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REAL PEOPLE | REAL STORIES | REAL HOPE<br />
GOD RESTORES WHAT HAS<br />
BEEN TAKEN<br />
DAR VUELTA<br />
PARA VER<br />
EN ESPAÑOL<br />
TRUTHS TO REMEMBER IN<br />
THE WILDERNESS<br />
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on a mission:<br />
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WANT<br />
A NEW<br />
LIFE?<br />
OPEN THE DOOR OF<br />
YOUR HEART TO A<br />
MERCIFUL GOD<br />
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ISSUE 1, JANUARY <strong>2022</strong><br />
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek<br />
his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:5–6 NLT<br />
Publisher & Executive Director<br />
Kristi Overton Johnson<br />
Director of Partner Care & Development<br />
Pat Avery<br />
Cover Photography<br />
Mary Whitmer<br />
Editor<br />
Rachel Overton<br />
Spanish Editorial Team<br />
Karissa Anderson, Proofreader<br />
Monica Colangelo, Translator<br />
Creative Designer<br />
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Production Manager<br />
Christina Kimbrel<br />
Social Media Manager<br />
Sheridan Correa<br />
Digital Content Manager<br />
Roman Randall<br />
Hispanic Outreach Director<br />
Denise San Miguel<br />
Contributing Writers<br />
Lisa Appelo<br />
Roy A. Borges<br />
Ron Capell<br />
Kristi Dews Dale<br />
Sharon Dutra<br />
Sandra Hardee<br />
Maureen Hooker<br />
Kristi Overton Johnson<br />
Christina Kimbrel<br />
Rodney Massey<br />
Manny Mill<br />
Kenny Munds<br />
Photography<br />
Tashi-Delek<br />
Haley Manning Photography<br />
Todd Ristorcelli<br />
Geri Simpkins<br />
Eric Stolz<br />
Jim Whitmer Photography<br />
Mary Whitmer<br />
Artwork<br />
Jared Emerson<br />
Accounting Manager<br />
Gizella Guba<br />
Director of Prison Correspondence<br />
Carla Owens<br />
Victorious Living magazine is a publication of<br />
Kristi Overton Johnson Ministries, a 501c3 organization.<br />
The articles featured in Victorious Living are designed to inspire and encourage<br />
our readers by sharing powerful testimonies from people who, we believe, have<br />
been transformed by God's grace, love, and power. The articles are focused on the<br />
individual's testimony. Although we conduct some independent research, we rely<br />
heavily on the information provided to us by those we interview. Our articles are not<br />
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persons whose stories we feature.<br />
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ISSUE 1, JANUARY <strong>2022</strong><br />
CONTENTS<br />
8<br />
9<br />
STEPPING FORWARD<br />
Take Time to Listen<br />
BY KENNY MUNDS<br />
Serve with Gladness<br />
27<br />
Trust and Obey: It’s Not Easy,<br />
but It’s Worth It<br />
BY ROY A. BORGES<br />
What Roy wanted was not exactly what<br />
God had planned. When he finally let<br />
go and turned to God in trust, he found<br />
abundant blessing, even in the waiting.<br />
18<br />
Wait for God’s Choice<br />
THE STORY OF RON CAPELL<br />
A successful corporate executive, Ron<br />
was living his dreams—until the day he<br />
realized he’d left the truly important<br />
things, like family and God, behind.<br />
BY KRISTI DEWS DALE<br />
DOUBLE FEATURE COVER *<br />
15<br />
28<br />
10<br />
Truths to Remember in<br />
the Wilderness<br />
BY LISA APPELO<br />
Accept God’s Invitation<br />
BY KRISTI OVERTON JOHNSON<br />
TRANSFORMED<br />
LIVES<br />
It’s Never Too Late<br />
BY CHRISTINA KIMBREL<br />
She was encouraged as a child to write,<br />
but Christina would find her dream<br />
untouchable…until she surrendered to<br />
God, and He turned her life around.<br />
12<br />
16<br />
FEATURES<br />
God Restores What Has Been<br />
Taken<br />
THE STORY OF SHARON DUTRA<br />
At 29 with a long criminal record,<br />
Sharon had broken everything she’d<br />
ever touched—but that didn’t stop God<br />
from reaching into her dark prison cell<br />
to offer help, hope, and new life.<br />
God Uses the Willing Heart<br />
THE STORY OF SANDRA HARDEE<br />
Ask God to open your eyes to the<br />
opportunities around you to serve<br />
others in His name, then step out in<br />
faith with a heart that is willing to<br />
serve. You’ll never regret it.<br />
20 * Tired of Running and<br />
Ready to Live<br />
24<br />
THE STORY OF MANNY MILL<br />
Manny was on the run from the<br />
FBI when God arrested his heart.<br />
Surrendering to God meant surrendering<br />
to the authorities too, and<br />
Manny spent the next two years in<br />
prison, but God used that time to<br />
make him a new man.<br />
* There’s Hope in the Hands<br />
of a Merciful God<br />
THE STORY OF RODNEY MASSEY<br />
God’s mercy reaches to the deepest<br />
hell. It’s unending; it’s new every<br />
morning. Truth is, no matter how far<br />
you’ve wandered or what you’ve done,<br />
you can never outrun God’s love.<br />
COVER PHOTO BY MARY WHITMER<br />
ON THE COVER<br />
When Rodney Massey<br />
(left) and Manny Mill<br />
opened the doors of<br />
their hearts to God,<br />
everything changed.<br />
They found peace,<br />
purpose, and power<br />
in the hands of a<br />
merciful God.<br />
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Trusting God, Even<br />
unto Death<br />
BY MAUREEN HOOKER<br />
Having survived breast cancer and a<br />
heart transplant, Maureen was proud<br />
to claim the power of God in her life.<br />
But would her trust in Him survive<br />
the death of her son?<br />
Today, Rodney and<br />
Manny help others<br />
find the courage to<br />
open their hearts to<br />
the One who can<br />
redeem and restore<br />
broken lives.<br />
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IN EVERY ISSUE<br />
Publisher’s Note<br />
Trust His Love; Follow His Way<br />
Going Deeper<br />
Trust Your Creator<br />
34<br />
Now What/Resources<br />
I’ve Just Accepted Salvation.<br />
Now What?<br />
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PUBLISHER’S NOTE<br />
Trust His Love;<br />
Follow His Way<br />
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“G<br />
od, why did You let that happen?”<br />
“Lord, why haven’t You answered<br />
my prayers?”<br />
“God, why aren’t You doing something<br />
about this?”<br />
“God, why would You ask me to do that?!”<br />
Have you ever asked God questions<br />
like these? I know I have. You are about to<br />
read stories from people who trusted God’s<br />
heart even though they didn’t understand<br />
His way.<br />
In theory, trusting God is easy. As Christians,<br />
we know it’s what we’re “supposed”<br />
to do. In fact, it’s often the first piece of<br />
advice we offer in the face of a dilemma.<br />
“Just trust God, brother,” we say. “Do what<br />
He says, sister. God won’t fail you.”<br />
But saying it and doing it are two very<br />
different things, especially when the wait<br />
is long, the circumstances are painful, and<br />
our prayers seem to go unheard.<br />
In tight circumstances, it’s easy to want<br />
to grab hold of a situation (or person!) and<br />
force an outcome. Waiting makes us feel<br />
out of control. We grow anxious, fearful,<br />
and even angry with God. All too often,<br />
we find ourselves following our emotions<br />
instead of God’s leading. But, as you are<br />
about to learn, trusting God and waiting on<br />
Him are worth the effort, because blessings<br />
come through trusting God.<br />
Of course, we usually expect God’s blessing<br />
to be pleasant. After all, if God is good,<br />
then shouldn’t everything He allows us to<br />
go through be good, too? We want the promotion,<br />
good health, financial prosperity,<br />
freedom, opportunity—all the good things<br />
we can think of. And sometimes, God does<br />
bless us with those beautiful things.<br />
But other times, God’s blessings are the<br />
fruit of our persevering in trust through a<br />
long wait or uncomfortable circumstance.<br />
It’s through those difficult moments that<br />
God reveals His treasure, faithfulness, and<br />
power in ways that, but for the pain and the<br />
wait, we never would have known. After<br />
reading this issue, you’ll see what I mean.<br />
For me, trusting God became possible<br />
the day I realized He loved me. I had heard<br />
and recited John 3:16 a million times growing<br />
up—“For God so loved the world that he<br />
gave his one and only Son, that whoever<br />
believes in him shall not perish but have<br />
eternal life” (NIV). I believed in the concept<br />
of God loving people and sending His Son<br />
to save us. I even had faith to trust Him for<br />
salvation through His Son, Jesus.<br />
But I didn’t understand that God Almighty,<br />
the Creator of the universe and<br />
everything in it, loves me, myself, as an individual.<br />
I didn’t realize He sees me, knows<br />
me, cares about every detail of my life, has<br />
a specific plan for me, and is on my side<br />
(Psalm 139). My life and faith changed the<br />
day I grasped that God treasures and delights<br />
in me (Psalm 18:19). He delights in you, too!<br />
Have you ever realized that God loves<br />
you as an individual? That He sees you and<br />
delights in every detail of your life? That<br />
out of His love, He has crafted a plan and<br />
a purpose for your life? And that His plan,<br />
no matter how difficult, can be trusted?<br />
I pray that, as you read this issue of Victorious<br />
Living, you will have a fresh revelation<br />
of God’s love and that His love will make you<br />
complete. May you, as Paul prayed in Ephesians<br />
3:18–19, have “the power to understand...how<br />
wide, how long, how high, and<br />
how deep his love is. May you experience<br />
the love of Christ…[and] be made complete<br />
with all the fullness of life and power that<br />
comes from God” (NLT).<br />
Friend, once you understand God’s love<br />
for you personally and root yourself deep in<br />
His love, you’ll find the strength to make it<br />
through even the most challenging storms<br />
(Ephesians 3:17), and you’ll see God accomplish<br />
for you more than you can imagine<br />
or hope (Ephesians 3:20).<br />
Kristi Overton Johnson<br />
Publisher & Executive Director<br />
PHOTO BY TODD RISTORCELLI<br />
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Through the stories of<br />
Victorious Living, men and<br />
women behind bars meet<br />
the God of another chance.<br />
Testimonial: Erving<br />
I had been incarcerated in federal prison for<br />
about 6 months when my wife, Denise, told<br />
me about Victorious Living magazine. I began<br />
reading the copy she sent me and—wow! The<br />
stories were amazing. They helped me see that I<br />
wasn’t alone.<br />
I wanted to share Victorious Living with the<br />
other inmates in my facility. I knew the guys<br />
would benefit from the stories. I showed our<br />
chaplain the magazine, and then we requested<br />
copies for our facility.<br />
I was like a kid in a candy store when that<br />
box of Victorious Living arrived. I immediately<br />
passed them out, and the guys loved them, just<br />
like I knew they would! They found hope, help,<br />
and encouragement to face each day.<br />
Over the next several months, the stories in<br />
<strong>VL</strong> showed me that God still works in our lives,<br />
even when we mess up. And that meant He<br />
could—and would—still work in mine.<br />
I’m back home now and grateful for<br />
Victorious Living and the people behind it. My<br />
wife is now the ministry’s Hispanic Outreach<br />
Director, and I am on the advisory board! Isn’t<br />
God amazing?<br />
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STEPPING FORWARD<br />
Take Time<br />
to Listen<br />
BY KENNY MUNDS<br />
and, most of all, His majesty. I read aloud a daily protection<br />
prayer given to me by one of my mentors. And then I ask God<br />
to show me what He wants me to read in His Word. I hear in<br />
my mind, “First John.” So I read it and carefully look for the<br />
message God has for me today. I keep a journal nearby to write<br />
down whatever He reveals to me.<br />
Next, I ask Him who He wants me to cover in prayer. I think<br />
of several people and pray for them. I then ask God to guide<br />
me to where He would have me go today and to use me for His<br />
purposes. I intentionally slow myself down and refuse to allow<br />
my flesh to rush me out the door.<br />
Only then am I ready to go.<br />
I wish I could say I have this time and dialogue with God<br />
every morning. I want to, I mean to, and I know I need to—but<br />
still, I often don’t. And when I don’t, I stumble through the day,<br />
bouncing off the walls, all the while wondering why I feel so<br />
anxious and disconnected from God.<br />
I have learned the hard way the importance of starting each<br />
day by sharing my heart with God and listening for His voice.<br />
How else can I develop a deeper relationship with Him and<br />
know His will except through dialogue with Him?<br />
I don’t want to be that person who talks incessantly and never<br />
lets anyone else speak. I know a few people like that, and I confess,<br />
when I see their names on my phone, I hesitate to answer.<br />
But how often have I been the incessant one with God? I<br />
ask Him for things, do most of the talking, and never stop to<br />
listen to what He has to say. I wouldn’t blame God one bit if He<br />
ignored my calls. But He doesn’t!<br />
Talking to God is important, but listening to Him is vital,<br />
and I’m really trying to get better at actually doing it. I want<br />
IT’S MORNING. I glance around my little apartment at the<br />
many signs I’ve purchased over the years from thrift stores and<br />
flea markets. “I Will Never Fail You.” “Be Still and Know that I<br />
Am God.” “I Can Do All Things through Christ Who Strengthens<br />
Me.” “Set Your Mind on Things Above.” Each one reminds me<br />
of a specific promise in God’s Word.<br />
From atop the refrigerator, my boombox plays a favorite CD,<br />
“Hidden in My Heart.” It soothes my soul. It’s a war out there,<br />
and I need constant reminders that God is on my side.<br />
You’d think that with all these reminders, I would barrel out<br />
the door, ready to challenge any foe or dark spirit that awaits<br />
me and conquer the world. But it takes more than a sign to get<br />
me ready for whatever battle lies ahead. Not to mention the one<br />
raging within me—my daily war against anxiety, fear, and doubt.<br />
And that’s why, before I run out the door, there’s something<br />
important I need to do. I must stop to pray and wait to hear<br />
from God.<br />
So I move over to my recliner and begin to acknowledge my<br />
Lord and Savior. I praise Him for His undying love and grace<br />
TALKING TO GOD IS<br />
IMPORTANT, BUT LISTENING<br />
TO HIM IS VITAL.<br />
to listen more closely so I can follow God better. “My sheep<br />
listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me”<br />
(John 10:27 NIV).<br />
Do you feel disconnected from God and overwhelmed? Perhaps<br />
you need to put on the brakes, find a quiet place, and like<br />
Psalm 46:10 (and another sign on my wall) says, “Be still and<br />
know that I am God.” God has so much He wants to say to you,<br />
so much He wants to show you. Take the time to listen. And<br />
I’ll try to do the same.<br />
KENNY MUNDS takes the good news of God’s love and forgiveness into<br />
prisons and churches across America. To learn more about his ministry, go<br />
to kennymundsministry.org.<br />
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STEPPING FORWARD<br />
SERVE WITH GLADNESS<br />
BY KRISTI DEWS DALE<br />
CAN YOU IMAGINE THE CREATOR OF<br />
the world inviting you to breakfast? And<br />
not only that, then He prepares your meal<br />
and serves you. Well, that’s exactly what<br />
happened to Jesus’s disciples. We find this<br />
account in John 21.<br />
There, we learn about seven of Jesus’s<br />
disciples who were fishing in the Sea of<br />
Galilee at daybreak. They had fished all<br />
night and caught nothing when Jesus appeared<br />
on the shore. The disciples didn’t<br />
recognize Him at first, but then He asked<br />
them to cast their nets again. In minutes,<br />
they had caught more fish than their nets<br />
could hold, and they knew who He was.<br />
John exclaimed, “It is the Lord!” (John<br />
21:7). Peter was so excited, he jumped<br />
right out of the boat and swam to shore!<br />
The others dragged the miraculous haul<br />
to shore—153 fish in all—then the men<br />
hurried to greet Jesus.<br />
John 21:9–13 tells us that when the disciples<br />
got to land, they saw a charcoal fire<br />
with fish laid out on it and bread. Jesus<br />
invited the disciples to have breakfast with<br />
Him. What a beautiful scene.<br />
After the meal, Jesus gave the disciples<br />
some wise instruction, but I believe we can<br />
learn much from the circumstances of the<br />
breakfast itself. In fact, this is my favorite<br />
part of the story, because it reminds me of<br />
a simple truth.<br />
If we want to live as Jesus lived, we must serve<br />
others as Jesus did.<br />
Serving is often overlooked and can<br />
even feel insignificant, but it is essential<br />
to Christian living. It was the exact reason<br />
Jesus came.<br />
Matthew 20:28 tells us that “the Son<br />
of Man did not come to be served, but to<br />
serve, and to give his life as a ransom for<br />
many” (NIV). To serve others with joy, our<br />
hearts must be humble. In Matthew 11:29,<br />
Jesus describes Himself as “gentle and<br />
humble in heart.”<br />
I can’t say that I am always humble and<br />
gentle at heart when it comes to service.<br />
Let’s take an example from my household,<br />
like when the dishes are piled up in the<br />
sink, as they often are.<br />
Just the sight of them can make my heart<br />
grow frustrated. I start cleaning the dishes,<br />
but internally, I am entertaining some<br />
major self-dialogue like: “I am the only one<br />
doing the dishes. No one else in the family<br />
is helping me.”<br />
Thoughts like this make my heart grow<br />
hard and cold. Before long, my frustration<br />
bubbles over, and I say to my kids and husband,<br />
“Guys, I have already washed twenty<br />
or thirty dishes. Can you all come and help<br />
too?” (Insert slightly raised voice.) Notice: I<br />
have even counted the dishes I’ve washed,<br />
including small spoons and forks. (Do you<br />
get an idea of my ridiculousness?)<br />
I don’t think Jesus counted how many<br />
fish He cooked that morning. I don’t think<br />
He was angry that the disciples were out<br />
on the water while He was on the shore<br />
cooking. No. He lovingly prepared breakfast.<br />
And He did the work with gladness.<br />
That’s not always me. Yes, I do the work,<br />
but too often, I’m not really serving. My<br />
heart isn’t glad, and I am not gentle or<br />
humble.<br />
That’s not how I want to be. So to change<br />
my attitude, I’ve started listening to worship<br />
music while doing the dishes. It calms<br />
my spirit and reminds me that washing is<br />
a way to serve my family and the Lord. If<br />
Jesus my Savior came “not to be served,<br />
but to serve,” then why shouldn’t I serve<br />
happily and humbly as well?<br />
Are you joining Jesus in the good work<br />
of serving others with gentleness and humility?<br />
Or are you doing the work but with<br />
a grumbling heart?<br />
Let’s reflect Jesus in every act of service<br />
for His glory. Pray with me: “Lord Jesus,<br />
help me to serve others humbly. Allow me<br />
the privilege to be Your hands and feet on<br />
earth, so others can see You in everything<br />
I do. In Jesus’s name, amen.”<br />
KRISTI DEWS DALE is a wife and the mother of<br />
four amazing children. She is grateful that God has<br />
given her the opportunity to share stories of His<br />
love with others.<br />
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TRANSFORMED LIVES<br />
PHOTO BY HALEY MANNING PHOTOGRAPHY<br />
It’s Never Too Late<br />
BY CHRISTINA KIMBREL<br />
“CHRISTINA, I NEED TO SEE YOU AT MY DESK, PLEASE.”<br />
Anxiety ripped through me at the sound of my fifth-grade<br />
teacher’s voice. Another trip to the school office? More questions<br />
about my home? I harbored so many secrets, and even<br />
at that young age, I understood there was safety in silence.<br />
Tears threatened as I walked to the teacher’s desk. I was<br />
relieved when I realized she only wanted to talk to me about a<br />
guest speaker who had visited our class on Career Day. Edie, a<br />
professor at the University of Arizona, had spoken to the class<br />
about journalism and had given us some writing exercises.<br />
“She called me to ask about you, Christina,” my teacher said,<br />
beaming with pride. “Edie was impressed with your writing,<br />
and she wants to get to know you.” I couldn’t believe my ears.<br />
Edie took me on a field trip that included a tour of the University<br />
of Arizona School of Journalism and the local daily newspaper<br />
headquarters. “Christina’s going to write someday,” she<br />
said as she introduced me to the journalists in the newsroom.<br />
“You have a gift, Christina,” Edie told me as I exited her car.<br />
“You will be a great writer someday. I hope to see you in one of<br />
my classes!” She drove away, and I returned to the loneliness<br />
of my childhood. I have never forgotten that day, as it was one<br />
of the only times I felt heard or seen as a child.<br />
I never made it to college. I didn’t even graduate from high<br />
school. I left home at 13, and my innocence disappeared as I<br />
fell into addiction and street life. Before I knew it, I was 18 and<br />
headed to prison. I would remain trapped in a cycle of destruction<br />
for years. It didn’t matter whether I was behind bars or out<br />
in free society; pain, shame, and self-pity kept me shackled.<br />
By 2015, my life resembled a war-torn country. All that remained<br />
amid the rubble were broken relationships and shattered<br />
dreams. All I wanted was a way out.<br />
I was in jail, going through the agony of heroin withdrawals,<br />
when I cried out to God. “If You really exist, please help me.<br />
I don’t want to live like this anymore.” I know God heard me<br />
because, at that moment, a strange peace washed over me.<br />
It comforted me like a warm blanket and gave me the will to<br />
keep breathing.<br />
God responded to me like a loving father whose child is injured.<br />
He held me in His arms and gave me His strength. And<br />
with the help of His Spirit and His Word, I began a long journey<br />
into healing. I received a study Bible from the ministry, Rescued<br />
Not Arrested (RNA). And for the next two and a half years, I<br />
spent every minute I could with my nose buried in its pages.<br />
Every day, I wrote prayers to God in a journal. I opened my<br />
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heart to Him and shared things I didn’t talk about with anyone the volunteers for their part in making sure that the body of<br />
else. I also confessed things to Him that no one else knew.<br />
Christ did not forget about people like me in jails and prisons.<br />
Communicating with God through writing made me feel like<br />
As I walked off the stage and made my way to the food table,<br />
I had a voice. I always had my Bible open during these times of I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see a face I didn’t<br />
prayer and journaling, and the Lord poured His healing into recognize. “Hi,” the woman said. “My name is Kristi. I would love<br />
every broken and wounded place in my soul.<br />
to hear more of your story.” She pulled out a copy of Victorious<br />
The more I read God’s Word, the more I heard His voice. God Living magazine and quickly wrote down her email address<br />
reminded me that He had created me with intent and purpose. and a phone number to one of her ministry directors. “If you<br />
And despite my many failures in life, He still loved me and had submit your story to Pat Avery, he will make sure I receive it.”<br />
a plan. It wasn’t too late for Him to take my messed-up life and<br />
I procrastinated for three weeks as I wrestled with doubt and<br />
use it for something good (Romans 8:28).<br />
other negative thoughts. Yet, I couldn’t shake the feeling that<br />
Soon after my release in 2017, I contacted Roger Munchian, submitting my testimony would be pleasing to God, so I finally<br />
the founder of RNA. I shared my testimony with him and did it. The very next day, I received a call from Pat. “Kristi loved<br />
thanked him for the Bible that had helped build my relationship<br />
with the Lord. Then, I traveled to meet Roger and to pick with Roger Munchian’s testimony.” I couldn’t believe my ears.<br />
your story! She wants to include it in the upcoming issue along<br />
up some Bibles for my roommates back at the halfway house. I A few days later, I received an email from Kristi that said,<br />
didn’t know it then, but the Lord was positioning me to answer “Thank you for sharing your story with us. It will undoubtedly<br />
the call He had on my life.<br />
touch thousands of lives through this magazine. By the way,<br />
“You have an amazing testimony, Christina,” Roger told me you are an amazing writer!” She extended an open invitation<br />
during our first meeting. “It was very well written. Do you like for me to continue writing for the magazine if I was interested.<br />
to write?” I told him that I had<br />
If I was interested? Are you<br />
always wanted to be a writer,<br />
but my life had taken a different<br />
turn. Roger encouraged me<br />
not to underestimate what God<br />
might still do in and through<br />
my life.<br />
It wasn’t long before Roger<br />
IT WASN’T TOO LATE FOR HIM TO<br />
TAKE MY MESSED-UP LIFE AND<br />
USE IT FOR SOMETHING GOOD<br />
serious, God?!<br />
As I tried to absorb what<br />
was happening, I couldn’t<br />
help but remember Edie’s<br />
words from my childhood.<br />
God had used her all those<br />
years before to plant a seed<br />
invited me to serve as part of the correspondence ministry team in my heart about His plan for my life (Jeremiah 29:11). And<br />
at RNA. For two years, I read mail, processed Bible requests, now, even after all I had done wrong, it was coming to pass.<br />
and responded to letters from inmates all over the country. I God was fulfilling His plan for me, and He would use everything<br />
used writing to encourage others and point them toward God’s Satan had meant to harm me to benefit others (Genesis 50:20).<br />
Word as a source of comfort during their dark times.<br />
My story, “Beauty for Ashes,” was published in <strong>Issue</strong> 2, 2020.<br />
In February 2020, Rescued Not Arrested hosted a volunteer Since then, I have shared other stories of hope in Victorious<br />
appreciation dinner where I shared my testimony. I thanked Living. Then, in July 2021, I accepted Kristi’s offer to become<br />
the production manager for the magazine. Now I help others<br />
share their God stories!<br />
Incredibly, God has restored my life to His original purpose.<br />
Not only that, He has entrusted me to represent Him through<br />
the words I write. It is still so hard for me to fathom the depth<br />
of God’s incredible love and grace. I could never have imagined<br />
this for myself. God truly is our Redeemer when we trust Him.<br />
He can redeem your life, too. If you make Jesus the Lord of<br />
your life, He will bring you into His good plan. He will weave<br />
every detail of your story together into a beautiful masterpiece<br />
for His purpose and glory, and it will exceed anything you could<br />
have asked or thought of for yourself (Ephesians 3:20). And<br />
that is a promise.<br />
As a fifth-grader (left), Christina dreamed of becoming a writer, but life led<br />
her down a different path. Not long after the above mug shot, God reached<br />
into the darkness of jail and began to restore everything Christina thought<br />
was lost. Now, she’s part of the Victorious Living team (2nd from left,<br />
opposite page), and her dreams are coming true.<br />
CHRISTINA KIMBREL serves as <strong>VL</strong>’s production manager. Once incarcerated,<br />
she now ministers hope to those held captive by their past and current<br />
circumstances while sharing the message of healing she found in Jesus.<br />
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God<br />
Restores<br />
What<br />
Has<br />
Been<br />
Taken<br />
THE STORY OF SHARON DUTRA<br />
Before I met Christ, my life was<br />
like a desolate place, stripped<br />
bare by a swarm of locusts.<br />
Everything had been devastated<br />
by sin, rebellion, and demonic<br />
forces. But thankfully, God has<br />
restored what those “locusts”<br />
had eaten (Joel 2:25).<br />
For as long as I can remember, my life<br />
was barren. My birth mother left me with<br />
my alcoholic and emotionally distant father<br />
when I was five. I never saw her again.<br />
I believe my father loved me, but he was<br />
unable to show love or provide stability. By<br />
the time I was 17, he had remarried four<br />
times. With each divorce, I was placed in<br />
foster care, only to be pulled out again the<br />
next time he remarried.<br />
The rejection and abandonment of those<br />
formative years damaged me profoundly.<br />
By 13, I felt so worthless and confused that<br />
I hated myself and started using drugs to<br />
dull the pain. At 15, I ran away from home.<br />
Eventually, I was arrested and began a long<br />
trek through the legal system.<br />
My first stop was Eastlake Juvenile Hall<br />
in Central Los Angeles, California. There,<br />
I gained an unwanted understanding of<br />
hatred, racial tension, gangs, and fear. Back<br />
then, the system didn’t separate criminals<br />
according to the severity of their crimes.<br />
The Hall housed murderers, thieves, and<br />
gang members right alongside runaways<br />
like me. It was a rude awakening.<br />
A few months later, I was transferred to<br />
an open-placement girl’s home in East Los<br />
Angeles. “Open placement” means that I<br />
was able to leave the grounds at will; there<br />
were no bars or walls. I transferred buses<br />
at night from West LA to Central LA to East<br />
LA. I was unaware of the potential dangers<br />
I faced as pimps, predators, and gangsters<br />
abounded in those neighborhoods. God<br />
surely had His hand on my life.<br />
As a youth, I was restless and unable to<br />
stay anywhere for long. It didn’t matter<br />
where I ended up—I hated myself, and no<br />
matter where I went, there I was—and the<br />
misery continued. So I just kept running.<br />
After running away from the girl’s home<br />
for the third time, I became a ward of the<br />
court. My father was again divorced and<br />
didn’t want me to live with him, so I was<br />
sent to a closed facility called the Convent<br />
of the Good Shepherd. The convent walls<br />
were 12 feet high, but I managed to escape.<br />
My contempt for and mistrust of authority,<br />
life, and people reached an all-time<br />
high. But instead of being angry at the ones<br />
who had failed me, I internalized those<br />
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negative emotions and turned the weapons<br />
of destruction upon myself. As far as<br />
I could figure, I was the common denominator<br />
in every horrible thing that had happened<br />
in my life, so I must be the problem.<br />
I used every drug I could get my hands on.<br />
Life was too painful without them.<br />
At 20, I found myself in a dysfunctional<br />
relationship with a man I didn’t really<br />
know. His name was Bill, and he had just<br />
been released from prison. We got married<br />
and had two kids before I realized Bill was<br />
an IV drug user. Soon I became one too. We<br />
were both so lost. All that mattered was<br />
get ting high. Together, we fueled our addictions,<br />
hurting each other and our children.<br />
We ended up living in a tent on the streets.<br />
After eight and a half years together and a<br />
failed attempt to get sober, our marriage<br />
ended in divorce.<br />
I abandoned my children, just as so<br />
many had left me, and my guilt over that<br />
piled on more of the self-hatred, shame,<br />
and regret I already carried.<br />
By the time I was 29, I had been arrested<br />
13 times. I lived alone on the streets for<br />
two years, scouring through garbage cans<br />
for food and selling my body for drugs. I<br />
was a miserable being, a bag lady, focused<br />
solely on survival.<br />
I couldn’t see how sick I had become.<br />
When you’re out there, you don’t see yourself<br />
with eyes of truth. In fact, you don’t see<br />
yourself at all. I had completely stopped<br />
looking in the mirror.<br />
One time, a man aimed his gun at me,<br />
and in my pitiful state, I told him to shoot<br />
me and put me out of my misery. I had no<br />
reason to live. I had tried to commit suicide<br />
several times and felt more like a failure<br />
when I couldn’t even succeed at that! Of<br />
course, now I know it was God miraculously<br />
sparing my life.<br />
One morning while I was unlawfully on<br />
an army base, I was arrested by military<br />
police and the city police sergeant. I didn’t<br />
know it yet, but God was bringing me to a<br />
critical crossroads. I would soon see His<br />
plan for my life unfold in tangible ways.<br />
Because of my lengthy criminal record,<br />
I was sent to a crowded southern California<br />
women’s prison. There was very little<br />
As a youth, Sharon (above) desired love and<br />
acceptance. She found both in the arms of God.<br />
privacy there, but God arranged for my<br />
cellmate to work in the kitchen. That meant<br />
I had time alone.<br />
In my cell, I read a book about a man<br />
named George H. Meyer. In the 1940s, he<br />
was the chauffeur and getaway driver for<br />
the alleged mafia boss, “Scarface” Al Capone.<br />
Meyer’s life of crime eventually put<br />
him behind bars. But it was there in his<br />
dark prison cell that George Meyer surrendered<br />
his life to Jesus Christ.<br />
I was intrigued by the life-transforming<br />
power of Jesus in Meyer’s life. God had<br />
used this man while he was incarcerated<br />
to impact many people. And now, decades<br />
later, he was affecting my life too.<br />
Up to that point, I had felt useless. As far<br />
as I could see, my life was a complete waste.<br />
I was 29 years old with nothing but misery<br />
to show for it. I had broken everything I’d<br />
touched. But Meyer’s testimony penetrated<br />
my heart, and something unfamiliar began<br />
stirring inside, something impossible to<br />
resist. It was hope!<br />
Through Meyer’s book, I began to wonder<br />
about Jesus Christ. If living a life surrendered<br />
to Christ had helped George H.<br />
Meyer, could it help me too?<br />
I didn’t wait for reason to surface—I got<br />
down on my knees and cried out to God for<br />
salvation. Suddenly I had remorse over my<br />
sin. I wept over what I had done to people<br />
and for my self-hatred. I asked God for forgiveness<br />
and repented for rejecting Him.<br />
I had forfeited so many opportunities to<br />
know Him through the years.<br />
As I prayed, I felt God’s grace wash over<br />
me. When I got up off the floor, I was a<br />
brand-new person (2 Corinthians 5:17).<br />
A few weeks later, I was placed in the<br />
general population. There, I was able to<br />
attend church within the prison. The chaplain<br />
gave me a Bible he had purchased just<br />
for me. I read it for hours every day.<br />
God’s Word ministered hope to my heart.<br />
Through it, I learned He had a purpose for<br />
creating me and that I had value (Ephesians<br />
2:10). I learned that I mattered to God<br />
(Psalm 139), and He loved me so much so<br />
that He had sent His Son, Jesus, to die for<br />
me (John 3:16). Me!<br />
I was in awe that the Creator of the universe<br />
knew me by my name (Isaiah 43:1). I<br />
had always felt so invisible. He also promised<br />
never to fail or abandon me (Deuteronomy<br />
31:6,8; Joshua 1:5–9). Everyone else<br />
in my life had let me down.<br />
God’s Word, His truth, was like a stream<br />
of cool water in the desert. It quenched<br />
the thirst of my soul like nothing else<br />
could (John 4), and it set me free from the<br />
bondage of guilt, shame, and self-hatred<br />
(John 8:32).<br />
This newfound freedom brought the<br />
love, peace, joy, security, and stability I<br />
had always longed for. As I grew in that<br />
security, God began to put His love for others<br />
in my heart. I knew that He wanted me<br />
to share His love and hope with others in<br />
prison, just like George Meyer had done. I<br />
stepped out in trust, leading music at the<br />
prison church service.<br />
Not long after, I was transferred to a<br />
minimum-security prison. I was on fire<br />
for Jesus and excited about growing in my<br />
faith in this new place. And then I discovered<br />
that, out of the 90 women there, only<br />
one other inmate was a Christian. And she<br />
was being released in two weeks!<br />
I felt so alone and betrayed by God. In<br />
my confusion, I cried out to Him and asked,<br />
“Why would You send me to such a spiritually<br />
empty place, Lord? I need training.<br />
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“I have set before you life and<br />
death, blessings and curses.<br />
Now choose life, so that you<br />
and your children may live.”<br />
Deuteronomy 30:19 NIV<br />
some dope.” But then I heard<br />
the whisper of the Holy Spirit,<br />
telling me to pick up the phone<br />
and call the church I had contacted<br />
before my release.<br />
I was at a spiritual crossroads.<br />
Thankfully, God’s Word<br />
was written on my heart, and<br />
I remembered Deuteronomy<br />
I need friends to help me now more than 30:19: “I have set before you life and death,<br />
ever!” Had He forgotten about my needs? blessings and curses. Now choose life, so<br />
Of course not. Instead, He had put me in that you and your children may live” (NIV).<br />
that spiritually barren place because those I chose life.<br />
women did not know the hope of Jesus. I picked up the phone and called the<br />
He wanted to use me to bring healing to church. Members there gave me the help<br />
women who were as desperate and broken and support I needed to keep moving in the<br />
as I so recently had been.<br />
right direction—toward God and the plan<br />
I decided to start a Bible study. I made He had for my life. God also presented opportunities<br />
for me to share the Gospel with<br />
rounds through the dorms in the mornings<br />
and yelled, “Bible study!” At first, the response<br />
was less than welcoming. You just They could see the change in me, and it<br />
people I used to run with on the streets.<br />
don’t wake people up in prison that way. gave them hope that what God had done<br />
I could tell by their looks that most of the for me, He could do for them.<br />
women thought I was crazy.<br />
Ten months later, I met my current husband,<br />
Michael. His father was a recently<br />
I am sure some of them wanted to ask,<br />
“Just who do you think you are, Miss Goody retired captain of the California Highway<br />
Two-Shoes Christian?” But I didn’t give Patrol, and his brother was a CHP sergeant.<br />
up, and soon a group of ladies assembled. Cops! God indeed has a sense of humor.<br />
In our time together, I shared the scriptures<br />
that had brought me so much hope that he would bring someone like me<br />
Initially, Michael’s family was shocked<br />
and healing. I continued to lead the study home, but over the years, God changed<br />
until I was released, and they continued their hearts about “those people.” Michael<br />
it for many years after I left. Praise God! and I have been married now for 30 years.<br />
Being released from prison presented<br />
immediate opportunities to return to we’ve had opportunities to reach people<br />
We love helping others come to faith, and<br />
the land that the locusts had destroyed. on both sides of prison walls.<br />
I was given $200 and sent to Santa Cruz, I returned to school and graduated with<br />
California, where I had lived before my honors as a registered nurse in 1998. I also<br />
incar ceration. I was afraid—I knew how started teaching Bible studies for women.<br />
dangerous and unhealthy it would be for I leaned on the Lord, His truth, and my<br />
me to return, as the only people I knew experience in learning and teaching the<br />
there were drug addicts and prostitutes. Bible in prison. Since I couldn’t find any<br />
Once again, I questioned God’s ways. material that the diverse group of ladies<br />
“How could You send me back to a town who attended the study could relate to, I<br />
where all I know are drugs and the street started writing my own Bible studies. My<br />
life?!” Not only would it be difficult to book, Be Transformed by the Spirit of the Living<br />
God, was birthed from this class. I have<br />
stand firm in my faith, but I had such a<br />
poor reputation in that area. How would I since written two more books that are used<br />
ever overcome it?<br />
all over the world to help people understand<br />
the Bible and apply it to their lives.<br />
I got off the bus and stopped by a pay<br />
phone. I could hear the devil whispering to It’s been over 30 years since Jesus saved<br />
me, “Go to your old neighborhood and get my life. And just like He promised in Joel<br />
2:25, He has restored all that the locusts<br />
had eaten. I am forever grateful.<br />
Have those locusts ravaged your life too,<br />
leaving it desolate and bare? Do you feel<br />
alone or like your life is a waste? Friend,<br />
there is hope. God loves you, and He still<br />
has a purpose for your life.<br />
Surrender your heart to Him. Ask Him to<br />
forgive you for your rebellion, doubt, fear,<br />
pride, hatred, and confusion. And then accept<br />
His forgiveness (1 John 1:9). He wants<br />
to make you new. He wants to restore all<br />
that has been taken from you. It’s not too<br />
late to have the abundant life God intended<br />
for you (John 10:10). There is no life too<br />
broken for Jesus to mend.<br />
I hope you’ll accept God’s gift of forgiveness<br />
and salvation like I did by inviting<br />
Jesus into your heart today. Please don’t<br />
wait. Your eternal security depends on it,<br />
as well as your ability to live a life of peace<br />
and purpose on earth now.<br />
If you are ready to surrender your life to<br />
Jesus, offer the Lord your heart with this<br />
prayer:<br />
Jesus, I’ve been searching for<br />
peace and happiness my whole<br />
life. I’ve tried everything to fill the<br />
emptiness in my heart but haven’t<br />
found anything that works. I realize<br />
now that it’s because I’ve never<br />
confessed my sins to You and received<br />
forgiveness for my selfish<br />
ways.<br />
I’ve done a poor job of running<br />
my life on my own. I’ve done so<br />
many things against You, myself,<br />
and others. Please forgive me.<br />
I want to start a new life with<br />
You, one filled with contentment<br />
and purpose. I want to live for<br />
something greater than myself.<br />
I want to commit my life to You<br />
right now. Thank You, Lord. In<br />
Jesus’s name, amen.<br />
SHARON DUTRA is cofounder of Be Transformed<br />
Ministries and the author of three books that have<br />
been translated into four languages. Over 25,000 of<br />
her books have been sent out to prisons around the<br />
world. To contact her ministry, write to PO Box 597,<br />
Grover Beach, CA 93433, or email betransformed@<br />
betransformedministries.com.<br />
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STEPPING FORWARD<br />
TRUTHS TO REMEMBER<br />
IN THE WILDERNESS<br />
BY LISA APPELO<br />
ONE SWIFT KICK. The frustration of the last ten months had<br />
come to a head, and with all the patience of a three-year-old, I<br />
took it out on the side of the tub. But tubs are unforgiving. Almost<br />
immediately, my ankle swelled in shades of blue and purple, and<br />
soon, I couldn’t bear any weight on that foot. For the next two<br />
days, I hobbled around, painfully aware that my heart needed<br />
fixing more than my ankle.<br />
I’d been wandering a wilderness of isolation and waiting after<br />
moving from a small town I loved to a large city. I knew God had<br />
led us to move, but the months spent looking for a new church,<br />
new house, new everything had taken their toll. I missed my<br />
friends and longed to be settled. The lease on our rental was<br />
expiring, our furniture was in storage, and I missed the permanence<br />
of a home of our own.<br />
Maybe you’ve experienced a wilderness of isolation without<br />
friends, family, or a church home. Maybe you’ve endured a wilderness<br />
of waiting long past your timeline despite your prayers.<br />
Or maybe you’re in a wilderness right now of deep pain or grief<br />
after your life shattered around you.<br />
When we’re in the wilderness, we want out quick. But focusing<br />
on getting out can make us miss the lessons God has for us there.<br />
Wilderness circumstances feel barren, but they can be spiritually<br />
rich. Here are some truths to remember when you find yourself<br />
in the wilderness.<br />
God provides in the wilderness. If God leads you to it, you can<br />
trust He will provide for you there. He led the Israelites into the<br />
wilderness. He led David, Elijah, and even Jesus there too. But<br />
God never left them to fend for themselves. He provided manna<br />
for Israel, safety for David, and meat and bread for Elijah. And<br />
after Jesus fasted 40 days in the wilderness, God sent angels to<br />
care for him. God will provide for you there, too.<br />
God reveals His character in the wilderness. When Hagar<br />
fled to the desert after being mistreated and rejected, God appeared<br />
to her. She called Him “the God who sees me” (Genesis<br />
16:13 NIV). When Moses was in the wilderness, God appeared<br />
to him, revealing Himself as the “I am; the Lord” (Exodus 6:2–3<br />
NIV). At various times, God revealed Himself to the Hebrews as<br />
the Bread of Heaven, the Living Water, the Holy One, the Law<br />
Giver, and the Rock.<br />
On Mt. Sinai, God revealed himself as, “The Lord, the Lord, the<br />
compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love<br />
and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving<br />
wickedness, rebellion and sin” (Exodus 34:6 NIV). Don’t miss the<br />
ways God reveals Himself to you in the wilderness.<br />
The wilderness is a place of preparation, not permanence.<br />
God doesn’t park us in the desert places of life forever. He uses<br />
them to prepare us for where He is leading us next. This pattern<br />
occurs repeatedly in the Bible. God led the Israelites into the wilderness<br />
to make them a nation, give them His law, and show them<br />
how to worship, in order to prepare them for the Promised Land.<br />
God led Jesus into the wilderness where Jesus fasted and<br />
prayed for 40 days and was tempted before beginning His public<br />
ministry. Paul spent three hidden years in the desert before<br />
launching into his evangelical missionary journeys. What is God<br />
preparing you for?<br />
The wilderness is never meant to harm you; it’s meant to<br />
form you. Deuteronomy 8:15–16 NIV says, “He led you through<br />
the vast and dreadful wilderness, that thirsty and waterless land,<br />
with its venomous snakes and scorpions…to humble and test you<br />
so that in the end it might go well with you” (emphasis added).<br />
God always intends it to go well with us. Don’t do as I did and<br />
kick against the wilderness places. God already has a good end<br />
in mind. As you wait, get to know Him in new ways, trust His<br />
provision, and get prepared for what He has in store. And when<br />
He reveals that next step, take it. You are not alone.<br />
LISA APPELO is a speaker, writer, and Bible teacher who inspires women<br />
to deepen their faith in grief and find hope in the hard. Formerly a litigating<br />
attorney, her days are now filled with parenting seven children, ministering,<br />
writing, speaking, and running enough to justify lots of dark chocolate. Find<br />
Lisa’s encouragement for faith, grief, and hope at LisaAppelo.com.<br />
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God Uses<br />
the Willing Heart<br />
THE STORY OF SANDRA HARDEE<br />
I grew up attending a small Methodist<br />
church in Grifton, NC. I thought I was a<br />
Christian, but I really didn’t know anything<br />
about God. I didn’t understand the Gospel<br />
message and how it applied to me. Thankfully,<br />
God opened my faith-eyes to see my<br />
need for a personal relationship with Him<br />
through His Son, Jesus.<br />
It happened when my teenage son returned<br />
from a week-long retreat sponsored<br />
by Young Life. The minute he returned, I<br />
knew something was different in him. He<br />
was excited and filled with joy. This was<br />
surprising because at the time, our family<br />
was really struggling. My husband of 17<br />
years had recently left my two teenagers<br />
and me, and the trauma of the divorce was<br />
impacting us all deeply.<br />
I was happy to see this change in my son,<br />
but it wasn’t until I attended a Young Life<br />
banquet with him that I understood the<br />
source of the transformation. There, on a<br />
stage, he shared how Jesus had touched<br />
his life. I was so proud of him but also a bit<br />
embarrassed that he hadn’t shared those<br />
intimate details with me prior to the event.<br />
Turns out, he didn’t think I would understand<br />
his newfound faith in Jesus.<br />
“Mom, all I’ve ever heard you pray is<br />
a memorized prayer,” he told me. He’d<br />
never witnessed me having an intimate<br />
relationship with God. Talk about needing<br />
a reality check!<br />
I kept an eye on my son. It was obvious<br />
that whatever Jesus had done in his life<br />
was real, and I knew I needed what he had.<br />
So I decided to get serious about my faith.<br />
I found time to spend quiet moments<br />
with God. I did devotionals and read the<br />
Bible like my son. At first, it was for 5<br />
minutes, then 10, then 30, then an hour. I<br />
couldn’t wait to get up each morning for my<br />
one-on-one time with God. His Word and<br />
presence were healing my broken heart.<br />
Then, I went on a Walk to Emmaus retreat,<br />
where I learned how to practically<br />
live out God’s Word and to be a true Christ<br />
follower. I came to understand that I am<br />
called to be like Jesus. I am to serve and<br />
love others in practical ways. And then I<br />
discovered that I prove my love for God<br />
through my obedience to Him (John 14:15).<br />
I went on a hunt through God’s Word to<br />
see what He expected of me. I learned God<br />
wanted me to be humble instead of prideful,<br />
gentle instead of harsh, selfless instead<br />
of selfish, forgiving instead of bitter, and<br />
generous instead of stingy. God was calling<br />
me to be His ambassador on this earth—to<br />
represent Him everywhere I went and in<br />
everything I do.<br />
As a pharmacist, I had always separated<br />
my work from my faith. But God showed<br />
me that even as a pharmacist, I could reveal<br />
His love to people in simple ways, like<br />
by being patient, kind, and helpful.<br />
Serving others isn’t always easy. Not<br />
everyone is pleasant and kind. It helps to<br />
remember that every person is created in<br />
God’s image. He loves them and has fashioned<br />
and formed them with His hands for<br />
a specific purpose (Psalm 119:73).<br />
Seeing people through God’s eyes<br />
changed how I responded to them. It<br />
also helped to remember that as I served<br />
others, I was serving the Lord (Matthew<br />
25:35–40; Colossians 3:23).<br />
You would think that serving and obeying<br />
God’s commands would be burdensome,<br />
but it isn’t (1 John 5:3). The more I<br />
served others with God in mind, the more<br />
joy, peace, and purpose I found. That’s because<br />
we are created to serve and to glorify<br />
God. Ephesians 2:10 says, “For we are<br />
God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus<br />
to do good works, which God prepared in<br />
advance for us to do” (NIV). When we fulfill<br />
God’s desires, we are blessed and refreshed<br />
in the process (Proverbs 11:25).<br />
In 1999, my hometown of Grifton was<br />
wiped out by a flood brought on by Hurricane<br />
Floyd. This crisis brought many opportunities<br />
to show the love of God, but<br />
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they often led me to uncomfortable places.<br />
It never failed, though, that when I stepped<br />
out in obedience, God always had gifts and<br />
treasures waiting for me.<br />
My friend, Betty, dove headlong into crisis<br />
response, visiting devastated areas and<br />
searching for people in need. I often went<br />
with her. One day, Betty asked me to go<br />
alone to a remote area and check on a lady<br />
named Rachel. I was nervous because I had<br />
long-term by the flood. I decided to use my<br />
administrative skills to become an advocate<br />
for mental health and medical needs.<br />
I’m sure people were tired of all my<br />
“flood talk,” but I was so burdened for those<br />
still hurting in the community. I couldn’t<br />
look the other way—they needed help. How<br />
could I stop serving them? God calls us to<br />
help those in need. Proverbs 3:27 says, “Do<br />
not withhold good from those to whom it<br />
to retire, but that wasn’t God’s plan for us.<br />
(Now that I think about it, I haven’t found<br />
a retirement provision from serving the<br />
Lord anywhere in the Bible.) We took the<br />
positions.<br />
It’s not an easy task to get people onboard<br />
with helping those in prison. It’s not<br />
popular. But when has God ever called us<br />
to do things that are popular? Or comfortable?<br />
Or easy, for that matter? He doesn’t.<br />
heard this lady was a bit eccentric, but I<br />
is due, when it is in your power to act.”<br />
But what He does do is call us to plac-<br />
decided to trust Betty’s judgment and went.<br />
Serving the flood victims was a privilege.<br />
es and people that will change us forever,<br />
I’ll never forget that first encounter. Ra-<br />
Years later, God showed me another<br />
for the better. As we do right, seek jus-<br />
chel had very little by the world’s standards<br />
place to serve—prison. This happened af-<br />
tice, and defend the oppressed (Isaiah<br />
even before the flood. Yet, she talked about<br />
ter I met my husband, Ron, who was very<br />
1:17), God blesses us in unexpected ways<br />
the Lord the whole time we were together.<br />
involved with Kairos ministry, a national<br />
(Ephesians 3:20).<br />
She had so much joy. When I left, she fol-<br />
prison outreach. (See his story on page 18.)<br />
If you’ve never experienced the joy of<br />
lowed me outside and yelled, “I love you.”<br />
His love for the incarcerated was conta-<br />
serving others, ask God to open your eyes<br />
Her words pierced my heart. She had<br />
gious and soon, my heart was drawn to<br />
to opportunities. Let your heart be willing<br />
no idea how badly I needed to hear those<br />
help relieve the suffering of inmates too.<br />
to serve. Then, out of your love for God and<br />
words nor how much I needed to be loved.<br />
Ron and I became very active with a pris-<br />
His people, step into them. I promise you,<br />
But God did, and He used Rachel to bless<br />
on reform agency called NC-CURE, but in<br />
you’ll never regret it.<br />
me. Today, 20 years later, Rachel and I<br />
2020, the founder of NC-CURE moved out<br />
are still great buddies. I thank God for her<br />
friendship.<br />
As often happens after a natural disaster,<br />
relief support eventually left our area. But<br />
there were still so many people impacted<br />
of state. The organization, on the verge<br />
of dissolution, asked me to become the<br />
execu tive director and asked Ron to become<br />
the chairman of the board.<br />
Ron and I had thought we were ready<br />
SANDRA HARDEE and her husband, Ron, lead<br />
NC-CURE (NC Citizens United for Restorative<br />
Effectiveness), a not-for-profit organization that<br />
fights for the rights of the incarcerated and raises<br />
awareness of injustices in the NC prison system. To<br />
learn more, visit nccure.org.<br />
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Wait for<br />
God’s Choice<br />
THE STORY OF RON CAPELL<br />
I was overseas and alone in a hotel room<br />
when I realized I no longer wanted the<br />
“American Dream.” For me, it had become<br />
a nightmare.<br />
I had everything the world said would<br />
make me happy—an education, successful<br />
career, material wealth, expensive cars, a<br />
large home, and a beautiful wife and kids.<br />
Yet, I was miserable. And the more I acquired,<br />
the less content I became. I had<br />
no joy in my life.<br />
I had been out drinking that night. It<br />
passed the time during my overseas travels<br />
and temporarily filled the emptiness in<br />
my heart. I fell asleep in a drunken stupor,<br />
but around 4:00 a.m., I awakened to the<br />
sound of the television, broadcasting a story<br />
about an American corporate executive<br />
who had just escaped his kidnappers.<br />
I knew about this man’s plight. A local<br />
tribe had taken him from a region where I<br />
often traveled. Other executives and I had<br />
been warned about the danger of being<br />
held for ransom there. This man had been<br />
in captivity for a year—in fact, we’d thought<br />
he was dead.<br />
Tears flowed down his face as he talked<br />
about his ordeal, and then he shared how<br />
he had come to know Jesus during his captivity.<br />
He told the interviewer that he was<br />
heading home to ask forgiveness from his<br />
wife and kids for the life he had lived on<br />
the road. He hoped to rebuild his family.<br />
His story struck me to the core. I lay on<br />
the bed and thought, “Oh my Lord! That’s<br />
me!” It was like I had looked in a mirror.<br />
I, too, needed to ask forgiveness from my<br />
wife and children for the life I’d been living.<br />
I also needed to ask God for forgiveness.<br />
I had been so full of greed and inconsideration<br />
toward others, especially my family.<br />
Overwhelmed with grief, I fell on the<br />
floor, repented of my sin, and surrendered<br />
my life to Jesus. A sudden, new, and deep<br />
desire to love God and my family instead<br />
of things rushed over me.<br />
I had asked Jesus into my heart as a child.<br />
I was raised in a Christian home with a<br />
long lineage of dedicated believers; I knew<br />
about God and truly did love Him. But then,<br />
when I was 16, I became rebellious and<br />
prideful. I strayed far from the Lord and<br />
traded His good plans for my own.<br />
I made a big mess of things in the process,<br />
and my home life was in shambles. I<br />
had been so concerned with making money<br />
that I had forgotten about the needs of<br />
my wife and children. I hadn’t cared for<br />
them as God intended (1 Peter 3:7).<br />
My life had been about owning stuff, not<br />
loving my family. And in the end, all that<br />
stuff owned me. It doesn’t profit a man to<br />
gain the whole world yet lose his life and<br />
things of true importance—like his family,<br />
health, and most importantly, his relationship<br />
with the Lord (Mark 8:36). I was<br />
determined to make amends and lead our<br />
family down God’s path.<br />
I came home, quit my high-paced traveling<br />
job, and worked on rebuilding my family.<br />
I became passionate about the Lord and<br />
began devouring the Bible and serving<br />
others. But my marriage didn’t survive.<br />
We divorced, and I quickly remarried.<br />
It wasn’t long, however, before I realized<br />
that I had gotten ahead of God, and that<br />
marriage ended as quickly as it had begun.<br />
And now I was in financial ruin.<br />
They say hindsight is 20/20. I know now<br />
that if I had asked for God’s guidance, will,<br />
and wisdom in my relationships, I could<br />
have saved myself a whole bunch of heartache<br />
(Proverbs 3:5–6; James 1:5). But at<br />
the time, it didn’t occur to me to bring Him<br />
into those decisions. Instead, I followed<br />
my natural desires and human reasoning.<br />
Those two failed relationships left me<br />
broken and bitter toward women. I was<br />
determined to remain single for the rest of<br />
time. But then, one day, God’s Spirit spoke<br />
to me. “Ron, this single life isn’t for you.”<br />
He began to show me that if I followed His<br />
lead, He would give me a godly wife who<br />
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Bringing God into the<br />
decisions of his<br />
relationships led Ron<br />
to the love of his life.<br />
would bring me much joy. I just needed to<br />
trust Him and wait for His choice for me.<br />
His timing would be perfect.<br />
After a season of prayer, I joined an online<br />
dating service. My dating profile was<br />
straightforward: “I am a believer in Jesus<br />
Christ. If you are not a believer, don’t even<br />
respond to this profile.”<br />
Many women responded, but it didn’t<br />
take long to realize that they were not faithful<br />
followers of Jesus. The Bible teaches<br />
that we can identify true believers by their<br />
fruit (actions). People who genuinely love<br />
God should exhibit characteristics like<br />
love, joy, kindness, patience, gentleness,<br />
goodness, self-control, and faithfulness<br />
(Galatians 5:22). There should be no selfish<br />
ambition and impurity.<br />
But then, one day, a woman named<br />
Sandra emailed me. We communicated<br />
for a while and then decided to meet at a<br />
Christian retreat. It turns out, Sandra was<br />
just as serious about her relationship with<br />
the Lord as I was, and she had the fruit to<br />
prove it.<br />
Sandra loved the Lord with all her heart,<br />
and she shared my passion for serving<br />
others. (See her story on page 16.) Soon,<br />
I knew that Sandra was God’s choice for<br />
me, and we married before the Lord. The<br />
last 17 years have been quite an adventure<br />
as Sandra and I have sought God’s will<br />
for our lives. He has used us in ways we<br />
could never have imagined, especially in<br />
the prison system.<br />
God in our marriage has kept us strong.<br />
Ecclesiastes 4:12 teaches that a threestranded<br />
cord is not easily broken. I have<br />
witnessed this truth firsthand. Today, because<br />
of God, my marriage is beautiful,<br />
joy-filled, and strong. Take it from me—<br />
relationships built apart from God’s strand<br />
of grace and love will eventually break.<br />
If you are in a relationship right now, I<br />
encourage you to bring God into the center<br />
of it. It’s not too late. And if you desire a<br />
relationship, don’t rush ahead of God. That<br />
will only lead to heartache. Wait for God’s<br />
gift. It will be good, and it will complete<br />
you. In the meantime, draw close and allow<br />
yourself to be changed by a loving and<br />
living God.<br />
RON CAPELL and his wife, Sandra, joyfully serve<br />
incarcerated persons through the organization<br />
they lead called NC-CURE. Visit nccure.org for<br />
more information.<br />
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Tired of<br />
Running<br />
and<br />
Ready<br />
THE STORY OF<br />
MANNY MILL<br />
to Live<br />
FOR MANY YEARS, I LIVED<br />
FOR THE HUMAN TRINITY—<br />
ME, MYSELF, AND I.<br />
I did what was right in my own eyes and<br />
judged everything by how it would benefit<br />
me or someone I wanted to influence. I had<br />
no understanding of objective truth, nor<br />
did I care how God might view my actions.<br />
I thrived on power and being the center<br />
of attention. It helped that I was charismatic<br />
because people played right into my<br />
manipulative hands—especially women.<br />
They were objects to be used for my gain<br />
and discarded.<br />
I wasn’t always that way. My mother<br />
says I became self-absorbed and reckless<br />
around my senior year of college. I saw the<br />
world and people as potential conquests.<br />
Mom tried to influence me and tell me<br />
about God. She had recently come to faith<br />
in Jesus Christ through the testimony of<br />
a spiritual medium who had become a<br />
Christian.<br />
This was a big change for my mother. For<br />
years, she had channeled demonic spirits<br />
in her quest to help people find answers.<br />
She’d started dabbling in witchcraft when<br />
our family lived in Cuba. (We subsequently<br />
escaped to America to avoid Fidel Castro’s<br />
regime.) I’d often assisted Mom during her<br />
channeling sessions and had witnessed<br />
demonic spirits pass through her. She<br />
thought she was doing a good thing and<br />
even believed she was drawing close to God<br />
through it. She was so deceived.<br />
But then, a medium at the spiritual center<br />
that Mom frequented became a believer<br />
in Jesus Christ. She and another lady<br />
shared their newfound faith with Mom.<br />
“We have met the Lord, Jesus Christ!” they<br />
said. “You don’t need to go to that center<br />
anymore.” Soon, Mom attended church<br />
with her friends, where she heard the truth<br />
of the Gospel. She responded to God’s gift<br />
of salvation immediately.<br />
From that day forward, Mom was a new<br />
person. She had peace and a hunger for<br />
God’s Word. She began opening our home<br />
to share Christ with others. “Jesus found<br />
me when I was so very lost in my sin,” she<br />
said, “because He is the One who searches<br />
for us.”<br />
I didn’t want anything to do with Mom’s<br />
faith; I thought she was nuts! If there was a<br />
God, I reasoned, it was me. I did attend the<br />
worship services she held at our home—but<br />
only to meet a certain beautiful brunette.<br />
Her name was Cecilia, and I’d decided<br />
I had to have her. Driven by an impulsive<br />
nature and the need for immediate<br />
gratification, I came up with a plan to get<br />
this beauty. I would marry her. I was only<br />
a semester away from graduation, but I<br />
was already making a lot of money as a<br />
life-insurance salesman and driving a Mercedes<br />
Benz 380SL. I decided I’d rather be<br />
married than have a college degree, and I<br />
dropped out.<br />
I was 22 years old and as arrogant as<br />
they come.<br />
My fidelity lasted about as long as our<br />
honeymoon. I had no idea what a marriage<br />
commitment meant. I was a terrible husband<br />
and put Cecilia through hell.<br />
The following winter, our son, Manny<br />
Jr., was born. While I knew nothing about<br />
being a father, I was proud to have a son.<br />
My flair for networking paid off, and<br />
soon I was making more money than I<br />
knew how to spend. But nothing the world<br />
offered—not even a Lincoln Town Coupe,<br />
an Audi 5000, and a Cadillac Seville—could<br />
satisfy me. I always searched for more.<br />
Soon a business opportunity arose in<br />
Coral Gables, Florida, that provided both<br />
a new conquest and a great excuse to<br />
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escape the righteous impact my mother<br />
was trying to have on me. I moved my family<br />
and continued to do my thing in Miami. It<br />
wasn’t long before my sin and pride caught<br />
up to me.<br />
My sister’s boyfriend had approached<br />
me with what appeared to be a sweet deal.<br />
All I had to do was cash some bogus checks.<br />
I didn’t bother to consider that the money<br />
belonged to someone else.<br />
With my connections in Miami, I could<br />
easily pull off the scam. A friend who<br />
worked at a bank helped me open a checking<br />
account under a false name. I deposited<br />
the checks, waited until they cleared, then<br />
emptied the account and closed it. I got fifty<br />
thousand dollars for a couple of hours of<br />
work. Not bad.<br />
A month later, however, FBI agents were<br />
in my office looking for me. My “friend” had<br />
ratted me out, and I was facing a possible<br />
55 years in prison. It was my word against<br />
his, and at first, I thought I could talk my<br />
way out of this situation. I was, after all, a<br />
master manipulator. But my fingerprints<br />
were on the checks. It wouldn’t take a genius<br />
to figure out who was telling the truth.<br />
I was a dead dog if the FBI found me, so<br />
I went into survival mode and withdrew<br />
what cash I could. “Pack our things,” I told<br />
Cecilia. “We’re taking a little vacation.”<br />
Poor Cecilia. She was seven months<br />
pregnant with our second child and caring<br />
for our four-year-old son. Nonetheless, she<br />
did as I asked, and we left for Puerto Rico<br />
that very night.<br />
With Puerto Rico being a US territory,<br />
we couldn’t stay long, or I’d risk being arrested.<br />
We had to keep moving. We needed<br />
passports to go further, but with my connections,<br />
obtaining them wasn’t a problem.<br />
I told Cecilia the truth while we were there.<br />
She was furious with me.<br />
After a few days in Puerto Rico, we flew<br />
to the Dominican Republic, and then to<br />
Bogotá, and then to Medellín (Colombia). I<br />
had no plan, and I wasn’t thinking clearly.<br />
Finally, we settled in Caracas, Venezuela.<br />
I opened a restaurant, which took some<br />
underhanded scheming and money. I<br />
worked fast and hard to find investors and<br />
a Venezuelan partner. In no time, I owned<br />
the best Cuban restaurant in the country. I<br />
used the restaurant and its glamour, not to<br />
mention my mad dancing skills and thick<br />
dark hair, to get women. Cuban men were<br />
very popular with Venezuelan women.<br />
We lived in Caracas for almost two years.<br />
But then, the FBI paid a visit to my dad.<br />
That night, he and my mom called me.<br />
“Manolito,” he said. “I know what you have<br />
done. I know you are facing time behind<br />
bars. Let me ask you a question. If I died<br />
tonight, could you come to my funeral?”<br />
I was silent. I knew the answer was no.<br />
I broke down and cried. Then, my mom<br />
began to speak. She reminded me that I<br />
had sinned against a holy God, and she<br />
pleaded with me to repent of my sins—to<br />
turn from my ways.<br />
“To repent is to live,” she said. “You need<br />
to trust in Jesus Christ and make Him Lord<br />
and Savior of your life. He will forgive you<br />
for your sins, Manny, if you ask Him.”<br />
Mom started praying for me on the<br />
phone. “Oh, God, save my son. Make him<br />
see how lost he is, how far he is from You.<br />
He’s on his way to hell. He needs You, God!<br />
Help him see he cannot run from You.<br />
Father, You promised to forgive him. I pray<br />
my son will ask for Your forgiveness and<br />
follow Jesus.”<br />
I sobbed as the Holy Spirit quickened<br />
my spirit and opened the eyes of my heart<br />
to see what I could not see before—that I<br />
was lost and in desperate need of a Savior.<br />
I prayed out loud, repeating the words of<br />
my mom, “Oh, God, please forgive me for<br />
all I have done; I have sinned against You.<br />
I’m guilty and ashamed, and I don’t want<br />
to run anymore. Lord, save me. Come into<br />
my heart and change my life. God, I need<br />
Your help. Give me the courage to face what<br />
I’ve done and make it right. Give me the<br />
courage to face my family and the world<br />
with the truth.”<br />
My mom started praising God and<br />
thanking Him for what He had done. I felt<br />
like God had lifted the whole world off my<br />
back until Mom asked me, “When are you<br />
coming back to America to face the music?<br />
You must surrender to the FBI and do what<br />
is right.”<br />
The world ground to a halt. Sure, I had<br />
prayed for courage and a way to make<br />
things right, but surrendering to the FBI<br />
was not what I’d had in mind! That wasn’t<br />
part of the deal.<br />
Mom noticed my hesitation and said,<br />
“Manolito, God promises in Hebrews 13:5<br />
that He will never leave you or forsake<br />
you. He will not fail you. You have invited<br />
Jesus into your heart, and He will be with<br />
you from now on—even if you have to go<br />
to prison.”<br />
Tears flowed from my eyes as I bowed in<br />
total surrender to the God of the universe,<br />
to His Son, and to His Holy Spirit. I would<br />
now serve a new Trinity. My mind was set,<br />
and there was no going back.<br />
Manny shares with men in Angola Prison how to<br />
have true life in Christ.<br />
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What I did not realize at the time was<br />
that my dad had become a Christian on<br />
the telephone right along with me. Just<br />
like Nicodemus in John 3, we were both<br />
born again. Dad had been observing the<br />
unmistakable change in my mom’s way<br />
of life and that night, he surrendered to<br />
the one true God too. My father, Manolo,<br />
was a mighty man of God from that<br />
day forward.<br />
God answered my prayer, and His Holy<br />
Spirit gave me the courage to fly home to<br />
New York with my family and take responsibility<br />
for the crimes I had committed.<br />
FBI agents were waiting for me when I deplaned<br />
at Kennedy International Airport,<br />
and they took me into custody.<br />
They escorted me to a regional office<br />
in Newark, New Jersey, where other FBI<br />
agents booked and fingerprinted me and<br />
confiscated my US passport. Then, I was<br />
released on bond.<br />
Because I had pleaded guilty, there was<br />
no trial. Incredibly, the judge sentenced<br />
me to only three years at Allenwood Federal<br />
Prison in Montgomery, Pennsylvania.<br />
God’s amazing grace was on full display.<br />
And soon there would be more.<br />
Typically, incarceration begins immediately<br />
after sentencing, but I did not go to<br />
prison right away. The judge allowed me to<br />
go home for three more months and then<br />
to report to prison on my own, unescorted.<br />
I treasured this time with my family<br />
and appreciated the opportunity to set my<br />
things in order.<br />
When the time came, my family drove<br />
with me to prison. Once I was processed, a<br />
correctional officer came to take me away.<br />
Tears flowed as I hugged Cecilia, my parents,<br />
and my children goodbye. Leaving<br />
them was very hard as my future felt so uncertain.<br />
We put everything in God’s hands.<br />
I changed into prison clothes, and then<br />
I was fingerprinted again and checked in.<br />
My ID card proclaimed that I was prisoner<br />
#07592-050. Humiliation does not begin<br />
to describe the experience. My boots and<br />
pants didn’t fit, and for the first two weeks,<br />
I had no pillow. My top bunk was in a dormitory<br />
with 74 other men. What a change<br />
in lifestyle! But God was faithful to me.<br />
Before prison, I had never in my life<br />
cleaned a room or even made my bed,<br />
so my first work assignment was a rude<br />
awakening. I would be cleaning the bathrooms.<br />
Now, I didn’t know how to clean a<br />
bathroom, but I had traveled in high-class<br />
circles, so I knew what one should look like.<br />
So I set my expectations accordingly.<br />
Colossians 3:23 says that whatever we<br />
do, we should do it unto God. It seemed to<br />
me that, as a Christian, my actions should<br />
reveal my love for God. He deserved my<br />
best efforts. I was His ambassador and<br />
wanted to reflect Him positively everywhere<br />
and in every way.<br />
I quickly learned about work ethic and<br />
principles like “hitting the corners.” A<br />
superficial clean wasn’t good enough; I<br />
wanted those bathrooms to be clean from<br />
top to bottom, just like I wanted my life to<br />
be pure before God.<br />
It never failed though—just as I finished<br />
cleaning, some guy would come in and<br />
mess it all up. Nevertheless, I cleaned to<br />
the best of my ability for eight hours a day,<br />
and I did it for the glory of God. He had<br />
ordained this work to humble me. What I<br />
didn’t know was that God was preparing<br />
me for a ministry of “getting dirty.” He<br />
was about to call me to an up-close-andpersonal<br />
ministry with people the world<br />
didn’t want to touch.<br />
I knew my salvation was real because<br />
this unpleasant work didn’t produce a<br />
com plaining attitude, not even hidden in<br />
my heart. Only the Holy Spirit could have<br />
brought about that transformation.<br />
Manny (white suit) at<br />
the Prison Fellowship<br />
banquet where he met<br />
many mighty men of God.<br />
Apart from Jesus, I had nothing to bring<br />
to the table. God was the only One who<br />
could change my life; my task was to submit,<br />
surrender, and let God have His way.<br />
Sometimes I failed miserably because my<br />
stubborn, sinful human nature resisted<br />
change. But God, so rich in mercy, always<br />
forgave me and helped me move forward<br />
better (Ephesians 2:4–5; 1 John 1:9).<br />
I was developing into a new person, and<br />
I knew I did not want to go back to the man<br />
I had been. I didn’t like him, so I aimed to<br />
draw closer to Jesus. Only He could help<br />
me develop godly traits and bear lasting<br />
fruit in my life (John 15:1–5). I didn’t know<br />
God very well yet, but I knew He was for<br />
real, and that authenticity attracted me<br />
like a magnet.<br />
Several godly inmates and I began holding<br />
daily prayer meetings to help other<br />
inmates know God. Not long after, God<br />
brought a new chaplain to our prison. We<br />
worked together to organize the church<br />
body, and the church began to grow.<br />
Chaplain Cordero and I planned a weekend<br />
marriage seminar sponsored by Prison<br />
Fellowship. The men and I were excited<br />
to encounter God in a new way with our<br />
spouses. What a treasured opportunity!<br />
When the time came, the chaplain and I<br />
were at the door, welcoming the wives. I<br />
was so excited...but grew concerned when<br />
Cecilia didn’t arrive.<br />
A phone call to my mother-in-law revealed<br />
that Cecilia had left New Jersey and<br />
gone to Miami with our children. I felt like<br />
a bucket of cold water had been dumped<br />
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I knew I did not want<br />
to go back to the man<br />
I had been. I didn’t<br />
like him, so I aimed to<br />
draw closer to Jesus.<br />
on my head. Divorce papers arrived a few<br />
weeks later.<br />
I don’t blame Cecilia for our marriage<br />
ending; I blame myself. The consequences<br />
of my actions made life difficult for her<br />
and our children. Thankfully, the Lord has<br />
helped me learn from my mistakes so I<br />
could be a better husband and father in<br />
the future.<br />
I attended a Prison Fellowship Ministries<br />
(PFM) banquet with five other inmates in<br />
my final year of incarceration. Billy Graham<br />
was the keynote speaker. By God’s<br />
providence, I sat next to a member of<br />
PFM’s executive board. He asked about<br />
my post-incarceration plans.<br />
“Sir, by faith, I am going to Wheaton<br />
Bible College. I just applied for a scholarship<br />
there,” I replied. I said “in faith” because<br />
the admission date for college was<br />
August of 1988, and my release date wasn’t<br />
until <strong>January</strong> 1989. I was trusting God to<br />
work out my release if He wanted me to go.<br />
As we talked, I could tell this man was<br />
genuinely interested in my desire to attend<br />
Wheaton. Then the man introduced<br />
himself. “Manny,” he said, “my name is<br />
Kenneth Wessner. I am the chairman of the<br />
board of Wheaton College.” My jaw about<br />
hit the table! Clearly, God had ordained<br />
this meeting for me.<br />
Dr. Wessner took a chance on me and<br />
championed my cause. Talk about godly<br />
love; this man didn’t even know me. God<br />
worked out every detail, and I started my<br />
studies at Wheaton College on the Charles<br />
W. Colson Scholarship.<br />
I studied hard to receive a bachelor<br />
of arts degree in biblical studies. Then I<br />
attended graduate school and pursued<br />
my master’s in theological studies. While<br />
there, and in collaboration<br />
with several people, I developed<br />
the concept of a Koinonia<br />
House, a family home<br />
where prisoners could live<br />
after their release, witness<br />
a healthy family life, and<br />
receive help integrating<br />
back into society. Dr. Wessner<br />
helped me develop the<br />
Koinonia House, and our<br />
doors opened to inmates in late 1991.<br />
Not long after, the Lord blessed me with<br />
a most beautiful gift—my wife, Barbara. We<br />
met while I was on an internship in Israel<br />
as a student with Wheaton College. She<br />
had just arrived and was leading a group<br />
of students from Philadelphia Bible College.<br />
She was pursuing a master’s degree<br />
in Bible geography. We met on Mt. Zion<br />
in Jerusalem on what happened to be my<br />
last day of parole. (I had received special<br />
permission to go abroad.)<br />
I was instantly attracted to Barbara, but<br />
we both knew we’d need to be careful in<br />
establishing a relationship. We wanted<br />
godly discernment, not man’s approval.<br />
We both sought wise counsel, and God<br />
worked through His people to affirm direction<br />
from the Holy Spirit.<br />
After much prayer and consideration,<br />
Barbara and I felt released to be married.<br />
For the last 32 years, we have served the<br />
Lord in our national prison ministry, Koinonia<br />
House Ministries, and shared the<br />
Gospel of Jesus Christ around the world.<br />
Not only is she my wife, she is my best<br />
friend and ministry partner too.<br />
Barbara has also been instrumental in<br />
restoring my relationships with my children,<br />
Manny Jr. and Cesia. Today, we have<br />
a healthy relationship. Not only that, God<br />
blessed Barbara and me with two sons,<br />
Howard and Kenneth, and even brought<br />
my daughter Sasha, from another relationship,<br />
into my life. God’s grace and love have<br />
restored my life beyond my wildest expectations<br />
(Ephesians 3:20). Today, I am the<br />
proud grandfather of seven grandchildren<br />
and a great-grandson.<br />
I am so glad that God arrested me with<br />
His love and confronted me with His truth<br />
One of God’s greatest<br />
gifts to Manny has been<br />
his wife, Barbara.<br />
years ago. His goodness chased me down<br />
and led me to repentance (Romans 2:4).<br />
Because of Him, I have hope (Ephesians<br />
2:12–13). God resurrected my life from the<br />
dead, and He made me a new creation (2<br />
Corinthians 5:17). I have been born again<br />
into His family. Alleluia!<br />
My wise mother once told me that “to<br />
repent is to live.” Today, I tell you the same.<br />
Are you ready to live? To quit running<br />
and find rest? Then turn from serving the<br />
trinity of self and live for God. Surrender<br />
your heart and mind to Him and trust His<br />
love for you. God will never leave you or forsake<br />
you. It’s time to repent so you can live.<br />
Pray with me: “God, forgive me for sinning<br />
against You. I’m guilty and ashamed.<br />
I don’t want to run anymore. Lord, save<br />
me. Come into my heart and change my<br />
life. I need Your help. Give me the courage<br />
to face what I’ve done and make it right.<br />
Strengthen me to face my family and the<br />
world with Your truth. Amen.”<br />
MANNY MILL is the founder of Koinonia House®<br />
National Ministries. Read Manny’s full redemption<br />
story in Radical Redemption: The Real Story of<br />
Manny Mill, written by Manny with Jude Skallerup,<br />
published by Moody Publishers, 2004. Discover the<br />
power of prayer through Radical Prayer: The Power<br />
of Being Bold and Persistent, written by Manny with<br />
Harold Smith and Barbara Mill. To invite Manny to<br />
speak at your event, call 630-221-9930 or email<br />
Manny@khnm.net.<br />
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THE STORY OF RODNEY MASSEY<br />
There’s<br />
Hope<br />
in the<br />
Hands of<br />
a Merciful<br />
God<br />
Those who knew me from my past would<br />
never imagine the man I am today. I was an<br />
angry and bitter kid who became a manipulative,<br />
deceitful man.<br />
I cared about one thing in life—me. Years<br />
of poverty and abuse from my then alcoholic<br />
father had hardened my heart. I’ll spare<br />
the details, as I imagine many reading<br />
this magazine, maybe even you, have<br />
experienced a similar childhood. Many<br />
of you know the pain of not having a<br />
father who loves you the way God intends.<br />
It leaves a legacy of brokenness and despair<br />
if not dealt with properly.<br />
Thank goodness for Momma. She loved<br />
my siblings and me and did her best to protect<br />
and provide for us. She often shared<br />
with us the importance of accepting Jesus<br />
as our Savior. I didn’t want to hear about<br />
God back then, but her seeds of faith later<br />
sprouted in my heart and saved my life.<br />
That happened when I was in the county jail, strapped to a<br />
hospital bed. A drug deal had gone bad, and a seventeen-year-old<br />
boy was dead. The authorities had apprehended me, but not before<br />
I’d sustained four gunshot wounds myself. It’s only by God’s<br />
mercy that I am alive.<br />
Lying on that bed, bleeding, I began to think about my life. It<br />
didn’t take a genius to realize that my future was bleak, and I<br />
didn’t have anyone to blame but myself. My own pride and anger<br />
had put me here.<br />
I was losing hope as fast as I was losing blood, until God’s mercy<br />
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met me. I suddenly remembered my mother’s words about Jesus.<br />
She had told me that the Bible said Jesus could forgive the worst<br />
of sinners for all their sins. All I had to do was confess my sins to<br />
Him and ask Him to come into my life (1 John 1:9).<br />
I began to sob. I couldn’t imagine being forgiven for all the<br />
things I’d done, but I dared to ask Him anyway. I knew His forgiveness<br />
was my only hope. So, right there on that hospital bed<br />
in an Illinois jail, I opened my heart to the only One who could<br />
save me. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, and from<br />
that moment on, I was a new man.<br />
Of course, that didn’t mean everything magically became perfect<br />
in my life. Although faith in Jesus undoes the consequence of<br />
eternal separation from God (Romans 6:23), it doesn’t necessarily<br />
undo earthly consequences. I had made many sinful choices in<br />
my 21 years, including killing someone. I would have to pay for<br />
my actions.<br />
I can still remember, however, hoping for mercy when I walked<br />
into my sentencing hearing. Perhaps like God, the judge would<br />
forgive me and do away with the harsh consequences I deserved.<br />
But he didn’t; instead, he sentenced me to 50 years for my crime.<br />
It was the first step in learning that God’s mercy comes in different<br />
forms—including incarceration. God knew I needed that<br />
time in prison so He could bring healing to my broken heart and<br />
equip me for the good works that He had prepared for me to do<br />
(Ephesians 2:10). But at that moment, I felt like my life was done.<br />
Fifty years in prison? How would I survive all that time behind<br />
bars? I would be an old man by the time I got out! In my mind, it<br />
was “game over.”<br />
The judge asked if I had anything to say before they took me<br />
away. I was too choked up to respond. Back in the jail, I immediately<br />
went to the shower and cried like a baby.<br />
I was overwhelmed. I couldn’t see the truth that no matter how<br />
bleak my future seemed, I still had hope. I had forgotten that Jesus,<br />
the source of hope, was with me—and He would continue to be with<br />
me, even in a maximum-security prison where evil often reigned.<br />
It didn’t help that the guys in jail liked to share about the challenges<br />
of prison life. I became more frightened by the day as I<br />
awaited my transfer orders. Thankfully, God sent ministers from<br />
the outside into the jail to encourage my heart. Those men were<br />
a gift from God, lights in the darkness. Their presence, faith,<br />
and love did something to the inside of me. God used them to<br />
strengthen me for my long prison journey.<br />
Finally, my transfer day came, and I walked through the gates<br />
of Menard Correctional Center. I didn’t know what lay ahead, but<br />
I had decided that, no matter what, I would live for Jesus. I would<br />
trust His love and His plan for me.<br />
God honored my commitment, and over the next 25 years in the<br />
Illinois Department of Corrections, He protected and preserved<br />
me, both in Menard and, later, in Danville Correctional. Time<br />
and time again, He came to my defense and blessed me with His<br />
favor, including shortening my time served from 50 to 25 years.<br />
It would be impossible to adequately share the experiences of<br />
those years behind bars. What I can do, however,<br />
is tell you that God’s mercy sustained me<br />
and enabled me to not just make it, but to walk<br />
out those doors a transformed man.<br />
He displayed His mercy to me in so many<br />
ways. First and foremost, He saved me from<br />
eternal damnation. Think about it: God sent<br />
me to jail instead of the hell I deserved. His<br />
mercy also saved me from a life of despair and<br />
destruction here on earth.<br />
For so long, my evil desires had dragged<br />
me away from the life God intended. They<br />
had carried me down a dark road of death and<br />
destruction. I had fully experienced James<br />
1:14–15: “Each person is tempted when they<br />
are dragged away by their own evil desire and<br />
enticed. Then, after desire has conceived,<br />
it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is fullgrown,<br />
gives birth to death.”<br />
My life was hard as a child—that’s no joke.<br />
But it was my sin, not the sins of my father, that<br />
had led me to prison. It was my evil desires that<br />
gave birth to sin and led to death. I thank God<br />
for His mercy that stopped me in my tracks<br />
and put me on a new path of hope.<br />
Every time I think of what God has done<br />
for me, I am humbled. God actually thought<br />
that I was worthy to be saved. Me! Like Paul in<br />
the Bible, I was a chief of sinners (1 Timothy<br />
1:15). But that’s exactly who God sent His Son,<br />
Jesus, to save. Luke 19:10 NIV says, “The Son of<br />
Man came to seek and to save the lost.” Jesus<br />
came to save people like me, people the world<br />
thought would never amount to anything.<br />
Mercy came in other forms too. God put an<br />
insatiable desire for His living Word (the Bible)<br />
into my heart. As I devoured it daily, it sustained<br />
me. He also placed believers around me<br />
to help me stand firm in my faith. This circle<br />
of godly men helped break deadly cycles and<br />
brought me to a place of forgiveness for others<br />
and myself. Circles break cycles.<br />
Manny Mill and representatives of his ministry,<br />
Koinonia House, made a significant impact<br />
on my life. Not only did they disciple me in<br />
God’s Word behind bars, but Manny himself<br />
met me at the gate when I was released from<br />
Danville prison in 2014. His ministry provided<br />
housing, bought me clothes, and paid my rent<br />
for several months. I wouldn’t have made it<br />
without their support.<br />
Today, believe it or not, I serve on the board<br />
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of Koinonia House National Ministry. Not<br />
only that, I am married to a beautiful and<br />
godly woman. I own a successful HVAC<br />
company, and I am the campus pastor<br />
at Stateville Correctional Center. It’s the<br />
first church plant behind prison bars in the<br />
state of Illinois. I get to give incarcerated<br />
men the same thing God gave me—hope,<br />
inspiration, purpose, and identity.<br />
I could have easily fallen into a victim<br />
mentality and become bitter over my life<br />
If you are still breathing, if<br />
you saw the sun come up this<br />
morning, then you still have<br />
the hope of God’s mercy. All<br />
you have to do is ask.<br />
PHOTO BY MARY WHITMER<br />
Rodney and Manny conversing on<br />
the porch of the Koinonia House.<br />
(See Manny’s story on page 20.)<br />
circumstances. I could have held a grudge<br />
against my father and sought revenge. I<br />
could have embraced self-hatred and<br />
shame for what I had done in my past.<br />
But because of God’s mercy, I was able<br />
to forgive my father, other people who<br />
had hurt me, and even myself. How can I<br />
hold a grudge against anyone when I think<br />
about what God did for me? And because<br />
I chose to be merciful, God has restored<br />
my relationship with my father. God’s<br />
mercy has genuinely made us new men<br />
(2 Corinthians 5:17).<br />
Have you encountered God’s mercy? It’s<br />
waiting for you right now. Lamentations<br />
3:22–23 promises: “The faithful love of the<br />
Lord never ends! His mercies never cease.<br />
Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin<br />
afresh each morning” (NLT).<br />
Maybe you gave your life to Jesus somewhere<br />
in the past, but your desires have<br />
dragged you down the road<br />
of death. Even so, my friend—<br />
that’s not the end!<br />
According to Lamentations<br />
3:22–23, God’s mercy is still<br />
there for you. It never ceases;<br />
it’s new every morning.<br />
If you are still breathing, if<br />
you saw the sun come up this<br />
morning, then you still have the hope of God’s mercy.<br />
All you have to do is ask. No matter how far your evil desires<br />
have dragged you, it’s never too late for His mercy to put your<br />
life back on track so you can finish where He intended. Your<br />
failures are never greater than God’s call on your life. All you<br />
have to do is ask for forgiveness and commit to moving forward<br />
with Him, in His way this time.<br />
I have known many people who have felt like their lives are<br />
over. Maybe you feel that way too. Perhaps you’ve received a<br />
lengthy prison sentence or you’re facing a divorce or a health<br />
crisis. Maybe you’ve lost your job or your kids are out of control.<br />
Can I just tell you, God still has a purpose for you? It’s true.<br />
It’s never “game over” when you trust your life to the hands<br />
of a merciful God.<br />
Be strong and courageous and keep fighting the good fight<br />
of faith (2 Timothy 4:7).<br />
Trust that the God who knows you and loves you will not<br />
fail you. He who has begun a good work in you will bring it to<br />
completion (Philippians 1:6).<br />
His faithful mercies will never cease! Even when you fail<br />
Him, His mercy will not fail you.<br />
RODNEY MASSEY is<br />
the campus pastor of<br />
Stateville Correctional<br />
Center in Illinois. He<br />
finds joy in helping<br />
others discover the<br />
hope, wholeness, and<br />
identity available in<br />
Jesus Christ.<br />
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TRUST AND OBEY:<br />
IT’S NOT EASY<br />
BUT IT’S WORTH IT<br />
IF YOU READ THIS magazine<br />
regularly, you know I was<br />
recently released after having<br />
served 31 years in the Florida<br />
Department of Corrections. I’ll<br />
tell you, I had lost hope of ever<br />
getting out, but I still believed<br />
that the God who had given me<br />
eternal life knew what was best<br />
for me, even if it wasn’t what I<br />
wanted at the time.<br />
Psalm 37:4 promises, “Take<br />
delight in the Lord, and he will<br />
give you the desires of your<br />
heart.” The desire of my heart<br />
was to get out of prison. I wanted<br />
that more than anything<br />
else, and I worked hard at it. I<br />
filed multiple motions with the<br />
court, trying (unsuccessfully)<br />
to prove that I was not guilty of<br />
the robbery charge against me.<br />
God wanted me to trust Him<br />
to get me out in His timing.<br />
Proverbs 3:5–6 says, “Trust in<br />
the Lord with all your heart<br />
and lean not on your own understanding;<br />
in all your ways<br />
submit to him, and he will make<br />
your paths straight” (NIV). I had<br />
a lot of learning and changing<br />
to do, but as I read and believed<br />
God’s Word, He began to use me<br />
for His purpose.<br />
Gradually, the desires of my<br />
heart changed and, as I aligned<br />
myself with God’s plan for my<br />
life, I began writing articles and<br />
stories—hundreds of them. To<br />
my amazement, God has used<br />
those stories to reach people<br />
all over the world and on both<br />
sides of prison walls.<br />
As I learned to trust Him, God<br />
began blessing me in ways that<br />
I never dreamed could happen.<br />
He had already set me free from<br />
a life of sin and bondage, but<br />
then, when I least expected it,<br />
He miraculously opened the<br />
BY ROY A. BORGES<br />
prison doors and allowed me<br />
to walk out. And now, every day,<br />
He shows me His will for my life<br />
as the blessings continue.<br />
God used circumstances to<br />
teach me to trust and obey. Just<br />
like a metalworker uses fire to<br />
refine and purify a precious<br />
metal, God used my circumstances<br />
to refine and purify me.<br />
Obeying God requires surrender<br />
and trust, and it can<br />
be hard to do, especially if it<br />
means giving up something we<br />
want. We shouldn’t expect our<br />
obedience to God to be easy or<br />
to come naturally, but how we<br />
look at it can make a difference.<br />
We can push back and complain,<br />
or we can try to see how<br />
God is using it to stretch us into<br />
the people He wants us to be.<br />
Genesis 22:1–19 gives us an<br />
incredible story of obedience<br />
and trust. There, God tested<br />
Abraham by asking him to<br />
hand over his only son, Isaac, as<br />
a sacrifice! Most people would<br />
consider this request over the<br />
top, but Abraham had already<br />
learned many tough lessons<br />
about obeying God. Though<br />
I’m sure he was shocked and in<br />
agony at the command God had<br />
given him, Abraham gave swift<br />
obedience. Seeing his faithful<br />
trust, God stopped Abraham<br />
from completing the task and<br />
spared Isaac’s life. After that,<br />
God made and fulfilled many<br />
promises for Abraham, all because<br />
he was willing to trust<br />
God and obey His commands.<br />
I had to learn to trust God’s<br />
timing and His ability to provide<br />
too. God is in control of<br />
everything. He changes the<br />
hearts of people and the circumstances<br />
that surround<br />
them. Today, on the outside, I<br />
can see how true that is, and I<br />
watch and pray for God’s will to<br />
be done in my life.<br />
Committing everything<br />
to Him means trusting that<br />
He cares for me more than I<br />
care for myself. I had to wait<br />
31 years for God to open the<br />
prison doors, but I know that<br />
the long wait was for my ultimate<br />
good. Many of the things<br />
I want to do now take time and<br />
patience, and I must trust God’s<br />
timing to accomplish them—<br />
but I know that He will make a<br />
way for them to happen.<br />
If you learn to obey Him, God<br />
will use your life for something<br />
good too.<br />
ROY A. BORGES served 31<br />
years in the Florida Department of<br />
Corrections, where he realized his<br />
need for a Savior. While incarcerated,<br />
Roy ministered to others through his<br />
writings, over 300 of which have been<br />
published. He now lives in Tampa,<br />
Florida, and is a member of the<br />
Victorious Living writing team.<br />
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STEPPING FORWARD<br />
ACCEPT GOD’S INVITATION<br />
BY KRISTI OVERTON JOHNSON<br />
IT WAS THE END OF A FANTASTIC WEEKEND at Callaway<br />
Gardens in Pine Mountain, Georgia. I was there for the Masters<br />
Water Ski and Wakeboard Tournament. Long gone were my days<br />
of competing. Now I was in an exhibitor’s booth, sharing the mission<br />
of Victorious Living.<br />
God had shown up in amazing ways all weekend, including<br />
introducing me to a man from Alabama who had heard me speak<br />
when he was “residing” at Club Fed (Coleman Federal Prison).<br />
We were standing next to each other at the food truck when he<br />
recognized me. It was amazing to hear how God had impacted<br />
his life through our outreaches.<br />
I didn’t think God could top that, but He did.<br />
I had just settled back in my chair on the beach to watch the<br />
men’s jump event, when one of the top jumpers took a horrendous<br />
crash. His screams echoed across Robin Lake.<br />
I immediately started praying. I had never met this jumper,<br />
but I knew his crash could end his career. My heart hurt for him.<br />
As I prayed, I sensed the Lord saying, “Go lay your hands on him<br />
and pray. I will heal his hip and knee.”<br />
Anxiety welled up within me. What if this man was offended and<br />
rejected me? What if the medical team wouldn’t let me get close?<br />
What if I prayed and nothing happened? What if I looked like a fool?<br />
I stayed in my seat, battling these questions. Moments passed,<br />
and the athlete was removed from the water and taken to a restricted<br />
area where a medical team could examine him. Still, like<br />
the story of Jacob in Genesis 32, I continued to wrestle with God.<br />
But He was winning, and my own hips were hurting!<br />
Finally, I got up and approached the restricted area. “Walk<br />
through the gate like you own the place, Kristi,” I told myself. If I<br />
walked in with confidence and a look of authority, surely I’d get<br />
through. No one questions a woman on a mission.<br />
Wrong. I hadn’t made it three steps before the security guard<br />
stopped me. “Ma’am, I need to see your credentials,” she said.<br />
I fumbled with words, finally blurting out, “I’m the event clergy.”<br />
What?! Where had that come from? But before I could explain, a<br />
policeman walked up. Uh oh!<br />
To my surprise, he said, “She’s who she says she is; let her<br />
through so she can go pray for that skier.” I had spoken with this<br />
man at other events over the years. He had a huge heart for the<br />
Lord and for prison ministry. The Lord had sent him, a man with<br />
true authority, to my aid.<br />
I went to where the athlete lay and watched from behind the<br />
medical team. I tried hard to muster up the courage to approach<br />
him but stayed frozen in place. Then I saw his mom, and I de-<br />
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vised a plan.<br />
“Ma’am,” I said. “Could I pray with you for your son?” What<br />
mother would turn that down? With tears in her eyes, she agreed<br />
and thanked me.<br />
We prayed, and I left. I went back to our ministry booth and<br />
sat down. But the Holy Spirit followed me there and spoke to my<br />
spirit. “I asked you to lay your hands on that young man and pray<br />
for him, not his mother.”<br />
I felt the sting of conviction. I knew I had disobeyed the Lord’s<br />
instructions. My fear of rejection had gotten the best of me. But<br />
still, I had prayed for him. Why couldn’t God heal him that way?<br />
Before I could even finish that thought, God answered. “Yes, I<br />
could heal him, but how will he know it was Me? He didn’t hear<br />
your prayer; his mother did. Now go to him, touch him, and I will<br />
send My healing power into him. He will know without a doubt<br />
that it was Me.”<br />
I watched as the medics approached him with a stretcher. In a<br />
few minutes, he would be gone. I<br />
felt sick to my stomach. The clock<br />
was ticking. If I was going to obey,<br />
I had to do it now.<br />
our hands together. He had given me specific instructions to lay<br />
my hands on this injured man as a touchpoint of His power, but<br />
I had forgotten that part of the instruction.<br />
When I finished praying, I told the athlete he would be just fine.<br />
Those words were fueled entirely by faith because I hadn’t felt<br />
anything special happen during my prayer. Even after I prayed,<br />
there was no visible evidence to me that the man had been healed.<br />
I know now, you don’t have to see or feel anything for God to<br />
be working. You just need to trust and obey and leave the results<br />
to Him.<br />
The following day, Mike told me that the athlete was fine. I went<br />
into a dance of celebration that would surely have embarrassed<br />
my kids, had they seen me. God had shown up and shown off.<br />
Two weeks later, I spoke with that athlete on the phone. He<br />
told me that he had been sure his injuries would mean his skiing<br />
career was over. He’d even thought that maybe the accident was<br />
a sign that it was time for him to hang up his skis and place his<br />
focus elsewhere.<br />
He admitted that he attended<br />
church on Christmas and Easter<br />
with his wife and mother, but he’d<br />
I rose from my chair and walked<br />
YOU DON’T HAVE<br />
never sought a personal relationship<br />
with God. He had occasion-<br />
back toward the injured man, who<br />
TO SEE OR FEEL<br />
was now strapped securely on the<br />
ally felt his heart being drawn to<br />
stretcher and being loaded into<br />
ANYTHING FOR GOD<br />
God, but water-skiing goals and<br />
the ambulance. “Lord, help me<br />
commitments had always taken<br />
TO BE WORKING. YOU<br />
get into that vehicle,” I murmured.<br />
precedent.<br />
Just then, I realized that one<br />
JUST NEED TO TRUST<br />
But that day, he said, there was<br />
of my former coaches was there,<br />
no denying the realness of God.<br />
AND OBEY AND LEAVE<br />
talking to the medic. I approached<br />
He went on to tell me how that,<br />
him and said, “Mike, I need to get<br />
on that ambulance and pray with<br />
him before they take him to the<br />
hospital.”<br />
“Yes, you do,” he agreed. He<br />
THE RESULTS TO HIM.<br />
when our hands joined, “energy”<br />
had entered his body and healed<br />
his leg. He said it was like God was<br />
right there, in his face, saying, “I<br />
am here. I am real. Open your<br />
called the medic over and explained our situation. She pointed<br />
to the back of the ambulance and said, “Get in there, honey!”<br />
As I climbed in, my policeman friend yelled from behind me, “I<br />
am touching and agreeing, sister!” He was there, ready to lay hands<br />
on the injured man and agree with me in prayer for his healing. I<br />
almost chuckled; only God could arrange a scene like this.<br />
The athlete looked a bit confused when I knelt beside him,<br />
but he seemed to relax when I asked if I could pray. He told me<br />
later that he agreed to let me pray because he needed a sense of<br />
peace amid his chaos.<br />
My eyes were open while I prayed, and the sight I witnessed<br />
caused my faith to soar. Mike was holding one of the man’s feet,<br />
while Mr. Policeman was holding the other. Four medics were<br />
kneeling beside the stretcher with their hands on him. Everyone<br />
heart to Me.”<br />
That day on the phone, I had the opportunity to share more with<br />
my new friend about the One who loved him beyond measure.<br />
And then I got to lead him through a prayer of salvation as he<br />
asked Jesus Christ to be his Savior and Lord.<br />
You know, I was blessed to win eight US Masters Water Ski titles<br />
during my ski career. But nothing compared to being a part of<br />
God’s plan for this man that God had put in front of me. I can’t<br />
wait to see how God uses him to impact the world of water skiing.<br />
Friend, when God tells you to move out of your seat, move!<br />
Don’t be afraid or worry about the details; He has everything<br />
prepared. All you have to do is get up, move forward, and leave<br />
the results to the Lord.<br />
And be ready to be amazed.<br />
had their heads bowed.<br />
KRISTI OVERTON JOHNSON encourages and equips people for victory<br />
I felt a hand slip into mine. The athlete told me later that I through her writings, speaking engagements, and prison ministry. To learn<br />
grabbed his hand, but I didn’t. Looking back, I believe God brought more, go to kojministries.org.<br />
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TRUSTING GOD,<br />
Even unto Death<br />
BY MAUREEN HOOKER<br />
y husband, Jim, and<br />
I strolled down the boardwalk toward the<br />
roller coaster. We had promised our grandsons<br />
a ride. Soon, the boys were whipping<br />
above us in a sound mix of merry-go-round<br />
calliope and about a million squealing children.<br />
It’s a wonder I heard my phone.<br />
“Hello.”<br />
“Maureen, where are you?”<br />
“Ocean City, New Jersey. Who is this?”<br />
“Jessica from the transplant clinic. Can<br />
you leave right now and drive straight to<br />
the hospital? We have a heart for you.”<br />
“Yes! We are on our way!”<br />
Ten years earlier, chemotherapy for<br />
breast cancer had damaged my heart, and<br />
medications had become less effective over<br />
time. First, I got by with a pacemaker, then<br />
an implanted defibrillator, and finally, I had<br />
been scheduled for a heart pump called a<br />
Left Ventricular Assist Device (LVAD).<br />
The thought of being plugged into a wall<br />
overnight, being unable to get the device<br />
wet, and dealing with flashing lights and<br />
batteries was a bit unnerving. I am a klutzy<br />
person—I was terrified I would kill myself<br />
by accidentally pulling the wires out of my<br />
body during my sleep.<br />
The only other alternative was a heart<br />
transplant, but that seemed impossible.<br />
Very few people receive hearts. Besides, I<br />
was 69, I have blood type B (only 8 percent<br />
of the general population has B), and I was<br />
a woman with a small chest cavity. The size<br />
of the heart is critical; it can’t be too big or<br />
too small. My only viable option seemed to<br />
be the LVAD, so I had agreed to have the<br />
surgery after our Labor Day vacation.<br />
And then came that call. It was as unexpected<br />
as a UFO landing! God showed me<br />
that nothing is impossible for Him.<br />
All I could think about in the car on the<br />
way to Washington Hospital Center was<br />
that, somewhere, a devastated family<br />
was saying goodbye to their loved one. I<br />
imagined the donor’s family would not be<br />
happy to hear that a grandmother was getting<br />
their daughter’s heart. Surely, they’d<br />
prefer her heart to go to a younger, more<br />
deserving patient. I hoped that one day I’d<br />
be able to express my gratitude to them.<br />
Those thoughts, however, were quickly<br />
ushered to the back of my mind as the doctors<br />
wheeled me into the operating room.<br />
On September 8, 2011, five days after my<br />
transplant, I awoke to unbearable pain. I<br />
tried to call for help but I couldn’t breathe. I<br />
couldn’t even get enough air to form words.<br />
From a place near the ceiling above the<br />
door, I looked down and saw myself dead.<br />
Internal bleeding had caused my left<br />
lung to partially collapse. In an emergency<br />
surgery, the doctors reopened my chest<br />
and removed a large blood clot, along with<br />
two liters of fluid in my chest cavity. I survived,<br />
but only by the grace of God.<br />
During my earlier bout with breast cancer,<br />
Jim had begun to seek God. He had<br />
prayed earnestly for my healing, and when<br />
God touched me in undeserved ways, Jim<br />
had become a believer.<br />
The change God’s love made in the<br />
man I’d been married to for decades was<br />
undeniable, and it drew my attention to<br />
the Lord. Before long, I’d surrendered my<br />
life to Jesus too. Now, through this heart<br />
transplant, God was giving me a second<br />
chance at life, and I wasn’t going to waste<br />
it. I promised myself and Him that I would<br />
be a better person this go around and that<br />
I would be more thankful for life’s most<br />
basic gifts.<br />
Grateful to God, Jim and I led Christcentered<br />
lives. We went to church, volunteered,<br />
served, told others about God, and<br />
prayed. We did all the things Christians are<br />
“supposed to do.” And yet, the very worst<br />
thing I could imagine happened.<br />
My true heart condition came to light<br />
when our son chose a lifestyle that I did<br />
not want him to have. He was an educated<br />
adult, living on his own, and employed<br />
most of the time. That’s all good, but he<br />
gambled. It was his career, and I disapproved.<br />
I was dead set against it; and I<br />
made sure he knew it.<br />
I wanted Joe to be married and settled<br />
and raising my grandchildren. I had this<br />
vision of who my son should be, and I resented<br />
Joe for not meeting my standards.<br />
It wasn’t long before Joe cut his father and<br />
me entirely out of his life. He even stopped<br />
coming home on holidays. He called only<br />
when he needed money.<br />
I wish I could say I handled the situation<br />
with a Christ-like manner, but I did not. I<br />
am more than ashamed by the lack of love<br />
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vious that I needed a new spiritual heart,<br />
not just a physical one. I needed God’s love<br />
to soften my heart of stone that tended to<br />
complain, judge, and control others. I needed<br />
Him to transform it into a gentle, kind,<br />
and trusting heart (Ezekiel 36:26).<br />
Pride and stubbornness fueled my anger.<br />
I was confident I was right. I was always<br />
right. The funny thing is, in our house, Jim<br />
always thought he was right too, and so did<br />
Joe. We each looked at life through dirty<br />
lenses that showed everything according<br />
to our own selfish desires.<br />
As many families do, we had studiously<br />
avoided talking about some important<br />
things like addictions, anger, and repeated<br />
familial behaviors. They were our proverbial<br />
elephants in the room, but we kept walking<br />
around them until they trampled us.<br />
Instead of honestly evaluating who we<br />
were and where we had come from, we kept<br />
perpetuating our bad behaviors. We made<br />
excuses for our decisions, self-medicated,<br />
and blamed others for our circumstances<br />
and weaknesses. Thank goodness for the<br />
grace of God that covers a multitude of sins<br />
(1 Peter 4:8).<br />
And then Joe called. He was living in Las<br />
Vegas and had multiple myeloma, a type of<br />
blood cancer. He needed help. We’d tried to<br />
help him previously, but he had distanced<br />
himself from Jim and me. I wasn’t sure I<br />
wanted to go through all that again.<br />
We learned later that Joe was being<br />
evicted from his apartment and that his<br />
car had been repossessed. I had sensed<br />
desperation when he asked to come home,<br />
but I’d had no idea of the depths of his<br />
hopelessness. So I chose not to respond<br />
to his pleas. I didn’t know how to fix his<br />
situation, so I did nothing.<br />
Instead, I waited for God to change Joe.<br />
I went to counseling, where I soon discovered<br />
that God wanted to change me. He<br />
wanted me to trust Him and quit trying to<br />
control my son and every outcome in life.<br />
One night, in desperation, I came to<br />
that moment of trust. “You have to help<br />
me, God,” I cried. “I have no idea how to<br />
help my son. God, You were there when he<br />
was created. You were there when he was<br />
born, and You have been there for every<br />
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God wanted to change me. He<br />
wanted me to trust Him and<br />
quit trying to control my son<br />
and every outcome in life.<br />
moment of his life. You love him more than<br />
I do, and he is as much Your son as he is<br />
mine. I don’t know what else to do, God.<br />
I’m giving Joe back to You.”<br />
Suddenly, I remembered how God had<br />
tested Abraham’s loyalty and love by instructing<br />
him to bring his son, Isaac, to<br />
Mount Moriah and sacrifice him there<br />
(Genesis 22). Abraham didn’t know what<br />
would happen, but he trusted God with<br />
Isaac’s life. So I prayed and told God that I<br />
trusted Him with Joe’s life.<br />
That night, I dreamed I was walking up<br />
a mountain. Everything around me was<br />
dusty; even the rocks were the color of desert<br />
sand. Then I heard a small voice, like a<br />
whisper, saying, “Unto death?”<br />
The question stopped me cold. Who<br />
would be asking that? Surely not God. But<br />
that same small voice asked again, “Unto<br />
death?”<br />
“Yes!” I answered. “Even unto death. I<br />
promise, God; I will never second-guess<br />
You again.” Proverbs 3:5 came to mind:<br />
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and<br />
lean not on your own understanding.”<br />
Suddenly, everything went impenetrably<br />
dark, and then, an internal explosion jolted<br />
through my body. I was buffeted around<br />
like a flag in a hurricane. It was as if every<br />
cell of my body was on fire separately and<br />
simultaneously. I was sure I would die before<br />
I could wake up.<br />
Fighting for my life, I struggled to yell,<br />
and I tried to push Jim, but I couldn’t. I<br />
woke up twisting and moaning. I thought<br />
I wouldn’t be able to stand or walk, but I<br />
had no trouble getting out of bed. I seemed<br />
to be okay. What in the world?<br />
I told Jim we had to go to Urgent Care.<br />
Something was wrong. I wasn’t about to<br />
risk another night like the one I’d just<br />
survived! The doctor, however, couldn’t<br />
find any medical explanation for what had<br />
happened, and, hours later, sent us home.<br />
Jim and<br />
Maureen with<br />
their young<br />
family.<br />
On the way back, the display on my<br />
phone lit up. It said, “Unknown Caller.”<br />
“It’s just a telemarketer,” I thought. “I<br />
won’t answer.” I fumbled to silence the<br />
phone but accidentally answered instead.<br />
A voice asked, “Is this Maureen Hooker?”<br />
“Yes.”<br />
“Are you the mother of Joseph Patrick<br />
Hooker?”<br />
“Yes.” I put the phone on speaker, and<br />
Jim pulled off the road.<br />
An officer identified himself and proceeded<br />
to tell me that my son had called<br />
911 that morning at 10:55 to report a shooting<br />
in his apartment. By the time they got<br />
there, Joe had shot himself. He was gone.<br />
Jim and I sat there, stunned.<br />
It’s hard to describe the pain of the next<br />
few months. Time was suspended in a daily<br />
fog of guilt and self-incrimination. Surely<br />
there was some way I could have prevented<br />
Joe’s death. What if Jim and I had told him<br />
about our family issues instead of avoiding<br />
them? What if we had talked about the<br />
generational gambling in Jim’s family and<br />
the fact that both his father and his grandfather<br />
had committed suicide? What if we’d<br />
explained to Joe why we were so against<br />
his choices. Would my son still be alive?<br />
Months later, I discovered the paperwork<br />
from my urgent care visit. In the havoc that<br />
followed Joe’s death, I had forgotten about<br />
that. Then the words “unto death” came to<br />
mind, and I remembered Proverbs 3:5. I<br />
suddenly remembered the dream and that<br />
strange physical wrestling and pain. Had<br />
I experienced some of the turmoil my son<br />
had been going through that night? Maybe.<br />
I am not sure.<br />
But what I do know is that God spoke<br />
those words and gave me that verse just<br />
hours before my son took his life. “Trust<br />
Me, Maureen,” He was saying, “even though<br />
life is headed in a direction you don’t want<br />
to go. Trust Me, even though you won’t have<br />
all the answers to your questions. Trust Me,<br />
even if this situation ends in death. Lean<br />
into Me, and I will carry you.”<br />
It’s been three years since Joe’s death,<br />
and this momma’s heart still aches for her<br />
son. I continue to question myself, and I<br />
still wrestle with guilt at times. Survivors<br />
of suicide victims often encounter debilitating<br />
guilt for years. But I’ve also given my<br />
questions and guilt to God and, as I trust<br />
Him, He has given me peace and even joy.<br />
What a great exchange! He takes my burdens<br />
and gives my heart and mind rest. He<br />
truly is the Savior of my soul.<br />
You can have rest and be free of guilt,<br />
too. “Come to Me,” Jesus says in Matthew<br />
11:28–29, “And I will give you rest.”<br />
And He will—but the key to God’s rest is<br />
found in Proverbs 3:5—trusting God, His<br />
love, His heart, and His plan for you and<br />
your loved ones—even “unto death.”<br />
The faithful love of God will not fail you.<br />
MAUREEN HOOKER is a mother, wife, and<br />
friend. She is a heart transplant recipient who is<br />
living proof that miracles do happen. She would be<br />
eternally grateful to the Lord Jesus Christ if what is<br />
written here can benefit someone else.<br />
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GOING DEEPER:<br />
Trust Your Creator<br />
All Scripture referenced here is from the New Living Translation.<br />
Every author in this issue had a choice—<br />
they could continue to struggle down a path<br />
destined for chaos, confusion, and destruction<br />
or surrender their lives and circumstances<br />
to the Lord and trust Him to work<br />
out the details. As you’ve read, each author<br />
trusted God’s love and His plan, and God<br />
made a way through every trial.<br />
What do you need to surrender to God?<br />
What do you need to overcome? Have your<br />
best efforts and thinking failed you? Identify<br />
some situations where you struggle to give<br />
God control:<br />
1.<br />
2.<br />
3.<br />
Friends, we cannot solve our problems,<br />
change our attitudes, beat our addictions,<br />
or turn from our old lifestyles on our own.<br />
We need God’s help. That’s why He sent His<br />
Son. Believing in Jesus’s work on the cross<br />
not only secures our eternal salvation but<br />
ensures our earthly victories too.<br />
Grab your Bible, pen, and notebook, and<br />
let’s take a deep look into the following<br />
scriptures:<br />
Deuteronomy 31:8<br />
Joshua 1:9<br />
Psalms 9:10, 28:7, 34:17–18, 37:5,<br />
55:22, 56:3, 112:7<br />
Proverbs 3:5–6, 18:10<br />
Isaiah 26:3–4, 41:10<br />
Jeremiah 17:7–8<br />
Matthew 6:25–34<br />
2 Corinthians 12:9<br />
Philippians 4:6–7<br />
Hebrews 4:16<br />
1 Peter 5:7<br />
2 Timothy 1:7<br />
Write these scriptures down and focus on<br />
their promises. For example, did you see in<br />
Deuteronomy 31:8, that God promises to personally<br />
go ahead of you, to be with you, and<br />
to never fail or abandon you? Commit these<br />
promises to memory. Ask God to write them<br />
on your heart. That way, you can recall them<br />
in times of trouble. They will be life to you.<br />
When you understand how insufficient you<br />
are apart from God and surrender your life to<br />
Him, He’ll begin a transformation process in<br />
your heart and mind. He’ll make you an overcomer<br />
in every situation (Romans 8:37).<br />
DO YOU NEED REST?<br />
“Come to me, all you who are<br />
weary and burdened, and I will<br />
give you rest.” –Matthew 11:28<br />
Jared Emerson, Artist, jaredemerson.com<br />
Do you need rest? Peace? Freedom? Forgiveness? Restoration?<br />
Call out to Jesus, accept Him as your Savior, and be made whole.<br />
Pray: “Jesus, I invite You into my life. I confess that I am a sinner in<br />
need of a Savior. Thank You for saving me from my sins and making<br />
me whole. Thank You for laying down Your life for me so that I can<br />
have a new life in You. I receive, by faith, this forgiveness of sin. Take<br />
my life, my past and my future. Guide my steps and speak to my<br />
heart, Lord. Use me, God. Amen.”<br />
Let us know of your decision so we can help you grow in your faith.<br />
Write to: <strong>VL</strong> Correspondence, PO Box 2751, Greenville, NC 27836.<br />
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WHAT NOW?<br />
I’ve Accepted God’s Salvation.<br />
Now What?<br />
PERHAPS AFTER READING the stories in this magazine, you’ve surrendered your life to<br />
Jesus. Congratulations—it’s the most important decision you will ever make! But you might<br />
be wondering, now what? Here are five ways to ensure spiritual growth. Remember, the<br />
Christian life is a journey that brings lifelong transformation.<br />
1. PRAY. Talk to God about everything and listen for His response. You don’t need fancy<br />
words, just a sincere heart.<br />
2. STUDY THE BIBLE. God’s Word contains all the instructions we need for life. Get into<br />
a Bible study and discover new revelations daily. See below for free resources.<br />
3. GET BAPTIZED. Although baptism is not a requirement of salvation, the Bible<br />
clearly tells us that we are to be water baptized after salvation. Baptism symbolizes<br />
our dying to sin and being raised to a new life in Christ Jesus (Romans 6:4). Prison<br />
restrictions may make immersion by water difficult, so get creative and let the Holy<br />
Spirit reveal how you can take this step of obedience until immersion is possible.<br />
4. FIND CHRISTIAN COMMUNITY. Join a local congregation of Christ-followers. If<br />
incarceration makes attending church difficult, fellowship with other believers the<br />
best you can. They will help you stand strong and keep you accountable.<br />
5. TELL SOMEONE. Share your decision to follow Christ and tell them what He has<br />
done for you. And then, tell us! We’d love to hear from you.<br />
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