Chimes: 2018 Edition (emended Blazevox book pdf)

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Being splintered, I did things that were not of me. I went to Florida to visit my other
mother’s family, with my father and the baby. They were wealthy and lived in a
wealthy house with a dumbwaiter and antiques and a screened-in swimming pool. To
them, my father was working class, a thug, and me even less than that, being of him
but small and only half-formed. I missed my guitar and watched palm trees and one
night I drew a constellation on the beach in the sand, I was alone and it was my
happiest moment in this place of privilege. I did not earn it or greatly desire it or even
understand it, except to know that I was being condescended to, except to realize
that these were would-be Mandarins, who hovered around the fringes of high society
hoping to get in. I knew this by instinct.
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