Testimonies for the Church, Volume 2 - Ellen G. White

surmise, to become jealous, to feel a spirit of
unrest; you are dissatisfied and exceedingly
unhappy.
Nothing so readily arouses the evil traits in
your character as to dispute your wisdom and
judgment in exercising your authority. Your strong,
overbearing spirit, which has appeared to slumber,
is roused to its fullest energy. Self then controls
you, and you are no more governed by candid
reason and calm judgment than is an insane person.
Self in all its strength wrestles for the mastery, and
it will take the firmest mind to hold you in
restraint. After your fit of insanity has gone by,
then you can bear to have your course questioned.
But you stand ready to justify yourself by the plea
that you are so sensitive; you feel so deeply; you
suffer so much. I saw that all this will not excuse
you in the sight of God. You mistake pride for
sensitiveness. Self is prominent. When self is
crucified, then this sensitiveness, or pride, will die;
until then you are not a Christian. To be a Christian
is to be Christlike, to possess humility and a meek
and quiet spirit that will bear contradiction without
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