The Ellen G. White 1888 Materials: Volume 2 - Ellen G. White

When I think of the end so near, and think that
the light given me of God is not permitted to come
before the people, I am in great distress of mind.
When I awake at any hour of the night my heart is
filled with such grief that I cannot close my eyes to
sleep. A feeling of anxiety, of remorse, has pressed
upon me, as though this delay in the circulation of
Vol. IV. was due to some neglect on my part. And
my burden does not decrease in the least as time
passes and nothing is done.
I seem to be bound about by rules or customs
or something which I cannot define, so that I am
powerless to do anything; and those who are in
responsible positions are themselves taking no
burden of the matter.
Brethren, you are urging me to come to your
campmeetings. I must tell you plainly that the
course pursued toward me and my work since the
Gen. Conf. at Minneapolis--your resistance of the
light and warnings that God has given through me-
-has made my labor fifty times harder than it would