Perceptions!verse - Spander Files

tugs again at my hand, I take one last look and walking
through the doorway I realise that this time I can’t fix
things. This time, Willow will have to do it for herself.
Part Twenty-Nine
There are times when I wonder what would have
happened if Spike hadn’t come back to Sunnydale? If he
hadn’t needed to settle his debts? Thinking about it, with
all I know now, the idea of Spike settling any of his
gambling debts is so damn ludicrous that I should laugh
myself silly at the thought, though maybe I should have
half a dozen kittens in reserve, just in case. Some other
types of debts are another matter, because, god knows,
the vamp has his own code of honour, however twisted it
appears to anyone else. But if he hadn’t been in
Sunnydale before graduation, he’d never have seen me
and Willow sneaking around and me breaking up with
Cordy. He’d never have caught me after my run in with
Faith and talked about his problems with Dru. He’d never
have sent me postcards.
Would Graduation have ended differently without him
coaching me on fighting and strategy and how to move
to the sound of the Clash? I really don’t know, it’s all ‘ifs’
and ‘buts’ and ‘might have beens’. I only know that all
these things did happen and I’m glad that they did.