The call of a goddess…Bela SiolA few of us have the freedom to choosea goddess and dedicate ourselves to themand this happens because we have a certaininterest in that specific deity, or because webecome a member of a circle or a coven thatworships that goddess, or for many otherreasons, but none of them are strong enoughas a call.I’m not saying a call of a goddess is morespecial, meaningful, or divine than aspontaneous dedication. It means we havework to do with that goddess and we cannotignore it. No matter how long we postponeto answer the call, the goddess will alwaysfind a way to put us on track to do the job sheexpects from us, and it is about my call that Iwould like to share here.It was 2009, I lived in Brazil and after adramatic end of a relationship, I felt emptyand in need of something that I couldn’tidentify what it was. So, during a tarotreading, the reader told me it was time to findmy spiritual path. All my life I had followedmy family’s spiritual path, the Spiritism ofAllan Kardec, as well I’ve been explored otherspiritual paths, but I was never completelysatisfied with them. As an adult, I simplydidn’t have any religion or spiritual path. I wasmissing to have one. Also, during the reading,she suggested my path could be related toPaganism and I was just in love with the idea,even knowing very little about it.of Aine, and me as the “lucky” one, to bededicated to be the priestess of the unknowngoddess. Months went by and one day, thepriestess told me she talked to somebody anddiscovered the goddess was Nehalennia.For more than one year, I tried to connectmyself to Nehalennia, without any success.I built an altar to her with seashells andother sea elements. At that time, I was alsotrying to learn runes and tarot but seemedimpossible for me to learn them. One day, Iwas feeling completely frustrated and duringa shower, I closed my eyes and expressedall my frustration to Nehalennia about notreceiving a signal from her and also for feelingunable to learn an oracle. Immediately I hada vision (those fraction of a second) of castingseashells as an oracle.I immediately left the shower, went to myaltar, grabbed the seashells, and startedto write symbols inside them. The firstsymbols were related to the basic symbols ofNehalennia, depicted in her votive altars andwith a few more symbols related to the ocean,the first version of the oracle had 21 symbols.After many years using the oracle, learningmore about Nehalennia, connecting to peoplein Germany and The Netherlands, in 2018 Iwas able to publish the final version of theoracle with 33 symbols.When I look back, I’m sure it was a call. IA few weeks later I was having my first lived in Brazil, Nehalennia is a goddess frominterview with a priestess and she told me the Netherlands and not popular in the entireshe dreamed about three goddesses and she world. So, why me? My worship of her wasknew that three new women would join her always about the oracle. That is my closecoven. The goddesses were Freya, Aine, and connection to her, even I’ve been tried manyan unknown ocean goddess from the North, other forms to work with her.with a different name that the priestess hadforgotten. The same week I contacted her, Ironically, after her oracle deck, I startedasking about the coven, two other women also creating different oracle decks, receivingdid and she could identify one as a dedicant to inspiration from other goddesses, as wellbe a priestess of Freya, the other as a priestess it became easier for me to learn traditional104
105oracles.I realize my call was to put me exactly whereI was supposed to be, doing what I wassupposed to do, and I feel happy, blessed, andglad for that.Before publishing my cards, during ametaphysical market, a medium saw andtouched the sample of my oracle and saidshe could see me as a baby being offered toNehalennia in her temple a long time ago.Believing it or not, I feel like a child ofNehalennia in this life, and she has beena phenomenal mother. Not a complacentmother, but a challenger. She is alwayspushing me to explore, to create, and not beafraid of the storm.
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