only company can save you from its bittersweet grin.<br />
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Sands<br />
Alexander Kamberov<br />
Essay<br />
Smoke<br />
Samuil Sarandev<br />
Photograph<br />
Everything is yellow. Dusty yellow. <strong>The</strong> dunes are up, withstanding<br />
the occasional gusts <strong>of</strong> wind generated by the otherwise<br />
serene waters <strong>of</strong> the Persian Gulf. <strong>The</strong> heat is unendurable and<br />
only once in a while a stranger covered in fabric dares meet the<br />
rays <strong>of</strong> the blazing sun. Occasionally, a funnel <strong>of</strong> dust and sand attempts<br />
to leave the surface but seconds later finds itself grounded<br />
by the torridity. How ironic!<br />
<strong>The</strong> sand particles are so many, many more than we humans<br />
are, but probably much fewer than the misconceptions and<br />
prejudices held against the people treading the desert sands <strong>of</strong><br />
the Middle East. Some <strong>of</strong> them are indeed veiled, but their cover<br />
is not a symbol <strong>of</strong> some dangerous faith or hostility; nowadays it<br />
symbolizes choice, sometimes even necessity for protection. Just<br />
as the dunes go up when the sands mount, so does the dissonance<br />
intensify when the bias takes its toll on human rationality. Astonishingly,<br />
they are still too tranquil and composed to rise up against<br />
the most vocal bigots who vituperate them with ungrounded “arguments”<br />
based on hysterical preconceptions and convenient, beguiling<br />
generalizations about the links between faith and terrorism.<br />
This attitude is unendurable, yet they know how to endure<br />
the blazing comments, just as life has taught them how to endure<br />
the rays <strong>of</strong> the blazing sun. A sober voice <strong>of</strong> awakening human<br />
conscience dares challenge the stereotypes about them every so<br />
<strong>of</strong>ten. However, just like the funnel <strong>of</strong> dust and sand, this wake-up<br />
call enjoys the longevity <strong>of</strong> ephemera – the torridity grounds the<br />
funnel and the masses stifle the Voice. Not always, however, and<br />
luckily.<br />
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Dear Diary,<br />
White Room<br />
Hannah Godding<br />
Epistolary<br />
I want to write about all that has happened to me today, but I<br />
hardly know where to begin. All I can think about is how life will never<br />
be the same again…<br />
I tried it. It hurt. I’m trapped here. I’m frightened and angry,<br />
so angry I could scream. But there is no point in screaming<br />
because nobody is here to listen.<br />
Oh look! It’s an adorable white rabbit! Can’t you see it Oh,<br />
no it blended into the wall again so I guess it wasn’t there in the<br />
first place. Maybe it was. Maybe it wasn’t. I don’t remember. Never<br />
mind. I can’t remember what a rabbit looks like anyway. Oh look!<br />
A beautiful white horse…<br />
I love home. Even after Mother died, when it was only me and<br />
Father, home was my safe place. But today men in black overalls came.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y stole all <strong>of</strong> our things and loaded them into their HUGE truck.<br />
<strong>The</strong>n I was bundled into another car, and we sped <strong>of</strong>f. I remember<br />
thinking that I didn’t know where Father was, but then everything<br />
went blank. I must have fallen asleep.<br />
When I woke up again I was here. I don’t know where here is<br />
or if it is a good or bad place – but there is only me here. Father is nowhere<br />
around here, and even when I cry and scream, nobody comes.<br />
I’m glad I had you to write to dear Diary, or I might have gone mad. I<br />
don’t know how long I’ve been in here but I’m so sleepy now. Really …<br />
really… sleep-<br />
Dear Diary,<br />
Dear Diary,<br />
I have just woken up from the strangest dream. I was a captive<br />
in a white room where there was no way <strong>of</strong> telling the time<br />
or even if there was a room. Thank goodness it was just a dream.<br />
Now I am awake again I can look around my white room, with the<br />
door that blends into the walls and the walls with not a crack in<br />
them and… and…<br />
Oh! It wasn’t a dream. Never mind, I can always go back to<br />
sleep and dream that I will wake up in my room at home, with the<br />
walls the green colour <strong>of</strong> sea foam, and the door with the rusted<br />
nail in it for hanging up my drawings. I will wake up when the<br />
clock tower outside chimes loudly at six, and then I will catch the<br />
number 220 shiny, red, double-decker bus with Mother to get to<br />
school...<br />
I have come to a conclusion, just now. I am going mad. I can’t<br />
tell how much time passes in here, or whether I’ve been here for a day,<br />
a week or even years. It must have been a long, long time. <strong>The</strong>y haven’t<br />
fed me in a while. <strong>The</strong>y slide the food in through a flap in what I guess<br />
must be the door. But then it disappears again so I’m not sure. I can’t<br />
get out. And I can’t even know if the flap is in the door, because everything<br />
here is white and there are no hinges or anything or even a crack<br />
in the walls. I don’t even know if there are walls. I could be free to walk<br />
out any time for all I know. Maybe I’ll try that…<br />
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I want Mother to come and comfort me like she used to,<br />
before the cancer. I want Father to come and hug me awkwardly,<br />
like he did every night before I went to sleep. I’m so lonely here. I<br />
just want to go home.
Hills<br />
Kadi Kukk<br />
Drawing<br />
Snowdrops<br />
Claire Freij<br />
Poetry<br />
Snowdrops falling down<br />
‘On the dank and dirty ground’<br />
Ice flakes taking life<br />
Snowdrops falling down<br />
On the bright living flower<br />
That will be no more<br />
Snowdrops falling down<br />
Bringing life then death to earth<br />
Petals wane away<br />
Snowdrops falling down<br />
A break in the clouds, sunshine -<br />
Waking the earth’s core.<br />
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Fading Away<br />
Alina Krumova<br />
Poetry<br />
Rain<br />
Boyana Doneva<br />
Poetry<br />
She feels the pain within her mind and soul,<br />
Yet she puts a smile on her fragile face.<br />
It is stranger that she really lost control.<br />
Who would’ve thought <strong>of</strong> a flower without grace<br />
Do not touch, for she can easily break -<br />
Like a fading flower’s falling leaf.<br />
She would search for the reason - her mistake<br />
Forget the sorrow - know only relief.<br />
So many times she tried to make a change,<br />
But there was nothing really happening.<br />
So many times she felt like in a cage -<br />
Caged within herself and slowly dying.<br />
<strong>The</strong> mind is blurred - it cannot clearly see!<br />
That is why she’s hiding all her agony!<br />
A flowing array <strong>of</strong> water<br />
Hitting the muddy pavement<br />
With the s<strong>of</strong>t touch <strong>of</strong> a small feather<br />
Or the gale force <strong>of</strong> the rushing wind<br />
It can make you long for the faraway summer<br />
Lost in melancholia,<br />
Hoping to get out <strong>of</strong> the dreaful ennui <strong>of</strong> the bleak sky.<br />
<strong>The</strong> gentle pat <strong>of</strong> the summer rain<br />
Can make you dance amongst the sumphony <strong>of</strong> the elements<br />
Forget your worries<br />
Forget your troubles<br />
And bathe in the light <strong>of</strong> the blissful force.<br />
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Spring<br />
Preslav Bogdanov<br />
Poetry<br />
Everywhere you look,<br />
You see it.<br />
<strong>The</strong> change is coming<br />
And it’s fast.<br />
Like the change <strong>of</strong> seasons.<br />
People everywhere are cheering,<br />
<strong>The</strong> sight <strong>of</strong> freedom is everywhere.<br />
<strong>The</strong> change is coming<br />
And it’s fast.<br />
Like the change <strong>of</strong> seasons.<br />
But the change seems slow,<br />
It needs its martyrs.<br />
Sacrifice in the name <strong>of</strong> freedom,<br />
In a time <strong>of</strong> change <strong>of</strong> seasons.<br />
Change seems slow,<br />
But spring has come.<br />
And there is freedom for numerous states.<br />
<strong>The</strong> change is coming and it’s fast.<br />
Like the change <strong>of</strong> seasons.<br />
Those Who Are Gone<br />
(for the victims <strong>of</strong> the Holocaust)<br />
Hannah Godding<br />
Poetry<br />
Look upon their faces,<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir mouths open in an endless scream,<br />
Frozen in that single moment <strong>of</strong> time forever,<br />
Look upon their faces,<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir eyes widened so far that the whites,<br />
Become the dominant features in their complexions,<br />
Look upon their faces,<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir pale lips that are partially open,<br />
To tell last goodbyes,<br />
Waiting for the words to come that never will,<br />
Look upon their faces,<br />
<strong>The</strong> bruises in the hollows <strong>of</strong> their cheeks,<br />
Fading slowly, in much the same way that they did,<br />
Look upon their faces,<br />
And weep.<br />
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A Day Can Change A<br />
Whole Year<br />
(for Egypt)<br />
Mai Maamoun<br />
Poetry<br />
You are probably wondering<br />
What it is that sparked the<br />
End <strong>of</strong> the silence.<br />
How was it that the<br />
People who had been quiet for<br />
Almost thirty years,<br />
Suddenly broke the silence,<br />
Where a single pin dropped could be heard<br />
You see, it all happened so quickly<br />
But it was being planned for a very long time,<br />
Slowly flourishing right before<br />
Our eyes.<br />
Yet it came like a sharp slap across the face.<br />
Millions upon millions<br />
Had taken to the square,<br />
All gathering like ants<br />
In a hurry,<br />
<strong>The</strong> people’s actions immediately<br />
Boomed across the land.<br />
“People demand removal <strong>of</strong> the regime”<br />
Footsteps cracked down on the ground,<br />
Marching non-stop<br />
Everything flipped upside down,<br />
Daily operations came to a halt,<br />
<strong>The</strong> whole world had frozen in place,<br />
<strong>The</strong> protestors’ demands were loud and clear,<br />
Where one single shout<br />
Could be heard from the moon.<br />
Overwhelming swept throughout homes,<br />
On-going lines <strong>of</strong> people, all<br />
Standing together strong, tall<br />
Full <strong>of</strong> emotions<br />
Ready to escape from their hearts<br />
And leap from their lips,<br />
Realization and memory,<br />
Of those who were murdered,<br />
Washed throughout their minds.<br />
Time to make change,<br />
Time to end this corrupted regime.<br />
Bravery shone through,<br />
Although the people were filled with fear,<br />
<strong>The</strong>y kept moving on,<br />
As courage filled their hearts.<br />
“one goal,” they repeated,<br />
“one goal.”<br />
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Dream <strong>of</strong> Flight<br />
Maria Roncero<br />
Poetry<br />
Seagull<br />
Desislava Alexandrova<br />
Photograph<br />
Persisting in the quest,<br />
trying to decode their secrets,<br />
drafted meticulous plans for<br />
propulsion, control.<br />
Images <strong>of</strong> birds with<br />
Unencumbered essence <strong>of</strong> flight<br />
ruby-throated humming birds<br />
Glider with curved wing,<br />
lean left or right to turn,<br />
push the control bar for speed,<br />
push the bar to land,<br />
but still augered into the sand.<br />
Always loved to fly,<br />
eyes turning skywards,<br />
strange, lovely moment,<br />
sooty sheer waters,<br />
over buildings, cliffs and buildings.<br />
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Never Give Up<br />
Matyas Cserfalvi<br />
Poetry<br />
<strong>The</strong> Flu<br />
Inca Cunningham-Reid<br />
Poetry<br />
Apprehensiveness does not affect the man <strong>of</strong> true courage<br />
He always attacks challenges with a sword,<br />
As if they were his sworn enemies<br />
Has no mercy for them until they are overcome<br />
Rather than to fearfully retreat full <strong>of</strong> disgrace<br />
And let his humiliation take over his spirit<br />
But when the enemy is victorious<br />
He ignores the wounds<br />
All the pain and suffering they cause<br />
Rises up again<br />
Goes dashing back into battle until it is won<br />
His ambitions cannot be achieved any other way<br />
This battle drags on forever<br />
Where one continuously has to surface from the pool <strong>of</strong> shame<br />
If not, his reign should come to an end<br />
Finally, relaxation comes only with his grave.<br />
He comes and goes like a nightmare.<br />
He hits you like a bullet fired from the barrel <strong>of</strong> a gun.<br />
He flings you onto your bed<br />
And burns you like a dragon attacking.<br />
He flies round the world<br />
Like the wind<br />
And tries to catch anybody he can,<br />
Like a cat catching a mouse.<br />
He’ll snatch you any minute now.<br />
He is hiding behind every corner,<br />
Waiting to pounce on his prey.<br />
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An Unexpected Encounter<br />
Maggie Zheylazkova<br />
Essay<br />
Six years ago, my parents and I were coming home in the dark<br />
<strong>of</strong> night. Although we lived on one <strong>of</strong> the main boulevards <strong>of</strong> the city,<br />
at that time, there was no one except us and several teenage boys<br />
who were energetically smashing the wooden boxes outside the shop<br />
across the street. I was slightly scared and drew closer to my father.<br />
“You with the black jersey… What’s your name”<br />
<strong>The</strong> three <strong>of</strong> us quickly entered our apartment building.<br />
“Mihail.”<br />
As we waited for the elevator, a heavy silence weighed down<br />
“Everyone, look at how well Mihail is picking up the trash.”<br />
upon us. I sensed something was wrong, but the effort it took to clearly<br />
<strong>The</strong> boys did not say anything, but began running faster back and<br />
formulate the issue in my head and the embarrassment it would bring<br />
forth to the trash can. I was dumbstruck: by the end they were all<br />
were too great, so I pushed the thought aside. <strong>The</strong> elevator came, but<br />
competing with each other over who would do the best job. Once<br />
neither <strong>of</strong> my parents stepped forward to open the door.<br />
the last piece <strong>of</strong> debris was collected, they automatically lined up<br />
“Maybe we should – “began my Mom.<br />
in front <strong>of</strong> us, as if awaiting orders.<br />
“Yeah, we should. Let’s go,” finished my Dad determinedly.<br />
“Despite what you had begun doing, you are good children;<br />
We exited the building. While we were crossing the street towards<br />
the booth, I was thinking that my parents had gone temporarily<br />
be proud <strong>of</strong> what you did at the end. You are free to go,” my Mom<br />
insane and that we could be having our last night together. As we approached<br />
the teenagers – seven <strong>of</strong> them – my father bellowed:<br />
<strong>The</strong> boys muttered “Goodnight,” and then walked away. As<br />
dismissed them.<br />
“Hey! What do you think you’re doing”<br />
my parents and I were going back inside, an unfamiliar sense <strong>of</strong><br />
<strong>The</strong> youngsters paused and looked at us dully; the element <strong>of</strong><br />
pride and shame overcame me.<br />
surprise was on our side, as they had not noticed us coming.<br />
“You ought to be ashamed <strong>of</strong> yourselves.” My mom added.<br />
“Alone in the middle <strong>of</strong> the night, destroying something that someone<br />
has worked for is outrageous! That is no proper activity for such fine<br />
young gentlemen as yourselves.”<br />
(I privately disagreed; I had never seen shabbier youngsters in<br />
my life.)<br />
“Now you are to clean up the mess you’ve made, or we’ll be<br />
calling the police!” my mom ordered, looking at them sternly. Although<br />
about a foot taller than her, they cowered, and before I knew it, were<br />
doing as they were told. Looking back, I realize the “vandals” were just<br />
boys, maybe a bit younger than I am now, whose parents were not at<br />
home <strong>of</strong>ten. We watched them while my mom complimented them on<br />
their effort.<br />
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Rain<br />
Ventsy Yosifov<br />
Poetry<br />
Love<br />
Umay Amarez<br />
Poetry<br />
Rain runs,<br />
hitting hard<br />
like rockets rushing<br />
in a race<br />
to the glass.<br />
Rattling rain,<br />
rattling the<br />
window panes.<br />
<strong>The</strong> droplets,<br />
dance daintily,<br />
until<br />
they connect,<br />
to a<br />
pool <strong>of</strong> promise -<br />
for a rainbow.<br />
Like the magic <strong>of</strong> first snow<br />
Pure white and undying in its belief<br />
Everything is covered in hope<br />
And the cool flakes bring relief<br />
And yet there is fire also<br />
Passionate and true<br />
Burning heat and flickering stars; I believe in you!<br />
Never has such an emotion been felt<br />
As when you believe that love has left<br />
But never has such an emotion been felt<br />
As when you see that love, unlike snow, does not melt<br />
Two hearts beating until the end<br />
Devotion that you cannot comprehend<br />
Like the keys <strong>of</strong> a ringing piano<br />
<strong>The</strong> melody will echo on and on.<br />
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News spread<br />
Of a tragic death<br />
A soul rising to the sky<br />
Tears being shed<br />
In the air her last breath<br />
Happiness turned shy<br />
Painless<br />
Kartika Le Roux<br />
Poetry<br />
As I stand amongst the weeping crowd<br />
My emotions dull as rain<br />
My thoughts up in the clouds<br />
Clock<br />
Anwar Daoud<br />
Poetry<br />
I look at the children<br />
Staring at me<br />
Like a bear that’s about to<br />
Catch his prey<br />
<strong>The</strong> children look as I tick<br />
Through the day<br />
A hand silently waiting<br />
And waiting for the day<br />
To be over<br />
I keep hanging<br />
Waving my arms every<br />
Minute<br />
I feel lonely<br />
Lonely enough to shed a<br />
tear.<br />
Why do I feel no pain<br />
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Life - Not People<br />
Christina Liveretou<br />
Poetry<br />
Life is not<br />
A pile, <strong>of</strong> neatly folded clothing<br />
Resting in the closet<br />
Hiding until resurrection.<br />
Life is not<br />
<strong>The</strong> precious cash<br />
Locked in a Gucci wallet<br />
To avoid the people’s stares.<br />
Life is not<br />
A collection <strong>of</strong> jewelry<br />
Sealed in a box<br />
Away from the sunlight.<br />
That is people, not life.<br />
Life is<br />
A room, with open windows<br />
<strong>The</strong> cool breeze, chilling the air, warming my heart.<br />
It’s a house, with a family<br />
Eating their meal all together.<br />
It’s the trees, which I will use<br />
To carve a heart, for my friends.<br />
<strong>The</strong> laughter <strong>of</strong> the little kids<br />
After doing something silly.<br />
<strong>The</strong> agony when a grandfather<br />
Retells stories about the wars.<br />
<strong>The</strong> smiles, when the kids share<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir homework with their parents.<br />
<strong>The</strong> book you read and can’t wait<br />
To discuss with your friends.<br />
That’s how life should be.<br />
And if they advertise their wealth<br />
You know they are people<br />
Rejected - Hüljatud<br />
Kadi Kukk<br />
Poetry<br />
It wasn’t a very long time ago<br />
When I remember going to<br />
A family that seemed so nice and kind.<br />
I walked up to the door<br />
To beg for shelter,<br />
But what they did wasn’t what I was hoping to find.<br />
When they saw me they started to roar<br />
That I was a filthy and skinny creature,<br />
With injured paws and ugly fur.<br />
Oh, how mean they were.<br />
So, like every day, I just hobbled away,<br />
Not ever looking back that way.<br />
But you have life.<br />
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. . .<br />
(translation in Estonian by Kadi Kukk)<br />
See polnud väga ammu<br />
Kui otsustasin et ma lähen<br />
Perre mis tundus tore ja täis rõõmu.<br />
Ma kõnidisin ukseni,<br />
Et paluda peavarju.<br />
Kuid see mis nad tegid polnud see mida ma lootsin<br />
Kui nad mind nägid nad kisendasid.<br />
Ma olevat kõhn ja räpane olend,<br />
Kellel inetu karv ja vigastatud käpad.<br />
Oi, kui õelad nad olid.<br />
Siis, nagu iga teine päev ma lonkasin ära<br />
Sinna kunagi tagasi vaatamata.
<strong>The</strong> Shot Heard ‘Round<br />
the World<br />
A. J. Myers<br />
Satire<br />
Originally penned by Ralph Waldo Emerson in his poem<br />
“Concord Hymn” to refer to the first shots <strong>of</strong> the <strong>American</strong> Revolutionary<br />
War, the phrase “<strong>The</strong> Shot Heard Around the World” has,<br />
over the centuries, been used to describe monumental, historically<br />
significant occasions. In sports, this phrase refers to Bobby Thomson’s<br />
homerun to win the 1951 National League Pennant. For those<br />
<strong>of</strong> you who know nothing about baseball, just nod your heads and<br />
imagine something very important. Now, for the first time in the<br />
history <strong>of</strong> the <strong>Anglo</strong>-<strong>American</strong> <strong>School</strong> <strong>of</strong> S<strong>of</strong>ia, there is an event that<br />
can be included in the pantheon <strong>of</strong> sports mythology.<br />
At 2:56 on Saturday, January 21st, the <strong>Anglo</strong>-<strong>American</strong><br />
<strong>School</strong> <strong>of</strong> S<strong>of</strong>ia’s high school boys basketball team made a freethrow.<br />
Even more impressive was the fact that they added two<br />
more free-throws to their total before the game was over and that<br />
this sudden ability to get the ball in the basket without anyone<br />
defending them coincided with their second win <strong>of</strong> the season.<br />
During their first four games <strong>of</strong> the season, the AAS basketball<br />
team had been unwilling, or possibly unable, to take advantage<br />
<strong>of</strong> the opportunities presented to them from the so called<br />
“charity stripe.” In fact, their struggles in this area had become<br />
such a problem that Head Coach Paul Brecht refused to utter the<br />
word “free-throw” around his team for fear that one <strong>of</strong> his players<br />
would start choking, as they seemed to do when faced with the<br />
idea <strong>of</strong> such an event. In fact, during their first four games, the<br />
team was a combined 0 for 53 at “the line” (or to translate for our<br />
British readers, “the queue” (why does that word have so many<br />
letters)).<br />
However, this all changed on January 21st. <strong>The</strong> curse was<br />
broken. <strong>The</strong> lid was removed from the basket. Perhaps the freethrow<br />
line was moved forward twenty centimeters. Whatever the<br />
case, something changed. Two minutes into the game, superstar<br />
guard Kyle Schultz was fouled. After missing his first free-throw,<br />
his second clanked around the rim and rolled in. A giant cheer<br />
erupted amongst the five spectators* cheering on the team. Coach<br />
Brecht and Coach Swann both breathed out a simultaneous sigh<br />
<strong>of</strong> relief, as they had feared that teams might simply start fouling<br />
on every other possession in order to significantly reduce the<br />
chances <strong>of</strong> AAS ever scoring. Two more free throws were added<br />
throughout the course <strong>of</strong> the game: one by the speedy, bolt <strong>of</strong><br />
lightning known as Jamie Le Roux and one by the fearsome beast<br />
in the paint, more commonly called Ivan Dimitrov. Admittedly,<br />
the team still posted a measly 8.456% free throw percentage, but<br />
their accomplishments overshadow such statistics.<br />
On a side note. Or maybe on a related note, or an adjacent<br />
note, possibly a note in the same octave, these three free-throws<br />
occurred during AAS’s second win <strong>of</strong> the young season. <strong>The</strong>y now<br />
sit at an impressive 2-3 record. Making this all the more remarkable<br />
is the fact that AAS currently resides on top <strong>of</strong> its conference**<br />
and remain a game away from .500. <strong>The</strong>y have already doubled<br />
their win total from the previous season and have the opportunity<br />
to triple, quadruple or even…umm… multiply that number by five<br />
by the end <strong>of</strong> the season. Indeed, the future looks bright for this<br />
young team that has shown it can inconsistently hit the rare freethrow.<br />
*Five spectators. C’mon AAS. That’s pathetic. Come to the<br />
games and support your team, you might even see them make a<br />
free-throw!<br />
**AAS is a member <strong>of</strong> BIG 1 conference, which consists <strong>of</strong><br />
one team- AAS.<br />
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Being Young<br />
Claudia Natola<br />
Poetry<br />
Paris<br />
Desislava Alexandrova<br />
Photograph<br />
People don’t value,<br />
Being young,<br />
But being young,<br />
Is being free,<br />
You might disagree,<br />
But when you get older,<br />
Don’t complain,<br />
That you miss<br />
Rolling in the hot sands,<br />
Crashing in the stormy waves,<br />
Not minding what others think,<br />
Just going on with your day,<br />
Looking at the surface,<br />
And not in depth,<br />
When you’re scared,<br />
You have friends,<br />
No matter how stuck you are,<br />
People will sort you out.<br />
Because when you’re blind as a child,<br />
It’s others<br />
Who have to guide you carefully,<br />
And while they do,<br />
You can be free.<br />
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Chainsaw<br />
Kartika Le Roux<br />
Poetry<br />
Bansko<br />
Claudia Natola<br />
Drawing<br />
<strong>The</strong>re is an unknown monster in the backyard.<br />
With a flick <strong>of</strong> a switch it growls loudly,<br />
Angrily, as if to kill its prey.<br />
Its teeth, small but sharp,<br />
Lined up one by one, moving fast<br />
As they shine in the sun,<br />
Waiting.<br />
And when it gets its chance,<br />
It slides through its victim,<br />
With ferocious roars<br />
Until all that is left is a brown stump <strong>of</strong> memory.<br />
After Vessilev Staikon’s landscape <strong>of</strong> Bankso, mid 20th century woodcut.<br />
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Walking on Water<br />
Desislava Alexandrova<br />
Photograph<br />
<strong>The</strong> Bear Spirit<br />
Roderick Pieplenbosch<br />
Poetry<br />
White coated<br />
Spawning fish<br />
Spirit bear<br />
Fur trappers<br />
Shadowy figure<br />
Forested island<br />
tuft <strong>of</strong> white fur<br />
Salmon<br />
Protective<br />
Grizzly hunt<br />
Reclusive<br />
Open to fish<br />
Wilderness<br />
Rest and sleep<br />
Safe and secure.<br />
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I Believe in a Smile<br />
Marie van Aalst<br />
Essay<br />
I believe that a single smile from one particular person can<br />
make your day. <strong>The</strong>y don’t have to say anything to you, just eye contact<br />
and then seeing the corners <strong>of</strong> their mouth go up. It could be a smile<br />
from your crush. One smile from him or her won’t just make your day,<br />
you’ll talk about it to all your friends. You’ll think about it, and without<br />
noticing, you’ll smile while thinking.<br />
If your teacher knows you and your best friend shouldn’t sit<br />
next to each other in class, you can still communicate. You smile at<br />
them and express your joy, pleasure, or amusement; or if you grin at<br />
them and they return it with an I-know-what-you-mean smile, which<br />
then is followed by your teacher saying your names. Both you and<br />
your friend will give your teacher an I’m-sorry smile. I believe that<br />
one smile, just like a picture, says a million words.<br />
I love how after a smile, laughter follows. I believe that both<br />
are contagious. I smile at you; you will instantly feel the need to smile<br />
back. Laughter has the same effect. You laugh and I’ll laugh with you,<br />
or just smile at you because I enjoy seeing you happy.<br />
I travel quite <strong>of</strong>ten and my knowledge <strong>of</strong> languages is limited<br />
to English and Dutch. Luckily, wherever you go, everyone understands<br />
a smile. No matter where you go, if you smile at a stranger, you won’t<br />
only make their day, they’ll smile back and make your day. It’s a universal<br />
language anyone understands, despite what culture, race or religion<br />
they have.<br />
I believe that there are plenty <strong>of</strong> reasons to smile. First <strong>of</strong><br />
all, smile, you’re alive. You are surrounded by people that love<br />
you. Smile. Second <strong>of</strong> all, smiling makes you beautiful; it attracts<br />
other people to talk to you. Smile. You’re reading this. Smile.<br />
It has been scientifically proven that smiling makes us<br />
happy. If you feel down, just smile, you’ll instantly start to feel better.<br />
You must have heard or at least read it before that it takes 50<br />
muscles to frown and only 10 to smile. So turn that frown upside<br />
down!<br />
“Today, give a stranger one <strong>of</strong> your smiles; it might be<br />
the only sunshine he sees all day.” (P.S. I Love You, by H. Jackson<br />
Brown, Jr.)<br />
I believe in a smile.<br />
Sometimes a smile can express pity; we want to make someone<br />
feel better. A full smile would be too much, so we smile because<br />
we don’t want to break the silence. We let them alone yet show them<br />
with a single smile, hey, I’m here for you. I’m sorry. I love you. Most <strong>of</strong><br />
the time these smiles work, and they do feel better. It will brighten up<br />
their day.<br />
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A Sad Memory...<br />
Lara Gueorgiueva<br />
Poetry<br />
Sketch <strong>of</strong> a Tree<br />
Alina Krumova<br />
Drawing<br />
<strong>The</strong> tree stretched its arms<br />
And welcomed the spring.<br />
To join it so gracefully and<br />
Bloom,<br />
Cover its long arms with flowers,<br />
And just be a jolly old chap.<br />
But then came the cold.<br />
<strong>The</strong> winter. <strong>The</strong> storm.<br />
He was frightened<br />
And lost his beautiful color,<br />
And leaves.<br />
It was time to go,<br />
No more fun.<br />
No more happiness.<br />
Age had taken over,<br />
And now nothing<br />
Could be done.<br />
It was time for him,<br />
to rest in peace.<br />
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Sade Ja Paiste<br />
Hanna Halmari<br />
Poetry<br />
Heart, you beat the rhythm <strong>of</strong> the soul,<br />
You are the illuminating sun,<br />
Exposing the sparkles and shimmers in the world,<br />
Even the coldest ice glitters under your gaze.<br />
You’ve travelled a long way from our bodies,<br />
So the downward descent is difficult at first,<br />
But slowly you make your return,<br />
And the mind has time to catch up with you.<br />
Your brilliant radiance brings hope,<br />
Your beat as powerful as the rays <strong>of</strong> the sun.<br />
You sustain life - where would we be without you<br />
When the skies are cloudy,<br />
We confide in you to lead us in the right direction,<br />
We listen to you,<br />
Even though you yourself are dangerous for our vision,<br />
Capable <strong>of</strong> blinding us with your effulgence.<br />
We want to feel your warmth on our skin,<br />
We want to close our eyes,<br />
And then to open them to admire the beautiful faces <strong>of</strong> our hopes and<br />
dreams,<br />
And we begin to forget that the sun sets as surely as it rises.<br />
When your rays <strong>of</strong> light meet the drops <strong>of</strong> realism,<br />
A beautiful connection is formed,<br />
Revealing the perfect harminy through an alluring arc <strong>of</strong> colors<br />
against the sky,<br />
Of passionate reds, thoughtful oranges, curious yellows,<br />
Alive greens, calm blues and mysterious purples.<br />
A reflection <strong>of</strong> the understanding between the body and soul.<br />
For one cannot live without rain or shine,<br />
And can only find peace when body and soul combine.<br />
But then the rain <strong>of</strong> realism comes pouring down,<br />
Our strong minds, our stable bodies,<br />
Remind you that just as the rain falls from the skies,<br />
You too must come back down to earth.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Rosewood Cutter<br />
Elise Sutherland<br />
Poetry<br />
Before New York<br />
Lukas Panayotopoulos<br />
Poetry<br />
Sleeveless on the Onive River<br />
the young man was heedless <strong>of</strong> the brooding sky and likely barrages<br />
<strong>of</strong> rain.<br />
He doesn’t like work,<br />
but he has to feed his family.<br />
He calls out while gliding past<br />
the Madagascan city <strong>of</strong> Antalana.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y holler back from behind the fallen trees<br />
For a finite period the organized gangs pillage the sacred turf.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y are punishing us.<br />
Concluding that the risks are spurring out <strong>of</strong> control, as expected, the<br />
government had discovered their logs <strong>of</strong> illegally harvested rosewood.<br />
He knew what he had to do. He ran down - stream in the shallow water.<br />
He moved swiftly, like a slender snake.<br />
One wintry morning<br />
Bronx river, beavers<br />
Clams, oysters, sandy beaches<br />
great nature...<br />
Vanished. Henry Hudson, New Amsterdam<br />
Shooting the breeze,<br />
beaver alarm with tail<br />
transformed into<br />
towering chestnuts, skyscrapers,<br />
asphalt, dumping ground for cars and trash<br />
bulldozed, wetlands paved<br />
tourists, fur trade<br />
nature...<br />
gone.<br />
He reached the vanilla fields. Alas , they caught him and crushed his<br />
skull.<br />
His last thought; “I am the rosewood cutter.”<br />
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Naivete & Defeat<br />
Ivan Dimitrov<br />
Prose Poem<br />
Innocence<br />
Desisilava Alexandrova<br />
Photograph<br />
Naivete<br />
Naivete is kind although very absent minded. She loves to<br />
give people the benefit <strong>of</strong> the doubt, and greatly enjoys writing<br />
long responses to unusual e-mails from friends. When they ask<br />
for money or favors, she loves to fulfill their wishes. She also avidly<br />
sends along the occasional message to her whole contact list,<br />
so that she is not haunted by Bloody Mary on the coming Friday,<br />
the 13th <strong>of</strong> the month. She also cried when balloon boy was in the<br />
news, and she still looks back on the event as a sad story. She will<br />
do absolutely anything for a good cause, and she lives in a world<br />
with no evil.<br />
Defeat<br />
Defeat never fights for anything. She constantly feels sorry<br />
for herself, and thus can not make herself do anything. She dresses<br />
only in white, and if you pay close attention to her, you can<br />
see her slightly swaying, constantly. She refuses to play Risk or<br />
Monopoly, and will not play any other game for that matter. Her<br />
face is droopy, her mouth is slanted, and she does not make eye<br />
contact. When she is feeling particularly lousy, she just switches<br />
on some “Winnie the Pooh” just to admire her favorite character,<br />
Eyore.<br />
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Buttercup Sun<br />
Juliette Berg<br />
Poetry<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You rise over the fields,<br />
Send glow to the river<br />
In the spring time.<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You wake me in the morning,<br />
Reach your long, scraggly fingers through my window<br />
And tickle my face<br />
And tug at my hair.<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You heat the air,<br />
Make the grass sweat<br />
And the trees sweat<br />
In the summer time.<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You bring real to my smile,<br />
And hug me when I’m gloomy<br />
You make me content<br />
I adore you for what you do.<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You reflect <strong>of</strong>f the snow,<br />
and make it twinkle<br />
like daylight stars<br />
In the winter time.<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You hide at night,<br />
So I can stay up late and<br />
Slither under my blanket<br />
With a flashlight<br />
And a book.<br />
Buttercup sun<br />
You make the world orange,<br />
Yellow and brown<br />
You make the sky shine pink at sunset<br />
In the autumn.<br />
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Vintage<br />
Samuil Sarandev<br />
Dirt Road<br />
Hamad Al Noaimi<br />
Prose Poem<br />
Walking on the sand where dangerous ultraviolet rays’ heat boils<br />
Photograph<br />
Away the skin layers <strong>of</strong> a human being’s in wait for night fall, where<br />
Merchants spent most <strong>of</strong> their long and throbbing days on camel back<br />
Venturing within the same path that people are venturing in this copper-colored<br />
vast land in<br />
Which our ancestors have sacrificed their lives, liberating this deserted<br />
area, this dirt road.<br />
O how peacefully sinful you are, giving the impression that you are<br />
As peaceful as the horizon seems, giving shelter to many life forms, but<br />
do not let<br />
Appearances deceive you, for when it is time to broadcast its news, the<br />
islands in this<br />
Horizon would get the word <strong>of</strong> tides rising and inundating the peaceful<br />
islands who<br />
Simply crave the knowledge <strong>of</strong> your whisper that is vacated by the<br />
clouds <strong>of</strong> secrets.<br />
How painfully cheerful it is to see countless numbers <strong>of</strong> yourself, in a<br />
state <strong>of</strong><br />
Silence waiting to declare war on your enemies by conquering the skies,<br />
making<br />
<strong>The</strong> skies themselves bleed from pain as the stars are swimming above<br />
you, who with<br />
Its beauty inspires you to be able to go anywhere, to be anywhere, to<br />
enlighten us on<br />
Fascinating stories about heroism, beauty and poetry <strong>of</strong> the past.<br />
Undiscovered knowledge about this peaceful horizon is as deep as the<br />
deepest trench in<br />
<strong>The</strong> seven seas where many brave knights have tried to tame you and<br />
figure out your secrets,<br />
Your limitless benevolence which attracted many people which you<br />
have embraced with your pride<br />
People would lift their heads because <strong>of</strong> the secrets you whisper through<br />
the wind <strong>of</strong> knowledge,<br />
Still, you are the camel <strong>of</strong> prudence which people ride.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Silent Hunter<br />
Christopher Swann<br />
Poetry<br />
Borealis<br />
Mitchell Carswell<br />
Drawing<br />
Under the cold churning waters <strong>of</strong> the<br />
North Atlantic, the hunter sits in waiting,<br />
To welcome new people to her<br />
Dark playroom, in the deep abyss <strong>of</strong> the cold.<br />
Silent beneath the waves,<br />
Unheard by all the world, and to all<br />
Who travel, invisible underneath them,<br />
A violent trap, waiting to be sprung.<br />
Now a shadow passes overhead,<br />
Atop the waves comes a ferry from<br />
America, with passengers to England,<br />
With all manner <strong>of</strong> happy people<br />
Enjoying a so far pleasant voyage.<br />
But all that is to end as the hunter<br />
Gears itself into action,<br />
Rising up to welcome<br />
People into their new home, the deep<br />
Dark cold abyss, this hunter once hid in.<br />
Up above the waves now she fires twice,<br />
Ripping apart the tranquility, and<br />
Shattering the happiness <strong>of</strong> people on this voyage,<br />
As screams <strong>of</strong> terror arise, silence<br />
Eventually reigns, as the hunter returns home<br />
To have a new ship painted on her side.<br />
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Protest Poem<br />
Vlado Panov<br />
Poetry<br />
Story <strong>of</strong> Life<br />
Barbora Slosarikova<br />
Poetry<br />
Standing still in the endless spiral,<br />
Going forward in reverse,<br />
Perplexed souls move through time like dogs without a bone.<br />
Consciously blind and deaf and senseless,<br />
Or just honestly stupid,<br />
Those flies, persistently try to escape through the closed window,<br />
From the ro<strong>of</strong>less hut.<br />
No matter how many words <strong>of</strong> wisdom you spit at them,<br />
<strong>The</strong>y will be, at one point, driven by a scent,<br />
To fly away and settle on a piece <strong>of</strong> … food.<br />
Because that is what they call it<br />
And then they will devour all <strong>of</strong> it, in swarms, and in a beastly manner.<br />
Let them have all the food they want<br />
And just have patience because the time will come and they will be<br />
splattered in<br />
One way or another.<br />
Life is like a book,<br />
everyone writes their own story.<br />
<strong>The</strong> opportunities <strong>of</strong> life,<br />
all <strong>of</strong> that glory,<br />
help us to create different chapters.<br />
A story <strong>of</strong> love, tragedy, or sadness;<br />
you pick the genre <strong>of</strong> your own destiny,<br />
<strong>of</strong> that scary madness,<br />
by choosing the way <strong>of</strong> your living.<br />
Choices are what make our character;<br />
choices are what give the spark to our eyes.<br />
Temptation is our life conductor.<br />
All the opportunities that life <strong>of</strong>fers us,<br />
make our decisions even harder.<br />
It’s not easy to choose the right path,<br />
because choices act like a chain reactor.<br />
Your heart will always help you;<br />
you just need to listen to it closely.<br />
Once the heart has its lips sealed,<br />
<strong>The</strong> brain helps you mostly.<br />
But when you are really not sure <strong>of</strong> your choice,<br />
just stop, and think.<br />
It’s better not to make a fast and unwise decision,<br />
at one fast blink,<br />
because that leaves all <strong>of</strong> the possibilities<br />
Opened.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Incas<br />
Martin Koupenov<br />
Poetry<br />
Flattering histories,<br />
Destructive earthquakes,<br />
traditions, kingdoms, conquering,<br />
the god lightning saves them all,<br />
wooden tools, mummies buried,<br />
the fiesta, brilliantly colored cloth,<br />
remaking the world,<br />
steep mountain slopes,<br />
looking for gold in contorted poses,<br />
<strong>The</strong> mighty empire.<br />
Vanishing Spots<br />
Meggan Conley<br />
Poetry<br />
<strong>The</strong> little one, Legadma and her mother<br />
emerge from the African air.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y walk with stealth upon the thin acacia tree branches, the<br />
mother catching her cub swiftly before the drop to the ground.<br />
Among the long grass their darting eyes are patient, they seek<br />
death and dinner.<br />
Ignoring the screeching squirrels, the two play like siblings, the<br />
cub savouring the touch <strong>of</strong> her mother’s tail.<br />
A gun shot. A drop.<br />
Legadma scrambles in fright<br />
She runs far, like her mother taught her.<br />
Only when she is atop the acacia tree branch does she realise her<br />
mother is not with her.<br />
She is one <strong>of</strong> the 5, 000 leopards killed annually.<br />
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Eyes<br />
Vlado Panov<br />
Drawing<br />
Top <strong>of</strong> the World<br />
Chris Kkissia<br />
Prose Poem<br />
<strong>The</strong> sugar covered peaks loom below me. I can feel the temperature<br />
rapidly drop below zero. I hear the wind yelling in my face,<br />
warning me to keep moving. A solid structure <strong>of</strong> rocks stands<br />
above me. Nearly there, got to keep moving. I look down to the distant<br />
world below. <strong>The</strong> smell <strong>of</strong> oxygen is in the blue void around<br />
me.<br />
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Homecourt Advantage<br />
Nathan Myers<br />
Short Story<br />
Seth climbed up into his rusted pickup truck. It was nearly April but a<br />
recent blizzard had left the ground covered in a fresh layer <strong>of</strong> snow. Well that’s<br />
Colorado weather for you. <strong>The</strong> ancient engine turned over two times before it finally<br />
roared to life. As Seth put the truck in reverse and pulled out <strong>of</strong> the West High<br />
<strong>School</strong> parking lot, he mulled over what Coach Troy had said to the team as they<br />
finished the last practice before the state championship. Tomorrow is the biggest<br />
game <strong>of</strong> your basketball careers so far...<strong>The</strong> Mountain View Badgers will be tough,<br />
but it’s just another game to add to our undefeated season.<br />
Seth chose to take the longest route home, to delay his return to that hellhole.<br />
He pulled into a truck stop to get a bite to eat, knowing that there would be<br />
no food at home. He savored his burger and lingered around the restaurant for as<br />
long as he could, delaying the inevitable. <strong>The</strong> whole diner had emptied out by the<br />
time Seth finally paid the bill and walked through the cold air back to his truck.<br />
This time, the truck started on the first try, and he headed home.<br />
“Are you still going on about playing basketball You’re just wasting<br />
your time, there’s no way you’re gonna make it, boy. You need to quit living in<br />
a fairy tale.”<br />
Seth rolled his eyes. I don’t need to hear this conversation again. He<br />
turned around and headed toward his room.<br />
“Don’t you walk away from me boy!” Eric called after him, “Get back<br />
in here right now!”<br />
“Dad. I’m good at basketball. I’ll get a scholarship and go to university,<br />
like mom always wished-”<br />
“University Who needs it I didn’t go to no university and look at me.<br />
I did good.”<br />
Seth let out a small laugh. Eric stood up immediately and faced Seth.<br />
A small vein popped out on his forehead. “You think that’s funny I provide<br />
everything for you!”<br />
Seth rarely got nervous before basketball games, no matter how important.<br />
But he had never been in a state championship game before. Going home<br />
was exactly what Seth did not need before the big game. However, he had no other<br />
choice. <strong>The</strong> truck had just started to get warm when Seth pulled up to the one<br />
story, two bedroom house at 279 Locust Dr. <strong>The</strong> only light on was in the living<br />
room. Well here we go. <strong>The</strong> door to the house was unlocked. Seth ducked under<br />
that rather short doorway into an unlit hallway. <strong>The</strong> TV was blaring the sounds <strong>of</strong> a<br />
Friday night fight and Eric Keller was intently watching it, facing away from where<br />
Seth stood.<br />
“Where were you, boy” He questioned without even turning around.<br />
Seth could tell his father had been drinking from the empty beer bottles<br />
and the slurred words. “I had basketball, Dad. I told you that this morning.<br />
We are playing in the state championship tomorrow. It would mean a lot to<br />
me if you would come watch.”<br />
Seth had heard this whole spiel before, but he wasn’t interested in<br />
hearing how his dad provided everything for the family and how Seth owed<br />
everything to him.<br />
“If you provide everything for me, then what’s for dinner Why are<br />
both the fridge and the cabinets empty except for your bottles <strong>of</strong> beer and<br />
whiskey You don’t provide anything for me.”<br />
Eric took a couple steps closer to Seth. He was a very big man, but<br />
Seth did not back away. Stand your ground, don’t back away. “What did you<br />
just say”<br />
“You heard me, Dad,” Eric stepped closer to Seth until they were just<br />
two feet apart. Seth was an inch or two taller than his father. Eric reeked <strong>of</strong><br />
alcohol and many days without a shower. Eric’s right fist swung once and<br />
made contact with Seth’s gut. Seth doubled over but stood upright once again.<br />
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I can’t show him weakness. I can’t let him control me. Eric threw another<br />
punch, this time hitting Seth on the cheek and Seth started to taste blood in<br />
his mouth. I can easily beat him, but that would only bring me down to his<br />
level.<br />
“You think you don’t need me <strong>The</strong>n I want you out <strong>of</strong> this house right<br />
now! Pack your bags and get out! I mean it!” Seth had a bag packed for a time<br />
like this. He had been expecting it for a long time, he just did not imagine it<br />
would be on the eve <strong>of</strong> the the state championship game. <strong>The</strong> bag included<br />
several changes <strong>of</strong> clothes and toiletries. All Seth had to do was put in his basketball<br />
shoes and his basketball uniform. Within fifteen minutes <strong>of</strong> arriving<br />
home, Seth was back in his old truck, leaving for what he figured was the last<br />
time.<br />
<strong>The</strong> Sunnyside Motel was the hangout place for teenage drunks and<br />
drug addicts. And although Seth was neither, it was the only place he could<br />
afford, even for one night. He was given room 45. <strong>The</strong> room was tiny, with a<br />
double sized bed in the middle and a nightstand on either side. <strong>The</strong>re was a<br />
communal bathroom down the hallway. Hopefully I won’t have to be using<br />
that in the middle <strong>of</strong> the night.<br />
<strong>The</strong> walls <strong>of</strong> the hotel were paper thin, and Seth was in a world <strong>of</strong><br />
sounds. He could hear the man in room 47 snoring. He could hear the lady<br />
in room 44 argue with her drug dealer about the products she had just been<br />
sold. He found it difficult to get any sleep, instead he looked back over the<br />
past season. How he, as starting point guard, had led his team to an undefeated<br />
season for the first time in school history. Next he looked at the last<br />
three games they played, the play<strong>of</strong>fs. First there was the blowout against<br />
the Lincoln Knights . <strong>The</strong> next week, the Vikings played possibly the worst<br />
game <strong>of</strong> the season, almost losing to the Franklin Bulldogs. <strong>The</strong> third game <strong>of</strong><br />
the play<strong>of</strong>fs, the Vikings managed to pull <strong>of</strong>f an upset <strong>of</strong> the heavily favored<br />
Delta Warriors. And finally, the championship that would be played tomorrow<br />
against last year’s champions, the Mountain View Badgers.<br />
***<br />
“One, two, three Vikings!” <strong>The</strong> whole team cheered in unison. Seth lead<br />
his team out <strong>of</strong> the changing room and onto the court. This is it. <strong>The</strong> crowd erupted<br />
as the team jogged onto the court and began layup drills. <strong>The</strong> stadium was packed,<br />
dozens <strong>of</strong> scouts from various universities and hundreds <strong>of</strong> fans coming to watch<br />
him play. <strong>The</strong>re was only one person that was missing, and until he came, none <strong>of</strong><br />
the fans mattered. He glanced over to where the Badgers were warming up and<br />
caught the stare <strong>of</strong> Derek West, the starting point guard for the Badgers and the<br />
man Seth would be up against tonight. This will be tough but I’m ready for the challenge<br />
.<br />
“Three minutes,” the referee called out.<br />
“Alright boys, bring it in!” Seth jogged over the the bench to join the rest <strong>of</strong><br />
his team standing around Coach Troy. “Most coaches would give you guys some inspiring<br />
speech but I’m not really one for all that emotional crap. Just play hard and<br />
this game is yours!” Seth looked around but could not find his father anywhere, not<br />
that he expected to.<br />
<strong>The</strong> game started out well for the Vikings. Seth hit an open three to start<br />
the game. <strong>The</strong>n Fred, the center, intercepted a pass and threw it up to Seth who<br />
made an open layup. <strong>The</strong>n West made a highly contested three pointer to start the<br />
scoring for the Badgers. <strong>The</strong> rest <strong>of</strong> the half continued on like this, teams trading<br />
baskets, no one pulling ahead. At halftime the Vikings were up 34-32. Seth had 15<br />
<strong>of</strong> the points and added four more assists. He had also done a fairly good job at<br />
stopping West.<br />
“Okay guys, that was a decent first half,” Coach Troy said back in the locker<br />
room, “but we need to play better defense! Move your feet! Don’t let your man<br />
past you. Other than that, just keep doing what you were doing. Bring it in.”<br />
“One, two, three Vikings!”<br />
<strong>The</strong> third quarter continued just as the first two had gone. No team was<br />
able to pull ahead by more than three or four points at a time. Midway through the<br />
third quarter, Seth’s had twenty five points. Throughout the remaining five minutes<br />
in the quarter, the Vikings hit a rough patch. Seth had three fouls and Troy<br />
had to sit him on the bench so he would not foul out. Without their star player, the<br />
Vikings had a hard time keeping up with the Badgers.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y blew their five point lead and fell behind by six when the second to<br />
last buzzer sounded. It was all Seth to start the fourth quarter. <strong>The</strong> Vikings cut into<br />
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the deficit and even managed to pull ahead by four midway into the fourth quarter.<br />
Although Seth was playing the best basketball he had ever played, he knew he<br />
needed to play harder. <strong>The</strong> Badgers stuck with them, never falling behind more<br />
than five points. With three minutes left in the game, Seth had thirty five points.<br />
Coach Troy called a timeout. Seth was breathing heavily, sweat dripping from every<br />
pore in his body. I need to take my game to another level if I want to win. <strong>The</strong><br />
Vikings had possession coming out <strong>of</strong> the timeout. <strong>The</strong>y passed the ball around<br />
before Seth was able to shoot another three. <strong>The</strong>y now lead by eight points, the<br />
biggest lead either team had all game. Seth was only two points away from breaking<br />
the record for most points scored in a state championship, but that was the last<br />
thing on his mind. All he was interested in was winning the game for his team. He<br />
made another layup and drew the foul, the free throw was automatic. Seth had 41<br />
points, breaking the previous record. Time was winding down, only one minute<br />
remained and the Vikings lead by six. Only a total disaster could ruin the game for<br />
them now. Seth made two more easy jump shots. He looked up at the scoreboard.<br />
78-68 for the Vikings. <strong>The</strong> scoreboard also showed that Seth had scored 45 points.<br />
He chuckled, remembering the Sunnyside motel. That’s the game. All that’s left to<br />
do is waste time. Seth slowly dribbled the ball down the court. Something caught<br />
his eye, or rather, someone. Eric Keller stood leaning against the wall, hands in his<br />
pockets, watching the game intently. Seth was jolted back to the game with the<br />
sound <strong>of</strong> the final buzzer. He attempted to make his way over to his father, but was<br />
swarmed with teammates, fans, and scouts.<br />
Self-Portrait<br />
Steven Slavchev<br />
Drawing<br />
“Great game kid.”<br />
“Hey Seth man! We did it!”<br />
“I am a representative <strong>of</strong> Redding University”<br />
Seth pushed his way over to where his father was standing just a few moments<br />
earlier, but Eric was gone. Seth ran over to the doorway into the cold night.<br />
Huge snowflakes were falling from above. It was so cold that the sweat dripping<br />
from Seth’s forehead froze almost immediately. Seth searched around but Eric was<br />
nowhere to be found. However, Seth saw a pair <strong>of</strong> taillights pulling out <strong>of</strong> the parking<br />
lot onto the street and into the cold Colorado night.<br />
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Fate<br />
Kristian Radev<br />
Violin<br />
Hannah Berg<br />
Drawing<br />
Poetry<br />
As I stand here in the middle,<br />
between red and white,<br />
my fate is now written,<br />
my answer given to me.<br />
I have realized<br />
my purpose,<br />
my goal,<br />
my destiny.<br />
All I need now...<br />
is that question I began with.<br />
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Things My Cat Does<br />
Nathan Godding<br />
Poetry<br />
Monday<br />
Wake Up<br />
Wake up people by nudging their nose<br />
Make them give me breakfast<br />
Meow by the door<br />
Scratch the s<strong>of</strong>as (“bad girl”)<br />
Now disappear up the stairs and go to sleep<br />
Tuesday<br />
Wake up<br />
Wake up everyone by meowing loudly<br />
Eat breakfast<br />
Look cute<br />
Nudge them to stroke me<br />
Growl at the birds feeding on the balcony<br />
Scratch the table (“bad girl”)<br />
Find a comfy bed to sleep on<br />
Wednesday<br />
Wake up<br />
Bat people’s nose until one <strong>of</strong> them gives me breakfast<br />
Knock the fork with my food in it onto the floor<br />
Step in my water bowl<br />
Scratch the boot box (“good girl”)<br />
Use the litter tray<br />
Lick my bottom in public (“EEEEW!”)<br />
Practice my purring<br />
Go to sleep on someone’s suitcase<br />
Thursday<br />
Wake up<br />
Jump on bed and purr loudly until someone feeds me<br />
Put up with getting cuddles from my people<br />
Set the house alarm <strong>of</strong>f by jumping, through the banisters<br />
Investigate next door’s garden<br />
Go to the toilet in next door’s garden<br />
Meow to let in<br />
Run into door/window/wall<br />
Sit by fire<br />
Go to sleep<br />
Friday<br />
Wake up<br />
Clean my people because they are dirty<br />
Get fed<br />
Sit on the chess table and swipe the pieces <strong>of</strong>f with my tail<br />
Allow my people to exhaust themselves running around the<br />
house after me<br />
Get my claws caught in the net curtains<br />
Sit on the computer keyboard<br />
Go to sleep on computer keyboard<br />
Move from computer keyboard after being rudely woken up<br />
Go to sleep on someone’s lap<br />
Saturday<br />
Sleep all day.<br />
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Beyond Science<br />
Olivia van Aalst<br />
Poetry<br />
Down a crater<br />
Through a war<br />
Prevent a catastrophe<br />
as raindrops sizzled<br />
the molton rock<br />
had hope to transform<br />
ground was shaking<br />
inside a subwo<strong>of</strong>er<br />
shoe melting<br />
air as acid<br />
capable <strong>of</strong> unleashing<br />
splattering lava<br />
rising, burning, boiling<br />
top <strong>of</strong> it all<br />
eye to eye<br />
lava to lava<br />
unbelievable<br />
beyond science.<br />
Analysis <strong>of</strong>“Sixteen Plus Sixteen”<br />
by Nedyalko Yordanov<br />
<strong>The</strong>odore Tenev<br />
Essay<br />
Original Poem:<br />
За кой ли път по този бряг преминаха<br />
едно момиче и едно момче,<br />
живели по шестнадесет години,<br />
а значи общо тридесет и две.<br />
За кой ли път те спореха разпалено<br />
по темата, наречена съдба,<br />
и мислеха, че всичко са узнали,<br />
щом знаят, че съдбата е борба.<br />
И мислеха, че много лесно скриват<br />
това, което крият всеки път,<br />
но вярваха, че докато са живи,<br />
те никога не ще се разделят.<br />
А от безкрайно старо време знай се -<br />
животът има свое странно Не:<br />
шестнайсет и шестнайсет е шестнайсет,<br />
а никога не тридесет и две.<br />
Но има ли значение, когато<br />
света се гледа с четири очи<br />
и радостта е двойно по-богата,<br />
а мъката наполовин горчи<br />
За кой ли път по този бряг преминаха<br />
едно момиче и едно момче,<br />
живели по шестнадесет години,<br />
а значи общо тридесет и две.<br />
Край тях се смееше незабелязано<br />
морето, този вечен великан -<br />
голямо като обич неизказана<br />
и синьо като път неизвървян.<br />
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Poem in English: (translated by <strong>The</strong>odore Tenev)<br />
For the umpteenth time on this coast passed<br />
a girl, and a boy too,<br />
lived for sixteen years last,<br />
and together thirty-two.<br />
For the umpteenth time, they argued in a flare<br />
on a topic called destiny<br />
and thought they had become aware<br />
that fate is struggle, heavily.<br />
And they thought they can easily hide<br />
what they hid every single time, righted<br />
<strong>The</strong>y believed that while they lived,<br />
<strong>The</strong>y will never be divided.<br />
But from ancient times it’s known -<br />
Life has its strange NO!:<br />
sixteen plus sixteen is sixteen, though<br />
and never thirty-two.<br />
However, does it matter when<br />
the world is viewed by four eyes<br />
and joy is double-wide, and then<br />
every grief is left aside<br />
For the umpteenth time on this coast passed<br />
a girl, and a boy too,<br />
lived for sixteen years last,<br />
and together thirty-two.<br />
Beside them laughed unnoticeable<br />
the sea, this eternal giant -<br />
as great as love unutterable<br />
and as blue as way defiant.<br />
Original Analysis <strong>of</strong> the poem in Bulgarian:<br />
16 Плюс 16 е стихотворение от постмодерната или<br />
модерна българска литература. В него Недялко Йорданов<br />
съпоставя променливите настроения на тийнейджърите и<br />
мъдрата разсъдливост на възрастните. Обаче те са осъзнали<br />
красотата на любовта, но и са разбрали, че човек сам гради<br />
съдбата си. Темите, засегнати в стихотворението, са любовта,<br />
личната съдба и живота на младите.<br />
Лирическите герои са 16 годишни тийнейджъри. Те<br />
с надежда вярват, че винаги ще са заедно. Разсъжденията<br />
на лирическият говорител и философското твърдение, че<br />
„шестнайсет и шестнайсет е шестнайсет, а никога не тридесет и<br />
две“ , ни внушават святостта на любовта и съвместният живот.<br />
В същото време ни убеждават и че животът е независим и посуров<br />
отколкото го виждат двамата влюбени с розови очила.<br />
Композиционната рамка,<br />
„ За кой ли път по този бряг преминаха<br />
едно момиче и едно момче,<br />
живели по шестнадесет години,<br />
а значи общо тридесет и две.“<br />
Утвърждава красотата на възрастта на героите.<br />
Литературният въпрос в рамката, поставен анафорично,<br />
акцентира върху възхищението на лирическият говорител<br />
към двамата тийнейджъри, а анафората подчертава идеята за<br />
трайната привързаност между тях. След това „разпаленият им<br />
спор“ подчертава наивността с която те възприемат живота.<br />
Твърдението, че „съдбата е борба“ поставя въпроса за гледната<br />
точка на младежите и тяхната надежда, че с борба ще постигнат<br />
мечтаното от тях.<br />
В следващата строфа образът, който лирическите<br />
герои „крият всеки път“, е символ на мечтаното, скритата<br />
красота на любовта и нейната свенливост. Тук жизнеността е<br />
противопоставена на философията на живота. Лирическият<br />
говорител е убеден, че всеки сам се бори, за да постигне това,<br />
към което се стреми.<br />
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Накрая, песимистичният, но реалист разказвач, за пореден път се<br />
прекланя пред споделената любов, символизираща младите хора:<br />
„ Но има ли значение, когато<br />
света се гледа с четири очи<br />
и радостта е двойно по-богата,<br />
а мъката на половин горчи“<br />
Чувството на радост е смесено с болката от суровия<br />
живот и горчивата реалност. Тази реалност е откроена ясно<br />
извън композиционната рамка с метафората „морето, този вечен<br />
великан“. Тя напомня за безкрайните проблеми в истинският<br />
свят, а широта символизира свободата на 16 годишните да<br />
извървят живота си пълноценно и с някого до себе си.<br />
В заключение, морето се надсмива „незабелязано“<br />
на наивността, чистота и свенливостта на чувствата на<br />
тийнейджърите. Но инверсиите „обич неизказана“ и „път<br />
неизвървян“ свидетелстват възхищението и удоволствието<br />
и насладата от споделените мигове на героите в тяхната<br />
романтична и идеалистична връзка.<br />
Analysis <strong>of</strong> the poem in English:<br />
“Sixteen Plus sixteen” is a poem <strong>of</strong> modern or postmodern<br />
Bulgarian literature. In it, Nedyalko Yordanov correlates the variable<br />
moods <strong>of</strong> the teenagers and the wise adults. However, the adults have<br />
appreciated the beauty <strong>of</strong> love, but they have found, too, that one<br />
builds one’s destiny. <strong>The</strong> themes, addressed in the poem, are love, destiny<br />
and the shared life <strong>of</strong> young people.<br />
<strong>The</strong> lyrical characters are two 16-year-old teenagers. <strong>The</strong>y believe<br />
and secretly hope that they will always be together. However, the<br />
thoughts <strong>of</strong> the lyrical speaker and his philosophical statement that<br />
“sixteen plus sixteen is sixteen and never thirty-two” suggest the purity<br />
<strong>of</strong> love and shared life. At the same time, he claims that life is independent<br />
and rougher than the two lovers with pink glasses see it.<br />
<strong>The</strong> compositional frame:<br />
For the umpteenth time on this coast passed<br />
a girl and a boy<br />
lived for sixteen years,<br />
and then thirty-two.<br />
affirms the beauty <strong>of</strong> the characters’ age. <strong>The</strong> rhetorical question within<br />
the frame, set in an anaphoric way, stresses the lyrical speaker’s admiration<br />
<strong>of</strong> both teenagers and the anaphora usage emphasizes the idea <strong>of</strong><br />
the strong relation between them. <strong>The</strong>n “their fierce dispute” emphasizes<br />
simplicity with which they perceive life. <strong>The</strong> claim that “destiny<br />
is a struggle” raises the issue <strong>of</strong> the teenagers’ point <strong>of</strong> view and their<br />
hope that their dream could be achieved with will and determination.<br />
In the next stanza, the image that lyrical characters “hide every<br />
time” becomes a symbol <strong>of</strong> their dreams, the hidden beauty <strong>of</strong><br />
love, and its purity. This vitality is opposed to the philosophy <strong>of</strong> life<br />
expressed in the poem. <strong>The</strong> lyrical speaker is convinced that everyone<br />
alone and separately is struggling to achieve what one seeks.<br />
Finally, the pessimistic and realistic speaker once again shows his<br />
respect and appreciation <strong>of</strong> shared love, a symbol <strong>of</strong> the young people:<br />
“But does it matter when<br />
the world is viewed by four eyes<br />
and joy is double-wide, and then<br />
every grief is left aside”<br />
However, the feeling <strong>of</strong> joy is mixed with the pain in life and<br />
the bitter reality. This reality is highlighted outside the compositional<br />
frame by the metaphor “the sea, this eternal giant.” It is reminiscent<br />
<strong>of</strong> the endless problems in the real world, symbolizing freedom, as<br />
well as the breadth <strong>of</strong> the 16-year olds to walk their lives together and<br />
share the best moments.<br />
In conclusion, the sea laughs “unnoticed” at the naive lovers,<br />
the purity, and shy feelings <strong>of</strong> the teenagers. Nevertheless, the inversions<br />
“unspoken love” and “way undone” show the admiration, pleasure,<br />
and enjoyment <strong>of</strong> the shared moments <strong>of</strong> the characters in their<br />
romantic and idealistic relationship.<br />
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Wind<br />
Léa Subrenat<br />
Photograph<br />
Untitled<br />
Hannah Berg<br />
Haiku<br />
Lone weed in the wind<br />
Swaying to the beat <strong>of</strong> time<br />
Surviving the odds.<br />
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Waiting<br />
Kendra Reiter<br />
Poetry<br />
She was sitting there, waiting,<br />
nobody knew.<br />
She was sitting in the darkness,<br />
surrounded by the silence,<br />
interrupted only by the moonlight,<br />
occasionally sliding through the thick foliage around,<br />
like a snake,<br />
making its way through the high grass fields nearby.<br />
Her arms,<br />
while sitting so still,<br />
moved only to touch the s<strong>of</strong>t<br />
feathers <strong>of</strong> her black wings,<br />
hanging so distinct by her side,<br />
like a shadow,<br />
(always there)<br />
the only thing with her,<br />
while she was waiting.<br />
She was waiting for the sensation<br />
<strong>of</strong> love.<br />
Night after night,<br />
sitting and waiting,<br />
but never finding.<br />
Waiting for him,<br />
but all that was to come was pain.<br />
<strong>The</strong> dark hours turned darker by the minute,<br />
<strong>The</strong> pain in her soul grew greater,<br />
but there was nothing she could do,<br />
no one to help it cease.<br />
During the long hours <strong>of</strong> darkness,<br />
all she did was wait,<br />
and when the morning dawned,<br />
she began to disappear.<br />
fade away -<br />
Like she had never been there.<br />
She shifted into the darkness,<br />
enfolded by the shadows, and<br />
dragged by an unseen force.<br />
She will be back.<br />
Worry<br />
Nathan Myers<br />
Haiku<br />
Uninvited guest<br />
He’s always right beside me<br />
Wishing me to fail.<br />
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Epilogue<br />
for William Golding’s Lord <strong>of</strong> the Flies<br />
Hannah Godding<br />
Pastiche<br />
<strong>The</strong> building stood in front <strong>of</strong> him, towering, snowy coloured,<br />
and as unforgiving as an iceberg. <strong>The</strong> starkness <strong>of</strong> the white paint<br />
almost blinded him. Around him the air was chilly and still. It rang<br />
with the noise <strong>of</strong> a waking city, but he was almost deaf to the clamour.<br />
With a deep breath, he stepped forward, through the slowly spinning<br />
revolving door, into a pleasantly warm foyer.<br />
“Good morning Mr. Merridew! Have a seat; Dr Smith will be<br />
right along.”<br />
Jack grimaced at the false cheeriness in the voice <strong>of</strong> the receptionist.<br />
He slouched over to the group <strong>of</strong> chairs behind the desk and sat down<br />
to wait. He leaned back in the uncomfortable seat, so that he could see<br />
through the window where a tiny sliver <strong>of</strong> natural light came in, grey<br />
and bleak, as if even the sun had given up hope. It began to snow. As<br />
the s<strong>of</strong>t, delicate flakes drifted down to the gravel, Jack thought about<br />
the first time he had come to this place, almost exactly eight years ago<br />
to the day. He had been twelve. And he had just come <strong>of</strong>f <strong>of</strong> a ship, the<br />
ship which had rescued him from…<br />
“Jack! How lovely to see you again!” His thoughts were interrupted<br />
by the psychologist, who had come out <strong>of</strong> her <strong>of</strong>fice to indicate<br />
to him that she was ready to start. Jack got reluctantly to his feet and<br />
shuffled down the hall. He stopped at the door to give the woman a<br />
half smile, and then stepped into the drab <strong>of</strong>fice for the very last time.<br />
***<br />
Ralph looked over the edge <strong>of</strong> the bridge into the churning waters<br />
below him. He let out a long moan and faces within the crowds<br />
<strong>of</strong> people pushing past him on the pavement stopped for a second to<br />
stare with expressions <strong>of</strong> compassion in their faces and fear in their<br />
eyes. He turned to speak again to the boy sitting on the railings next to<br />
him.<br />
“I’m so sorry Piggy. Really I am. I should have done something<br />
to stop them, to stop him from hurting people. I could have done<br />
something to save you and I didn’t.” People turned to look at Ralph,<br />
but he ignored them and they walked on wondering about the man<br />
who talked to nothing.<br />
Piggy smiled thinly and sighed. “But Ralph, you were just a<br />
boy then. And look around now. People were killed in the war, lots<br />
<strong>of</strong> them were. But the ones who survived are smarter now and<br />
they have rebuilt the world which was almost destroyed. I died,<br />
but you can go on and be a stronger person. You can learn from<br />
other’s mistakes, not just your own.”<br />
Ralph looked away into the murky depths under his feet.<br />
When he looked up again his eyes were shining with tears. “But I<br />
can’t Piggy. I’m not smart like you and I don’t know how to make<br />
things better. I should never have been chief, it should have been<br />
you! I live in the past, trapped on the island inside my mind. And I<br />
can’t bear it any longer!”<br />
With another anguished cry Ralph stood and felt the wind tugging<br />
at his clothes, pulling him forward, closer to the precipice looming<br />
before him. “You drove me to this! You hear that Jack! It was<br />
all your fault!”<br />
Hours later when the police dragged the body out <strong>of</strong> the river, his<br />
clothes had lost all their colouring; the dyes had washed out in the<br />
water. <strong>The</strong> only colour left on the shell <strong>of</strong> the man was his golden<br />
hair. Among the swarm <strong>of</strong> people surrounding the bedraggled<br />
body, nobody noticed a pale child dressed all in white, smiling<br />
sadly at the broken face.<br />
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***<br />
Far away on a burnt out island in the middle <strong>of</strong> an ocean, a<br />
sharpened stick, worn away and rotten, lay buried under mounds<br />
<strong>of</strong> sand. Next to the mound was a shard <strong>of</strong> white bone, part <strong>of</strong> a<br />
skull. Somewhere on the island, a pig scrambled through the undergrowth,<br />
running fast away from something terrible. And the<br />
island itself seemed to howl like a beast in the night.
Mono-logue<br />
Briar Mills<br />
(first perfomred; April 2012)<br />
Original Script<br />
I know I don’t have the right,<br />
I have parents and a bright future and a dog plus a boyfriend<br />
I am pretty much set.<br />
And yet I am travelling on this downward spiral to an inevitable end that sees<br />
no cure.<br />
<strong>The</strong>n why do I feel like this<br />
Can you answer me<br />
Because I honestly can’t,<br />
Hence me talking to you silent lot…<br />
Arena stage, as a raised cage is flooded by s<strong>of</strong>t blue light. Lying down<br />
on the ground looking at the ceiling and occasionally glancing at the audience<br />
members. Before starting the monologue, lift self up and lean back on arms.<br />
You know,<br />
Thinking back I was never like this,<br />
I mean I was never actually like this.<br />
It makes me wonder what I was thinking <strong>of</strong> back then,<br />
Oh I wish I could get it back.<br />
Because this,<br />
This isn’t that great.<br />
Laugh mockingly<br />
I’m only sixteen,<br />
But I’m craving to remember back then.<br />
It’s actually quite sad<br />
I should be living in the moment not trying to bring back the past, right<br />
That’s for old people,<br />
Ones that are going to knock <strong>of</strong>f pretty soon,<br />
Ones that look forward to color coding pills,<br />
Ones that can’t walk to the mail box in the morning,<br />
Ones that gum the crap out <strong>of</strong> biscuits,<br />
Me!<br />
I have got my entire,<br />
Full,<br />
Total,<br />
Wholesome,<br />
Untouched,<br />
Wonderful,<br />
And continuous life ahead <strong>of</strong> me,<br />
Why complain<br />
Oh right.<br />
You have no idea what I am talking about, do you<br />
Stupid me!<br />
Laugh mockingly<br />
I warn you it might be hard to grasp, not because I think you are ignorant,<br />
But because, well ok maybe it is your ignorance and there really is no use talking<br />
to you.<br />
Sit back on middle block, biting nails and looking at audience, turn around on<br />
block to get away from the audience staring at character, after three turns continue<br />
monologue.<br />
I take that the reason you’re still sitting here is because you want me to explain<br />
your ignorance,<br />
Let me tell you a story to back up my “theory” <strong>of</strong> you being very ignorant<br />
A man, who was balding, wanted to talk about things,<br />
<strong>The</strong> thing is I don’t talk very much,<br />
I’m actually quite quiet<br />
But this man wanted to talk, this man wanted to talk<br />
You could see in his eyes that he dearly and honestly wanted to help me<br />
With the down curved mouth,<br />
And the pulled in brows,<br />
<strong>The</strong> crossed legs,<br />
Cross legs<br />
<strong>The</strong> metaphorically extended arms<br />
Extend arms<br />
But what I didn’t see in his dear eyes, his mutated brows nor his metaphorical<br />
movement was understanding<br />
I could pin point judgment.<br />
He kept asking questions like:<br />
Why would you do this to yourself<br />
Do you not appreciate what you have<br />
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Do you think about your family<br />
Do you think about the consequences<br />
Run at the side <strong>of</strong> the cage, grabbing the side <strong>of</strong> the cage, shouting the<br />
questions at the audience.<br />
WHY<br />
WHY<br />
WHY<br />
I DON’T KNOW!!!!! Shout<br />
Listen,<br />
I didn’t ask for this to happen,<br />
I didn’t ask to not enjoy life,<br />
I didn’t ask to want to KILL MYSELF!<br />
Gasp<br />
I know,<br />
So surprising<br />
All <strong>of</strong> a sudden those very questions that a bald man asked me are flipping<br />
through your mind like T.V. commercials on Sundays. Buy this for<br />
34.99 in the next 5 minutes and you’ll get suicide for free. Oh the stupidities<br />
<strong>of</strong> life, everything evolved around money. But still most live in<br />
poverty, I’d cry for them, but I don’t think I care. But don’t judge me<br />
considering the rest <strong>of</strong> the world doesn’t care either, or else poverty in<br />
Africa wouldn’t exist. It is not a matter <strong>of</strong> not being able to, but really<br />
just not wanting to. This is why I guess I should die. What do I know, I’m<br />
only sixteen.<br />
Sit on block<br />
My question being: what is the point <strong>of</strong> living<br />
Of course all <strong>of</strong> you will have answers like: because living is wonderful,<br />
something better will tomorrow, positive things will surely come, life is<br />
beautiful, death is an easy way out, other people have reasons to live,<br />
why shouldn’t you have one.<br />
Scream and drop onto knees grabbing the cage reciting monologue to<br />
the eyes <strong>of</strong> an audience member.<br />
I think your hopelessness is killing me, because these views <strong>of</strong> life are<br />
so shallow, that I don’t even think I could convince someone that wants<br />
to live that they should continue living. How do you not hate yourselves<br />
for thinking this<br />
What is the most typical day for someone<br />
You wake up<br />
Go to school, that decides that you’re going to work for the rest <strong>of</strong> your<br />
life,<br />
Come home, do homework or care for kids<br />
Go to sleep.<br />
Wake up<br />
Go to school<br />
Come home<br />
Go to sleep<br />
Wake up<br />
Go to school<br />
Come home<br />
Go to sleep<br />
Wake up<br />
Go to school<br />
Come home<br />
Go to sleep<br />
Just saying it, let alone living it, makes me want to jump <strong>of</strong>f a building.<br />
Unless <strong>of</strong> course you’re unemployed, but this isn’t much better as instead<br />
you’re criticized by society for being <strong>of</strong> no help to the greater good.<br />
I don’t know which is worse, either one seems like I’m stepping into a<br />
fire. Perhaps I’m just jealous and I do want to live, but who knows, nobody,<br />
not even I.<br />
So, people, I am lingering in this theater <strong>of</strong> life pondering on my existence<br />
and the existence <strong>of</strong> others and whether we should exist at all. I<br />
am stuck in a stalemate with life and the only action I see out is what I<br />
have explained to you here.<br />
Blue light fades, red lights come on, focused on face.<br />
So I’ve come to the conclusion that there’s really nothing wrong with<br />
me, but something wrong with all <strong>of</strong> you.<br />
Blackout.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Colonel<br />
(Based on a true story told to me by my parents about my great-grandfather,<br />
Colonel Peter Canev, who was poisoned by the Nazis.)<br />
Radi Skipp<br />
Historical Fiction<br />
He sat quietly in the overstuffed armchair, which he had turned to<br />
face the wall, rather than the harbor. ‘So much pain, so much sadness, yet<br />
there is still joy, love, devotion in the eyes <strong>of</strong> all <strong>of</strong> these people, despite the<br />
terror in which they live.’ He was a well-built colonel <strong>of</strong> the Bulgarian army, in<br />
his late forties. He had a stern, titanium face, a strong jaw, a man ready to fight<br />
for his country. But despite the real reason he was here with his regiment, he<br />
had another, underground task which he carefully took care <strong>of</strong> day in, day out.<br />
Although he was deployed there to fight against the Allied Forces, the front in<br />
Kavala, Greece, was relatively quiet. Instead, he was a collaborator, in a dark,<br />
yet forgiving sense. He was there to help the Jews escape from all over Europe<br />
to Palestine, where they would be much safer than they would be in the Nazi<br />
controlled parts <strong>of</strong> Europe. Thousands <strong>of</strong> Jewish families had made their way<br />
through this port to safety, to somewhere where they could live without fear<br />
<strong>of</strong> mass persecution and extermination.<br />
‘So many people, so many families, so many lives. I can understand<br />
why they come through here, is a life in slavery even a life Is it worth living<br />
Sometimes risks just have to be taken for a better future,’ he quietly thought in<br />
the corner <strong>of</strong> the room while smoking a rich cigar. Just then, he heard shouts<br />
from outside, speaking in a very distinct Russian accent, trying their best to<br />
make out some basic Greek words “Sir! Sir! Please, may we meet sir! Please!<br />
Sir, are you home sir!” <strong>The</strong> cries were becoming more desperate and afraid<br />
with every word, he jumped out <strong>of</strong> his chair, and ran to the door, without even<br />
looking at who was outside. It was obvious already. “Greetings! Please, come<br />
in,” he said proudly to the family waiting outside on the stairs leading up to his<br />
front door. <strong>The</strong>re was a man and a woman, who looked to be in their late thirties,<br />
and a girl who was no more than eight years old, who was wearing a light<br />
green sweater. As they walked through his front door, bitter tears filled his<br />
clear eyes. ‘So many people, so many families, so many lives. I can understand<br />
why they come through here, is a life in slavery even a life Is it worth living<br />
Sometimes risks just have to be taken for a better future,’ the thought echoed<br />
in his head as he wiped the tears from his eyes, and closed the door.<br />
“You have come to escape to Palestine, haven’t you” he said, trying to<br />
sound as undisturbed as possible. <strong>The</strong> lady looked at him, and slowly replied,<br />
“Yes… We are come from Russia, is it possible to escape by today We know<br />
the police are close to us.” Both the family and the colonel cringed as they<br />
heard these words. “Police” was a bad word to hear if you were Jewish, but it<br />
was also a treacherous word to hear if you were in the army, and were helping<br />
Jews escape! He stood there for a second, and walked over to the small table<br />
by the dusty window overlooking the harbour. He picked up an old notebook,<br />
and looked at the shipping schedules for that day. “I think I can get you on<br />
the evening trade ship back to Palestine if we hurry, it’s nearing six, they’ll<br />
be here soon, and the police check every ship before it departs. We must find<br />
you a good place to hide.” He looked out the window, unable to see the trade<br />
ship just yet, but he was sure it would appear on the deep horizon in just a few<br />
minutes.<br />
“Sir, thank you! Thank you very much! We would die without your<br />
help, we would be sent to work then die, this way, we may live, thank you!”<br />
<strong>The</strong> man was crying at Canev’s shoes. “It is okay, this has been going on for a<br />
long time sir. But please, make sure you have a safe way to go after you reach<br />
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Palestine, after going all this dangerous way, you do not want to be in trouble<br />
in a land which should be safer!”<br />
“Sir, <strong>of</strong> course we have way to go, but we must reach Palestine first,<br />
for this, we thank you for your help. Here, take this.” <strong>The</strong> lady was looking<br />
through her large, heavy bag while talking to him, and she took out a golden<br />
ring. Slowly, she walked over, and handed it to the confused looking colonel.<br />
“Why” He was confused. He had helped so many people, and received<br />
so many gifts, but nobody had ever given him a golden ring before. He looked<br />
at the shiny object in his hand, no doubt about it, it was pure gold, eighteen<br />
karats at least!<br />
“Sir, you have granted us our lives. You have given us the right to live,<br />
but this is not only why we give you this ring. Not only have you helped us out<br />
<strong>of</strong> a certain death, but you have also helped so many others, please, it is yours.”<br />
“Thank you,” it was all he could say, trying once again to hold his<br />
tears back as he walked to the door to open it, and walk the people out.<br />
***<br />
collaborator! <strong>The</strong> only trouble was, that whenever he sent any letters,<br />
they were <strong>of</strong>ten opened on the way there, and the contents read, or they just<br />
weren’t delivered at all! Either way, he thought, the postal services must be<br />
overwhelmed due to the war, and as he was asked not to mark his letters as<br />
confidential, they probably just thought they were postcards and therefore<br />
unimportant.<br />
He opened the letters his wife had brought the evening before. <strong>The</strong>y<br />
looked damaged, as if they were sitting in the bottom <strong>of</strong> a damp ship for a good<br />
few weeks, so he opened them carefully so as not to destroy the delicate paper<br />
inside which could be very important. He read through the first one, somewhat<br />
annoyed at the fact that he had been denied the extra medical supplies<br />
he so needed, but relieved to see that he had been assigned a personal doctor<br />
to come all the way from Nazi Germany should any expert medical help be<br />
needed. He was a strong and fairly young man, so he hoped he wouldn’t need<br />
it, but he kept the doctor’s details just in case something should go wrong with<br />
any <strong>of</strong> the people he was helping. Looking at the clock, he quickly scanned<br />
through the remaining mail, most <strong>of</strong> it appeared to be some sort <strong>of</strong> postcards<br />
from his family in Bulgaria, he decided to leave them to his wife, put on<br />
his boots, and left to meet his troops.<br />
As the trade ship pulled out <strong>of</strong> port, people began to fly white flags,<br />
or whatever else they could find. Finally, they were free, and were headed towards<br />
a better life, a free life, something which could at least be called a life!<br />
He stood there, looking out at the dark horizon, the illuminated ship, which<br />
looked almost like a ghostly apparition floating on the water. Among all <strong>of</strong> the<br />
white flags being flown, there was a bright green flag, flying high above all the<br />
rest.<br />
***<br />
<strong>The</strong> following morning he woke up feeling slightly uneasy. He had<br />
skipped dinner last night, and was hungry, but above all there was a strange<br />
feeling about that morning, a morbid feeling which seemed to make the entire<br />
house seem damp, and the weather outside gloomy. He had no time to<br />
pay attention to it though, sure it would pass soon. He sat down to have a<br />
quick breakfast before reviewing the latest papers sent to him from the front<br />
line. He was relieved, since the army was sending him such confidential papers<br />
and such sensitive information, he was sure they had no idea he was a<br />
***<br />
It was already coming up to late afternoon, the sun tentatively preparing<br />
itself to set into the velvety Aegean sea underneath. It had been a boring<br />
day, nothing new or interesting had happened, no new people to come<br />
through. He dismissed the men and gave them the next day <strong>of</strong>f, as he was almost<br />
sure nothing much would happen on a Sunday! Before going home, he<br />
sat down at his desk, put his papers away and locked the drawers <strong>of</strong> his oak<br />
desk. <strong>The</strong>re was a cup <strong>of</strong> tea on his desk which had been there since the morning,<br />
it was cold now, and it looked like someone had tried to stir it around to<br />
see if it was any good. ‘Come on!’ he thought, ‘not even the desperate prisoners<br />
who came to him for help weren’t desperate enough to look at one’s cold<br />
tea in search <strong>of</strong> something to drink!’ Still, he could understand, some people<br />
were desperate, in a hurry. He drank what was left <strong>of</strong> the tea, which for some<br />
reason, tasted faintly <strong>of</strong> something he couldn’t quite understand. Peaches<br />
Pecans Olives! No, it was a strange scent, that found in chocolates when<br />
they try to put almond filling into them! Yes, that was definitely it, it tasted <strong>of</strong><br />
old, rotting almonds. Now even more disgusted, he drank the tea, and started<br />
briskly on his was back home for dinner.<br />
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Even after the delicious easy dinner his wife had prepared for him, he<br />
still could taste the disgusting almond scent in his tea no matter how faint it<br />
was. He felt limp, his wife had also noticed, telling him just how pale he looked!<br />
Although he was sure it was nothing serious, his wife insisted he called his new<br />
German doctor. It would take a day or two for him to come from Prague, where<br />
he currently was, to Kavala, but even if he was fine by then at least the doctor<br />
could stay in Greece and be on hand in case anybody else needed him quickly!<br />
Calvariam<br />
Vlado Panov<br />
Drawing<br />
It didn’t take long to get the doctor to agree, and just a day later he<br />
was already at the door, and well on time, but he was feeling no better at all!<br />
Of course he was worried, who wouldn’t be, but he was feeling better now that<br />
he knew he had a doctor on hand. Even though it was late, he could at least<br />
give some basic medicine until the morning came. His wife showed the doctor<br />
in, he was dressed in brilliant white doctor’s overalls, obviously recently<br />
cleaned very well. He sat down on a chair, and declined the tea he was <strong>of</strong>fered,<br />
while listening to what had happened.<br />
“He went to gather his men together and discuss the latest plan for<br />
the war, and, he was just fine! He was hungry, but nothing else. He just finished<br />
<strong>of</strong>f his tea and came home. I cooked him a large dinner that night, maybe it<br />
was the ingredients He’s just been lying there the entire day, he can’t even<br />
talk Oh what could it be doctor, what could it be!” his wife pleaded. A faint<br />
smile seemed to appear on the doctor’s face when the story was finished, but<br />
he turned serious once again. “Shhh,” he whispered, “you’ll see, you’ll see.”<br />
***<br />
<strong>The</strong> Colonel lay there, silent, on the bed, thinking <strong>of</strong> all the prisoners<br />
who had died, who he was unable to save. His wife, sitting in the corner,<br />
silently, looked at the doctor in the room, on the chair, with his arms crossed,<br />
looking at his watch, waiting patiently for death to cast its opaque shadow.<br />
He was sent over specially to deal with such cases, so why was he just sitting<br />
there not doing anything! After what seemed like hours <strong>of</strong> silence, the doctor<br />
slowly lifted himself up <strong>of</strong>f the chair, and went to feel for a pulse. “That’s it,” he<br />
said, “now I can sign the death certificate.”<br />
***<br />
In memory <strong>of</strong> all who perished in WWI and WWII, and all those who<br />
put their own lives on the line, to save people they never knew, and never did<br />
get to know.<br />
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Hate<br />
Umay Amarez<br />
Poetry<br />
Strength<br />
Léa Subrenat<br />
Drawing<br />
A darkened cloud nestled right in your heart<br />
It won’t be overcome by simple words<br />
<strong>The</strong> strokes <strong>of</strong> a paintbrush; the finest art<br />
Poisonous emotions that the heart herds<br />
Coated in envy, sealed with anger<br />
Everything suddenly becomes sharp<br />
Although it may make you feel much stronger<br />
It is like plucking the strings <strong>of</strong> a harp<br />
<strong>The</strong> strength lasts only for a short second<br />
Before fading into a memory,<br />
And although happiness may have beckoned<br />
We leave it for a much sadder story -<br />
And if ever it begins to take form<br />
You must then learn how to weather that storm.<br />
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After Degas<br />
Mai Maamoun<br />
Drawing<br />
Passion<br />
Barbora Slosarikova<br />
Poetry<br />
Passion is the strongest feeling;<br />
step, point toes, turn,<br />
it’s for your soul’s healing;<br />
kick, hand to the side, head.<br />
It is a temptation;<br />
turn, step, step,<br />
<strong>of</strong> new creation;<br />
jump, turn, ground.<br />
It emphasizes peoples’ desires;<br />
toes, heel, hand,<br />
and it never expires;<br />
stand up, kick, jump.<br />
Passion can take many forms;<br />
step, turn, hand,<br />
it is pushing beyond your norms;<br />
hand, together, preparation.<br />
Someone might love art;<br />
turn, turn, leg,<br />
passion comes out from your heart;<br />
Step, step, step.<br />
And I have a passion too;<br />
kick, step, pose,<br />
dance is what I desire to do.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Soldier<br />
Ali Bingol<br />
Drawing<br />
War<br />
Anna Neydenova<br />
Poetry<br />
Blood,<br />
splattering on windows<br />
Gun powder,<br />
filling my lungs.<br />
Crazy screams <strong>of</strong><br />
tortured victims<br />
Pounding steps <strong>of</strong> the light<br />
running away<br />
Ruins <strong>of</strong> houses<br />
everywhere<br />
No food<br />
No water<br />
No dreams<br />
No fun<br />
No kids<br />
No laughter<br />
But lots<br />
<strong>of</strong> blood<br />
Your whole world’s<br />
crashing<br />
<strong>The</strong> reason,<br />
My friend,<br />
is war.<br />
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Best Friend<br />
Rosalyn Rudy<br />
Poetry<br />
Escape<br />
Elena Evgenieva<br />
Poetry<br />
We had been best friends for a lifetime<br />
Since he was small enough to hold in my arms<br />
His sloppy tongue and playful paws<br />
Always in perpetual movement<br />
I would toss the ball for him in the yard<br />
We would run and play for hours with no worries or regrets<br />
He would go everywhere with me, by my side<br />
Always standing near, never letting me down<br />
We wandered the wide world together<br />
Exploring forests, rivers, and caves<br />
He protected me from monsters and bad guys<br />
Even when I left him alone,<br />
He was filled with joy to see me at the end <strong>of</strong> the day<br />
No one could ever be as loyal as him<br />
Until the day he broke my heart<br />
Shattering it to tiny pieces<br />
He left without even saying goodbye.<br />
I would give anything for one more day, hour, minute<br />
Seeing his body there, knowing it would never move again<br />
Knowing he would be gone forever -<br />
If only I could turn back time<br />
<strong>The</strong> only semblance I have left<br />
Is the bittersweet memory <strong>of</strong> my best friend.<br />
I am trapped in this box made <strong>of</strong> flesh and bones.<br />
To others this box is a sanctuary, a place to flourish.<br />
To me though, a hinderance to which somehow I am attached<br />
And I cannot escape.<br />
A prison cell<br />
With walls made <strong>of</strong> hatred and fear.<br />
A fireball filled only with anger towards all that is dear.<br />
This agony inside<br />
As if burning in hell-fire.<br />
This excruciating pain that tortures this being<br />
And that does not allow it to live at peace<br />
How can such a fragile creature contain so much destructive emotion<br />
A cloak <strong>of</strong> invisibility is hung over all that is beautiful.<br />
Its impenetrable concealment<br />
Makes foreign this body,<br />
Love and all that is worthwhile.<br />
So lost in bitterness and hatred,<br />
Engulfed by the shadows<br />
Conquering the world as the sun dawns,<br />
<strong>The</strong> body is slowly entrusted to the devil.<br />
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Marilyn Monroe<br />
Dina Kancheva<br />
Or will it manage to fight back<br />
And resurrect when the light illuminates<br />
<strong>The</strong> face that has been drained <strong>of</strong> emotion<br />
So that the soul can find its way back<br />
Painting<br />
Yet, I continue to struggle.<br />
This heart has been chained by thorns.<br />
<strong>The</strong> body remaining a cage <strong>of</strong> steel,<br />
With no doors or means to escape.<br />
I am trapped in my home <strong>of</strong> flesh and bones,<br />
Oppressing and dark,<br />
Doomed to an eternal struggle to set myself free.<br />
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Life in Time<br />
Martin Slosarik<br />
Poetry<br />
<strong>The</strong>y were some creatures,<br />
In a coop with no air to feature.<br />
“<strong>The</strong>ir bodies were nourished!”<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir keepers brag, forgetting<br />
To pull out from the half-truth bag:<br />
“Still, their souls were starved!”<br />
Captivity doesn’t leave the body resigned,<br />
But twists and bends and wrings the mind.<br />
Forty years they lived in ignorance <strong>of</strong> time.<br />
When a ray <strong>of</strong> light,<br />
Slipped in through the door,<br />
Piercing the darkness <strong>of</strong> the sight and the soul,<br />
<strong>The</strong> animal stood incredulously.<br />
<strong>The</strong> gate unbarred contumaciously,<br />
<strong>The</strong>n more and flung wide open!<br />
<strong>The</strong> bull sang an aria <strong>of</strong> a new era.<br />
With no past, they entered the world <strong>of</strong> now.<br />
Disregard that timber means lifeless future forest,<br />
And the stained, drilled and polluted mountains<br />
Remind distantly the former pristine life fountains.<br />
A bribe in the wallet and slacked work are our dearest.<br />
Blame the shortness <strong>of</strong> our lifespans:<br />
Death comes before the real future drafts its plans.<br />
Yet, remember we are not the last in the line -<br />
Your grape may grow into your son’s vine!<br />
But souls are<br />
Still famished - by the present.<br />
<strong>The</strong> animals in us have strayed far<br />
From moderation. We found content<br />
In owning. Abundance overlaps with overmuch.<br />
Just ignore that today’s more can easily get out <strong>of</strong> touch!<br />
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Winter<br />
Elena Evgenieva<br />
Photograph<br />
Oh Snow<br />
Cameron Pindur<br />
Poetry<br />
Oh snow,<br />
How I love<br />
To watch you fall,<br />
Fluttering<br />
Slowly and s<strong>of</strong>tly<br />
To the ground.<br />
Yet at the same time,<br />
I dread that I will have to<br />
Tread through you,<br />
With you biting<br />
At my numb toes,<br />
Like a bird<br />
Pecking at the worms in the ground.<br />
I hope<br />
That you will keep falling,<br />
Yet I pray<br />
That you will stop.<br />
You give me<br />
So much joy,<br />
But you bring me<br />
So much trouble.<br />
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I Know, and I’ll Try!<br />
Radi Skipp<br />
Poetry<br />
Nobody can save me now<br />
I want to save myself but how<br />
I didn’t seize that moment,<br />
And now, everything is torment.<br />
When something comes flying along,<br />
Remember, it won’t stay long…<br />
A young kitten, alone in the dust,<br />
A small dog, lost along the road.<br />
Now I know how it must feel,<br />
To stand in the desert, slowly to kneel.<br />
To pray for forgiveness,<br />
For yet another chance.<br />
I remember, when I was young,<br />
I thought I was invincible,<br />
No one could ever touch me!<br />
No one could ever push me!<br />
Beautiful like a Hawaiian sunset,<br />
For money yes, but for love I have no debt!<br />
If only you knew,<br />
Truly, how much I love you.<br />
But now I realise, “hey I was wrong”!<br />
Bad things happen to everyone,<br />
But at least I can try,<br />
Never to cry,<br />
And remember, life goes on!<br />
I’m not so young any more,<br />
I know I’m not invincible,<br />
But at least I can try to be,<br />
Yes, yes I’ll do it for you!<br />
I feel so alone now,<br />
Like a spring in the desert,<br />
Precious, I want you but how<br />
I should’ve taken that chance,<br />
So now, with you I might dance.<br />
But I’m going to try again now!<br />
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Drought<br />
A.J. Myers<br />
Poetry<br />
Water, you are the lifeblood <strong>of</strong> our world.<br />
<strong>The</strong> cruel master in whose hands holds life<br />
and death, our souls are under your control.<br />
All the power in the world is yours, forever.<br />
In the dusty ground we see our future<br />
Our footsteps leave no mark in the dirt,<br />
<strong>The</strong>re is nothing to show we were ever here.<br />
Not a soul is present, never was and never will be.<br />
<strong>The</strong> parched ground longs for a drink,<br />
It cracks, as if opening up for a taste <strong>of</strong> water.<br />
But none is coming, and everyone knows.<br />
<strong>The</strong> slightest glimpse <strong>of</strong> a cloud <strong>of</strong>fers hope,<br />
Which is soon dashed as the wind clears it away.<br />
<strong>The</strong> world begins to accept its situation, after all,<br />
What else can it do besides resign to the inevitable<br />
<strong>The</strong> world begins to die, but it is at peace.<br />
Change comes slowly, but it is better than not at all.<br />
It starts as a mist but ends as a downpour.<br />
<strong>The</strong> cracks in the ground gradually disappear.<br />
Colors begin to replace the dead, grey dust.<br />
<strong>The</strong> earth gulps down the gift falling from heaven.<br />
He who holds the power <strong>of</strong> life and death<br />
has decided to bestow a new life upon the world.<br />
Our souls drink, and our bodies live once more.<br />
<strong>The</strong>re is a curse hanging over all <strong>of</strong> us,<br />
As if someone enjoys the scene <strong>of</strong> death,<br />
Of desperate acceptance that is playing out.<br />
What is the point <strong>of</strong> living, when all is against life<br />
In death is it possible to find life<br />
This thread <strong>of</strong> hope, so desperatly sought<br />
Is it <strong>of</strong> substance or simply a mirage<br />
<strong>The</strong> only truth: nothing is certain.<br />
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A Smile Before Death<br />
Jamie Le Roux<br />
Poetry<br />
<strong>The</strong> greyed hairs lie still in the last moments <strong>of</strong> his life.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y mourn for his death, for his absence, for his wife.<br />
As the silence surfaces, the shivering slows,<br />
And a stillness <strong>of</strong> a dying body slowly, slowly grows.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y ask: “What <strong>of</strong> the trade, his workers, his gold”<br />
“and the wife, <strong>of</strong> a future which lacks anything to hold”<br />
“Who’ll attain assets”<br />
“Which son shall succeed”<br />
<strong>The</strong>y concern over the animals he now cannot feed.<br />
But as they wait for their coming day, holding their breath<br />
James lies in bed, with a smile before death<br />
He’s content that his family is with him today.<br />
While the trees rustle gently, and the world peacefully sways.<br />
If he learned anything, surely, it was this:<br />
That the moment which we live in is always the most bliss<br />
For comfort isn’t found in looking ahead<br />
Because to cherish tomorrow, is to cherish the dead.<br />
Church<br />
Kartika Le Roux<br />
Drawing<br />
Older brothers, sisters, nephews, and sons,<br />
Gather, in mourning, for the old passing one.<br />
Bad thoughts plague their minds,<br />
Soon is it my time<br />
One less today, one less tomorrow.<br />
Am I next who the reaper will follow<br />
For this reminds them that life is too short.<br />
And that tomorrow’s another battle to be fought.<br />
After Vessilev Staikon’s landscape <strong>of</strong> Bankso,<br />
mid 20th century woodcut.<br />
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Beginning <strong>of</strong> the End<br />
Zoltan Cserfalvi<br />
Poetry<br />
Longing<br />
Peter Neyra<br />
Prose Poem<br />
“Essence <strong>of</strong> winter sleep is on the night”<br />
– Robert Frost<br />
Day after day<br />
Walking in the cold weather<br />
Leaves on trees, then not -<br />
Temperature decrease<br />
Like water in a glass<br />
Leaving less and less<br />
Finally, white blanket<br />
Descends on the earth<br />
Covering everything it can.<br />
Longing is the world’s first time-traveller. He lives in the<br />
past, and never accepts that the clock is always ticking, and people<br />
are driving ahead. He wears an out-<strong>of</strong>-date garment, fully<br />
branded with seals and emblems from his past,, symbolizing his<br />
entire life. He would even agree to cut <strong>of</strong>f the new for the old to<br />
come back. His memories are his jewels, but never has he noticed<br />
that they are what is holding him back from the surprises <strong>of</strong> the<br />
future. He never moves forward, and sometimes he holds back his<br />
close ones along with him, preaching that change is the meanest<br />
<strong>of</strong> villains.<br />
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Les Vagues<br />
Laure Moscheni<br />
Poetry<br />
<strong>The</strong> eternal dance between Adam’s ale and terra firma,<br />
Into a never ending circle that has no clear end.<br />
As if to say that there was no escape,<br />
As if to say that one could not escape.<br />
Deep In Thought<br />
Alexandra Mateeva<br />
Drawing<br />
<strong>The</strong> waves come crashing on the shore,<br />
<strong>The</strong> deafening noise lost in the storm.<br />
<strong>The</strong> lightning tearing the sky apart,<br />
Turning the scene into unseen beauty.<br />
To a simple eye only chaos is present,<br />
But to an eye that can look upon the world<br />
as a if looking upon a heart,<br />
That eye will see what is entrapped.<br />
You may believe to be that eye,<br />
But can you say, with honesty, that you know her soul<br />
Her, this predictable being, just like the waves.<br />
Coming and going in an endless cycle,<br />
Always fitting the same mold, without exception.<br />
Yet, at times, she becomes dangerous.<br />
Letting her waves loose in the wind,<br />
Her soul, engulfed in its passion.<br />
Would you let it blow you away<br />
Or would you restrain yourself<br />
Hiding what it means to be you, far from their eyes.<br />
<strong>The</strong> most treasured possessions buried deep within.<br />
Your soul, far from the prying eyes.<br />
Your soul, unknown by others.<br />
As she expands until the horizon,<br />
And lets everyone see her,<br />
Her treasures lie far within,<br />
Far away from the touch <strong>of</strong> her waves.<br />
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Snowy Day<br />
Hannah Berg<br />
Short Story<br />
<strong>of</strong>f snow. She was on the phone at the same time, talking to one <strong>of</strong> her thousand<br />
friends.<br />
“Shoes <strong>of</strong>f!” she commanded without as much as a ‘hello’, before hustling us into<br />
the kitchen. Brian grabbed an orange, then beat it to his room, while I poured a cup<br />
<strong>of</strong> water, then sat at the table. Mom sat down across from me, then we both looked<br />
out the window; each trying to avoid the other’s eyes.<br />
We got let out <strong>of</strong> school early that Friday in January. It had started snowing<br />
in the morning, and was steadily building. It almost covered my feet by the time<br />
my classmates and I were dismissed from fourth period.<br />
“Wow! Amamba boo you thee thith” my friend Kate asked as she stuck<br />
out her tongue to catch the flakes. Kate loves snow. Too bad she lived here in Smalltown,<br />
Georgia, where it rarely does more than dust the hills. She moved here from<br />
Alaska, so she’s like a polar bear that’s been shoved onto a desert island; she’s only<br />
truly happy when it’s below 40.<br />
How could I not see the snow White, delicate, and absolutely freezing!<br />
After Kate and I sped through our goodbyes – promising to be online ASAP– I hurried<br />
onto my bus, already shivering.<br />
Brian, my older brother, was already plugged into his painful music, blowing<br />
into his hands but still humming a low song, or something resembling music.<br />
He never talked, only hummed nonsense tunes to himself. Picture a perfect emoslash-stud<br />
with jet black hair, and you have my brother. He used to be my role<br />
model when he was a straight A student, soccer goalie, lead in the school musical,<br />
but then he suddenly got all sulky and let his hair grow out over his eyes as if to<br />
block out the world.<br />
“It’s really snowing isn’t it” She asked. I nodded. <strong>The</strong>n her phone rang again, and<br />
she left to answer it as usual. I decided it was time to go to my room as well.<br />
Online, it seemed like everyone was posting about snow. I looked out my window,<br />
and it seemed – if possible—to be snowing even more heavily than before. However,<br />
I was completely set for the weekend, already forgetting the homework that<br />
I had.<br />
“Dad’s going to be coming home early; the snow’s really piling up,” Mom called<br />
from downstairs. Neither Brian nor I replied. I knew Brian and I were thinking the<br />
same thing; that means a formal, healthy, silent dinner at the dining room table.<br />
I was still online talking to Kate by the time Dad got home. For a split-second I<br />
debated running down to greet him, like I used to when I was little, before snorting<br />
to myself.<br />
***<br />
I woke up before the sun the next morning expecting to see that I’d dreamed the<br />
snow, but when I looked out the window it was still falling thick and heavy. My<br />
computer bleeped at me, explaining what had woken me. Low battery. I got out <strong>of</strong><br />
my warm bed, and plugged it in and turned it on. <strong>The</strong>n I logged onto my computer.<br />
It was still snowing when the bus dropped us <strong>of</strong>f. <strong>The</strong> ground was wet<br />
and gushy and freezing cold, yet somehow still beautiful. I could almost see why<br />
You know that moment in movies when the scream starts in the characters throat,<br />
Kate loved it so much. It covered the ugly beat-up car that was parked outside our<br />
then the screen zooms out, until it covers the town, then the country, then Earth,<br />
neighbor’s house. It covered the bare trees and the ro<strong>of</strong>s <strong>of</strong> the houses. It made<br />
then a bunch <strong>of</strong> stars <strong>The</strong>n the camera shows a shot <strong>of</strong> the character staring at<br />
me feel like I’d been transported to Narnia. I couldn’t help but smile through my<br />
something with a shocked expression That was me, when I saw that I had no internet.<br />
chattering teeth as Brian and I walked up our street. Brian, still tuned out, seemed<br />
Literally (not really but close enough).<br />
oblivious to the beauty around us.<br />
“This is so exciting!” Mom said when they came running into my room, “It’s like<br />
Mom was waiting with a towel at the front door, shuffling around us and brushing<br />
going back to the Middle Ages!”<br />
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I wanted so badly to snap at her; the Middle Ages had no electricity or<br />
running water, yet I bet they still had it better than me. At least they weren’t stuck<br />
in this family <strong>of</strong> nutcases.<br />
I went for the not-so-innocent daughter blow; “Mom, did you realize that<br />
if it keeps snowing tomorrow you won’t be able to make your book club”<br />
That got her upset; Mom lived for her book club. She was always trying to<br />
get me to read the pro-woman, depressing books that she read (I’m proud to say I<br />
haven’t opened one <strong>of</strong> them).<br />
I don’t know why I blamed my parents for the internet cut-<strong>of</strong>f; I was just<br />
in a bad mood. I’d already lost the only thing I was looking forward to all weekend.<br />
I was just about fed up with life (otherwise known as staring at my ceiling)<br />
when Dad called me downstairs. He and Mom had a pile <strong>of</strong> snow clothes on<br />
the floor in the hallway.<br />
“Try these on,” they ordered. <strong>The</strong>y pushed a pair <strong>of</strong> five year-old-sized<br />
snow pants in my face. <strong>The</strong>n a pink flowery snow jacket with plenty <strong>of</strong> pocket<br />
space, but not enough arm space, extra roomy gloves, and a pair <strong>of</strong> ski boots. None<br />
<strong>of</strong> these things fit well, and I didn’t even know where the ski boots came from!<br />
I wanted the hole that I was digging to China to be bigger than his. <strong>The</strong> five-yearold-me<br />
knew I could outdo him then, but the rather more mature me knew now<br />
that I probably couldn’t.<br />
After another half-hour <strong>of</strong> shoulder-aching, back-paining work, I walked<br />
over to Brian.<br />
“Are you ever going to stop”<br />
He just nodded at me.<br />
“Well, I’m done. Bye. Want hot chocolate”<br />
He nodded again, so I started to walk inside. As I was shutting the door<br />
on the recently shoveled world; I saw Brian stick out his tongue and catch a<br />
snowflake on it.<br />
I don’t know why but the image <strong>of</strong> my moody, depressed brother catching<br />
that snowflake stuck with me all day. I thought <strong>of</strong> him instead <strong>of</strong> zoning out<br />
online like I would usually do. I had trapped myself back in my room, lying flat on<br />
my back to rest. I was playing solitaire for the hundredth time on my internet-less<br />
computer. I really don’t understand how people can live like this, at home all day<br />
with their family. I had no distractions except for my sore muscles, and stupid<br />
computer games.<br />
“<strong>The</strong> snow is really deep; we need you and Brian to go shovel it,” Dad explained.<br />
Great I groaned to myself. “Where’s Brian” I asked, just as he waltzed<br />
around the corner wearing perfectly fitting snow gear. Perfect.<br />
hear.<br />
“This is child abuse…” I grumbled below my breath, but my parents didn’t<br />
By noon, I felt like all I’d been doing my entire life was shovel. I shoveled<br />
the front steps, and I shoveled the driveway. I even shoveled the road. Brian was<br />
the only reason I didn’t give up. He just kept shoveling, showing no sign <strong>of</strong> exhaustion,<br />
or annoyance. I was going to outdo him on this!<br />
We never take family trips like this anymore, but for some reason this<br />
shoveling reminded me <strong>of</strong> the time we drove to the seaside so many summers ago.<br />
After the call for dinner, Brian and I met on the steps. One look at him,<br />
and I could tell he was as fed up as I was. We needed to do something, because<br />
another day <strong>of</strong> being stuck at home with the parents was going to kill us both. I<br />
decided to bring it up.<br />
Mom was chatting away with dad about so-and-so is writing a book<br />
about such and such topic, nothing interesting, when I brought it up.<br />
“Why don’t we ever do anything”<br />
No one answered, although my question had gotten my parent’s attention.<br />
Brian kept shoveling rice into his mouth.<br />
“Like, as a family. I mean, even Kate’s parents who are divorced are able to do stuff<br />
as a family.”<br />
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“We do stuff!” my mom said.<br />
“Like what Talk about your book club or your obsession with cooking<br />
Brian and I don’t care about that. When’s the last time you guys even asked me how<br />
I’ve been doing at school”<br />
I could see dad’s knuckles whitening, “How’ve you been doing in school”<br />
He asked slowly. “That’s not the point!” I spluttered. I looked at Brian for support,<br />
but he looked almost embarrassed “<strong>The</strong>n what is the point you’re trying to make<br />
here” Dad’s voice was louder now.<br />
“My point is that you have kids, and maybe you should make the effort to<br />
know them. Remember how we all used to go to the seaside together When’s the<br />
last time we’ve done anything as a family” “Well, you know we’ve been really…”<br />
Mom started with her excuses but then the most amazing thing happened. “Mom,”<br />
Brian interrupted, “no more excuses. Amanda’s right, we never talk to each other<br />
as a family, and whenever we try to talk to you, you’re on the phone, or won’t listen.”<br />
“Now,” Dad interrupted, trying to calm Brian down.<br />
“I’m not done!” Brian banged his fist on the table, “Dad you’re never home,<br />
and whenever you are we aren’t happy about it! Don’t you think we should try to<br />
act like a family again” Brian pushed out his chair and walked out <strong>of</strong> the room,<br />
while we all stared after him with our mouths hanging open. I think Mom might<br />
have actually dropped some food out <strong>of</strong> her mouth. That was as many words as<br />
Brian has said in the last year put together.Mom was about to burst into hysterical<br />
tears, but she rushed out <strong>of</strong> the room. Just Dad and I were left, but then he swept<br />
out <strong>of</strong> the room after Mom.<br />
“I know, but what should we do about it” I asked. “We’re going sledding<br />
today,” Dad said, “the snow stopped, and it looks deep but it’s walk-able.”<br />
“And Brian” Just then Brian walked in smiling. (So that’s what he<br />
looked like when he smiled!). It was getting crowded in my room.<br />
“It was my idea,” he told me.<br />
So we all went sledding. It was cheesy, and the snow wasn’t great<br />
because it was too deep. It was absolutely freezing cold and snow got all in<br />
my clothes and I might have to stay home on Monday with the flu, but it was<br />
worth it. Mom and Dad laughed together for the first time in ages. Brian and<br />
I laughed at them and at ourselves when we went toppling <strong>of</strong>f <strong>of</strong> our sleds.<br />
That’s the exact moment I want to remember my family by from now on. We<br />
weren’t always comfortable, and we certainly weren’t perfect, but we were<br />
together, and we were happy. Just like a snowy day.<br />
I banished myself to my room for the night, and spent a while watching<br />
the snow. It was slowing noticeably. I read a little from an old book, surprisingly<br />
enjoying it, and then fell asleep. I was really getting into the book the next morning<br />
when someone knocked on my door, and Mom pulled her body around the door.<br />
“Hey,” I nodded as Dad followed her around.<br />
“Honey, we are really sorry about all this.” I took the Brian approach and<br />
stayed silent, “I know we haven’t been acting like a great family lately. We’ll try to<br />
work on in. we’re not a perfect family anyways, but we could all try a bit harder,<br />
even you. I’m just being honest here.” I actually admired her for that.<br />
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Earthquakes<br />
Anna Neydenova<br />
Poetry<br />
Binka Vazova’s Self-portrait<br />
Samuil Sarandev<br />
Drawing<br />
When mother Earth is angry,<br />
She shakes the world ‘round.<br />
Sometimes she shakes so hard,<br />
<strong>The</strong> buildings tumble down.<br />
And people in their beds,<br />
Don’t know,<br />
What has happened.<br />
Just,<br />
When they fall,<br />
<strong>The</strong>y seem to<br />
Understand.<br />
Even though, they don’t.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y’re impulsive,<br />
Don’t forgive,<br />
Don’t try,<br />
Don’t listen.<br />
Like our mother Earth does.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y Rage<br />
<strong>The</strong>y Scream<br />
<strong>The</strong>y Shout<br />
So mother Earth,<br />
Hear my prayer.<br />
Please,<br />
Don’t shake the world down.<br />
After Binka’s self-portrait, mid 19th century woodcut.<br />
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Masquerade<br />
Annette van Aalst<br />
Poetry<br />
<strong>The</strong> world is a masquerade<br />
An eternal ball where masked souls dance<br />
To the music played by our facades<br />
Reflecting our futile search for apotheosis.<br />
Staring at my reflection in the mirror<br />
All I see is a mask, revealing nothing but crimson eyes<br />
<strong>The</strong> masked souls condemned to dancing for all eternity<br />
While the body obeys blindly, gliding to a waltz.<br />
Masks in all manners hiding out true countenance<br />
Glittering gold or gleaming silver<br />
Beaded with crystals, diamonds or pearls<br />
In colors so strange you can no longer remember their name<br />
Maybe it is a dream, maybe nothing else is real<br />
<strong>The</strong> sound <strong>of</strong> rustling gowns<br />
Dancing in circles in repeating patterns,<br />
All attention drawn to the exquisite disguises.<br />
Somehow, the strings <strong>of</strong> my mask loosen<br />
And I rip the veil <strong>of</strong>f, releasing myself from this endless torture<br />
My partner’s hand slips from my fingers<br />
And I run away from this masked ball<br />
When the sun rises and <strong>of</strong>fers its protection<br />
I bathe in its lucidity and enjoy the rich scents <strong>of</strong> spring<br />
My masquerade has ended, a closed chapter in the book <strong>of</strong> my life<br />
But at night, I await its return.<br />
Apater, you have enchanted us all with your deceit<br />
Trapping our bodies in this room with no end<br />
Sealing our souls into these masks<br />
How will we ever find our way back<br />
<strong>The</strong> past seems so distant<br />
A sequence <strong>of</strong> fragile memories <strong>of</strong> better times<br />
Filled with opaque recollections<br />
Of dancing under the protection <strong>of</strong> the sun, wearing no mask.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Editorial Staff<br />
By Marie van Aalst<br />
Editor in Chief: Laure Moscheni<br />
Senior Editors: Hanna Halmari, A. J. Myers<br />
Junior Editors: Claire Freij, Hannah Godding,<br />
Hannah Berg, Kendra Reiter,<br />
Evgeny Orman<br />
Advisor: Pamela McCarty<br />
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