Lot's Wife Edition 1 2021
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Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> • <strong>Edition</strong> One<br />
Stars and Other Flashing Lights<br />
Words by Callum Methven<br />
Content warning: paranoia, psychosis,<br />
schizoaffective disorder<br />
Two minds one time and<br />
in between a length of string,<br />
one eye glazed in the sweat<br />
of a day-long fever dream,<br />
a hook along the uphill stream<br />
of everyone I’ll ever be<br />
or was before I died,<br />
our days are numbered still<br />
but numbered are the days<br />
as they were made.<br />
I never sought to see the sky at night<br />
as other than a sea of distant lights<br />
of dark expanse, so vast, so empty<br />
yet so full of songs complete,<br />
resounding hopes of skies to come,<br />
dreams and some of them my own,<br />
full of futures longer than the past<br />
of open cells.<br />
My mind will reach the ocean<br />
by the tea tree stains<br />
of the next September rains,<br />
but forever is a memory to unborn minds,<br />
and a light can shine too bright<br />
and I was born forever predisposed,<br />
my other eye is closed.<br />
Tethered to this string I know<br />
I’ll never breathe again or sleep<br />
and so I’ll do the things we do<br />
and so I’ll sleep with one eye open.<br />
Every sound, slamming door<br />
and every in-between degree<br />
that drops or changes<br />
with the wind, I feel it all<br />
I feel the flush<br />
of flashing lights that never were<br />
and in the sun I feel their shade,<br />
I’ll fight to fly or ply my fingers<br />
on the border<br />
of an ever-sunken cloud<br />
if all the fog would mean<br />
this noise will see an end,<br />
if it meant my mind<br />
would rather sail amongst a soup<br />
than any budding storm.––<br />
My nerves are electricity,<br />
my finger’s touch a spire,<br />
and if only I could ever speak the name<br />
of this one spectre,<br />
say the truth,<br />
my spine a rural street<br />
of Norfolk pines so brittle,<br />
snapping in the wind,<br />
but in the end there are no words<br />
there are no winners<br />
only senses,<br />
and I sense my time is fleeting.<br />
I sense my heart will break at this advance,<br />
and so I close my eyes in the expanse.<br />
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